school wasnt good at all.
my common test results wasnt good.
problems start coming up.
and it really sucks being stucked in between.
its so hard to satisfy everyone around me.

the number of problems i have.
and being a good friend means youre besties will be sharing their troubles with you.
is it like so difficult to stay PEACEFUL?
i'm tired of all these.
but theres no way i can avoid them.
problems just kept coming.... and coming..
when will everything be resolved?
i need a good rest someday..

pesta sukan round 2!
we'll be meeting, STC,SNG,Damai,Riverside & Westwood.
and hopefully, if nothing goes wrong, we'll make it FAR!
Bdiv Jiayou!
another PESS carnival during the Sept Hol.
this time without the help of Germaine & Fangyi.
we've got to tresure our chances then!

sad to say, it has come to a point where,
the more i see him, the more i miss him.
feelings like history, do not fade with time.
87more days.
and i'm still waiting.
but at the same time, doing good(:

the time will come, SOON.

i'm happy(:
shuaige! shuaige!
i'm so **HIGHHH** now! lols.
motivation! motivation!
gogogo! 90more days!
i love him! hehe

its hard for me to stop!
off to bed now! tata!
91more days in 5 mins time.

Pesta Sukan 2006- First Round!

i woke up at 5.15am! & took 196 to Kallnag Netball Centre.
on the way.. Germaine and Fangyi boarded the bus!
and good thing they boarded the bus.
if not i'll be in the bus all alone.lols.
cheechin couldnt make it on time. so didnt meet in the end.

Warmup.. blah blah.
and that grey CAT?! omg! lols.
was said to be owned by netball singapore? haha
alright, so me fangyi and germaine were uhemmm.
a little over-reacting. but we acted brave.haha

so i played WA for the first game against serangoon gardens
and we actually lead like 10 goals to nil in the 1st half
but guess what? they restarted the whole game!
due to some mistakes in the fixtures?
so shitty! so we had to restart the game!
and we didnt do as well as the previous one lah.
cus we conceded goals.
so there was one ball me & mas tried to intercept.
none of us communicated lah!
so eventually we CLASHED.
and she was hugging me! lols.
baluku on my head now! (:
but the pain went off after some time!
the eyes of the serangoon garden's bdiv players
tells it all, how much they wanted to revenge for their cdiv team.
we won 15-2 for the first game.
after our game was our juniors and their bdiv.
they worked damn hard. and they won serangoon gardens!
(: woohoo!

Jurong West A, probably their Cdiv team.
we won again. but i forgot whats the score!
next next! Geylang Methodist!
the match that 'woke' us up.
i just felt that the first two games were too slack-ish.
so when we meet a tougher opponent, theres no momentum kinda thing.
lols, so we drew with them in the end.
i was like totally BLUR on court.
and i admit this is the FIRST ever time in my netball life.
that i've been so BLURRED.
i thought i was a Wing Defence instead of a Wing Attack.
so i went to the wrong side of the court!
can u actually believe that?
and i wasnt doing my part as a Wing Attack lah!
i actually had an unecessary untouched centre pass!
which is like so stupid of me!
darn. my performance was totally crap.
so my coach talked to me after that match.
yes, i think its my damn attitude towards netball.
i wanna play for the team.
and i'll work on that!

Next match!! GuangYang!
we were playing well in the game lah!
and ms solastri said it was entertaining.haha
i went in only in the 2nd half.
and i was very very tired!
cus its like i couldnt breathe,
and the more i try to breathe, the mucus keep coming out.
haha, so its like. i have to *sniff**sniff*
but we won!i forgot what score! haha

last and the most important match.
its either we win it, or we're out.
everybody wants to win.
we just wanna see the result of winning.
but this midset made us neglect our normal court play.
and we wanted to get the easiest way to get the ball into melissa's hands.
that almost cost us the game.
ALMOST. but we did pick up towards the end of the match.
and we won 7-5.
perhaps.. its just better to play our normal game.
outram came close.we had alternate goals in the first half.
but we caught up in the end.

however, coach wasnt very happy about it.
he thinks that we're thinking of WINNING too much.
so.. despite drawing with Geylang Methodist,
we still topped the table and proceeded to the second round base on goal differences.
it will be played next sat! but this time, the opponents will be much much tougher.
we'll work hard(:

GO B'DIV!

i remembered the pesta sukan last year.
we lost to weaker teams and won the best team.
Outram, and we got a scolding for winning them.
we didnt make it to the second round last year.
but definitely, last year was much tougher and mroe tiring.
and i still miss the old bdiv team!
this year's team, i think theres still a long way to go!

Melissa was great today!! her shots are damn accurate,
she tried something new on court!
and i'm so proud of her!
(:
not only her,
EVERYONE was great.

fangyi,germaine,siewhong,michelle,meiyun,cheechin,mas,nurul,rafidah,charmaine,gina,yuduan,
carol,erin,huixian,meijun,melissa,ms solastri,mrs jacob,mr teh.
and me? haha!
not forgetting the girl on mc, Yvonne!though she wasn't here today.

a week more to train! JIAYOU!(:

school was bad today!
i went to school looking very sleepy, lethargic & almost dying.
i was really tired!
and i dont have a choice but to go to school,
because there is chem commontest today.
and its not possible to give it a miss.
last training before sat's pesta sukan!
i couldnt stop myself from dozing off a lil during ms leong's period.
but i tried my best not to sleep!
so basically, the whole day i've been restless, looking bored & tired.
i dont know if i've been like that everyday.
but today was one of the worst. because i couldnt really concentrate!
only till we ended maths, i became "more-to-life"!
his smile melted my heart! (:

chem test after school.
quite similar to the pretest!
and i guess i flunked it as well..
hmm. went to collect my copper(2)sulphate crystals! (:
went for training after that.

oh anw, the lions didnt make it yesterday..
a 94th min penalty by Shao Jiayi cost the game.
they might have survived & done well in that 90mins.
but what a wasted chance?
but dont worry, they'll make a comeback in the 2nd leg!
gogogo!(:

for my own,
TANGLIN NETBALL GOGOGO!
sat is the day(:
but only for 2hrs?! ARGH.
2nd round played on the following sat!
probably cus there are too many teams.
both B & C div, JIAYOU!

94 more days to go!

oh no! after a packet of Jack & Jill's Roasted Wings flavour Potato Chips,
i can feel that i'm starting to feel unwell!
sore throat, flu. NO!!
not at this point of time, with Pesta Sukan and common test round the corner?
i better recover fast!
no time to waste!!!

Jingying!
i remember okay!
King Nathan Can Make Aeroplanes ZOOM from S'pore Past Holland Crushing Holland and Aussie people! haha!

i need my motivation for the carnival(:
95 more days to go.

As requested by Jingying & Stacey, i shall do this quiz. (:

Seven random facts about me:

1. i'm short and heavy -.-"
2. this is my 5th year in netball!
3. suddenly, i like orange!
4. i can be quiet yet VERY noisy at times. haha
5. i'm slow in everything! haha
6. my studies CMI(cannot make it)
7. ALL Chlorides are soluble except Silver & Lead()
remember me, CSL! (:


Seven things that scare me:

1. first on the list, CATS!
2. stalkers!
3. anything i find disgusting.
4. all the stress! exams and tests! oh no!
5. DYING!
6. people trying to hurt themselves over small small matters!
7. JINGYING! haha.


Seven bad habits:

1. Lazi-ness
2. My "dunnoe"s & "anything"s
3. a little Attitude Problem sometimes! or isit major? lols
4. once start, cannot stop.
5. don't care!
6. i always over-eat!
7. i dont reply unimportant smses.


Seven victims:

1. WEIQIAN! its you!
2. Amanda...
3. Joelle!
4. Kamrun!
5. JiaHui!
6. Fatin!
7. WenQi!

school started quite bad.
cus i had trouble sleeping last night.
and i'm very very tired!
the first lesson was chinese.
and actuallyit wasnt that bad afterall,
cus i'm all entertained by what Mr Mah said.
the new** Super-Bang. haha.
and that the hotline is on for 24hrs.
and that he may want to hire a hundred or a thousand to help him call the hotline.
haha! and that kept me entertained for the whole day lah!
maths! Y is a Fuction of x!
since the y value is dependent on the x value.
so i can say i'm a fuction of my mother?? lols
opps, i'm crapping !
english was worst, and whatever ms solastri said..
just makes me feel STRESS being in 3e1.
we're just expected to do much much more work than any other class.
just because we're in 3e1!
and commontest is coming! oh no!
pesta sukan this sat! oh no x2! lols
i better spend some time mugging before i screw the papers.
we took height and weight during P.E!
i didnt grow! still 156. still 47kg. i've stopped growing vertically.sad.
bio test was crappy! i think just a border line pass.
although liverpool won, but ms chu still gave us the test.lols.
dr lau not here today! mrs sulaiman took over!
1 period was damn boring lah.
Chem, which i thought would turn out even more boring!
turn out quite okay. cus i did try to understand what mdm heng was trying to explain.
haha. and i didnt sleep! woohooo~ though hamimah and i was like counting down.
but turned out quite fun actually (:
trigo test will be a disaster lah!
die already.no need to worry, cus there will be a RE-test! haha!

after school went to KFC with my 2 complicated love partners & mich.
and we have concluded that in TSS,
not only there is a decline in the academic results over the years.
but..
[1] the chiobus has become lesser and lesser every year.
[2] the girls now are straight forward!
[3] boys are now shorter
haha! and we're still working on it(:

isham and i was talking about relationship, when i asked him about his expectations(requirements) of his ideal girl.

::: just me and my silhouette ::: once a dog,always a dog [ hoo! hoo! hoo! ] says:
u think i buying products huh..
::: just me and my silhouette ::: once a dog,always a dog [ hoo! hoo! hoo! ] says:
should have 5-year warranty...100% satisfaction..
Shilin; ]: Chasing thoughts from a million miles away says:
haha
::: just me and my silhouette ::: once a dog,always a dog [ hoo! hoo! hoo! ] says:
can be repaired and can be USED
Shilin; ]: Chasing thoughts from a million miles away says:
no lah.. maybe u wan someone who ermm.. has a good character?
Shilin; ]: Chasing thoughts from a million miles away says:
diff people diff taste mah
::: just me and my silhouette ::: once a dog,always a dog [ hoo! hoo! hoo! ] says:
yeah..perhaps..character and looks would be a bonus

copycat! haha. cus i feel the same!(:


97 days!=]
ilu very very much! (:

all of the sudden.
when i woke up from my sleep..
i just started to miss him very much.
i dont know why.

(: yup, i'm counting down to the 20nov!
i got do hwk one okay. lols.
the end of Olvls!
yes, i'm waiting.
haha, i hope i can survive through this 3 months .
i mean.. of cus i will. and i must. and i can! haha.


& i'll always love him.

hey! i'm here to post up the pics for the Shining Red Dot!
{click to view full-image size}
and some class thingy.
first, the class tshirt!


next! on the competition day itself..

me & little boy! LOLS

"HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!"

me with that orange lolli! haha

1,2,3!! (: i stuffed the lollipop inside my mouth.

my class! (:

and we go.... ANTI-BULLDOG!
i love 3E1!<3

i'm officially countdown-ing the days my bro is going for NS!
i mean its less than a month!!
haha! by then, no one would control me.
but somehow, i think i'll miss his naggings too.

and 20Nov! the end of o lvls.
weijian! my treat if he scores less than 15points!
haha, i'm waiting! and if i do well for EOY!
another treat. mwahahaha.
he taught me trigo like over msn.
haha. thanks so much man!

i'm good today!!
almost couldnt wake myself up for training today.
but in the end i still did manage to pull myself out of bed.
afterall, today was an important training.
i slept quite late last night.
1/2 asleep, 1/2 waiting ..

10rounds around court(field was closed!)
ball handling, variation passes,BOX!
the Running Box was tiring!
so the MI netballers started streaming in.
we did some court play before starting the game.

i only played in the last 2 quarts. C & WD.
i was underperforming today lah.
although no one said much abt it.
but i know i am not doing well!
but we did win in the end, with the score of 35-15.
and next week is Pesta Sukan!
we'll be meeting.. Outram,Jurong West, Guang Yang, Serangoon Gardens,Geylang Methodist.
yup, this 5 schools. i hope it won't be a problem for us to pass the first round!
and hopefully, we'll make it through to the last four! (:
haha,i'm so looking forward to it!
tensed up? its very competitve in this team.
aww, please. buck up our get out!
(sorry, i was just trying to talk to myself! haha)
and... exams are coming too! awwww.

me & my twinkle twinkle partner(Fang Yi).
had just created my NEW* imaginary boyfriend! haha

TODAY! 12aug. also known as SHUAIGE DAY!
reason is simple, cus on the same date last year..
there was alot of shuai ges during that match day.
i was still single last year.haha..
so this year,there wasn't any match. which is sad luh!
actually there is, just that its at hongkong.haha
so yup, my one & only shuai ge today.
is HIM! (:


oh anyway, i did something quite suprising today.
haha, opps. but i feel so much better after saying it though.
i'll see how it goes. MUG hard for those taking 'O's.

ilu!

How to make a Shilin

Ingredients: 1 part jealousy 5 parts ambition 3 parts joy

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add lustfulness to taste! Do not overindulge!

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

as getting a little bored just now and came across this.

cute eh? (:

aww man. i dont know what is wrong with me now.

i'm feeling very sian.

training tmr, a game with MI,

guess i'll be heading home after that.

i'm tired. but i can't sleep.

what should i go for tomorrow??

wah, i better buck up tmr.

i better not be like this tmr.

if not during the game, i'll suffer.

perhaps, i need a goooodd loonnnngg break from all these shits.

argh, i'll be back soon(:

in the meanwhile, tkare people.

Happy 41st Birthday Singapore!

yup, once again its the 9th aug.
the last year that we celebrate national day in the national stadium.
(:
and it will be transformed into a sports hub in 5 years time.
and from tmr till sat there will be fireworks! woohoo~
i was slacking at home for like the whole of today.
and i'm getting a little sick of home.
but i dun wanna hang out either.
aww. i slept like 1/2 of the day.
slacked the other half.
and i'm still tired!!
darn..

anyhoos, josh will be back on fri!
finally! lols. and yup, the class has been waiting..

i've got the pics from cab.
will upload to my pic album later.
cus the pics are over at the other com.

darn, so many people commented about the little girl role.
damn paiseh can? lols!

oh whatever.

wore BLACK class tshirt to school today(:
marlyn got me that BIG orange lollipop!
and the first part of the National Day celebration was pure boring.
but the 2nd part was fun!
we went to get ready for the shining red dot.
and i've mentioned about my role in the shining red dot before.
and yup, no one could hear what i was saying.
i'm sorry. but overall,excluding my part. i think we did WELL!
so yup, 3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for 3E1!
hip hip HOORAYY!!
so eventually we WON! wee~
the singing part was great too.
our whole class hold hand in hands with the songs.
swaying side by side! aww, thats like so nice!
so after that, we went to take some class pictures.

BOO-dog? lols (bulldog) wasn't very happy about our BLACK class shirt.
aww, i mean we're the only class in the whole school that wore BLACK!
and again, the issue of being the best sec3 class behaving this way comes in again.
so we're like the watermelon seeds in the watermelon! haha.
Boo-Dog started nagging again and again.
she talked about how insensitive we can be,
and even pulled mdm heng into the picture.
and we have to perform to qifa student without the raping part and stuffs.
i mean, thats the main point. thats what is entertaining.
so some of us started singing with the music while she was talking.
her sags and her. BLAH BLAH BLAH.
and we've got a cheer for her! LOLS.

had training! okay, i dont call it training cus its not tiring! haha.
just did some normal stuffs. and then me fangyi and mich went to ps to catch..
"My Super Ex-Girlfriend" it is a very simple, supernatural, funny movie!
haha, i couldnt stop laughing at some parts.
thanks to fangyi!! (:
relationships and stuffs..
i would rate it 4/5 cus its very entertaining.
and the only difference at Grand Cathay is that.
the Sits are more suitable for couples.
cus the armrest is quite low. lols.

after that went for the wake.
was busy folding Hearts.
i mean those paper hearts.
yup, i'm glad to see joshua is alright.
hopefully he isnt acting.
hes still not back to what he used to be.
but somewhere there. which i hope he'll be able to pick himself up soon(:
tkare BRO!

i'm TIRED after bathing..

yups, i have thoughts running through my mind too.
i dont know what i want now...
hais. i dun give a damn anymore k? darn.

okay, sleeping now!

tata!

school was alright today(:
after school we had NDP rehersal again.
Shining Red Dot again.
and are we going to SHINE again?
hopefully we'll grab the champs agan(:
there are like 10 grp and we're the 10th group.
cus our performance is like 10mins.
and ME, asked to be the little girl.
had no choice but to act like a girl?
with that TWO pony tails.
aww, so paiseh today!
cus many people must be talking about it.
plus.... some even game me nicknames.
darn, lols. and worst still, he saw it.
lols, paiseh paiseh.
just hope my capillaries dont move towards the surface of the skin tomorrow.
(you would understand if you did listen to ms chu for BIO CLASS!)
haha alright! anw, i guess we're the best group.
all the props well done. costumes well done. and overall its GREAT!
and i love 3E1! woohoo~!
oh yes! we went to Queensway to get our class tshirt.
its VERY COOL.
and it says.. a class of ______(you name it)!
woohoo, i guess everyone loves the class shirt.
and i like the 3e1 print which is in GOLD colour! but just a little small.
oh, i'm so in love with 3e1!
HARD GAY THOMAS
GU NIANG CLEMENT! all of them are SO CUTE!

and during classes, i feel the absence of josh. i miss him in sch!
we're waitin for you to be back (:

sigh, despite all these shits that happened. i still miss him alot.

is it really so difficult to gain back his trust?
cus its like no matter how i try.
it didnt suceed.
not ONCE. and while i'm still working on it.
something i said had brought the trust level back to ZER0 again.
now that it alr happened.
i must think before i say next time.
i MUST get my reward soon.
I DUN CARE!!! =(
cus its getting colder again.

i've got this feeling you're not gonna stay.
the fear of losing,of sliping away.
keeps getting closer.

i guess.. we're going back to what we used to be like.
(the recent ones). darn..
i dont want the same old things to happen again.
and the same old feelings of being hurt again.
& i'm longing to go back to those sweet days(:

the gift of love is all around us.
sometimes i feel i'm all alone,
no one to really care.
but when we look all around our world,
we know that love is there!

i'm gonna try to gain back whatever i've lost.
(: wish me luck people!

FRIENDS are like gardens.
the more you put into it, the more you get out of it!
(: looks like those problems are still there.
whoever is having problems,find someone trustable to talk to.
not unless you tell them, you'll never know how much they can help!(:

i'm sorry for not being there when you needed someone to talk to.
yes, i felt guilty.
and real bad. i'm left helpless.
he msged me just now,
or rather this morning.
and asked if i'm alright.
all i can do is to encourage him and stuffs like that.
he said he was grateful to have a good friend like me.
and i ask myself if i had treated him the same.
and all he wanted was forgiveness from me,
for calling me names.and he said it meant alot to him.
hes gotta be strong.
the class is waiting for his return.
3e1 will be supporting and encouraging through this tough period!

SUPERBAND finals!
me and siewhong supported all the groups.
for me, its because all my fav teams are eliminated. aww.
we were totally *HIGH*!
and the music was GREAT, the bands were great too.
something that left a deep impression was J3's Xiao wei.
so sweet and nice! i love that if my boyfriend could sing it to me! haha.
Soul was great TOO! (: their RnB xiao wei.
in fact, all the Xiao Weis were nice lah.
but i like J3's best.
the other individual songs i tink lucify were doing better
milobing is good becus they got cute acts in between.
so we just basically went CRAZY.
cus we're like shouting for all the bands.
and we're like standing in betweem Soul and Milobing.
so when either is singing. we just wave the lightsticks!
its quite fun! so eventually.
after all our shoutings&screamings, now i got sore throat alr!
the two teams who proceeded to the second round was MLB and Soul.
i thought Soul will win! but in the end.. MLB WON! aww.
they pattern more than badminton, but they know hoe to capture audience's attention.which i think is goood! haha
nvm, at least.. got nto the Finals.
so the rest of the eliminated teams performed too!
QINOBE and JUZ-B!!!
glamours? NIU NAI!!
woohoo! and this "meng huan yue tuan"
i got very HIGH lah.lols

and its hard for me not to miss you alr!
shits. i'm tired
I MISS YOU!(:

school was good.
cus i have STOPPED sleeping in class anymore (:
hooray! but whether i'm actually paying attention, its another question!
at least i tried to stay awake, despite those boring lessons okay!
i did make an effort to. yup, thanks to my motivation!

well, i got kinda stressed nowadays.
i got quite pissed off over the shining red dot thing.
haha, and my studies..
i've lost interest in talking.
oh dear... what the hell is wrong with me?

i'm gonna train up my stamina tmr,
attend lilian leong's hist class ,
and go back home to change for superband finals at night.

i've been quite low lately.
and i dont know why!(:

SHOUTOUTS:

Jityong: i dont know if you'll be reading this, but thanks for your help today! i've learnt something new. plus plus. please handle cup with care for your foot next time (: tkare my friend.
anyway, can you like.. ermm. change your slogan soon? HAHA.

Jingying: Laogong! i might not be able to understand totally what you've been through, but dont worry, i'll be here to listen to you all the times. but you turn out really scary sometimes. and i'm kinda scared too! haha. oh wells, whatever it is. do what is most impt for you.

Michelle: YES! please be careful with your leg next time.its like the third time u injured ur leg, just that its diff part.lols. aiyo. why at this time? pesta sukan you know!?! lols. dont worry lah, just recover fast and hope you'll be back in Netball soon. tkares.

Amanda: Love dont wait for you. either one make love happens. go for whatever you want. its worth a try. no regrets! (: i'll be behind you whatever you do! i understand how hard it is, NOT to miss him! i've been through that! haha

and its finally my turn to say, i miss him(:

i was kinda sad yesterday.
because everyone treated me the same.
if money could change the fact. if money could heal the wound in my heart.
the toughest days, i pulled it through.
what more do i expect from myself?
i've been strong, i know i am (:
is money EVERYTHING?

i skipped one SS/HY lesson last thur.
and somehow, ms solastri got to know about this.
yes, i went with her on my own accord.
i'm not blaming anyone but myself for this.
if one day, i really get kicked out of netball.
who else can i blame?
i must know the consequences of whatever i do from now on.
i still wanna play for the team, i wanna represent the school.
i wanna play for myself.
captainship to me is no longer a problem.
i rather they choose someone more capable of doing the job well.
than me, who has been causing trouble for myself and the team.
how can my tchers, my coach and my teammates trust me?
i never had the ability of leading the team well.
whatever it is. 've given the oppotunity.
but i've RUINED it.
i've left a bad impression.
how can i ever suceed?

you guys might be joking.
but you know me, when i'm not in the mood, i take everything seriously!
so they eventuallly "ganged" up against me.
trying to ignore me when i talk to them.
make a mockery out of it, because i am sitting alone and had no one to talk to.
so after awhile i got angry, and started to ignore them as well.

i'm sorry! but i really didnt check my phone during that time.
but that doesnt mean that i dont wanna msg right!
aww, cummon.

my world has turned upside down.
and i was almost on the verge of breaking down yesterday during training.
i took the circuit training to vent my anger on.
the usual noisy me during training has become a quiet and emotional me.
yes, it was awkward. but i really wasnt in e mood.

well. i havent been doing well in school either.
its time to catch up some work.
before its too late.
and before Common Tests comes like freaking fast.
shits. i tell you, i'm gonna screw it real bad this time round.
so i better buck up!
and i haven been sleeping in class!
isnt that great? (not trying to be sarcastic).
cus i've got my motivation pushing me (:

i'm the Little Girl in our 3e1 production shining red dot!
and damn shit. i'm that little girl.
who needs to tie 2 pony tails with a lollipop.
that might sound CUTE to you.
but if u see me doing it, i think you'll probably puke.
whens the last time i had 2 pony tails? haha
(: i love school! but its long and boring at times =(

I got tagged to do this.Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you.
In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names.
No tag backs.
1. my heart obviously cant work well with my mouth.
2. i say lols/haha when i have nothing else to say.
3. i talk no sense.!@#$%^%^&
4. i sleep longer than any other people!
5. im a crapper, and usually craps after 12am.
6. i sleep with my pillow and bolster flying anywhere in the middle of the night!

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Do the following without complaining.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she has been tagged.

FAVOURITES:
color: balck & white!
food: mumm's cooking!
song: too many to name.
movie: any horror movies except! the Omen
sport: Netball!
day of the week: NONE?
season: winter!
ice-cream: chocoloate!

CURRENT:
mood: happy(:
taste: tasteless.
clothes: shirt, shorts
desktop: anime(shinigami)
time: 8.39pm
surroundings: in my room.
annoyance: Dr Lau! @#$%^&*
thoughts: pon school! (:

FIRSTS:
best friend: Rachel Tina Teo! my P1 good friend (: i saw her recently!
crush: Simping i think.
movie: ermmmm. money not enough?
lie: cant remember!
music: backstreetboys!!

LASTS:
cigarette: none!
drink: a few months ago.
ride: just.
crush: crush-less.
movie: pirates of the caribbean!
phone call: mummy!
CD: forgot(:

HAVE YOU EVER:
dated one of your best friends: nah.
been arrested: not yet
skinny-dipped: nnahh..
been on tv: yes!(:
kissed someone you don't know: never!

THINGS:
4 things you did today: go to school, miss him,do homework and eat!
4 sounds you can hear right now: song from this com,tv,the sound of me typing, MSN!
the Chosen Five to do this!
1. JINGYING!
2. WEIQIAN!
3. XIUTING!
4. STACEY!
5. AMANDA((:

the NDP preview was GREAT!
we went so *high*! (:
lols. yup, its our very last celebration at the national stadium.
and the performance was quite good.
except some mistakes by the ppl, which cannot be blamed.
its just a rehersal anyway.
the funniest part is when Mr SR Nathan actually bleach-ed to become a CHINESE?
ohh, yes. the pirated version of Mr Nathan!
we were asked to sing the national anthem and take the pledge.
i dont know why, but i just feel so proud to be a singaporean!
the fireworks was ALOT lah.
but good and nice! just that my neck sort of twisted! haha
cus the fireworks is like behind us.
overall, it was kinda short but Fab.
it had been like 4 yrs since i last caught the preview.
so after the preview, we went to suntec. the toilet! (:
" Who Am I? Who Am I?, I'm Hongkong's big old robber"
directly translated from chinese.
our joke of the day. and yeah! i did enjoy myself.
another joke of the day was Fangyi!! laugh until fall down! haha.
we were talking about storing bubble tea pearls as breasts for 16 years!
haha, opps. this is totally crap! (:

NDP PICTURES

i still love my old team!(:

anyhoos,we're be playing against MI on the 12 aug!
shuai ge day! (: luck luck!
and pesta sukan is round the corner!

we got back(:

another sleepless night.

HAIZ.

deep down, it hurts so much.

the trip was FUN!!
you would agree with me if you were there!
the front part was quite boring.
cus i UNGLAMED myself again in the bus on our way there.
aww, X 3 already.
so i slept and wasnt even listening to edward.
but after that, i got quite high.
during the return trip i was at the HIGHEST.
cus i couldnt stop laughing. mwahahaha.
aarti, you know why!
something i've learnt ytd, the ferry chair SPOILED.
(: so we started laughing and eventually couldnt stop!
edward says" i talk about terrorists you also laugh"
we continued laughing non-stop!
lols! then we climbed up to the upper deck for some pictures.
and then went down again.
the ferry was actually pretty cool.
cus got MUSIC! (:
and we took like 45mins-1Hr for the ferry ride.
quite relaxing! (:

TODAY.
yes, i saw something disturbing again.
dont ask me why i am so observant.
but Scorpios are bornt to be over-suspicious and we get jealous very very easily!
i admit!
Overview:How can you have a life if you spend all your time worrying about what might happen? Courage is just fear that has a sense of faith. Acknowledge all your worries and then resolve to move forward anyway.
how do i move on?
with or without?
i hate thinking of this. but it cant be avoided sometimes.
am i happy with you? can i be happy without you?
it will be tough, but whatever decision i make, i hope its good for me & you.
another thing, i'm afraid.. i might regret later.
theres so much to think about .
its a tough decision to make.
love me? or are you just toying me?
treasure? or treat me like trash?
why should i think of you, when you dont?
maybe i should just let it go.

sorry guys, will blog again tmr.
to talk about the trip.
it was Great!
for people who needs the picture,
HERE

anw, today is VICTORIA's BIRTHDAY!!
happy birthday girl(:
enjoy yourself! and see you during tchers day!

ytd.went queensway with jingying.
was supposed to order the class tshirt, in the end, the design wasnt properly done.
so didnt go to the shop. instead, we went to eat laksa.
and due to my cough, made me so unglam.
i was coughing like hell. and i can imagine how people look at me!
darn, i was coughing and tearing at the same time, so can you imagine? lols.
so jingying got me a bottle of mineral water!
thanks laogong!(:
then we suggested to go Lot1.
off we go!
we took some pics on our way to Commonwealth mrt.





walked around Lot1 and jingying went gaga over the great mega $10 sale at icelemontee.
yup, and i went crazy over the japanese series, "Jin Tian Yi"
damn, its like M18!
but i must get ti! mwahahah.
anyhoos, besides just walking, we were looking at guys who looked like shawn.
and i hate them, cus they look like shawn but it isnt SHAWN!
aww, lols.
so we went to get bread! lols.
yes, BREADTALK! and guess what we found?
FLOSS BAG? lols
looks real okay!

i'm hungry now. *swallows saliva*

yet its another crucial match for both teams fighthing for the top.
it has been like years since i caught a match LIVE*.
and yup, the feeling was great.
i must admit that the Warriors gave in a better game, from what i've seen.
though Kenji did not play.
and Shahril Jantan got a red card.
but the yg lion's NEVER SAY DIE spirit is smth that i must mention!
though they ended up in a 1-0 loss, i guess.. they tried their best.
shahril was the captain. Bai is playing. over at the other side are,
John Wilkinson,Shaiful Esah & Norazmi(subbed in after Shahril Jantan got an red card)
which means.. all my 5 favourites are playing (: woohoo~. i was over the moon!
and i longed for this moment for very long!
and wonder when will be the next time it will happen?
and actually, i was in a dillema , cus i couldnt make up my mind,
on who to support! hehe.
but John's goal was fabulous i must say!

Its my first time watching Norazmi play! and probably the last?
he've been benched for so long, and he needs to exercise!
except that his kicks are not that accurate.
the rest are good (:

Probably i'll have to wait for a long time again,
to catch another sleague match.
aww, i want yg lions to win!

one of the shots(:
lazy to upload!

one of my juniors actually confronted me and asked if i like weilun?
HAHA! this is stupid. its some Saturday incident that happened during training.
Faliq was with Weilun, and you know... when he walk pass, some of my teammates try to hint hint* and he dao-ed me! lols. didnt even take a glance! so sad =( haha
someone passed the news here and there. and ended up getting the wrong news!
haha, argh, who cares.
i guess the whole netball team knows it alr!
so paiseh!

argh, was suppose to conference with Zikun & Simping!
but due to the large amount of hwk.
didnt talk to them!
and even if i did, i would feel extra! haha.
and i haven really talk to any guy on the phone since...

anw,i got to go now!
tkare people(:

i damn miss him :]
oh yes, i got attracted by him today! haha.

my damn cough is getting worst.
and i woke up like 2am in the morning, cus i kept coughing! arrgghh.
today is racial harmony!
woohoo~ haha.
oh yes, AMANDA, its raicial harmony today(:
i specially blod your name so that you can see.
maybe you should stop being racist! haha
afterall, i didnt get INFLUENCED by you!

school is always good without Dr Lau.
hmm, except that.. we got caught , trying to pon class.
bad girls!
slacked in class, had history test on Stalin.
Maths Matrices test.
and off we go to the Racial Harmony "celebration"?
i only remember "pop ye yeh!" lols.
this malay song. quite cool though.

isham mikhail & for today, JOSHUA! are childish!
we were so unlucky to be sitting infront of them.
so yup, they ji siao-ed abit here and there.
and they claimed they didnt do it.
you know.. those pri sch days.. aww. lols.

played netball. then went back home!
he called, i attitude-ed, he hanged.
he called again, he accused, i denied, he hanged.
he msg, i replied,trying to denied. he dont believe. i prove.
he still dont believe.
i'm SAD! for being accused.
damn...

but yet at the same time, i freaking miss him!

aiya, i dont know what the heck i'm feeling right now.
i've fucking lost my motivation, and i have to find it back.
before i get kicked out of the team.
i've been slacking throughout today's training.
damn it.

sad? or happy(:?
i dont know! all i know.. life still has to go ON!

anw, didnt attend sch ytd.
and i bet solastri will be saying things abt me.
i'm nice enough to be back to pass edouard his wks, becus i'm holding on to it okay!
and she say till i like pon sch.
i've got an MC and medicine okay!

so sch was alright today. but was tiring lah!
i took 11pills ytd and today.
overdosage. DIE!
i dont give a damn actually.
i even ate chocos to relieve "stress"?
haha.

anw, our class won the most profitable & best publicity award.
we were thinking of getting the most innovative award though!
hmm. wells, anw GOOD JOB 3E1!

my heart and mind can't work together.
my heart stops me from doing anything my mind asked me to.

i need to get my motivation back soon.

and at the end of this post, its my turn to say HAIS.

hate me.

Happy 16th Birthday, PEISHI (:

went queensway to collect the micro-tee & get peishi's present from ikea.
on our way there, we made new friends?
haha.
"why u keep looking at me?"
"cus u handsome what!"
"den ask number la!"
lols.damn funny. anw,hes some sec2 malay guy who is in soccer from jintai.
who claims to be better than our sch. lols, so we kinda go according to them.
and agreed that they are better. so funny!

we hang there for quite sometime.
got the netball net, and we ATE alot! omg.

okay, i suck.HAPPY?!
damn you! damn you!
i'm just trying to act infront of you?
UNDERSTAND??!

freaking pissed off. damn.

10 fav.s------>>>
fav. colours: black&white
fav. food: mum's cooking!
fav. songs: anything nice! lols it keeps changing everytime. i'm lazy to name!
fav. movies: Pirates Of The Caribbean. i get to sleep inside the theater!
fav. sport: NetbaLL!
fav. season: Winter!
fav. day of the week: none! seriously..
fav. ice-cream flavour: choco choco!

9 currents------>>>
crrnt mood: not happy not sad.
crrnt clothes: pucca oversized shirt and blue pants.
crrnt desktop: i love you(:
crrnt toe nail color: WHITE!
crrnt time: 7.00pm!
crrnt surroundings: i'm in the living room. messy!! lols
crrnt thought: why attitude?

8 first------>>>
frst bestfriend: Rachel tina teo! primary one! lols
frst crush: crush? dont have.
frst movie: money not enough?
frst piercing: p2!
frst lie: i forgot! haha too young!!
frst music: now i know my abc,would u come and sing with me!
frst car: toy car you mean? haha i forgot!

7 last------>>>
last cigarette: never!
last drink: plain water!
last car ride: last night!
last crush: a few months ago.
last movie i had seen: 2 days ago. Pirates of the Caribbean
last phone call: jingying
last cd played: forgot

6 have u ever------>>>
have u evr date 1 of ur bestfrnds: nope(:
have y evr broken law: yes!
have y evr been arrested: no! lols
have u evr kissed sum1 tht u dont no: NAH!!

5 things tht ur wearng------>>>
tshirt,pants, hairband,bra,undies! lols!

4 things that you have done today------>>>
eat,sleep,do hwk, think of him,pack my bag!

3 things you heard right now------>>>
my bro & mum talking, song from my com, song from my bro's com.
can u imagine this chaos? lols

2 things that you can't live without------>>>
Him & my phone

1 things you do when you're bored ------>>>
SLEEP!

& now the 5 person to tag------>>>
Weiqian,Amanda,JiaHui,Victoria & Aarti!

&&& a new skin! (:

i'm freaking busy today!
not out or anything.
but just stuck at home with homeworks!!
i've so many things to rush.
-3 chem wrksheets.
-2 eng write ups.
-maths matrices pretest.
-literature
&& i'm doing the contact list for netball!
darn! alright. i'm all done except for 1 hwk.
Peacock Padi
Hard Luck Hollie
Sunny Sandy
Terror Timmy
might make no sense to you.
cus it makes no sense to me too!
but damn, i have to do it!
i dont listen to what p/vp says every morning.
i mean who does? haha

anw, i manage to meet some of my relatives ytd,far far relatives!
or rather most, from my father side.
my mum was there too.
everytime i see them like that, its damn sad okay.
oh whatever. usual questions...
boyfriend,studies.
& i've found a trend in the CHUA family! (:
we're BIG okay! lols.
the 2nd generationof boys name after Chua Swee *something*
3rd Generation of boys name after Chua Wen(boon) *somthing*
interesting! haha.
somehow, i miss the presense of gonggong.
1994,mooncake festival.he passed on.
every year, when everyone is celebrating.
its yet another death anniversary for my family.
& he has never been forgotten!
sometimes, i dont know if i shld be proud of myself to be part of CHUA.
we're big and looks good on the outer surface.
but when we're into our own family.
nothing works at all.
its sad. but well, i just have to make sure..
i'll make the best for my child next time!


alright. i'm off!!

school was alright...
netball is starting to get a lil stress.
i'm tired lah!
with lots of hwks and tests to study for next mon.
sigh.
anyhoos, i was out with him ytd.
we caught the Pirates of the caribbean.
i manage to watch the beginning.
he manage to watch the end.
haha, i fell asleep. and its a total waste of money.
becus i have no freaking idea what the heck the movie is talking abt.
except some funny parts!
stuck in the theater for 2hrs 35mins.
it ended like 1130?! damn.
okay, its late!
so blah blah blah.......
i went home like 12? reach home 12.30.
tongue piercing! haha.looks scary but fun to play with.

training was alright today. kinda slack? cus no circuit .
we have 4 jokes of the day! woohoo~ break record!
1) PILOTS of the caribbean.
2)Fangyi falls again.
3) the bra cushion for the tube came off.lols
4)the command of my Chinese mix with Hokkien! lols.




wedding dinner later! awww...

theres so many thoughts running through my mind now.
i cant help but breakdown & cry.
sorry, but i'm a emo- person.
and i cant control my feelings.
if i say i'm not sad, i'm lying.
i'm willing to let go, but yet i cant bear to let go.
my heart just sank...
and no matter what the outcome may be.
i rather both of us to be happy(:
i think thats the most important thing.
no point being together, forcing yourself, when you're not even happy.

i dont know.i dun think i'll be able to sleep tonight.
too depressed i guess! aww.
but no matter what happens, theres no point crying over spilt milk right?
so why not look forward to whatever is coming up!

i dont wanna live in a life feeling so unloved by people around me.
the feeling is bad, real bad.

dont know lah, i'll accept whatever will happen later.
and yes, i'm VERY sad now.
dont try and cheer me up.
cus it wont work.
dont try patching things up.
cus it wont work either.

i dun wanna force Love.

sometimes, i start to think if i'm the cause of all these troubles?
or maybe i am, becus i'm not doing what i'm suppose to do, to keep him happy, and make him feel Loved by me.

i'll leave it to fate! (:

it has come down to the last 2 teams of the world cup.
Italy and France.
and the score is now 1-1.
after an early knock for theiry henry.
and a 7th min penalty sent the france team into estacy! woohoo~
but soon later, the Italians equalised through a corner kick.
hmmm. alright. will update again, ltr in the day.

new layout coming up.
oh shit, i havent even uploaded the pics taken on the mini-carnival!
which is like dont know how many weeks ago!
arggh, okay, i gotta get some work done before i get screwed tmr.
while i wait for the finals.
france(:

I Love You.

darn, Portugal lost 3-1.
but i must say, Germany played well.
but the victory makes me hate Germany even more !#$%^&*. haha!
again, Portugal was the one with a higer ball possesion!
its always like that! the team with highter ball posession always LOSES!
what is this! all the goals came in during the second half.
and portugal conceded first. but the goal was superbly great i must say.
a few mins after the first goal, petit made an own goal.
and soon came the third goal by the germans, at a similar spot.
still, the portugese didnt give up.
cus they still socred another goal in the 88th MINUTE! woohooo
its not an regular line up, who scored a goal.
he was subbed in. so you know. sometimes subs can perform better than the starting 11.
the captain for portugal was Pauleta( i think its spelt like tt).
Figo was off at the bench, but he came in when they conceded 2.
aww, if only he was in the starting 11.
Simao was working hard. and aww, C. Ronaldo and his tricks!
haha, he mis-kicked one of the balls. and they kept repeating it.
make him malu. i think it will be up at i hate ronaldo . but it will take sometime to load.
Ricardo was great lah! i dont know why, but i think hes pretty cool.
probably becus he is younger than the German keeper.
haha, i dont like Kahn's face! haha. looks kinda old.
oh no, i mean HE IS OLD. but hes the best keeper for e last world cup.
why didnt they field in lehmann! lols. michael ballack also didnt play.
hmmm... whatever it is, the score cant be change.
i guess its a achievement for both portugal & germany.
so anyway, i'll catching the finals TMR! (:
and France, the world cup is all yours.
thiery henry better score (: lols.

i stayed up to watch the clash btwn Portugal and France.
well, all i can say, Portugal was just down with luck.
they could have actually drew the game (at least).
but a senseless move by the defender cost the game.
i'm not trying to blame the defender lah! but you know its kinda sad.
but i still saw the never say die spirit by the Portugese.
they were great, even till the last min.
when there were lots of corners,and even Ricardo(GK)
came all the way from the other end to try his luck.
this is so cool isnt it!
i was sad lah! cristiano was sad too.
cry baby is moving to Real Mandrid.
but since France will be one my favs, after Argentina & Portugal boots out of the Finals.
so here, i'll support France! against the Italians! woohooo~
while Portugal takes on host Germany!
Portugal of cus! i hate Germany lah! haha

The freaking !#$%$%&*#$%^ SINGTEL !!
the server was down yesterday, and the stupid me.
actually spent 1HR trying to restart the com over and over again.
until i got very irritated & decided to go to sleep.
and i was suppose to get my ss project done? haha
i hate singtel! lucky it was just ss, if it was eng.
i dun think solastri would accept this kinda reasons. haha

i'm not lying to myself!! I'm NOT!
cus i still love you(: and always! haha
i'm so crazy over you!


my idiotic picture. haha. i was playing with the polo sweet, thinking that blowing air through the hole in the middle would produce a whistle sound! haha

my laogong and me! lols.


our marriage cert. lols.

i dun have the mood to blog today.
neither will i have the mood to sleep tonight.
okay, maybe i'll blog on friday.
till here, tkare ppl .

training was tiring!
circuit at the open space.
it was a hot sunny day ( as usual)
and i'm almost dying! & once again, i'm glad i pulled through.
3 sets of 15,10,10
its not about the doing part. its the sprinting part that is tiring!
so we did our usual court play.
and i played wd and centre.
i was tired lah! so was kinda slow and slacked on court.
training ended, with NO sucide run! mwahaha.

i saw something disturbing again. and i say "why would u do such a THING"?
i mean i didnt say it right to her face. but you know. you shldnt have done it.
if i countinue to say the story and tell you who that person is, this will become some bitching session, and i hope thats not the case. so i better shut up(:
but its kinda sad you know.

so theres no homework today.
and i guess i feeling very bad today.
probably i miss him too much! haha

today marks our 1st month.
nothing significant to remember.
just another day that had passed so fast.
but definitely, this month has been one of my happiest days (:
haha,i cant deny that i miss him every now and then,
and wonder if he feels the same.

i met my netballaers for seoul garden today.
and Marlene, one of my best listener was there.
and yeah, we shared different things.
the power of love?
and i guess we share a part of the same problem.
(:

and it was like so fun!
we played 'zhong ji mi ma'
and basically my table keep kena-ing.
so we dont have to eat our own cooked food.
Marlene, we are not honest kids.
oh not kids. i mean adults! haha
we played cheat.
mwahahaha.

walked around. slacked here and there.
and WEIQIAN!
i got that GREEN handphone pouch.
you know that one we've been hestitating whether to buy it or not?
haha. (:

i so love today.and i guess i feeeeel so great after sharing my thoughts with Marlene.
and i've finally let Siew Hong know abt that.
i feel so freee now.

i miss you like hell!


me and marlene & her FOOD. lols yummy(:
fried hokkien mee? hehe


peishi & her scrambled egg w/ sausages.

Marlene with my unedible food! haha.

the last 4 of the Fifa Worldcup is finally out.
Germany,Italy,Portugal & France.
those booted out this quarter finals are all quite unexpected.
argentina,ukaraine,england and brazil.
i guess out of the 4 left.
Germany & France stand the highest chance.
im supporting Portugal & France! haha.
more for portugal , cus of Cristiano Ronaldo.
its kinda sad you know, to see argentina lose.
and england lost to portugal by the penalties.
Brazil hot favourites losing to France?
although Brazil had more possesion of the ball.
hmm.kaka! lols.
i guess many brazil fans must be so sad now.
its kinda sad. but yet again, it has become a fact,and nothing can be changed.
still, i look forward to the 2 matches (:
its gonna be exciting i hope.

there are stuffs that are left unforgotten, and never forgiven.
i dont know whether to love, or to hate.
but i just dont understand why adults do such a thing.
and break ppl's heart.
my life is damn complicated.
and no one understands how i feel.
everytime i say such a thing.
i feel the embarassment around me.
eventually, i avoided.

why!??!?!?! yes, i feel like crying.
but i choose not to. i gotta be strong.

after so many things, i guess its best to take a good break this weekend.
somehow, love is magic.

and i'm glad i have a group of friends, constantly showing care and concern.
tolerating all my craps.
i have wonderful friends.
i'm just so lucky!

I miss you Marlene (:

the CIP bazzar was a sucess.
this was a chance to prove our class unity? haha.
water bombs to accesories to stressballs and HAIRSPRAYS.
aww man. and i guess we did pretty well.
612 bucks according to cab.
and i spent $3 out of $5 dollars from my own store.
the rest of my $2 i sell to people.
there was still unsold goods. but not that many actually.
thanks for all the hardwork, fellow 3E1ians.
i guess we've done a great job! (:

i went home to take result slips after that.
and i thought i saw something rather disturbing.
not sure abt what i saw.
i chose to ignore.
things didnt turn out to be what i thought it would be.
and i'm glad that it didnt happened lah.
but i've offended some people.

school was alright.
i manage to sleep in class today.
during lit lesson. i mean i wasnt the only one sleeping of cus.
the rest of my classmates slept too.
busy this week!!
arrrghh...

saturday(:

i'm still freaking awake now.
and its like 4.20 now? lols.
just like 1 and a half hrs to wake up time for school.
aww, i was struggling to finish what i wanted to do for my holiday assignments.
lols, and Portugal is leading 1-0 now.
poor Cristiano Ronaldo cried just now!!
aww......

i'm preparing to go back school to sleep! (:

i have the sudden urge to break down again.
and i guess, this is the best time.
to listen to Craig David's Unbelievable.
dont ask me what happened, cus you'll never understand.

i'm crazy. over you.
something just pierced right through my heart.

i stayed up till 3am to watch that match.
yes, that damn match which ended up in a draw.
waste my time!
but well, its my favourite team this time.
Argentina taking on Holland!
i watch till full time lor.
so ended like 5. so i went to sleep.
had to wake up at 8.30 to go back sch.
so can u imagine my 4hrs of sleep?
aww, i was damn damn tired.
blah blah, went to eat lunch.
went to the arcade.
long story. hehe.
ah, twinkle twinkle little star! lols. i laughed like a mad woman.
spare me! lols.

these shitty days. i doubt i can sleep tonight too.
might as well stay up for brazil and japan.
got kaka anw. sad lah!
but nth i can do also.

WINK WINK** i'm e killer. catch me,detective.
hehe, DEAD cat!!! ewwww.

uh-huh! so they are people who are reading my blog.
thinking that we are the real losers instead.
oh wells, we're not losers, cus we didnt look down on you.
and neither did we say you're team is lousy or what so ever.
i'm not going to argue. i just wanna prove my point.
look,who doesnt want to win. dont your team wanna win?
so whats wrong with saying good luck for that carnival.
and trying to prove we're more capable of winning,VOCALLY?

well, i dont mind you seeing this too.
i thought you guys were better thinkers.
winning and losing is part of the game.
we're desperate to win you guys i admit.
but whats exactly wrong with that?
thats just firing up our whole team spirit.
Umpiring isnt a matter i guess.
anw, this is just a mini-carnival.
i aint gonna say much abt umpiring.
if you think it isnt fair, so be it.
its just a carnival anw.
we just wanna see improvements! not winnings! uh-huh!
tts what mr teh said. lols

there are definitely more friendlies to come.
btwn tss and nanhua.
we'll see then.
still, i look forward to every game.

its not some bitching session here.
i just wanna clarify. oh wells.
PEACE! lols.
i dont think there shld any grudges btwn us? hmm.
both teams are still working hard for top4 next year.
so yeah, Jiayou.

shall skip the earlier part.
met sp&hz,hhc,aaron,ch for dinner at pizzahut.
yeah, so.. imagine eating pizzahut twice today.
again, i couldnt control myself. and started laughing like a madwoman.
for no reason. actually cus i thought of what happened last time.
the guys made a full of out themselves?
oh i mean, hhc and gang. they played with CHEESE.
definitely not from 6f. hehe, they're all vert mature and gentlemen.
agree amanda? hehe, refill our drinks, serve pizza!
woohoo, what else can a girl ask for? sorry, i'm mad. lols.
oh yes, hz damn cute. cus he is kinda botak now.
hair length almost the same as his bro! lols.

headed to vic's hse after that.
on the way there, we were talking bout some 6f stuffs lah.
liting! hehe! arnold homework. what shit kinda thing.
what else? lee ah bah? lols. and mr WONG.
yes, howe zhong! its mr WONG. not ONG.
lols, and he've forgot how to pronounce MARISHA.
lols, not malaysia or smth. lols.
played this game called 'police and thief' by howezhong.
lols, i mean he intoduced it to us.
i dont know why it is called 'police and thief'
because i see no linkage btwn the game and the name of the game.
its basically something like Mafia.
they have the victims,murderer and the detective.
only that you dont have to sleep, and the murderer have to wink around.
lols, so there were times where.. we commit suicide.
the victims thought the murderer winked at them. but its not.lols!
damn funny sial, lols. but well, a very funny game to play.
becus whenever i'm the murderer i laugh alot.
so its like kinda obvious. and there are times when the murderer winked to the detective.
LOLS, hz and vic! kena like twice or thrice? lols.
but time passed very fast lah. lols.

so by 11+ we went home.
and on our way back to the mrt, we saw a DEAD KITTEN!
damn, a dead kitten.
i didnt see it until hhc pointed it out.
obviously, i over-reacted. lols. like mad woman again.
i was the only girl there, not trying to flirt lah!
they are just my good buds! hehe.
so sp&hz kinda suan hhc. hehe. see , i told u, u will kena suaned by us!
so headed home.
dont know when i can see my cliques again.
shits i miss everyone.

i'm waiting for my argentina match at 3am later.
hehe, go argentina. they're playing against holland.
where all the 'van's are.
go Argentina (:

sch is reopening in less than a week's time.
and guess what, i have not touched any of my homeworks.
i better start mugging now.
real hard. bye!!

the cold war continues....

i'm tired today.
woke up like 5+ today.
met fangyi,germaine, charmaine,gina, cheechin,siew hong at mac.
had breakfast. then it started raining.
blah blah blah.
i can see some of the juniors improving eh.
not bad(:
they ended up being 4th.
okay, i'll talk about bdiv.
our first game was the first team against the second team.
seems like the second team was playing better than us.
sad! lols, so we won outram by 1,greenview and the 2nd team .
we lost to nanhua. all my fault..
like cannot throw properly. hais.
we met greenview in our semis. we won..
den we played against nanhua again. at the finals.
a must-win match, we all thought.
we were lagging behind by 2 at the end of the 1st half.
we were down, but none of us gave up.
we played well i guess (:
and we caught up. so it ended in a draw by the end of the game.
shits! my fault again. the deciding ball was in my hands.
but i lost the ball. argh.
wee~ we thought it was over, and a draw was enough.
then peishi shouted. Tanglin and Nanhua 5 mins extended time!
oh shit. i got a little scared. but still, i know we must win this.
summore its like, they took the first centre pass.
but woohoo, the defenders were doing a Great job!
shooters were pressurized. but ..
we won by 1 goal (:
all of us were so HIGH!
yes and i mean it!
my teammates were shouting, cheering for us.
and our seniors too! (:
strepsils for anyone? haha
all of us were SO SO SO happy.
so we did the Tanglin Cheer!
yeah, tss netball rocks!

anw, today is HUIYU's birthday!
capt capt! push up position DOWN! haha
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!(:
and all the seniors. i guess today was great for you guys too.
hehe, the farewell party will be probably next year.
cus we'll be celebrating together with our west zone champ achievement! haha!
opps.

Tanglin Netball Rocks!

i stayed up to catch the Brazil and Australia match yesterday.
2-0 to brazil. though the 2nd goal was kinda tyco.
sad thing is, ronaldo grew so fat.. argh.
kaka is shuai! (:
probably the only shuai one in Brazil!
not as good as cristiano ronaldo.
but oh wells, he is good looking too.
i woke up at 6.40 today.
so i had merely 5hrs of sleep?
which is defintely not enough for ppl like me(for those who know me).
still, i manage to crawl out of bed. and head off to sch.
for tmr's carnival discussion.
it rained in the morning. and we got ourselves all wet.
though Gina and i was sharing an umbrella.
so we settled it in like an hours time.
fang yi's pig trotters fingers.
poor girl. dont worry, we're gonna BEAT nanhua tmr!
we're gonna fight out best yeah?

so after that we headed off to bugis. they kept lisiaoing me eh.
lols. took neoprints. yes, a total waste of MONEEYYY.
sorry, i was just trying to be more ECONOMICAL. haha.
walked around. and i ate alot today.
i doubt i can fit into my school skirt now.
we were talking about sleep-walking & talking in the bus.
and all of us have funny encounters. and we were the noisiest.
Gina and meijun was quiet.oh yes oh yes.
would you need some EYE-Lashes PERMING for $20? (:
or maybe some eye-lashes highlighting to go with the world cup fever?
or if u think your eye-lashes are too short, you might want to consider eye-lashes REBONDING?
haha, we're lame.
lols. we were suppose to go home lah.
but it was too early, so we went to watch Garfield 2.
we watched it at the bapok deserted haunted -you name it clementi empress theater.
alot of seats, but the condition of the seats are quite bad. aircon not very cold.
good for lovers, cus not many people..
wanted to watch just my luck. but no show today.
so bobian. Garfield 2.
it was just a short 1hr movie.
which i have no idea what the movie is talking about at the end of it.
i almost fell asleep in the middle of the movie.
and our unfinished potato chips.
haha. yeah, today was pretty great.

3rd day of cold war.

the first thing i woke up ytd morning,
was to msg chialynn!
you're one of my better friends too... (:
shes my FIRST friend in tanglin.
and our "mafia" look. haha
and Chua Shi Lin Pin Pin!
i miss her loads.
come back faster!
though shes graduating 1/2 a year earlier than us! darn! lols.

i paid a visit to my godmother's house yesterday.
i have a complicated life story, haha, for those who know?
and after they said so many stuffs.
i have the sudden urge of breaking down.
damn.. lols. usual stuffs like boyfriends.
blah blah. everyone seemed to be quite concerned about this issue.
haha. no idea why.

reached home about 8+
so basically i missed the last episode of wei-si-li (the W files)
and i didnt make it for the saf match.
which the warriors trashed 8-1 lah.
SHAIFUL didnt play!! and Norazmi was the sub. keeper!
oh whatever.

i better start rushing my homeworks.
i will be busy for the last week of the holidays still.
lols. oh yes! C.Ronaldo scored ytd! woohoo!~
he scored the Penalty.
the final score was 2-0.
the previous day.. Argentina trashed 6-0!
argentina's jersey not nice meh? white & skyblue.
some ppl say its the ugliest though. haha
oh well.
the world cup fever is still on!
(:

it just came across my mind suddenly.
my lower pri life!
haha, i love singing.
i mean used to, or even now. but to so.
so i was in e Hpps choir.
haha, and i remembered once!
we were performing for either Teachers day lor Childrens day.
cant remember.
i was asked to sing solo on stage.
dammit. and at that time i didnt have my front tooth.
so can u imagine? what a joke. lols.
the song name was.. The Gift Of Love.
a wonderful song. (:
i had to sing this.
Sometimes i feel i'm all alone, noone to really care, but when we look all around our world, we know that love is there!
i love this song till now! wee~
Silver for SYF.. after that i had to quit netball,cus of tuition.
and netball came in. haha.
i joined back choir when i was p6.
but.. not much of commitment.
(:

everyone needs to be loved.


chialynn, i miss you!

met vic and amanda at redhill,
before heading to cityhall to meet the boys.
we reached there considered EARLY.
cus the boys actually made us wait for half an hour.
slow pokes!
argh, i couldnt stop laughing at howezhong.
first, he already very blur.
next,cus he slept late that day, like 6am.
he looked tired and his eye bags are super heavy.
which makes him even more blur! aww.lols.
sp was still okay, not that bad. shoot damn tall! argh.. same as his bro.
stupid Kelly Yeo Xiao Mei(Kevin Yeo Kok Wei)
that pangseh-er eh? lols, said got something on at 3
when we called him and his mum said he was sleeping.
too much gaming lah he.
so we went to eat seoulgarden.

e view from seoulgarden.
spare me, i've spent so much on food just this week!
all these food are making me so fat.
like ice cream everyday? aww, kill me please.
so we stayed there for quite some time,
we ended up being bloated AGAIN.
so we went to clarke quay.

same people,same position,same place, different day.
same thing. lots of couple.
and we saw e same "panda" again! (cat that is black and white).
slack there a little. being racist a little.
and then set off to vic's house.

vic's house!
bought Choco Ice Cream after i won the scissors paper stone with amanda.
lols, so we went to sit at the playground.
played daidee! amanda cheated my feelings.
darn! lols. say will share. den in the end i play.
played Blackjack, bluff! lols.
everyone was very Honest, yeah, we're honest kids. hehe.
and the most fun game.
heart attack. basically there was once 3 of us heart attack-ed together.
and HoweZhong, being the Slowest... have his hands always at the top.
haha, so basically when i hit..
i just aim the top hand.. lols. which happens to be hz's.
there was once amanda went " 1..2...3..." lols. den everybody by that count of 3 SIAM!
so after that we chat about pri sch stuffs.
and racist stuffs.
we talked about sathies! hehe.
last time our backrow went to tear his notebook.
den threw it inside his bag.
damn, i miss those days!
den ali changed me to the front! arghhh..
last time test also cheat.
lols.pass the paper around. write, pass back.
still kids eh. lols.

howezhong claimed he looked like ghost, and i agree to a large extend.

the unfinished ice-cream,looks disgusting eh?
before we went off, we took pictures.
okay, this is a clique gathering. not a class gathering.
look. how pathetic. lols.
ermm.. last time our clique got alot of ppl right?
all our puppylove "boyfriend"
eheh, amanda. we shld have played 933 BA GUA TAI.
too bad sy isnt around. if not we would have played that!
hehe, 2 years ago was fun! hehe
go disturb ppl.

have you ever wondered why this picture looked like this?
we didnt edit this picture.
but... it turns out like this. scary eh?

another picture. better this time. not invisible.
howezhong trying hard to act cute. lols.
hehe, wondered why we're always at the same position?
cus.. vic's fringe is towards the right,
mines towards the left.
amanda is centralised! hehe!
so yeah! lols. stupid!

with my camera.
i look terrible from that angle. damn. lols.

amanda's parents sent me home.
reached home like 12.
suppose to call dar. but my bro was at home. so cant.

shits lah. i just dont know how to put it to him.

but oh wells, I ENJOYED MYSELF yesterday!
boohoo, we're going out again! haha

i'm from 6F`03[hpps] third girl from the list. hehe.
used to flirt alot. not now. i've learnt my lesson.

a loonnnnnggg week.sigh.

GIRLS HANGOUT!(:
met mich,amanda and vic
headed off to Suntec for sakae.
yummy yummy.
we had some communication problem with the waitress.
haha, so we just eat and eat.
its buffet anw. lols.
we talked about lots of stuffs.
from.. pri sch life to bitches to even sex? lols.
no linkage at all.haha.
after that mich had to go.
the remaining 3 of us went to esplanade.
walking like a headless chicken.
we ended up at one of the HOT FAV place for couples huh? lols.
the clark quay there. isit clark quay? no idea.
but the scenery was beautiful.
we started our racist jokes.
oh not me! i'm not racist. amanda is. LOLS.
so like i said, the hot fav place..
so many couples were kissing and stuff.
we had no choice? but to turn and face the river.haha

this ROMANTIC place(:
pathetic us. we talked again.
all the fun times,puppyLOVE, and our stupidity.
haha! we were all so crazy back then, without even realising.
shrucks, i miss 6Flexibility loads (:
6F will never be replaced!! our old quote.
so all of us wanted to eat ice cream! haha
went to swensens for ice cream.
cant you see i'm so fat NOW!
headed home.
and aww, i so paiseh. the malu monster of the day.
the door was closing.
they were still deciding whether to go in.
without any hesitation, i just dashed in.
so end up, i'm the only one in the train.
haha! paiseh. den i everytime kena suaned by amanda.
lols. nevermind LOR!

my darling amanda.. i know you too well.
(: dont worry, whatever choice you make..
i'll support your choice! haha.
no need to be confuse, just go with how you feel. alright?


our only pic on that day(:

5 long days.. i miss him..

hey people! hows your World Cup fever going?
stayed up late just to catch the matches?
oh well, i believe its worth it.
cus world cup only comes once every 4 years!
so imagine how long you have to wait to catch those exciting moments again.
(: i think i'm going over to my grandma house to catch the Brazil match!
shld be exciting,though there isnt any cristiano ronaldo. aww. lols.
but they've got lots of ronaldo-s there too!
or rather lots of name that starts with R.
robinho,ronaldinho,ronaldo. okay tts not alot. but tts all i know! haha
England isnt doing very well i guess.
chances are.. oh well!

WORLD CUP!! (:

when can i ever hear the national anthem of Singapore being played?
2010 world cup dream? i think thats too early. probably..
our generation! haha.

GoGoGo!

anyways, i've made a blog specially for this world cup.
just e updates. so that at the end of the world cup season.
my blog wont become bloated. lols.
so HERE

World Cup CRAZE!
YAHOOOOOO!
go ARGENTINA!
or Portugal lah.
got Cristiano Ronaldo! (:

Argentina or England to WIN!!


my fav from England! aww, hes injured.



GOAL!!! (: Hernan Crespo

you must be wondering what the fuck i'm doing here this early.
i'm suppose to be OUT for training by now.
but my body fails me again.
arrghh, i'm catching a doctor today.
probably at bukit panjang.
cus i have to be there with my mum for some facial.
(call me vain or whatsoever).
theres already an appointment.
hope shes not gonna take me to some cha-nese doctor.
and gimme some funny funny and eeeeks medication kinda thing.
i hate those! argh.
i'm weak! i seriously need more sleep.
but i cant sleep.help me please!
is my body OVER-doing?
or UNDER-doing?
what exactly is wrong with me!
i wanna go back to play netball
i dun wan all these SHITS!
years to come, i'll be dying soon...
i haven't told my mum anything about this.
but i'll be telling her today.
cus i need to see a doctor.
health costs more than MONEY$$.
sigh......i've tried sleeping as early as 8.
trying to take in whatever i can(as in food).
avoid going out to get in contact with more bacteria.(unless necessary or sun-bian)
esp on that day before my training!
i was so looking forward to training..
and yet........ hais....

ypu might think this post is use-less but argh. just hear me once and for all.

ready to catch some Football Action?
hehe, i'm all charged up for today's opening game!
(oh like real, i feel like sleeping now, right NOW)
haha, i'll try to stay up late to catch it though.
ARGENTINA all the way(: haha.

hey! i'm back,my body is weak again.
but the good thing is, i'm recovering! yaHOOOOO!
sorry, i think i watched too much Hard Gay!
(:
anyhoos, despite being weak.
i went to my grandma hse ytd for some soup! yummy yummy(: *BURP*
i was kinda, FORCED you see.
slack there a lil,
then went to meet teddy.
saw melissa. oh anw, i didnt go for training.
in e morning, i woke up at normal time.
the moment i tried standing up,
i had to close my eyes.
cus even if i open, I CANT SEE ANYTHING!! lols.
scary LAH!
i dont know what exactly is wrong with me.
perhaps.. my body lacks something.
or some defiency. but cant be.
i make sure i take in enough FATS! haha

then we took bus from dunnoe where to where. lols.
then take here and there.
we just wasted alot of money on the bus fare.
haha, we just top-up our ezlink card ONLY!
then blah blah blah.
went back home.
and i got very tired. so i slept very early.
haha. alright till here!
BYE!

i dont intend to blog, but since its e 6/6/06 today,
i'll just scribble some stuffs here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIA LYNN!

i damn miss her.

hehe(:

happy 06/06/06
see you in a thousand years time!
Jun Jie's yi qian nian yi hou! haha

alright! update update!!
3e1 bbq was rather a sucess.
it was quite fun .
but at times i got bored and feel like going home.
and we were doing our own stuffs.
so we got the food at giant.
for like dont know how long and headed to Tudor's house.
the bbq-ing part was definitely not our job(: haha.
so we just EAT. and thy boys and some girls did the bbq-ing.
Mr Tan came, Mdm Heng came. and CHARLENE!!
shes so cuuuteeee.

we played at the playground.
the swing thing was scary.
argh,its not called the swing! its something else but i dont know what!
haha, perhaps i'm too heavy!
we played table soccer! haha
anw,Daniel got something for chialynn.
thats so sweet isnt it? (:
so eventually.
after some threatening.
i got myself wet. and it is like so cold!!
we had a VERY VERY hard time looking for the TOILET!
lols. so by the time we leave tt place was around 10.30.
took 166 back home.

chialynn, I MISS YOU!!

4th June 2005
on this very same day last year.
i was at the national stadium.
the start of my SOCCER-craze.
yes, i remember!!
i missed e scissors kick Noh Alam Shah did.
and i dont think i have a chance to catch it again.
and from that day onwards.
i went crazy. yes, crazy over soccer!
to think back, i find it so stupid.
haha. but oh well, a week of 3 to 4 matches last year.
had to be cut down to 1 or NONE this year.
what a change. hard to cope at first.
but slowly. still, i enjoy every happening on the pitch.
okay. to be truthful,last time it was more of the hunks i was looking for, than the Game itself.
but its the other way round now(:
but i miss my 5 favourites lah!!
oh anw, Baihakki Khaizan is on the cover page for e malay mag. MANJA.
with his girlfriend Norsafarie. aiya. dunnoe how to spell? lols.
haha. alright. the lions didnt do well for the causeway challange i suppose.
both leagues ended up GOALESS.
and have to be decided through the penalties.
but again, Singapore won and brought back the cup!
i dont know if theis is something to celebrate.
cus eventually, if they are gonna perform at this standard,
for their Asian Qualifiers. i dun think they're gonna go far.
so yeah. its time to wake up Lions.
the midfield is lagging!! shahril shahril work hard!! lols.
ahmad latiff is doing good i think.
(:

sigh sigh, today is the 3rd day! so long!!

3E1 bbq today.
gotta go get the foods later.
anyhoos, i dun think i'll blog when i reach home tonight.
i'm lazy. plus tired by then.
so BYE! (:

Friday,2nd June 2006.
i'll skip the front. cus i dont think theres anything nice to talk about.
somehow, i happened to call qian and met her at bugis.
we were near each other you see (: thats fate! haha.
so we went Shopping!
okay, its more like me shopping alone? and she had to accompany where i go.
lols, so after buying 1 PMK shirt and 1 Espirit tee.
i was as good as broke.
that was when we decided to sit down and take a drink.
and that was a wrong move. a VERY wrong move.
we eventually ended up doing nothing. and just played with the memory cards.
i knew her memory card was much much smaller than mine.
but argh, my stupidity! i actually tried to insert it into my own memory card SLOT!
that was STUPID! we tried to take it out. but the more we try,
the worst it gets. so we decided to seek help from the handphone ppl at Bugis Village.
was abit scared to ask. BUT! for the sake of my phone. den i just went!
i went like.. "i'm sorry, my memory card got stuck inside, is there anyway to remove it?"
the man went to try to remove with his own tools. but couldnt!
he then used another memory card to push it out!
PHEW! PHEW!PHEW~
me and qian promised not to do stupid things esp with our memory cards with this very very bad experience!

afterwhich weiqian headed home, while i stayed at bugis to wait for my cousin and teddy.
i was walking around aimlessly like what like tt.
there was this 2 japanese big-head dolls outside Parco.
and they were so mean! lols. i mean.. they actually when to push their big heads.
they can't even see!lols
so we went to have dinner. oh i skip that, cus i was on diet you see.
lols. so we went to bugis village after that.
again! YES AGAIN!
lols, somehow.
my cousin went intode the Condom Shop!
yes, the Condom shop.
which is suppose to be for ppl 23&above .
i think he saw some stuffs lah. but he got chased out after that. haha
so we went to the second level. that COLD&HOT place. haha
some places were freezing cold while some are like so hot!
lols, then we went back to Parco Bugis.
they wanted to play Pool.
i just dont understand why. lols.
they've been playing for the whole afternoon.
and they dont seem to get sick of it! lols.
of cus! i didnt play, i didnt want to malu myself.
and they played car racing.
teddy was better.haha
my cousin wanted to try the para para, he claims he know how to dance.
lols! he played and he was like so stiff throughout.
somehow he managed to pass the stages.
and there was this couple who came to watch him play.
or rather they are 'pro' themselves.
so my cousin eventually start to suan how ugly they look.
thats so mean okay!
okay, it reminds me of.. my cousin like looking at every girl that walked pass.
so anyways, it was like going 10 by then.
we headed home after that.
in the mrt, my cousin started to SUAN ppl again.
he laughed at a girl who dresses like his stead. but he didnt like her mouth,
so he started doing funny actions.
so there was this middle-aged man, with thick round specs.
my cousin again.. cant stop playing.
imitated him, u noe like.. putting his specs low. acting like that man.
so i couldnt stop laughing.
the worst part comes when...
he purposely ask teddy how much he bought his THICK ROUND SPECS!
lols,teddy dared him to say it infront of where the man is sitting.
and he really said it.
thats like so MALU! argh! lols. but was entertaining.
so we headed home.. blah blah..okay end of story (:

Saturday,3rd June 2006

shit happened! we didnt have the key to open up the cupboard to get the balls.
so in the end, meiyun had to come down.
so training was Slack-ish.
but fun i must say(:
some of the seniors came and joined us.
and the current bdiv only had 4 of us! aww.
so we joined sec 1 for drills.
and i skipped Enemy Of The People!(: i see it pointless to go anyways.

there was a soccer carnival kind of thing this morning.
sounds interesting but dont look interesting.
haha! only 2 sec schools. the rest are

after that, went luch with my wife and Shaula.
one of my netball junior!
shes damn cute and funny!
haha. oh wells.
i'm tired!
tata!

okay, i've recently fell in love with this song(:
its called UNBELIEVABLE by Craig David .
that Talented guy!
here, let me share with you.



haha, great isnt it?

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head,
it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have,
and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

i decided not to put it as a blog song, cus you know.
you'll be listening to your own playlist.
it gets a little irritating when other songs just come in like that! (:
no offence! haha

NEXT UP!! PAUL TWOHILL
i like his voice! (:
his Here Without You rocks! haha
but whats wrong with his hair? lols.
but oh well, that makes him kinda special.

i hate blogger!
i've tried like countless times to login yesterday,
but they just wont let me.
darn! okay so here am i blogging again.
sigh, yesterday was shitty.
i rot-ted myself at home.
and yes, actually i'm suppose to be out for SIN VS MAL.
but i didnt in the end.
but well, the match ended up in a goal-less draw.
its only the Penalty Shootout that saved Singapore.
well, at least i think they've tried their best.
2nd leg in malaysia. bai not playing.haha

TODAY! was a NIGHTMARE.
NIGHTMARE i must say.
we had physical. and i think this is the first time i've GAVE up.
i couldnt take it anymore. its not that i cant, my body cant.
look, my mental strength is weak!
so eventually, after finishing the 3rd set.
i was DEAD. and i mean DEAD.
while i was walking back for a water break.
things started to get blur.
white patches appeared.
i thought i was going to be alright after that.
but looks like it has gotten worst.
i just lied down on the bench.
like a SUPER WEAK person, trying to catch my breath.
the rest went out to continue.
i wanted to, but my body wont let me!
i have no choice but to continue lying there.
Ms solastri came.
by then ALL i can see was WHITE.
i couldnt even see her face.
i just heard her voice.. and i was so dead that i could hardly speak.
yes, she asked me to sit against the wall.
so yeah, it did help! after sometime. i got better.
blah blah.....
it was scary. very very scary.
i told myself i dont wanna end up in the hospital.
its like i can just faint anytime.
ANYTIME!
arggh, but i'm alright now (:
just tired. please... dont make this happen to me again.. =(
i'm weak, i am