it has been such a long time since i witnessed a dramatic match...
today, i did.
was watching the 'B' soccer boys play against.. Yishun sec.
and the ref was like damn bias.
we saw it, all of us did.
AND, i detest bias umpires(in netball) referees(in soccer)
the decisions they make, made feel like slapping them.
haha. if its netball, i'm feeling frustrated.
den, good thing i'm not a soccer player.
haha, but seriously, the ref today was like obviously unfair.
2 red cards to our side, and i thought i was totally unnecessary,
since they are alr into the 2nd round, why get more ppl suspended?
aww, maybe the ref was bribed. or some personal hatred towards our sch.
He knows.
but good thing, the boys managed to maintain the score towards the end of the game.
so they won 3-2!
congrats!!=)
and i'm like damn jealous!
3rd in west zone, top 8 or even higher in nationals.
we're 2nd in west, but where are we in nationals man!

but anyhooos, well done isham!
lucks for the next game!

208! my psle t score! hehe.

i'm tired!!!

209!

alright, today was just another day of school.
except that i just couldnt stop laughing.
i dunnoe what got into me.
but... well, at least this is like kinda temporary,
if one day it comes permanant,
den you'll see me as a Permanant Resident in yeah, IMH.
haha.

bio test tmr. shooots.
and we're doing Log tmr! wonderful! haha.

&&& i miss my clique so damn much.
after chinese paper?! anybody?! haha.

damn, i just realised tss is lik sooooo slooowww.
all of my other friend's exam timetable are like out alr.
and they are starting mye at the end of april.
i dun even noe whens mine.
this is pathetic.

its 210 to go! we'll reach there, sooooon.

As requested, Thomas, your new playlist. haha.
no chinese songs though, not that i dont like them.
i'm just outdated.
haha, and eng songs sounds better too.

i'm worrying bout how i'm gonna handle my mye.
darn. and its les than a month to mye mind you.
and CHINESE o's?! freak... i'm not ready...

211=)

Forgive & Forget - is it human nature?

This was one of my essay topics for my weekend homework.
To forgive and forget.
It left me,half of the time pondering about the things i should do, to forgive and forget.
Relating it to a situation of mine, a very very similar situation.

I would agree that most of the time,
we find it extremely hard to admit our mistakes especially major mistakes.
at the same time, deep in our heart, we seek forgiveness from the other party.
All of us, i believe have unpleasant encounters in life.(Yes, we all do)
Life is short, how much time can we spare on yesterday's trespasses.
We ought to forgive and forget, but never will we forget the experience.
and the experience is probably what that will guide us through similar situations in the future.

Forgiving and Forgetting is no longer a case of whos wrong and whos right.
and its about how to feel towards this particular person.
Of couse, having said that its good to F&F( short form lah.. i've been repearing!),
it would also much depend on alot of factors.
Time, Relationship and of course, how serious the situation is.
At times, you might think you've forgotten.
but suddenly, a tiny lil thing can make you recall all the things.

I believe its human nature, or its natural to say that WE,
see the Bad(s) more than the Good(s).
you can totally forget what this person have done for you,
but for the bad, you would remember it for the rest of your life.
By not forgiving, we develop a sense of hatred and mistrust towards the person.
so is the best way- to let go?

I've tried letting it go over the past few months.
well, i would frankly say, i didnt managed to.
We all have Memories.
and Memories are not always those sweet ones,
they do consist some that you don't want to remember.
but its just INSIDE. remember, (you didnt choose to)

The closer the relationship, the more hurtful it is.
make sense?! and is this one of the reasons why i find it so hard to let go? , perhaps.
I dont want this to happen either.
tell me who doesnt want to live a peaceful life, not being hated, and not to hate someone.
okay, maybe hate is too strong for this case, dislike would be a better word.
If only i could let go, i definitely will.
and i'm trying to.
but i will never forget what she have done that have haunted me over the past few months.
and i'm utterly disappointed with her, even till today.
at the same time, i do have umpteen questions running through my head,
which i believed can never be answered. and i don't bother to check it out either.

I dont know how long this will take, but if time heals, den i'll let it be.

If we can let the past be the past,
then what is the point of having a memory?

Having said that Today is a brand new day.
that doesnt mean, we dont remember anything from yesterday.

I've proven my point.

i'm throwing back the question at you,
can YOU forgive and forget?

as much as i dont want this to happen,
there will be a point where theres an end to everything?
well, at least farewell is pushed back for a week,
due to holidays, church activities, lessons...
and what have you?! so instead of having our farewell this sat(TMR, mind you!)
it'll be changed to the following saturday.
at least i can have the luxury of staying a lil while more?
still, their first combined training will start tmr.
25/26 people in the bdiv..
fighting for main 12.
on top of that, the starting 7 line up.
all i can say is whao! *thank god i'm not in there*
rivalry, hatred cant be avoided in such a big team like that.
( i'm alr having this prob with 19 people, imagine 25 or 26)
friendly competition btwn one another?
bull-shit! who doesnt want to play?!

the next captain.
oh wait, the currect captain i mean...
gets tougher each year, dealing with more and more people...
whats more important is the ability to pull the team together.
to be respected, and dont do anything to make people despise you.
seriously, what capt are you, when your people dont look up to you?
what position are you in to lead? or is it just the name of being a CAPTAIN.
ok, thats not the main point here.
i believe that she'll make a good captain, so please don't disappoint me =)

my advice to all juniors, work hard in your own areas...
treasure your chances on court.
no matter who gets chosen to play, you guys are still part of Tanglin Netball.
i dont wish to see History repeat itself,
and please dont let it happen.
i dont think theres any chance to slack.
you slack out you go! hardwok will pay off someday!
so jiayou! west zone champs 2008?!
you set the target, we'll see the result!

and to those who are following my footstep,
of blaming yourself for the losses,
PLEASE DONT! theres no room for such nonsence.
and yeah, for all you know, i've been "sent-off"
dont take your mistakes too hard.
and work hard to get back the ball!
i've realised all this too late. far too late...

216!

am i still blessed?

today's lessons were pretty alright.
at least i manage to keep myself awake,
except for hy and a lil of chem.
had physics spa today.
think i'm gonna screw up also.

after school, studied a lil amaths.
played netball, watched the B boys play.
they won 2-1! they fought hard! =)
so now that our season is over, lets hope that they will go far!
they said i was blessed not getting injured over the 4 years of netball.
i thought i was... haha, but i was wrong today!
never in my life i had sprained my ankle.
and today was the first.
i must say it hurts to SHIT.( first time lah) haha.
and it still hurts now.
i must promise myself i would land properly with the ball.
and never let it happen the 2nd time.
haha.
crap!

ok i missed out smth, 217 days.

giraffes's neck expanded VERTICALLY, due to global warming?
haha, and the birdies that are forever at the window.
going through, Genes=Jeans?
you and your cousin share the same JEANS?!
thats the reason why you cant marry any of your 'own blood'.
thats my bio lesson for you, we're now on heridity,i think!

other than that, STRESS LAH!
& i kinda miss netball now.
so its like i've been playing netball after school everyday? haha.

218! yay!

self-motivated. hahaha.

my horoscope says: Discipline is good for you right now -- it will prepare you for something big that's coming soon. You won't regret delaying gratification.

i'm JEALOUS lah! haha, yeah right...

yay! thomas said my blog was nice.
and this comes like once in a blue moon.
i cant even remember when was the previous time, someone said my blog was nice!
ha, alright, so today was quite crappy.
i was quite pissed off with some stuffs.
lessons still went on...
and i was super tired today, despite having lots of sleep over the weekends.

219.

i miss NETBAL CAMP!
that was 2 years ago.
now, everybody have grown!=)

i wont have to introduce , that "famous" celebrity.
the pornstar everyone is talking about?
i dun wanna swear, i dun wanna curse.
not good for my health. *breathe in, breathe out*
nvm, such low IQ people, is not worth my time.
cummon, i have better things to do, unlike you.

220days to end of o's.
i'm alr counting down. heh.

its the official end of the netball season 2007.
i'll start off with today's game first.
Firstly, i couldn't stop laughing when i saw some weird ppl? haha.
Fang Yi and i. who else in the team would spot that, other than the both of us?! heh.
so i played C for all 4 quarters! and i'm so happy bout it,
cus' i thought i wouldnt get a chance to play.
played wih no pressure, and its probably one of my slackiest game? ( i mean seriously).
defence wasnt really working well, and i got so irritated that i actually pushed Mas,
so that she would pull back to the semi circle.
i'm so sorry! i've never done it to my mates before.
what i hate most are the umpires.
seriously, i don't care whos gonna read this.
moreover, i have the right to express my thoughts and feelings!
and i'm not insulting! i think umpiring sucks.
i think i can do a better job than them?
cummon, everyone saw it....
worse umpiring in the whole season! arrggh.
i was VERY frustrated. but tried not to show too much.
and unhappy with the umpire's decision.
stopping the game 1 min before actual time?
ah, blur people! caused some confusion.

we were blown for obstruction, contact, breaking and what have you.
yes, and they got away with it.
all i remembered was Germaine saying " offside nvm, just try to intercept "
so i just followed, anyway, i wasnt blown for it. just advantage.
they don't seem to care bout that.
so i got away with it.
the point here is, i'm not trying to put them down, i'm also not trying to be a sore loser.
i believe whats more important is fairplay.
i mean... qualified umpires? then, what is this?

we lost by 20! in short, trashed? but nevertheless, i believe we did try..
would i call this a happy ending to the season?
probably not.
west zone netball really has to buck up!
i think none of the schools made it to the 2nd round.

Netball Season 2007! i believe is more than just a memorable season.
probably, its the one that i've learnt the most.
from a player... to leading a team.
it was never easy, especially when i get demoralised so easily.
i thought... how was it possible to hold the team up together?
problems after problems we had.
we've been through it all...
from yvonne being left out, to melissa's choice of bball and netball, and the finals.
eventful i would say?
all the tears that flow down my face...
all the sweat and pespiration on court...
all the shoutings and screamings...
all the sweet victory and devastating losses
we went through it together.

time flies. from the time where we were still preparing from west zone.
selecting the main 12. look, its already the end.
i remember doing circuits during trainings.
the most suicidal- Suicide Run.
6,4,2 is a killer! haha.

through this season, i think i've learnt to be more confident with myself( at least a little)
and i've tried not to get demoralised by my own mistakes
have i crossed that? i believe, not totally. but slight improvement!

something that i'll never forget for the rest of my life!
Mr Bok once said, he wants ro vomit when he watch me play
another one! the game against MGS. a lesson taught.
and of course, my mates, and the people who guided us.

as a sec 4 netballer, from 15 to 5.
no team to represent tanglin for cdiv in 2005.
all we wanted was a chance to taste victory.
yes, it was difficult for us then...
in 2006, we joined huiyu & co. for the bdiv
the sec 4s, had to WORK so hard, so we could match up with them.
during the hols, i missed out SO many trainings due to family probs.
the sweetest thing is, i never felt alone, and i still have the card marlene made,
and the rest wrote lil notes on it! i'm touched, marlene=)
we didnt lose a single match till semi finals and from then on, we fell.
Netball isnt just abt playing the game, its also abt enjoying the game! right?!
its tough seeing them go.

this year is a diff story altogether, a big team, definitely harder to control.
i think i've put what i've learnt, into use for this year's team.
in anyway, i hope i did improve, skill wise and attitude wise.
( you know i HATE going training when i was in sec 1)
i'm confessing now, cus its over! =)
and perhaps, the desire to win a game?
wait wait! playing 4 quarters of C, was never my job in 2006!
this year, i had a chance to experience it!
and also, had the chance to win 76-0!
the chance to play many many positions.
from original C, to WD? or GA? and all back to C again.
maybe thats what that suits me best! haha.

TEAMWORK was something i never had experienced in my first 2 years of netball,
in pri school. and it was only in tanglin, that i found myself belonging to a team...

i'll be nothing without my teammates!
( i can't deny the fact that i still miss the old team alot...)




the old bdiv!

our very first success story.


netball pic!

bdiv 2007!


memories...
6 rounds around 6 courts, sprinting from court to court for punishment,
win and lose!
pesta sukan, national rounds.
anything and everything.
its Kallang Netball Center =)

where do i move on from here?

i'm 9 mins early to daniel's birthday.
haha, now i'm like posting everywhere, so that i wont forget to wish him a happy birthday!
doubt he'll be reading, but nvm,
Happy 16th birthday Daniel!

months to come, it'll be another end for 4e1...
maybe, thats life...

it WILL be our last game tomorrow, as a team.
and probably our last dinner, before we part as mates.
no matter what happens, life still goes on...

i'd rather spend a few mins to blog now.
haha, okay, in case you might wanna know what happened ytd,
i'll just copy and paste my match report.

Today( as in ytd), we had our second national’s game against St Margs. In the first quarter, I felt that the play was very messy; we messed up all the timings and drives that we used to have. At the end of the first quarter, we were down by 5.

For me, it was quite demoralising at first. But I was really desperate for a win, to make our way through to the top 8. I told myself that I can’t give up on myself and the team, the only way to get through, is to win this game!

Hence, we worked really hard in the second quarter, when Germaine was put as the GA and Hui Xian was fielded in, as the GK. I find that we intercepted more balls and put in more shots in this formation, and we caught up with 3 center passes. We were down by 2 at the end of the second quarter.

From then on, I tried pushing myself even harder. But it seems like I made even more center pass mistakes. At least the MGS match has taught me a very good lesson, of not getting demoralising in the middle of the game, where every ball counts. Maybe it was due to the limited options we had, we made a lot of our own mistakes and our opponents took full advantage of it. We were down by 8 at the end of the 3rd quarter. The game was not over.

I was tired by the last quarter. I hardly made good runs and drives. Still, we manage to chase up 3 balls. I guess if we would have not lost so much in the 3rd quarter, we could have won this match.

In overall, I believe that all of us did try. But not hard enough, the hunger for the match can’t be seen.

At this point of time, it marks the ‘end’ of the season. One thing I’ve learnt and an obstacle that I’ve crossed is my own obstacle of being demoralised. Now that I have a role to play in the team, I know I can’t afford to bring the team down, together with me.

Today
was very tired...
i aint that emo today.
at least i think i've looked happy today.
but deep down, it still saddens me alot to think that the 3 months is coming to an end.
yes, an end. never will there be a chance to play as a team again.
or maybe yes, but no longer representing our dear tanglin!

TSS netball alumni! still thinking of which area to focus on.

i did pretty much of a reflection today.
and i'm planning to do my farewell speech this weekend.
*remind myself to do farewell speech*
hais. when its time to end, it will end.
our last game.
doubt i'll get to play.
but nvm! we'll work hard =)
i will definitely miss the team.
just like how i miss my old team till now, really much(:

of course, at the end of my netball jouney( not planning to continue netball ).
there are things that i will remember for the rest of my life!
to be updated! hehe.

one of the hwa chong speaker looks familiar.
i think hes some guy from hpps, Gifted Education Programme.
so not very suprised. and that kahtik guy from RI too.
both last speakers.

ah, i miss hpps! =)

either the server is down, or stacey's com got prob! lols

must work hard for the next 2 matches.
cant afford to lose.
it'll definitely be hard for me to get away from netball.
ahhh, no! thats nightmare. i hope that day will never come.

i'm not afraid.
i'm mentally prepared for tmr.
yes! i'll fight freaking hard to get to top 8.

go shilin! =)

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

[Verse 1]
You're so fine
I want you mine
You're so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You're so addictive
Don't you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious
Hell yeah
I'm the motherfucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right

[Bridge]
She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about!

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

[Verse 2]
I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
Now come over here, tell me what I want to hear
Better yet make your girlfriend disappear
I don't want to hear you say her name ever again
(And again and again and again!)

[Bridge]
She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about!

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you'll be wrapping around my finger
Cuz I can, cuz I can do it better
There's no other
No one can this thing, I can
She's so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?!
[repeat]

[Chorus (repeat)]

can i not graduate from netball so soon..?

oh wait, i'm not a twit. NOT a twit.

Twit refes to a silly, annoying, ineffectual, and/or imbecilic person.

who wants to be? ha

after school come back home to sleep!
and then overslept, so was late.
sports day was ok lah.
ran 800m. haha. halfway, those cramps were really bad.
den in the end ppl overtake. lols
when i came out, i wanted to roll on the field lah.
lols, den my mates very nice, got my warm water.
so i was fine after awhile.
went back for cheering.
damn, CYPRESS must win! haha.

after sports day headed home lah.
did hwk, sleep.

tday had training.
up down, and we were suppose to do a lil' of side step criss cross WHILE running those laps.
but i thought was seperately, cus usually we do it seperately ok.
den i asked mr teh if we had to do the side step criss cross,
" mon game, do for what?"
den i stunned.
me: "i thought you say do abit?"
" i say do while warming up lah"
den everybody when like " ORH...."

haha. so cute lah.
den did box... good thing its just a lil bit of running,
if its the big box + running! i would have died.
after that had 5 quarters of game.
the sun was HOT!
and i was playing center for like all 5!
tired lah! lols.
the last quarter i didnt do much, cus i was dead tired.
but yay! both our lobs to melissa got improve! yay!
and now even with mr teh, i can still throw to melissa! yay!

oh anw, germaine have got me this photocopied notes on mental strength for a netballer.
haven read through, but THANKS =)
i hope it helps.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......... season might end next week,
or a week more. provided we clear the next 2 schools.
wah, i have to prepare my speech like really soon. haha.
and here we are, the new recruits of TSS netball alumni!
coaching , umpiring or player?
hmmmmm..

if pretending is the best thing to do now, i will do it..

ha, maybe its a lie again..
we'll see how it goes.

lessons were quite boring today..
probably because i'm quite tired.
had a match against GM.
tough fight...
but i really tried not to get demoralised okay.
down by 1 in the first quart.
down by 3 in the 2nd quart.
up by 2 in the 3rd quart.
down by 3 in the last quart.
ahhhhhhhhhhh, so painful again...

i'm holding back my tears okay.
like wth, i've commited 1 STEPPING, 1 OFFSIDE, and 1 throw didnt catch properly den went out! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....... we COULD HAVE WON! wth.
this was one of my..... most ermm.. stupid mistakes day!
like cummon lah. it was so crucial and yet... i'm doing sucha thing?

but no worries, i'll work hard for the next match.
like i said, i'm desperate for a top 8. heh!

my commontest results isnt as pathetic as i thought it would be.
its only amaths, by 2 marks.darn.
but the rest aint that fantastic either. haha.

2.4 run today! okay. as usual, stomach cramps again.
its very irritating, and it only happens when i run continuously.
at least its 3 rounds non stop.
okay wait, i did stop. to tie my shoelaces.
result of netball! yay!
had short training.
after ttran another 2 rounds.
okay, i was tired this time.
and i was wondering how the HELL i manage to run 3 rounds in the morning. LOLS.

went to popular at jp to get some stuffs.
saw reena and fasihah.
they told me bout this girl whos transferring over, for TSS NETBALL!
and their position in the team might get threatened.
i mean, it'll be another tough fight next year for the bdiv, AGAIN!
according to what they say...
i will consider the girl quite ambitious.
cus she wants to make it to the singapore netball national team main 7.
and shes transferring over cus she thinks tanglin netball can bring her far( tts gd).
but seriously, where can singapore netball bring you?
i mean.. i'm a netballer myself. but frankly speaking, singapore netball aint fantastic.
i have yet to see her play... but i'm looking forward to it.
still......my current juniors!!!!
bdiv or cdiv now! BETTER WORK HARD!
of cus, the best 12 will be selected in the end.
but work damn hard yeah?
=) i'll be back for more! haha!

i must not give up on wed.
must play a good game!
cummon shilin! you can do it!

as promised. the video on fangyi's birthday after training!
ha, prank prank!

geylang methodist on wed.
okay, after today's training.
i can more or less guess the starting line up for the game.
good thing i manage to keep my position.
i wonder whats next lah huh?
be prepared to lose my position anytime, anywhere. haha! crap. but serious..

sad lah. season is coming to an end reeeaaaal soon.
farewell speech? dinner? heh.
i bet no one will be leaving with the face dry.
hah!

let me seeee. 233 days to go before o's end i think.
yippe! prom night!

ahh shit, i better blog bout today's training,
so i can refer to my blog when i write my netball journal.
so we did 10 times up down..
stretching, ball handling, shuttle.
and then practice the new concept thing for GM's game.
where C pass the ball to whoever the WA is guarding.
and then our own GA and WA will provide as a 2nd option.
but cant drive too near the goal circle, keeper might come out.
so.. after that pass. C opens up! ( I MUST RMB)
den if cant pass to melissa, will have to work the ball again.

for DEFENCE!
C and WD marks the WA, forces GA to take the center pass.
den C will block off the 2nd option by taking back the C.
pull back all the way for box defence.
shifting and shifting.. look out for shooters that come out to the edge of the circle.
THIS KIND MUST TAKE! haha.
den.. usual box. the inside defenders i'm not so sure! haha.
i only know challange the front balls.
den.. play front back when they turn and take the ball isit?
haha. not sure. anyhow..

SORRY if u dun get what i mean. i'm writing this for my journal's sake. heh.

if only i could stand on my own and not get demoralised.
you'd be playing as starting 7 in the nationals.

damn me.
i feeeeel so guilty..

you failed one and now you're tackling another.
grrrrr....

haha. i make a good love advisor! heh! total crap!

had training this morning.
learnt this new drill. some *ball rolling* thing. haha.
fun. but got scolded a few times. heh.
and then had game with MI.
did suicide 1 set of 321, phew~
after training, had cake! forced fangyi to wear the sexy outfit.
haha, yes, we had a hard time forcing her!
i'll upload the video when i have the time.

stayed for the sec 1s training SOMEHOW. ha.
took the sec 1s team and the sec 2s team.
okay, its tough being a coach. ha!
so anyhoos, had dinner with my girls opposite before heading home.
now i'm tired. haha.

woohoo, i had a weird dream last night..
hmmm.. at this point of time? ha.

happy 17th birthday, TWINKLE TWINKLE!

mon had amaths ct. and amaths=screwed up.
watched seduction of a perfect man or smth.
haha, someone was feeling horny that day.
but the movie turned out to be pretty hilarious.
and lame, but it was a damn cute show lah.
kissing scenes are like everywhere in movies.
so no big deal bout tt.

tue had chem camp, and training.
before that went for my 10rounds, side step criss cross.
did titration. pretty fun though.
came out for break.
went to play for like a few mins. lols.
mr chan called us.
then when i reached, he wasnt calling me lah!
saw the girls did suicide run!
2 sets of 321.
wah, i think i'm gonna die on thur lah.
sure very tiring.
ah, so after that did another titration.
den after that, shaula got me curry puff! weeeeee!
and i owe her bread! haha.
i owe erin a drink.
so after that helped out in the sec1s training.
they remind me of how we used to be like.
ha, so now i noe how hard it is to coach the lil' ones.
i started being hard to teach also lah! haha.
den talked to ms solastri.
blah blah.... so many things happening lah.. aiyo.
ah, i cant be bothered with that actually.

whats most impt now is the nationals!
i wanna make it to the top 8 lah!
but seriously, i have totally no confidence in playing with her.
this comes from the bottom of my heart.

i cant wait for o's to end! ha.

ha, okay.
i'm feeling quite good today.
at least i've tried to put away the final match 2 days ago.
ahhhh. i feel soooooooooooo irritated & unfair.
okay, it isnt the time now to complain abt the past!
look, its the NATONALS!
i hope we'll be there to whack ppl, and not to get whacked by ppl.
haha. our group is pretty tough though.
but who says tanglin isnt tough?! lols.
here, we have Singapore Sports School, St Margs and Geylang Methodist.
clear 2, and we're through to the top 8.
ahh, i'm quite desperate to go into top 8.
smth that i've yet to achieve.. esp this is my last year.
and most prob i wont be touching netball after i graduate from here.
ha, so when the day comes. i'll do a full summary of my 6 years in netball!
and even playing in pri sch, why am i still behind the rest? LOLS. wanna hear right?!
so yeah, we'll fight our way through.
and.... i'll have to miss training on tue! dammit!

cummon girls, we can do it!
i have faith in myself and the team, the tchers, coach ... (and the list goes on)

& finally, thank you to those we've been there for me recently.

lets meet up in the hols soon. hopefully i can spare some time.
its been a long time since i last met up with you guys lah!
so miss my pri sch mates! lols.
oh wait, theres 2e4 gathering too!
haha.

which quart was this man. lols





B div o7! yay! (sorry, this was th best i could look after crying! haha)

the whole west zone has come to an end.
we lost 24-32 to ct.
we came close in the 2nd and 3rd quarter.
THIS CLOSE.
and it hurts so much to take the game away from me lah..
you see the contradiction?
i want to win, but i'm demoralised.
i think we've put up a good game in a sense.
so we're looking forward to the nationals.
right girls?

actually. i feel so much better after all the cries.
its been hard keeping all inside. yep.
and i was demoralised after the first quart.
everyone could see it.
and almost everybody is cheering me on.
ha, thanks! oh wait, my 'everyone' means my teammates and seniors, tchers and coach.
but i was quite close to be taken off the 2nd quart.
thanks to those who lend me a shoulder,
meiyun thats you! haha. shes probably the first shoulder i cried on.
aww, so sweet aint it. haha.
and the forever going CHEER!
thanks to the supporters,
thanks to ms solastri and mrs jacob!
ahh, thanks for the pizza hut treat! =)
thanks to mr teh for bringing us to the top 4 once again.
and last of all, my teammates, EACH AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU! =)

but this finals was way better than the 3rd/4th i had last year.
this 2 days alot of crying huh! haha.

the truth will come to light SOON.

I LOVE TANGLIN NETBALL!

okay, i didnt had the chance to blog yesterday.
so anyhooos, we won nanhua 37-27.
well, i thought it was a good game though, i mean there wasnt really a
'rivalry' between our play, not like the previous time.
yup, so here we come, CHAMPS!

finals will be on the 9th, this friday 3pm at toa payoh indoor court.
ah, last year it was 3rd and 4th. this year,
we're expecting spectators.
and we'll be meeting ct.
actually i'm more excited now, than taking my common test (seriously)

the SAME old thing happened 2 years ago.
when my seniors played against CT,
and they were down.
to think back, i felt so stupid lah.
i was like soooooo emo,
crying like shit. haha.
when i feel so helpless to see them down.
but now, i have the chance to fight.
and this time round,
i'm not only playing for myself,
but i wanna take this chance to show to all people that we're not the 2nd best!
( ahh, though mr teh said smth abt its not abt proving)
but still.. i really want this game.
however, i cannot let this over control my mind.
den it defeats the purpose of playing.
the main point here, is to ENJOY THE GAME!
right girls? cummon! we can do it !

tanglin netball! =)

you're such a bitchanate.
damn you, understand?
attention seeker.
gain sympathy only. shit you.

i hate you to the core!!! sucha mood-spoiler.

its past 12,
so its 4th March today!
and its my brother's birthday! ha.
anw, happy birthday lah! dunnoe what to get for you also.
ah, so anyway, happy birthday to wending!

i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited! =)
so i'm gonna make myself very tired tmr, so that i can sleep well!
haha!

yay! i'm back again!=)
after so many days(yeah right)...
so anyway, common test started.
it was complete shit i should say.
because i dun really have enough time.
apart from that, it is my laziness.
i started toooooo late.
and i'm not suprised if i screw up badly.
so whatever it is, i'll just try to take in whatever i can.

so anyhooooooos, we're a step away from the finals!
yeap, the West Zone finals we've been waiting for.
we're meeting Nanhua.
there was a 3 way tie in the other group.
and we'll be meeting nanhua!
well... last year, in the semi-finals. we had a really bad fall.
and never picked up from then.
but this year will be a different story!
we'll prove ms solastri wrong!
weeeeeee~ that we're capable of clinching the top, and not the 2nd best.

i'm really excited even when i'm typing this.
ahhhh, so ultimately, is meeting nanhua better than meeting ct?
hmmm, we'll see on mon.
i've learnt a very good lesson during the mgs match.
and 'll promise i wont do it again.
YES I WONT! =)
though i did it a lil' ytd in the first quart!
haha, i mean i was REALLY TIRED.
running up and down, again and again.
and guess whats the score for the 1st quarter ytd? it was 3-2! (haha, laugh for all you want)
yeah, 3-2?! screwed up. but after that we gt back our pace of the game.
and eventually intercepted more balls, and put in more shots.

this is a must win game lah.
i wont allow myself to give up.
cummon! =)

commontest?! ah, thats 2nd piority. netball comes first for now.

[edited]
today is the 2nd of march, suppose to be our semis today... hmmm.
okay so anyway,

happy birthday to HUIXIAN!
and JOSEPHINE!

happy birthday in advance, jityong!
[/edited]

its f-ing obvious you're refering to me.
so what if i'm the worst?
wth.

all i can say is.
i've let the team down.

but i'll fight hard on mon.
because we need this game.
its a promise.
i dun wan to leave with any regrets. ANYMORE.
but.... are promises meant to be broken?!

i'm feeling sooo...... tired.
match is postponed.
down by 4 today.
God was on our side.
so the game will be restarting, back to 0-0.
and we'll treasure this chance.
so anw, tmr i'll probably be scissors paper ston-ing with the capt again?
haha, hopefully i'll win, i mean it doesnt really matter who gets the first centre pass?
but i think i played with her like 20times today.
and we kept putting the same ones. haha.
then we started laughing.

well, the cdiv played against MGS today too.
but they lost.
so dont worry guys, we will win it for all of you(:
and i'm gonna tell myself, i shouldnt get demoralised.
if not, it'll be like the regent 1st two quarters.
go, shilin! =) haha, crap.

motivation, was quite low for today's game.
probably becus i'm like a lil scared + excited.
tmr will be a better day!
ahhh, and i've got mtl common test aft tt.
i'm gonna die.

planned to go home aft sch.
had to do the game plan for tomorrow's game.
and sacrificed my sleeping time for charmaine!
haha, shes touched!
so anw, practice a lil on her reverse turn.
and its weird at one side of the court.
hopefully everything goes well tomorrow huh.
i'm like soooooooo excited!

i'm stressed lah
common test in 2 weeks time. and i havent even started on any single shit!
same week as finals!
arrrgghhh.
but haha, its not the end of the world!
and heres smth to cheer myself and the readers up!

some nike tee. sorry. it isnt very clear cus i forgot to off the flash. haha


rainbow!! i see your true colours, shining through.. haha.

shoots man, there are VERY nice bags at espirit. and they cost a bomb!
like 100bucks? and this really nice pants which cost like 70bucks.
darn, expensive. but........ its nice....

[P. Diddy - talking]
Hold up, let me answer my phone
Some bitch callin me about some bullshit probably
I'ma call you right back
I'm doin' this mixtape right now
Now back to what I was sayin

[Verse 1 - Mario Winans]
Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

[Verse 2 - Mario Winans]
Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

[Break - Mario Winans]
Did he touch you better then me (touch you better then me)
Did he watch you fall asleep (watch you fall asleep)
Did you show him all those things that you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me
(Stay away from me baby)

[Verse 3 - P. Diddy]
I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusin
I can't understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided
My undivided, you came and denied it (why?)
Don't even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra G's (c'mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that's right)
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave
Holla, yeah

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

okay, i LISTEN to music. [at least i'm trying to improve my eng here] lols!
so yeah. heres the song of the day!
I DONT WANNA KNOW!

so, this basically talks about this couple.
and i think some person told this guy.
that his girlfriend was seen kissing another guy.
and the boyfriend is trying to hide the facts.
maybe hes doing it for LOVE.you know LOVE is powerful! haha.
so he doesnt want to know the truth from her neither did he question her.
oh wait! thats self-denial!
aww, sad isnt it.
bottom line, he knows he get hurt aft listening to her, so he would rather not know.

interesting aint it?!

okay, so whats wrong with ppl nowadays?
or is it just me? sigh.
i'm very stressed!
this fri's game is impt.
semi finals next fri, and theres bio test next week.
and the common test week is the FINALS week lah!
i mean, for sure i cant concentrate on both.
cummon, its the FINALS. (provided we get through)
hais.

and whatever is coming up,
extra lessons? tests? homeworks? trainings? and what have you.

the more i see it, the more i fear ok.
are they the same or what?
i'm afraid.
i really am...

attacking isnt good today for training.
i hope we can play better on fri.
not hope, we must.
cummon, i dun wanna lose this game becus of attacking.

i was looking through my graduation cd! (once in a while)

yes, and for people who misplaced it.

i'll let you have a glimpse of it =)

the class of 6F!

mr ali! all i could think of is captains ball and soccer everyday!

okay, here comes the most idiotic part =)

my group! haha. all of them outgrow me.

so i'm like one of the shortest.

i'm laughing damn hard right now! haha

soooo *TOOOT* right.

you know, i feel so good to see all my classmates mature and grow.

the only thing i hate is to see them all grow so tall lah!

then they'll start shooting back at you.

i miss every single one of them.

except...... haha. "you know who"

the one that we tore his notebook, hid his health edu book.

and all the shits we could do to him.

we're mean.lols.

and the 3 gangs, triple j's, all the pervertic jokes,

and those divorce thingy. captains ball!

ahhh, no more of such in sec sch life.

still, i LOVE 6F! =)

the most comical part, mr ali scolded michelle(tan) after he found out that,

instead of doing PIE-CHART, she did LOVE CHART! lols.

ahh, my sec sch classes rocks too(:

this was taken a year ago, before our finals.

this year is a diff story altogether.

omg man. i'm getting pretty freaked out.
i aint going out with any.
whats wrong with boys nowadays?
feeling lonely? LOLS.
a movie alone with you?!
i'm thinking twice.

my mind is telling me this.
my heart tells me another.
and this always happen?! wth!
but ok, i'll follow my heart =)

& my heart says ........ i love him.

What is love? When we claim that it's
love that we have for someone, are we correct?
Something to ponder upon.....

01.Are your palms sweaty, is your heart
racing and is your voice caught
within your chest?
It isn't love, it's like.

02.You can't keep your eyes or hands
off
them, am I right?
It isn't love, it's lust.

03.Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't love, it's luck.

04.Do you want them because you know
they're there?
It isn't love, it's loneliness.

05.Are you there because it's what
everyone wants?
It isn't love, it's loyalty.

06.Are you there because they held your
hand?
It isn't love, it's low confidence.

07.Do you stay for their confessions of
love, because you don't want to
hurt
them?
It isn't love, it's pity.

08.Do you belong to them because their
sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's infatuation.

09.Do you pardon their faults because
you care about them?
It isn't love, it's friendship.

10.Do you tell them every day they are
the only one you think off?
It isn't love, it's a lie.

11.Are you willing to give all of your
favorite things for their sake?
It isn't love, it's charity.

THEN WHAT IS LOVE ?

1.Does your heart ache and break when
they're sad?
Then it's love.

2.Do you cry for their pain, even when
they're strong?
Then it's love.

3.Do their eyes see your true heart,
and
touch your soul so deeply it
hurts?
Then it's love.

4.Do you stay because a blinding,
incomprehensible mix of pain and
relation
pulls you close and holds you there?
Then it's love.

5.Do you accept their faults because
they're a part of who they are?
Then it's love.

6.Are you attracted to others, but stay
with them faithfully without
regret?
Then it's love.

7.Would you allow them to leave you ,
not because they want to but because
they have to?
Then its love.

8.Would you give them your heart, your
life, your death?
Then it's love.


Now, if love is painful, and tortures
us so, why do we love? Why is it all
we search for in life? This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for? This
torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?

The answer is so simple cause
it's, LOVE.
It is such an addiction that even
people
who are not having it wish to
experience and share it with.

happy chinese new year!
everything was ok today.
until i reach home just now.
cummon lah please, make a big fuss out of it on the first day of cny.
whats wrong with you?
whatever lah. i dun wanna spoil my holiday mood!

dinner was not too bad.
had special guest!
some japanese people =)
so cute lah the lil girl! haha
as expected...
it was the whole room BOYS!
gaming, watching football.
shouting and screaming!
not a single female soul.
so i decided not to go in.
was watching tv all the way.
and falling asleep lah. then they shouted alot of times!
so slacked..... and then uncle drive me home.
and his car is like damn stylo lah.
got dvd player. and its like touch screen! haha
too bad his songs too old lah! lols.

just what do you understand from REUNION dinner?
this is my second year.
i'm still thinking bout it when it comes to big festivals like that.
i was tired just now, but now i dun even feel like closing my eyes.

house visiting tmr! =)

thanks for accompanying me today =D

i dreamt of my team playing in the finals.
haha... in toa payoh sports hall.
with soooo many people watching.
ah, the atmosphere was just great!
i hope it'll come true!
not only for us, but the cdiv too!

going grandma hse for reunion dinner ltr.
so lazzzyy and tired! haha.
happy cny to everyone in advance!

had the postponed match against regent this morning.
i totally forgot that it was a two quarters game.
so i didnt bring any books.
and ended up, we had eng for the last 2 periods.
i was like so afraid lah.
but was asked to put away, and focus on match.
and so i did.

warm up, started the game.
the third quarter we led by 17goals.
was like damn paiseh lah!
cus the court was sandy and slippery.
so i was trying to dodge away from Wanyu! my pri sch netball teammate.
who was playing WD, and i fell even without her touching me.
damn malu. and my ankle hurts lah! lols.
but ok alr. so i was taken out in the last quarter.rested.
meiyun and huixian went in.
total score was 38-13!
great achievement for me today. cus the attacking finally worked out.
after messing up in some of the recent games.
weee~ our toughest oppenent in the second round!
we'll be meeting MGS next.
i've got this strong feeling that we'll still meet CT in the semis. and nanhua in the finals.
hmmm.
for now, we're still one of the unbeaten teams.
that was what exactly happened last year.
we topped the 1st round and 2nd round. Semis we lost.
and down we go.
so i hope this year would be good!
go girls!=)

cny performance is more or less the same lah.
except this year is like more funny. cus its lame.

went to watch the bboys soccer match.
their match like so relax lah.
lols. before half time alr 3-0 lah.
and it started raining! damn heavily!
isham scored! but not counted since they are gonna like restart.
saw simping and haykel.
and there was a sudden banana craving.

i want to win.
i want to play my best.
but it doesnt seem to show, not at all.
i've been VERY disappointed with my performance lately.
and i'm stressed up each time.

i didnt choose to be that sort that wanna get demoralised easily.
but look, can you imagine losing the first centre pass?
it might be nothing to you, my teammates might get discouraged by my act.
and it might not be just only ME, getting discouraged, but my teammates.
though big bird told me her experiences.
of course i dont wanna look back and regret that i actually bring the team morale down.
but.... i just cant help it.
especially when you know you have to accomplish a certain duty/task on court.
but you're not doing it. i've not only let down myself, my teammates, teachers, coach.
of cus the only way is to fight hard and get back the ball lah.
which is missing in me.
ok, so we're leading by 5 now. which is our 1st quart target lah pls.
i dun wanna start the 2nd round like that ok.
if this was a crucial match, the team will lose cus of me.

i wont let this be a problem anymore ( or at least i try to)
i'm gonna play hard tmr =)
i will. i wanna make it to the finals this year.
and i'll make sure i work hard for it.

attacking is still not that good.
still trying to work on it.
but if we dun make amendments tmr, we're probably gonna die.
so yeah. its time to show our potential,girls.
no time to waste. its already the 2nd round.

motivation!

its yet another empty valentines day for me.
its been 4 years, and i'm more or less getting pretty used to it.
exactly 1 year ago, we had our first match of the second round against pioneer.
i can still remeber!=)
disappointed with my play, because attacking didnt work well that day.
but we still won.

so this year, was watching soccer in school.
they won! yay!
okay, this year, didnt prepare much stuffs for friends.
and i feel kinda guilty now, because i receive pretty much from my mates and friends.
thanks so much! =)

of course, valentines has its advantages and disadvantages.
valentines is so sweeeet! in a way,
and so, i manage to see and know about things that are quite disturbing, not only to me.

perhaps, its good that i keep quiet lah.
sigh.

jianyang replaced 50 icecreams with 20 stalks of roses from school.
haha, and i ended givng all of them away.
stuuupidddd. but thanks anw =)

and theres this group of sec 1 bitches i came across ytd.
they were shooting a netball pole with a basketball.
so as a netballer, i asked them not to shoot.
and they were like "why?!"
so i just said, because its not meant for basketball?! like duh?
do u have common sense or what?
sec 1 bitch, act ahlian i scared?
like cummon lah, sec 1 trying to act big in school.
summore diao me today.
never die before! this kinda ppl.
but still, i'm trying to keep my cool.
and act like a guai kia, this is my last year anw.
so i wanna keep good records. and not get into trouble with a ermm. sec 1 kid? lols.
not worth my time and energy.


go b and c div! =)

its deeply appreciated. thank you!

its over.
it took me 5 months.
but i'm ready to move on again.
maybe for the past few months, i've been deceiving myself.
but i've gotten over it.
time heals everything.
=)

valentines on wed.
thur theres a match
fri is chi new year celebration.
what a busy week.
sigh.

all the retribution are coming like unknowingly.
so what? am i supposed to be happy that it actually happened?
lols. a point to think abt.

today, i asked myself what do exactly want in life.
well.. i've got all of it planned out!
you know, i'll keep this till i get old, and read it.
i love keeping memories. haha!
okay, so now. i'll concentrate on NETBALL!
yes, its netball more than anything else.
the weekends are for catching up with work.
and after the season ends, its o's all the way,
and a lil' of netball training to keep myself in shape.
till the 13th of nov(last day of examination)
and from there, i'll probably find a part time job,come back for trainings.
get my results, enter a Poly, most prob, is Ngee Ann. Accounts.
still thinking of Sports and Leisure management at RP.
from there, another 3 years. and i'll be 19 by the end of the poly.
come out to work? lols. den blah blah blah.........
i just wanna lead a simple life.
find a good husband and marry off? lols!
give birth and give them the best!
yay! end of story! haha

oh yes! both the Cdiv and Bdiv are into the 2nd round of westzone.
*claps* theres never "the best" in us.
sigh, the cdiv will be meeting Clementi town, MGS and Nanhua.
tough grouping. but go for it girls.
i'm sure you can make it to the top 4!
and for us, the fixtures aint out yet. i'll update you readers probably on tue.
i'm not afraid of the schools we are gonna meet.
i'm not gonna listen.
because it saddens me ALOT.

theres an internal war going on right now.
we might appear to be fine,
but deep down inside, we all know something is not right.
stop trying to be sarcastic lah.
stop pretending as if you dont care.
when we all know, you do.
your actions show it all.

shopping!
got some clothes, but alot of food.
and my mum feels rich today.
but i got pissed off with her when we were about to take dinner.
and i havent speak to her since i walked off.
i am in the wrong?! hello? get the facts right.

so for a period of time, i was at orchard alone.
you know what i do when i'm alone.
i think about the past.
and this time, its not that much,
cus it wasnt my purpose to go to orchard today.
and i find myself damn stupid at times.
lols, or most of the time.

retards are retards.
so why should retards take o's.
i'm demoralised can.

maybe your presence matters.
beacuse when you're not around, i feel weird.

i'm rushing through my lit,
and theres like maths test tomorrow. wonderful eh?
and i'm slacking a lil now.
maybe not just a lil, but alot!
guess i'll have to sleep late tonight.

anyhoos, watched the b div soccer match just now.
i like the bukitbatok jersey lah! its kappa! and looks like some portugal jersey.
but they won 3-0 i think! haha.
its so cool when there are so many ppl watching you when you're playing.
not like you want to attract attention kinda thing.
oh wells.
sometimes the best thing to do, is to keep my mouth shut.

tmr is against jurongville.
we'll do our best =)

didnt have a chance to touch my com last night.
cus i was damn tiring, and there was still work to rush.
though i'm doing my ss hwk now,
but i dun really mind spending a few mins to blog.
i mean, a few mins wont kill right?

so yesterday, we had a TOUGH match.
played 'C' for ALL 4 quarters.
okay, seriously, this is the first time, in my WHOLE netball life,
thati played 4 quarts of C straight.
so is it an achievement or disappointment?
well, its both for me.
i was tired. but for all i know, i can't probably give up at that point in time,
when all my other teammates are trying so hard.
ytd was crap, cus i was discouraged by my own mistakes i make.
and i perhaps its not about motivation ytd.
if motivation wasnt there, i wouldnt have lasted 4 quarts.
perhaps, its just that i get damn irritated and disappointed with the no. of mistakes i have made.
we've met our match yesterday.
1 main player down.
the rest of us will have to work even harder.
i hear the cheering of my teammates, my teacher and coach.
and i was really on the verge of giving up the last quart.
but i held on.
wait people, that isnt the MOST impt thing.
whats more impt is that WE WON! =)
23-25.
i dont know if its a good thing.
but the defending was way better than attacking ytd.
i'm part of both.
and there'll be things to work on for both sides.
=)

the cdiv on 31-18 today too!
wee, i'm most satisfied with the fact that,
both divisions proved ms solastri wrong.
and yeah, we did it.
we're not quitters.

yay! the boys won!
khairul's goal was fantastic though.
my man of the match is still ridhuan( no. 8)! wee~
they won without subramani and indra though.

this is becoming more like my game situation tmr.
who says we can't win even if the key players are down with injuries?
when your teammate is injured, the most important thing, is not only to hope for her speedy recovery. but to be able to STEP UP and fill the position of your teammate.
uh huh. that will make the difference, between a STRONG main 7, and a STRONG team.
so is my team a strong TEAM. or is it just a strong main 7 team?!

i hope i aint crapping. but its true.

okay, maybe its the effect of over-eating bananas.
i had 8 bananas today. lols.
they just taste sooooo gooooodd!

tomorrow's gonna be tough.
i'll fight hard and i'm sure the rest will.
every game counts [ i got this from mr wan's visioning] haha!
but his visioning was really fantastic compared to ours.
i'm trying not to be stressed lah.
my performace in training was kinda bad.
and i'm damn slow for the recovery of box defence.
all i know, i have to do my job on court as a Centre.
its gonna be damn tiring. but i wont give up.

and to my english group members!
i'm so so sorry for doing so little work.
seriously, i feel so guilty lah.

sigh, i've been slacking quite alot these days.
and i know its not good.
especially missing so many lessons.
i'll get back on track like SOON ok?

its 4 Feb today.
and i'm 9 months away to my birthday? haha.
and 10 days away to valentines day again this year =)
but i have my friends lah! valentines for years already!
i hope valentines day wont turn out as bad as last year's.
i remember we had a good scolding from ms solastri before our game
against Pioneer, our first game in the quarter finals.
14 days to CHINESE NEW YEAR! weee~
might have to go back to malaysia to visit relatives though.
sigh, i hate going overseas now. cus i'll get darn bored.
haha. but it has been like a year since i went back.

yeap, its Feb. i dont want my netball season to come to an end!
puhhh-leasseee. lets go all the ways to national finals.
and hope this will never come to an end!
go tanglin netball =)
and soccer. lols. ok, thats so out of point.
but who cares?! lols.

i made a joke out of myself today lah.
wth, but good experience to think back.
and i'll do a better job the next time.
this was like totally LAST MIN.
and i wasnt prepared.
good thing mrs oei wasnt there.
if not i'll get 'banged' damn hard.
okay. lols.

was leading in the cdiv teamtalk today.
well i thought it went pretty well.
and after the team-talk, they had their own talk.
they clear all their 'problems' within the team.
what i thought was siti was trying to get the team together.
shes doing a great job in leading the team though.
will make a good capt.

what exactly is good leadership qualities?

mon will be a tough game.
and i'll give all out.
for myself, the team and so on...
its either we win and top the table.
or lose and go to the 2nd round as runner up.
it does matter.
maybe i shouldnt let things affect me that much.
i MUST drive. lols.

ahh, half of the nails from my big toe came out.
after pulling it out for days.
and it hurts like shit.
now my toenails look like shit.
and the toenail on the other foot is starting to break also.
darn.
my deepest condolences.

soccer marathon!
our bdiv boys did well lah.
like 8-0 trash?
haha. or more? i cant rmb.
so after that rushed home to catch the lions play.
precious still cant sing the national anthem.
jiayi can sing pretty well through the mouthing. haha.
same to mustafic. =)
and what a drama mama scene there.
gosh, the thailand players dont seem to be as strong as i thought.
and uh huh. alam shah's goal was good.
fouled inside the pen. box,
thailand was unhappy with the ref. decision.
walked off the pitch kinda thing.
protested.( sounds like some civil war)
okay, but anw, i think the ref will get beaten up ltr. lols
mustafic took the penalty.
so, singapore leads 2-1 in the first leg. of the finals.
guess the thais will give usa hard time in the 2nd leg lah.
plus their skipper + capt would be back.
shahril was subbed in lah.
ok-performance.

happy birthday bai! =)

and i've gotta work damn hard tmr man.
every game counts.
motivation! =)

today was suppose to be sleeping day lah!
but went to the cdiv match instead.
they won 38-7.
tomorrow is soccer day! =)
the bdiv soccer team is playing in school.
den i'll get home to watch the lions play!
wee~ its bai's birthday tmr. haha

i'm getting sick and tired of school work.
so many problems within the team
ahhhhhhh, my adrenal medulla are producing alot of adrenaline now! haha
i think i need a goooood goooood rest. haha.
and catch up my sleep!
its 76-0 today!
for the first time in my 5 years of netball.
but nothing much to celebrate?
the next crucial game would be on mon.

zzzzzzzzz
i wanna sleep! but i cant.

i was there to witness the win last night,
with the other 54,999 fans.
for the first time(ever since i watch sg football, which is like after the tiger cup),
i have yet to see the national stadium full house.
but yesterday, i saw it.
when we reached, the stadium was almost full.
and they already started doing the kallang roar.
in the midst of the reds,
there were this small little group of yellows, with the malaysia flags.
the first leg ended 1-1.
the 2nd leg ended 1-1 too.
so there was 30mins of extra time.
still a draw.
and then i became damn bored lah.
so became quite sleepy, cus it was getting late and the match have not ended! haha.
but yeah, the exciting part came.
the penalties.
heart-attack moment.
alternate goals.
and Lionel saved the 5th shot from malaysia.
the crowd was in absolute estacy( i copied this from somewhere!)
so once again, they made it through.
but will they be able to defend their title?

whats most important is the fighting spirit of the team.
as usual, malaysia took the lead first.
but! ridhuan equalised!
hes darn good man.
i think bai did well in most occasions?
haha, yes, they never give up.

will this apply to my team when we meet strong schools?
hmmm. i hope we'll work the same.

the finals is on the 31st! which is on a wednesday!
its gonna be exciting!
but to think theres school the next day,
and theres a netball game going on.
i'm thinking again.
but i wont want to miss a chance to watch eh.
darn, shld i go or not?
better get the tix fast, cus i think its gonna sell out real soon.

but anw, i enjoyed myself last night.

i think i played like total shit today.
and think i've to push up to play Centre.
it doesnt really matter if i will be playing for the main 7.
if my standard is below the rest, i wont get to play.
thats a fact.
ultimately,i want the best to play for the team.

and the umpires today were like !#$%^&*^$!!!
lols, okay to be specific.
its THAT one. ah, i dun wanna swear here.
so "niao"!
we all had to be very careful when taking free passes and penalty passes.
because, if we stand at the wrong spot.
the ball will return back to the opponent.
like wth right? ahh, so she should be called "am-bias"
instead of "umpire" haha. what a joke.
today my play was crappy.
ahhh, but i've found my motivation better than the previous one.
although we didnt reach our target we set, but you know,
i'll work harder for the next.
(if i get to play)

SPA prac was totally crap.
whatever? lols.

i'm more excited bout tmr's game.
although i might not be playing.
i mean who knows? lols.

i managed to negotiate with my mum. lols.
so i'll get my phone a day earlier! yeah! =)

so so so so tired.
but hanging on!
i have to =)

it feels kinda weird not having a phone around.
darn. i'm sooooo tired today.

but you know, i'm happy everyday!
because.... ha, you know it (:

its shahril's birthday today.
and he just got subbed in.
as expected, alam shah scored.
mal took the lead first.
so its the last few mins of the game,
and its exciting.
okay, aide is sent off. like "as usual"? lols.
but he was in a state of shock?! lols.
i dont know why he got sent off also.
precious was strong man. he banged people, they fell.
people bang him, they fell.
lols. okay, some hesistation by the referees.
of the corner flag? lols
haha, bai can't play with pressure.
the commenter went like "bad bad play by baihakki khaizan"
i bet sat is gonna be more exciting. wee(:

my phone screwed up for good.
as much as i wanted it to spoil. but not at the right time.
haha, i was longing to change a phone.
okay, so ill get a chance to change it this sat.
i just need a phone which can call and msg, gd enough.
i aint going for the latest model or whatsoever.
my cash level is kinda low.
although i wont be the one paying it,
it justs feel so not right to spend too much huh.
so yes, i'm counting down to saturday alr.
and i think i'll feel weird without my phone around.
sigh.
lets see, today is only monday, and i have 5 more days.
i miss my phone, although it kinda suck

played against teck whye.
no motivation eh.
the sun was scorching hot.
my face was burning.
shots were inaccuarate.
too slow.
thats how i would describe my play.
but overall, we won 48-3.

so cute isnt it! =)
got it from STOMP.

i'm afraid i wont have time to blog tmr,
so i blogged 3 times today! haha.

the more bitchy you get.
the more i hate you.
the more i hate you,
the more i wont talk to you.

i wont mind losing such a friend like you,
when i know its not worth it.
so why waste both our time and energy?
look, dun make it seem like you're the victim here.
and gain the sympathy of guys lah.
HELLO?
so you think you're FREAKING popular?!
maybe you are, maybe not that 'freaking',but this isnt the way things work.
i think you need to grow up.

*i'm praying hard that it doesnt rain tmr.

it was vivo-ing last night.
nothing much lah actually.
something that caught my attention was the
'chanel gay'. haha, ok those who were with me would know what i'm refering to.
and saw a few ppl there too.
slacking there.
and went to the arcade to play air hockey!
got blueblack on my lil' finger.
haha, thanks mich! you're the culprit. haha
no lah, jk.

and then came home watched a lil tv.
occupied the whole sofa since bro is out.
and mum was in the room.
with my mp3,while msging.
till bout 1.30
then went to sleep!

and here i am, the final day before west zone!

i miss thickskinned! lols.

my tv is back to life! weeee~
which means i'll be in time for the clash against Singapore and Malaysia.
its at 7.50 channel 5 on TUESDAY! =)
wont it be exciting if Alam Shah were to score at Shah Alam stadium? haha.

had training today.
and we played against, a few seniors whom i've not seen.
the rest were the usual seniors. haha.
thanks for coming down btw.
and 5 years down the road, i wanna go back to tss! hah.
i had a hard time playing with the different GS.
since melissa is not around.
haha, but i've learnt quite a fair bit today.
its another day of rest and off we go! =)
i'm excited! and ready to go!
weee~ monday is the day!
we're a team!

i think i've nothing much to blog about.
dun feel like bitching bout some people today.
think i've bitch-ed enough. haha.
so i should be acting normal as if nothing had happened?
ok, i will SMILE =)

it was Ngee Ann today.
was fantastic i think.
its filled with alot of chio bus, but no handsome guys.
sad. haha. and the place is pretty big.
that we got lost lah, so what do you think? haha.

training tomorrow, while the class is doing cip.
will be missing some fun.
but tmr is the last training before west zone.
3 more days!

=)

i can't.

i can't stand the sight of you.
i feel like BOXING you! arrrghhh.
disappointed,speechless.

i'm tired! 5 more days to west zone!
we'll be playing our first against Teck Whye.
i think the first round fixtures are kinda alright.
compared to the "group of death".something i found,
after looking through the fixtures.
theres methodist girls, clementi town and river valley.
so we're considered quite lucky in a sense.
we're always very lucky when it comes to fixtures.
i dont know why, happened the same last year.
but we have 1 more team in our grouping.
which doesnt really matter? haha.
its my last year.
not long after, i'll be saying my farewell speech to my mates.
awww, i dun wan this to come so soon.
i better concentrate on my zonals first.
and coping with studies.
yeah, finally, my motivation is back in place.
i'm ready to play, but more to practice.

and to whoever whos playing zonals.
good luck yeah!

5 more days, 5 MORE! =)

i feel like killing some people today.
a total of 3, the last one (you know who you are) haha.
yes, its YOU!, thanks for spoiling my book! =)
ahhhhhhhh, tons of homework today, and due tomorrow.
stress level going UP!
and i've yet to call the sec 1s.
great! i'm stuck in maths! haha.
thats the best part.
i've been asking around if anyone has done it.
trials tmr, and training tomorrow.
shoots!

i hate YOU!! ARRRGGHH!
i'm not your GOOD DOGGY! what do you take me for?! wth!
sorry, i'm trying to vent my anger. hahas.

sg won 11-0 . so proud of them =)
ridhuan scored the first.
i think he listened to my advice to work hard! haha. crap.
Ridhuan Muhd 10,
Noh Alam Shah 11, 24, 61, 72, 76, 88, 92
Shahril Ishak 47
Khairul Amri 71
Itimi Dickson 79

NAS is pro man. lols. 11-o is quite alot.
i've lost my pathetic bet.
shahril scored! woohoo! bai played! yeah!

my TEEVEE went cukoo lah!
no tv, no more "the peak"
haha, bored!

best book =)

*edited*

i'm getting better at this.
because i seem to be able to control my feelings, to a certain extent?
and i do hold feelings for you. not like i'm gonna hide or whatsoever.
but not the right time i guess.

i just confessed.

detective shilin on the line!
=) yes, my weekend job, as a detective
and theres this new case coming along.
plan A is ready.
and beware of pple trying to ruin this plan. haha.
alert! we'll be solving this damn case asap.
and if things turns out to be what we expected.
she'll be guilty!
and we'll let the judge decide whats gonna happen huh.
nothing personal here. =)
i'm gonna close this idiotic case SOON. lols.
and all of the sudden, i feel so cheated. darn!
being in the dark for MONTHS.
yes, you're great.

see how bored was i...
awww, i think i've blogged like tons of times this weekend.
ahhh, i'm lacking of some motivation to do my work and netball.

cca open hse ytd was great =)
netball girls went CRAAZAAAYY.
so fun =) and sister kicked football.
how amazing.

i'm back from the national stadium,
singapore vs vietnam,
drew 0-0. dammit. quality football? aww man. i dun see that.
had several chances. the vietnam players were good lah.
my fav bai isnt in the starting 11.
good thing shahril is..
whoever no. 2 is, work damn hard man.
lols, aiyo. make me feel so kancheong.
i wanna go on mon! but theres sch on tue. sigh.
the ref is kayu! haha.
one of the boring matches i've watched.
but i had fun screaming and shouting.
see how it goes =)

man utd is leading 3-1 now.
and arsenal will be playing later.
liverpool leading 3-0
and chelsea sucks. LOLS.

time time time.

so i was right. something did happen.
my hunches are so true.
so. should i consider this good or bad? haha.
time seems to be passing so slow.
and i dont know why.
sigh.

shooting today.
someone owes me $5 and 50 ice cream.
i forgot his name. haha.
theres cca open hse tmr,
going to watch the lions match i think.
and i think i'll get bored over the next 2 days.
shits shits shits.
i think i am........................ nvm. =)

i cant be bothered to change this skin lah.
maybe the next hol. or chinese new year!
yayy! ang paos!
haha, had 3 practicals today.
phy was the most boring. haha. pendulum again!
chem was some solid M thing. that was okay.
mr chan explained alot.
and he kept repeating the phrase "in the rack" or smth.
so the girls started laughing.
bio was the most exciting.
PIG BRAIN.
me and virgiboo was making some brain balls.
okay i know its gross.
so we were having a hard time trying to identify the parts of the brain.
painted the poles.
yeah! fixtures for west zone are out!
jurongville, choa chu kang, tech whye, unity, juying.
IF i'm not wrong.
we met... choa chu kang,jurong ville last year.
the rest are still quite "new" to us.
dates still dunnoe. i hope it wont clash with practicals.
awww, i miss west zone kinda much.
i'll definitely miss mrs jacob's oranges! =)
looks like i'll have to miss loads of lessons AGAIN. shoots.

should i go for sat's match.
hmmm, i miss football action alot.
not as much as last time. but i dun mind seeing them play again lah!
i wanna catch back the scissors kick i missed 2 years ago.
its my fault, haha, and i caused quite a number of ppl to miss that goal too.
haha, see how it goes.
new nike jerseys =)

I LOVE NETBALL =)

i'm so tired right now. due to the lack of sleep.
but i dont have a choice theres lit test tmr, and i MUST not fail lit.
if not i'll have to be responsible for that..
was late for school for the first ever time today.
after taking the dilly dally 154 today.
but nv kena pink form.
i'll try taking 30 tmr again.
if i can't get up the bus, i would probably cab down to school again.
LOLS.
no friendly tmr! its training.....
and daisy tan canival is this sat!
WEST ZONE IS EXACTLY a week from now.
ahh, fixtures, please come out fast!
i'm excited. and nervous at the same time.
its been abt a year since i have the same exact feeling.
tanglin netball ROCKS! =)

i'm so afraid i would..

had training today.
was late..
so cabbed to school AGAIN!
i'm darn broke now.
training was okay lah.
i kept throwing to the wrong side to melissa.
and its tough being a GA actually. cus u have to make very wise decisions.
my shooting sucks too.
but huiyu taught me how.haha. so was better i guess.
touched up on the poles.
headed to bugis.
searching for bag. got not bad ones lah.
den slacked there for quite long.
today was totally slacking day.
i'm darn tired now.
i just drank a cup of Vodka + Cranberry Juice + Redbull.
taste like fruit juice. but its really nice! =)
i'm like DAMN tired now. haha. so. i'll go sleep.
and go collect my mp3 tmr! YEAH! FINALLY!=)
argh shits, i lost my yellow bottle!
less than 3 days old. haha
yellow bottle is a CURSE!
i miss my love potion. haha

first time online after 3 days of school.
school was alright.
i've been cabbing to school for the 3 days.
thanks to the very FULL 30 everyday,every bus.
so i dont have much of a choice.
some of the lessons are really boring lah.
i dont have to say who huh.who else? haha
the rest were quite alright i think.
but very often i get hungry even before recess starts.
which is like 11pm, darn it. lols.
okay, training was alright.
main 12 were chosen.
so work hard for your westzone/daisy tan carnival.
=)
oh i met an ex henryparker whos from netball.
whom i dont know, interested in tss netball!
AND! form teacher is ALI! haha
alright. enough of crap.
so anw, tanglin is not doing well.
5 sec 1 classes altogether.
i'll try my best to do well for my 'o's.
i wan to have a "former school" haha.
wont be online maybe till next weekend? see how.

darn, theres this couple i suppose.
quarreling quite loudly on the ground flour.
and i'm on the 5th floor.
so it not onlt alerted me kinda stuff.
and even ppl from other blks, living above my floor.
i hate quarrels, because i have the weird feeling everytime.
even though it doesnt concerns ME!
yes i know, i'm weird.
but... theres this feeling like.. your heart is locked.
and i can break dwn like anything.
lols, ahh shits. maybe its some stupid 'illness' that i have.
no good. but i can't change it either.
too bad. so lesson of the day!
find someone good in the future.
and i'll nv have to quarrel! haha.i'm crapping.
quarrels do happen.
anw,gtg.lazy to blog futhurmore
tata!

i am not looking forward to school actually.
but i dont have much of a choice.
i might need some time before i adapt back to school life.
so yep. i hope shit dont happen to me tmr.
have a good day at school.
darn pimple breakouts! arrgh.
anw, i saw lots of people from sch.
and saw binkan! haha. not with gitl1 though.
sad. lols.

alright! death note tmr!

every year, at this point of time.
i would be doing some reflection on the things i did or been through in the year.
so 2006 was no saddist. but instead was wonderful! =)
i started off having 3e1 as my class.
didnt really like it at first.
but as time goes... i started to love the class more.
west zone 2006 was a good experience for me!
and something i will not forget.
the best times i had with my bestest teammates.
there comes studies. well. dont think i've really studied throughout the year.
guess it was just last min preparation when it is near the exams.
maybe that explains the pathetic results this year.
i started like late half of the year.
which is like too late for final year exams.
because most of the time i spend my time talking and sleeping in class.
so yeah, here comes someone whom i used to love.
no regrets. but a lil' hatred though.
but i've done my part to fool. lols.
3 months. the longest relationship i had.
but a relationship i wont forget. and lots of things to learn from.
so probably, i'll search for my dinosaurs again after my o's.
final year exam was lousy. last min studying again!
here comes the tough trainings!
ok not really tough once u get used to it.
but.. you know.. its very competitive..
and somehow. i'll have to find a place in the team.
i hope i'll be included in the team though.
cus recently, my performance was like.... shit, seriously.
okay.i think thats bout it.
goodbye 2006 and welcome 2007!
so in the year 2007, of cus there are things i should improve on..
like you noe, not being LATE for hours. (ok i know that)
and how to improve myself to being an extinct dinosaur( female version)
that was a joke. lols. and more to come!cus noone is perfect.
i can't belive i'll be sitting for my o's in months time!

okay. summary of what i did ytd&today.
was out with my mm for shopping. like till 6+ at town.
non-stop eating and shopping.
headed down to queensway to get my addidas tennis shoes for netball.
den headed back to town.
met my girls. and then got the tickets.
went starbucks, slacked.
went to arcade. played air hockey.
watched Night At the Museum.
haha, quite a nice show actually.
manage to catch the last 2nd train i think!
so reached sy's house bout 2+.
talk bout lots of stuff. we were up whole night.
so abt 5+ went to call ppl for free morning call like out of boredom.
Maria Monica Chearn Kok is our campany name.
we offer free morning call services.
haha. wanted to pencil box.
den in the end after a long discussion.
decided to go home and charge battery.
haha, so left her house.
ht's parents sent me back.
and i'm here now! =)

i miss my cliques. when will be the next gathering?!
anw anw, we're 364 days away from the next countdwn! haha.

alright tkare ppl.
and
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

*pictures will be uploaded when i wake up! haha

guess i wont be blogging for bout 2 days? haha.
since i'll be out from later on till tmr? most prob.
hanging out with my girl clique. haha.
so yeah, just wanna wish you guys.
a happy new year in advance.

its so wonderful to spend a countdown out of home.
because every year, i spent my countdown at MSN!
yes bloody msn! haha.
so yeap, in any way, i'm quite looking forward to it =)

new year resolutions? more to come when i have adequate sleep!
=)