hello there, work had been alright i suppose.
the first day i returned, i felt EXTREMELY weird.
it felt as though everything has changed.
but no it hasnt... the people were still the old fun bunch.
Aishah is gone, Adeline is gone, now, we're only left with 3 young promoters.
Ivan,Kelvin and me.
i miss having the company of Aishah and Hida.
and AISHAH!,
i finally got to experience what you've been experiencing the 5 days when i'm not ard.
ha, yes, i do feel like i'm part of them too - a guy!

anw, i dont know whats with me and luck, either that or i'm really a jinx. LOLS.
okay, so for those who know, my new number starts with 9889.
when i came back Uncle Jay wanted me to pck 4 numbers, 0455.
9889 came out 2nd prize on 15th march
i was being blamed from 2 parties because i went to hk, and my mum couldnt buy it,
i was blamed by my grandma because i didnt tell her my number earlier. LOLS.
and then, for uncle jay's, it came out some other number,
which we needed an 8 instead of 0 to get 2nd prize ( 16th march ).
ha, maybe i'm just down with luck.
but thats alright, better luck next time.

while my earphones were plugged, i came across this song,
which reminds me of 1E4, my sec 1 class.
freak, i miss my classmates freaking much.
all the stupid things we've done together.
scoldings, criticism, we got it all through..
and rmb, how we surprised the teachers by topping the level..
i miss those days.
for those taking O's this year,
(if i'm not wrong ) Kevin Lim, Wei Kiat and Leong An.
BEST OF LUCK =D
today aft work i saw chenghao and aaron with samuel seetoh and another guy.
lols. dyed hair lah both of them! ah beng look! hahaha

i ccan start counting dwn to the day i end work.
shit, i have a compulsory camp to go! BA camp! shit!!
so lazy. so i think i wont got for freshmen camp, since it's still within my working period.
i need money, BADLY! =D

back to hk, i miss hk every night.
i mis the coldness, i miss complaining to dearest about how cold hk is.
i miss my hotel, the free shuttle bus i take every morning.
i miss eating all the foooooood!
the next time i go hk, i wanna go clubbing! lols
not alone of cus.
sigh, i would love to go there again.
pics will be uploaded sooooon.

i'm back WEEEEEEEEEEE!
but i miss the temperature in HONGKONG.
it's freaking hot here. LOLS.

blog again, soon. tired uh.
a failed suprise today. SHIT.

theres too much to blog these 2 days.
so i'll make it short and let the pictures speak for themselves when i'm back in sg. =)
but one thing for sure, lots of shopping.
ytd, met my mum's friend, i call her da-yi ( dun ask me why ).
had dimsum, went yumcha( not the restaurant but the activity... )
after yumcha go baibai.
shopped around, met lo man ( her youngest son )
went back to their house.
EVEN SMALLER THAN MY HOUSE, so narrow so small alamak!
ate abit. dunnoe why their chicken wing right, the hair never remove properly. LOLS.
but i ate it anw, cant be choosy.
at night ate seafood at nearby, NICE NICE. free dinner ( hahahaha, so freeloader ).
den da-yi's sis, means er-yi's son sent us back to the hotel.
SMART ASS, 20 years old, studying business in uni and going to GERMANY
for exchange programme is a few weeks time. wah jealous...
so young, so sucessful.. but his chinese ( they call pu tong hua ) is good.
english also good but my cantonese cannot make it, listen a lil, cant speak. LOLS.
i'm not a cantonese anyway.
but ytd not so cold.

this morning, woke up super early, went da wei for breakfast ( western ).
headed to ocean park with lo man. PLAY, WATCH! lols. FUN FUN FUN!
i know it's contradicting to go out with another guy on the 4th month. LOLS.
but dun worry... nothing going on. just planned by mum and his mum.
our mums went to shenzhen for massage. I WANT ALSO!
ok so anw, the animals there are sooooooo cooool!
the rides there are exciting!! really fun!
screamed like mad! LOLS.
now abit sorethroat.
BUT ALL THAT WERE SHORT EXCITEMENT!
the long waited one wil be here TMR! yay! i'm so excited to go back to sg!
but then again, i know i'll miss hk alot. cus i dont know when i'll be back again.
after ocean park went dinner with lo man and his friends.
the best cafe i've seen in my whole life.
had gyoza with jap curry. the gyoza taste good. but curry sakae still nicer.
anw, before that i had this terrible salad which i thought would taste bad.
but ok, turns out nice ( first salad i almost finish! and the healthiest food i have in hk )
had banana choc for drink. FANTASTIC MAN!
taste good. after that went to meet mummy.
come back hotel by cab, BATHED PACKED AND READY TO GO TMR!

i will miss hk, definitely, but dun worry man, i'll be back =) for sure!
see you again in some years.
thanks HK for the wonderful stay.
so fun, so cold. 5 days might be too short to finish all the tourist attractions.
but i sure love it. yay!

happy belated 4th month dearest, longest longest (: so happy!!!

i'm now at hk, Sha Tin...
my mum's friend place.
today had great feast. EAT ALOT! haha.
tmr going ocean park with her son..
den the "old" pple go Shenzhen. ok lah. hope i'll have fun.
bought another 2 tees today. lols.
DETAILS LATER!

i miss dearest.
i feel so bad..

HONG KONG DAY 2

ok, day two of my hong kong trip.
i woke up freaking late today, was very very tired. LOLS.
at like 11+, so half a day gone.
after washup, headed to Admiralty MTR by hotel shuttle bus.
stopped at Yau Ma Tei, walked to LADIES STREET MARKET.


money towel!
great place to walk ( something like spore's Bugis Street ).
they cut their prices when you walk away ( like THAILAND!! )
so they'll reduce until you're back. LOLS.
if you ignore den they keep reducing. GREAT. i got several great deals from there.
anyway, i brought the school calculator ( my 4 yrs friend ).
and everyone is amazed by it, BECAUSE THEY DUN HAVE IT THERE! LOLS.

walked for like half a day, ate...
walk again, i got clothes, bag, shoes, ANPAN MAN! and more hohooho.
alot of money gone man...
at MongKok station, theres this shopping centre like FAREAST! very hip, very teenagers type.
after that, went to AVENUE OF STARS.
wah. freaking cold there, i swear. LOLS.
i was freeeeeeezing.
but cool stuffs there. view was good.
there were like handprints of various celebrities..
after that, went to have MAC!
their MAC CHEAPER + smth we dont have in singapore.
and it taste soooooooo goood! LOLS.
after avenue of stars, went SOGO shopping ctr. something like singapore's isetan.
everything JAP. expensive. but alot of variety of food, clothes etc.
and GODIVA CHOCOLATE! but i didnt buy lah.
today i was dying. LOLS. very tired and endless shopping( walking too ).
i think tmr i'll shop more! HOHOHO.

since my mum alr contacted her friend,
we'll have free tour tmr, going to Wong Tai Xin ( first stop ).
den we'll be crossing over to SHENZHEN! CHINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
ok, hopefully i wont be left out and will have fun. because i dun understand a shit they are talking. LOLS.
yay, i've got my favourite BEAR (LOTTE from japan) in HK! cheap and nice. yay! buy 1 get 1 free summore. LOLS.
singapore's is like $2 each.

anw, NO ONE THERE ARE SEEN IN SLIPPERS!
it's either HEELS ( usually covered ) or BOOTS, ah, i feel so dumb.
lols, and my mum made a comment bout girls there, they're usually very covered and they dont reveal much of their skin.
probably cause of the weather? hmm. possible.

so yeah. thats all for today.
i still miss that boy-soon to be man of mine. HAHA.

DUE TO BLOGGER PROBLEM@ I CANT UPLOAD THE PICS. shit.
so yeah, some other day

HONG KONG DAY 1

i've typed this in advance so i can devote my time to my dearest ltr.
today was GREAT! :D
woke up early in the morning, almost late for checkin but made it in time.
was on the verge of tearing when i had to bid farewell.
zzzzzzzzz.

so cathay pacific CX 714.
listened to music, watch abit of atonement and ugly betty.
slept for an hour. neck was aching.
the meal was great =D VERY NICE! heeeeee ( partly cus i was hungry )

reached HK airport abt 3.
as the plane was approaching the airport,
i thought we were gonna die or smth LOLS.
because the airport was kinda surrounded by the sea.
so we came very close to the sea before actually hitting the runway.
LOLS. so noob right. zzzzzz.
after all those passport thing.... took Airport Express Line.
similar to MRT.
they call it MTR here. LOLS.






reached Hong Kong Station ( the station is called Hong Kong ).
den took a cab to my hotel.


COSMOPOLITAN!
classy look. i'm staying on the 20th floor.
my room view is good.

nearby is a Jockey Horse Racing Turf. ( it's called Happy Valley smth ).
AND THE SUAY SUAY VERY SUAY one will face the MUSLIM CEMETRY ( ok this is freaky ).
but they got the windows tinted...

checked into hotel,
bathed, went out again.
wanted to go ladies street. but quite late alr...
so in the end, go times square ( 5 mins shuttle bus ).








NEW MOVIE COMING OUT ! =D
wha! classy again, expensive, but the streets were ok.
some were cheap.
they have everything we have in singapore.
Zara,Elizabeth Arden, Chanel, Gucci, M&S, Sasa, Esprit ( EVEYRTHING AND ANYTHING LAH )!
haha, price wise, about the same....
so in the end i got all the cheap stuffs. hehehe.
had fishball noodles for dinner ( YUCKS, nothing compared to Singapore ).
alot of things there were Pork, Beef.
so my mum made a passing remark bout me not touching pork. LOLS. ok. i accept it.

continued to roam the streets. apparently, they look all the same to me and it's rather confusing.
EVERYONE COMUNICATES IN CANTONESE.
and i realised i couldnt understand what they're trying to me.
but all the shopkeepers/promoters were very nice.
they say hi to you, greet you with a smile, talk some things ( which i cant understand, i think it's suppose to mean like take a look at your own time, if you need help just approach one of the staffs ).
sometimes i try to ignore and it seems like they are talking to themselves. LOLS.
but they wont come and bother you, like stand beside you when you're browsing through their products.
which i'm satisfied =D because i HATE i emphasize, I HATE! promoters who stand beside me when i just look around ( pressure leh! )
ok, and i feel dumb bout this part.
it's Spring ( a season just after winter and it's still cold ).
it feels as if you're walking in aircon when you're just roaming the streets.
everyone is wearing LONG PANTS, either that, they'll be in shorts + leggings + boots.
me, shorts + slippers. LOLS! wth. so un-glam.
and i swear i was freezing even with a jacket on.
tell me how am i gonna survive the next 4 days. HAHA.

the people here are nice! I WANNA BUY MAYBELLINE ANGEL FIT FOUNDATION POWDER!!
only 18sgd! so cheap!
ok. lols! the girls here have perfect complexion. my mum says cus they have the changes in season.
not too humid, so thats the reason.
i should come here more often right? den my complexion would be good =D
whats different abt the guys here and back in singapore is that,
NO MATS, very VERY little ahbengs ( can count with your fingers ).
but this district is chinese buisness dominated.
TMR SHALL BE A BETTER DAY

i spend many long hours without the company of him.
and with this experience, it makes me realise how much i need him in my life...
whatever i'm doing dearest, remember you'll always be on my mind.
i love you loads. =D

i'll be leaving tmr morning.
together with this precious lappy of mine :D
i'm looking forward to going hongkong.
but i just cant leave some things behind.
like my boyfriend, work and more!
just 5 days, i think it'll be especially long for my boyfriend.
but it's ok ( i hope )!
i'll be back SOON.

yi lun shun feng to me! =D
HK HERE I COME!

dun worry dearest, i know what i shld and shld not do.
i missed/ am missing / will be missing you badly.

hi everyone!
today was a wonderful day! ( ytd i mean ).
work wasnt too bad... time flew pretty fast.
went break with my boyfriend and Aishah.
shy boy. lols. when we came back.
OUR JACKETS GONEEEE!
idea must be from ivan and kelvin.
scare me. it was hidden in a plastic bag, on the highest rack of the shoe boxes.
and there was an arrow on the wall leading to the next jacket. like wth.
so bo liao right. LOLS.

after work, dearest got me food. had ice cream ( yum yum ).
sent me home... slacked awhile.
went home.

wanna thank my boyfriend for being so nice to come down after soccer,
even though i know hes damn tired.
and taking the trouble to put on contact lenses to look good. ( because i said so ).
you know what? i'm going to miss you soooooooo much when i'm off.
but dont worry, we can still communicate everyday online =)
even when i'm still here, i am already missing you...

will be gone ( for good ) soon.
as it's nearing, i have to say i miss singapore.
the food , my house , work, friends and especially that guy of mine.
ok, its just 5 days. so.... let me just have fun and forget bout every worry that i have.

i dun want to go through this kind of horror, fear EVER EVER AGAIN.
everything go as per normal please.......

work today was ok.
well, at least time flew pretty fast today. =)
break with 5 ppl, cool eh. LOLS.
leaving next tue.
now that it's nearing,
i kinda dread it, argh!

!#$%^&*()
i'm dying of cramps.
darn.

i'm still amazed! VERY! lols.

was freaked out today.
zombie is kpo and irritating. lols...
rashidah, kelvin and i were talking den she just wanna like join into the conversation.
when shes not even welcomed. hais sad, NO SENSE OF BELONGING!
actually, i kinda miss lit you know.
not only that, i miss ms solastri's long and boring but sometimes fun and scary lessons.
ms leong's forever boring lessons.
birds chirping in bio lesson.
not listening to mr chan during chem lesson.
forever noisy and laughing and MRT's LAMENESS during physics lesson.
slacking during chinese.
meaningful mrs koh's maths and basics lesson.

okay, after work, went to get some stuffs to bring along to hk.
sent me home.
dilly dally. almost caught. but nv.
kena scolded by mum.
LOLS.
so ass, but nvm. getting used to it. LOLS.

ytd chat with aron.
( dearest, not aaron kwok. LOLS )
ERA GUY. so yeah. been years since we caught up with each other.
den talked bout his friends and my friends.
the thor hong still weird.
lols, last time ued to be quite close lah.
but thats like 3 years ago!
the cheater company! LOLS.
we still imitated our lines! HAHA

i wanna complain bout zombie.
on mon, i only worked 4 hours.
lols, cus i went for 1 hr break.
and she went to complain.
eh asshole, u also not giving me my pay so dun so kpo lah please.
anw, her adam's family came. LOLS.
aiya. if you readers get a chance to visit me everyday except thur, can see her.
ZOMBIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate you!!!
Julia's back, seems ok leh.
maybe just good mood that day.

but hey! i'm quitting ork and starting work soon! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

leap years @ ps.
popcorn+lemontea+b&j ice cream.
great movie!
we'll meet once every year. LOLS. wth.
after movie. my freaking heels BROKE OFF
and mich, you still owe me a pair.
lols, so got mine instantly @ c&k.
i like my new heels because it's something new for me.
and my man says i look nice in it, so why not.
after that, went to eat at long john. some shrimp meal.
but seriously, the staffs there are always with a smile.
better than some in isetan. although it's suppose to be a more "high class"
it's the smiles that matter! =)
i love to smile, and it feels good when customers smiles back at me.

wanted to go to clarke quay initially. but was getting late and was far.
so we dropped the idea and went back to my place.
slacked for awhile ( actually very long ).
now i'm back at home!
sorry ah, for all the trouble and scoldings.

i'm flying in 6 days time! =)
miss you! =D

tmr gotta work again. but got pay uh. LOLS
but go hk no money alr.
the np enrolment is a mess! so many things to do! LOLS.

yay! today i'm working till 530 cus of isetan's d&d.
but seriously why cant they put their d&d on a freaking wednesday,
so i can get like thur off too? LOLS.
WHY MONDAY! AHHH!

Judgement Day!

ok, shall follow sp's style. LOLS.
in eng version.

I have a friend, who has a boyfriend whom she thinks is always paranoid.
My friend usually goes to break with 1 her other female friend and a male friend.
it has been like that for quite sometime alr.
so one day, her female friend is working morning shift.
whereas she is working afternoon shift.
so, on that particular day, my friend carried out that normal routine.
but this time eating with the guy alone, without her female friend.

she decided to be honest and told her boyfriend about it.
however, her boyfriend's response were hurting.
afterthat they fell into a quarrel.
My friend's point was that she thinks it's ok
to have break/lunch with guys if you dun do anything funny or over the limit.
The boyfriend's point is that, spending any moment with other guys is a serious matter.

The worst part is not here.
It is when the boyfriend actually thinks
the girlfriend is taking her chances by agreeing to the lunch.
partly because the boyfriend thinks the male friend is handsome.
would you accuse your girlfriend like that?

so, if who's right? would you allow your partner to eat with someone else?

9 days to Hong Kong!

happy birthday my LAO DA!!!!!
Josephine Wong San Yee!
May our friendship really lasts forever ( quoted from somewhere ).
i would love if we could still meet up one day and do the remember dance!! LOLS.
meet up one day and catch up with each other!

i still owe both of them a present! AH! get it on tue!

this morning, dearest suddenly msged.
said, not going to the bank anymore.
den i was like Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
he even said hes going to sleep.
i was hoping we could still meet up though.
but it's over anw, so cant be bothered.

work today was SLOW!
was waiting for 730 so i could meet my friends.
in the end today also no sales! CHEY!
my manager collected my punch card today =)
pay coming sooon!


after work, met THEM!
YAY! lols. had sakae sushi.
one of my most horrendous experience EVER!
at first it was alright.
but after that we started "zhong ji mi ma" den add wasabi.
like wth. initially, i nv kena. but i kena once.
and that once was like totally !#$%^&*
i vomited and SORRY EVERYONE.
i think i'll never step into sakae sushi for the next half a year. LOLS!
we had our own stories to tell.
like sp's stories, gay-ing... the girl's talk, i miss those fun, really.
we used to meet early, realising we have nothing much to do.
today, we met late and realise theres so much we wanna do but time was short.
maybe that's human nature isnt it.
we took pictures.
too bad the rest who didnt make it missed the fun!
i think we ought to celebrate our long friendship!
not many can keep in touch as well and as strong as we do.
hope to see you guys really soon ( before school starts ).
till we meet again.


I LOVE YOU GUYS! ( sounds gay ).
but i'm thankful to have a bunch of friends like mine.
there was this very awkward moment when we had to part ways.
the boys to the busstop and the girls to the mrt.
we stunned awhile ( a few mins ).
and really, time was short.
too short for us to realise it's time to go,again.




i look effing fat. but who cares. i really am. LOLS.



had a great day today.

i'm still looking forward to my date =)

work was alright today...
time flew quite fast.
went far east for break with Aishah,Kelvin,my scandal, and scandal's friend Baizura.
yay! my scandal came back and visit me! so happy. LOLS.
so long nv touch borse morgan shoe horn alr.

ytd had a tiff with my guy again.
so today didnt really message him, until late afternoon.
but after that ok.
he said he'll pick me up after work.
i thought he had completely forgotten bout it ( he pretended to ).
so i was abit sad lah, but he tricked me AGAIN!
smack your small butt man!
yay! i'm still happy over the fact that we're going for a DATE!

on tue, my workmates, also decided to go seoulgarden for lunch.
SINCE ISETAN WILL BE CLOSED AFTER D&D ON MON!
but too bad, i think i wont be joining them lah.
lols. i think my date is more impt. no date for a long time!

thanks dearest for picking me up!

TMR I'M MEETING MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIENDS! YAY!

was late for work again! 9 mins this time.
no sales AGAIN!. haha. sad, but true.
i spent my time crapping as usual.
we were talking bout the guy who escaped from prison
AND HE CAUSED THE TRAFFIC TO BE CONJESTED AT TOWN! omg.
caused me to reach later!
den we saw William Gallas ( Kelvin claims he looks like the arsenal capt )
den we saw President Nathan ( he claimed that too )
so Aishah Rashidah and i laughed. LOLS
had break with Aishah. was super early. so was like slacking.
after break, she went GILA, dancing at her own 'stage'.
Passporte shoes had new arrival. and ALL of them resemble different brands.
like Timberland, Alesandro,Florshiem, Lloyd, Ecco! whao! den they called them COPYCAT!
so, while they were away, Bobo and Uncle Jay switched their shoes without them knowing! haha
worse still, their priced at the same value! hahahaha.

was messaging dearest all the way till he left for jj.
den no reply from him till now.
LIKE WTF.
ok, on a lighter note, at least he's picking me tmr
different from the normal routine, because usually i do the picking up! hohoho.
den i'm going on a special date on tue!
dates are always special aren't they.
but what is keeping him now
!#$%^

i hate zombie!
i hate people who restrict me.
i hate people who assume before they know the truth.

ok, what a start to a morning post.
HATRED! darn.
so far, i've met or seen quite alot of people at town.
like Mr Wan, Marlene, Ziyang ( papergoat ), Lionel Lewis.
I saw Tao Li and Pornsak at town. cooool!

AWAY TO HONGKONG from 11th to 15th March!
will bring my lappy along, so daily updates as usual.
THANKS WEIQIAN FOR HELPING ME OUT! =D
so anw, i'll be taking cathay pacific like in early morning, 11+
reach HK bout 3+, check into hotel and start wandering around the streets of HK. =)
if you would like to see how much fun i will be having or how much i'm gonna miss my man,
PLEASE! just wait for my latest updates.

met dearest early in the morning, den headed to town,
made my payment to the travel agency, den to macdonalds.
he went up to the 3rd floor with me ( FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME ).
Kelvin thought he was a chinese. zzzzz
maybe being with a chinese makes a malay looks chinese.
Work was ok today. bored, but time flew quite fast.
so was like alright.
went to eat with Aishah again at fareast.
ok, i'm really getting fat.
but i'll do some running at the gym in the hotel! LOLS. ( if i have the time in the morning ).
Aishah got too excited, because her boyfriend is picking her up from work.
then aiya. i thought to myself. i was never this excited when my bf is picking me.
like this morning, like meet-only-lor kinda feeling.
maybe i used to feel it last time.
but ever since we have our own stuffs and commitments and work,
i think i got used to the style. i think i should be glad afterall!
=)

after work, took my own sweet time, met him.
went off. sent me home.
!#$%^&*(
i still hate irritating people who insist something against someone's will.
den again, what right do you have?
it's my life, not yours.

for the first time in years,
tanglin will not get in into the top 4 of the west zone netball tournament this year, 2008.
i thought i would have a chance to watch the finals at TPY indoor.
upon receiving the message from huixian ytd,
i was as devastated as they are.
they lost to nanyang by 2 goals.
but to console myself, the feeling i bet isnt as bad as missing CHAMPS by an inch.

so girls, dun worry too much. now that it's over,
just take some time to get over it and get back to work.
esp the current sec 4s, you've got O's to concentrate.
for the sec 3's, make next year a better season.
by the way, we haven got our farewell, so we farewell together? hehehe

my hk trip is confirmed.
work had been boring.
tmr's OFF! weeeeeeee~
i've been meeting my guy on daily basis.
it's become a routine.
but so far so gooooood!

i miss horny guy!!!

ytd didnt get a chance to blog.
before work that stupid guy scare me with his doublevison.
like omg, plus, he was alone.
so after that smth happened.
den never talk.
so anw, work yesterday was boring.
Hida reached there and got to know that she wasnt supposed to work. LOLS!
den the whole day just stand stand stand.
2 sales today.
other than that, go toilet.
slack!!!!!
today i think i'm gonna do the same...

after work, signed up for m1 student plan and got a free 6121 classic.
NO WHITE LAH!!! alamak. lols. and i'm not used to it.
so anw, i've changed my NUMBER!!!!
will update all the people soon.
haven charge my phone 8 hrs yet. hehehe.
but luckily i still have my 7390 to use as my 2nd phone.

IF i'm going hongkong,
means i have to miss Isetan's private sales,
miss 4th month with dearest ( ok lah, none of my relationships reached 4 months. )
lols, not the point though, the point is, he has to spend it alone,
while i'm enjoying.

SMILE, baby!
probably his best smile. wahahaha.
pardon the quality

sorry if i've pissed you off.
i didnt know it was that bad.
it was bad.
anyway, the movie went well.
a lil funny + gross + sad.
so yeah lor, L's actions still adorable + his mask! hohoho.
after movie, ate LJS.
went to the park, watched Kindaichi!
wah, JAP marathon today. hmmmm.
watched awhile only, cus no batt! plus load so long! alamak!
went home bout 10+
MY MUM wants me to go banking and finance.
sigh, why cant i just get a fucking point lesser.
darn, so idiotic. lols.
and never will i appeal to SP's banking though it's 11 pts.
cus firstly, MY DEAREST is at np,
secondly, npmore established in business courses.
so here it goes, NP accountancy it shall be.

Indonesia!!! from march 8/9- dunne when.
HONGKONG!! from ehh, still deciding the date.
probably march too, during march and after march the price go up.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, waiting for hk! =)
and if i go there, i'll hook myself onto the net lah...

met dearest in the morning!
got movie tix for tmr. =)
was super early, so decided to eat ice cream. yum yum!
mon cheri and banana choc.
yummy yummy!
after i start work, went toilet, talked to dearest on the phone. LOLS.
for quite long, Hida even messaged me asking if i was coming for work. hahahaha.
so anw, NO SALES AGAIN! zzzzzzzzz.
i spent the whole day talking, laughing, slacking.
theres a new camper promoter called Kelvin.
sp marine engineering year 2. cool man.
but too bad nv get into that course. lols
maybe accountancy suits me more.
but! imagine 340 X 5 = number of competitors ( need to minus 1 lah )
freak freak.....

so spent my break with zhenwei and hida again!
this time went fareast, i had fried rice.
zzzzzzzz. bought goreng pisang for anna.
went back early ( for the first time ).
we all eating goreng pisang at store. hohohoho.
nice man! i like it =)
den we started talking bout ghost stories. ( the girls plus the guys)
the girls, before that we had a girls talk, talking bout partners, boyfriends and target!!
hahaha, lame shit. hida still have bout 1 day to find target LOLS.
den we talked a lil bout our experience of having boyfriend of a different race.
aishah + chinese, shilin+malay, so hida must + chinese.
LOLS!!! after that went walk walk at suntec while waiting for time to fly.
met dearest, HE WAS EARLY FOR THE FIRST TIME.
YAYYYYYYY! so we reached quite early and i returned home early.
so NO SCOLDINGS! yay!!! thanks ah dearest! =)

and congrats to MY country on winning the bid!
hosting the 2010 1st youth olympic!
YEAH!

sometimes, it feels good being appreciated.

today's work was sooooooooooooooooooo boring.
boring until can actually fall asleep.
the number of customers is pathetic,
and you can actually count in wth your fingers.
from opening till before i left for break, 4.30.
THE WHOLE MEN'S SHOES, only 1 pair of shoes sold from hush puppies.

cool man! lols.

in the end we spent our time slacking in the store, taking pictures,
eating, talking! hahahaha. so fun ah!

the best thing today is that, JULIA ISN'T AROUND!

everyone was twice as happy as usual and that includes me!

whats wrong with the person who typed this!

with kak yani and azirah.

with azirah.

this one i look like hantu,
WHITE, MILK and DARK! hahaha
with hida and azirah.

totally no sales today!
had BurgerKing with tweety bird and pussycat.
den i forgot bring my ezlink card! ( at the locker )!
so no choice, buy great value meal!

after work, walk walk, collect my gv card.
find dearest, went off together!
50cents ah dear.
my butt and back was aching like shit.
his massage was great.
ps: he didnt massage my butt ok. LOLS!

sent me home.
shall see him again on FRIDAY! =)

gonna miss you so much.
have fun with you and ur magic wand. LOLS!

wth, horny bastard.

ily (:

today morning, woke up at 9,
received 7 messages.
after that met dearest,
went jp to survey for roller blades!
all so expensive, still thinking of repairing my old one, season pair lah!
after that, had Baked rice for lunch. haha.
he tried to seduce me with his hairy legs. LOLS!

wcp next! slacked at mac, played diner dash ( he damn kan cheong ).
watched a little kindaichi den went out.
THAT LAO UNCLE CAN GO AND DIE!!!
ok at night my dearest getting abit cheeky. lols

horny face! hahahaha.

DORAEMON's favourite = my breakfast! CUTE RIGHT!

out of bordom, we exchanged our havaianas.
cute right! lols.

gay face! lols!

today abit horny. LOLS.
MAGIC WAND AH!
sick but lame, funny! hahahaha.

yay! accounts for me.
aerospace for dearest.
SAME CAMPUS!

which means more running =)

HEY! i'm here to post bout my results!!!
actually, i got psycho-ed to put Accountancy ( N51) as my 2nd choice.
Zhong Ming ( ex isetan staff and 3rd year at Ngee Ann Accountancy ),
explained that accountancy provides a larger range of job,
from bank to auditor.
though i was still hoping for banking and finance,
i'm glad that i got into accountnacy ( aiya, i have to convince myself ).
He said 2 years back Banking and Finance is like one of the lower rated course.
and he was surprised that i wanted to go B&F.
so i told him that the COP is like 11 now.

when i saw that sms stating tht i'm going to N51,
the first person i smsed was zhongming.
yay, got free tuition. LOLS
have fun in the surbodinate court as INTERNAL AUDITOR!.
cool right, for attachment. LOLS.
k lah, gotta meet my dearest later.
byebye

work was boring.
but managed to get 2 sales.
the people are like, so little that you can actually COUNT.
so azirah, hida and i, kept going in and out of the store to slack,
for dont know how many times.
theres once Julia went to check.
me and hida looked at each other, giving each other the relieved face.
"lucky we not inside ah"
had ljs for break.
after work, went walk walk, survey on GUESS bags.
shall wait for sales den buy, save $$

I HATE JULIA! GORGE HER EYES OUT.
SMASH SHIT INTO HER FACE!
ARGHHHHHHHH!

bloody hell.
mum called while dearest was sending me home.
she was like bringing up everything at one go.
i'm very pissed.
IF PEOPLE CAN HAVE A WIFE/HUSBAND and work at the same time,
WHY CANT I STUDY AND HAVE A BOYFRIED.
this was my argument.
she said, "they are working, because they are forced, they have a family to look after"
like wtf, YOU THINK I DONT WANT A GOOD AND STABLE JOB AH?

she still thinks i'm too young to have a boyfriend.
she compares me to her ( which is a obvious generation gap ),
so i brought in my brother, since he had a gf at 17.
her reply was, she didn't allow initially..
but i answered in the end u still let them be together what.
his gf can even come to our house, NOW, i'm only requesting to go out with my bf lor.
her reply was, shes always overseas.
I HATE THIS.

so she started bringing how, BOYfriend caused me to return home late.
she even said herself, when you have a bf, you want to spend as much as ur freetime with him.
den why cant she understand what i'm going through ( i answerd her this )
and since i knock off earlier than he does, den i go find him lah.
den she was like have to see everyday meh.
OBVIOUS WHAT! in love you just want to see the person everyday!
she asked, dont you find it very troublesome to meet and he ahs to send you home,
and then him going home from here.
this one i nv give reply lah, but i wanted to say,
THESE ARE THE SACRIFICES WE ARE MAKING TO SEE EACH OTHER!

she used to tell me, DONT COME HOME SO LATE, it's very dangerous.
cus last time got several molest/rape cases.
NOW THAT i have someone to send me home and SAFELY,
shes complaining bout returning home late cus i'm dating with a guy.
i told her this lor, she's always trying to find fault with me,
i really dont know what's next.

she went into studies, i mean, going out so frequently now,
doesnt mean in the near future, we'll be hanging out till so late what.
anyone can talk behind you and say, with a boyfriend, you cannot concentrate alr lah.
BUT YOUR OWN FAMILY MEMBERS?! hah. what a joke.
now, i'm only left with my bf and friends.
if i think i can, den i will.
you think my bf next time no need to support his family ah, wth.
he still needs to study what.
and i will study hard for my future job lah. wtf!
if you wanna doubt me, you can, i dont care.
but you better not come out with some shit to push away whatever i've proven.
nothing i say will convince her now.
only time will tell.

ok lah, enough of shit today, my sales today 3 pairs, not too bad =)
but it was boring. not much ppl.
only Zhenwei's jokes make me laugh a little.
in the morning play taiji at night do singapore workout! HAHA!
went break with Hida again, kfc this time.
TUE OFF!
=)

today work was ok + a lil boring.
in the morning, stocks came, just got to know hes called colin.
den stock check to waste time. LOLS.
went break at 3. went Hida my new friend.
went far east, i ate i forgot what. she ate tom yum claypot.
in the end, late for work! hahahaha.
den stayed for one and a half hours den ZAO ALR!
today one sales -_-" sad...

sigh, in the end nv meet my pri sch mates.
FASTER MEET UP AGAIN AH PEOPLE!!!

went to hougang, boss ( ken ) place very big,
maybe cus my hse too small lah.
the floor ah, is like those condo type.
very veyr big lah. lols. wah lao. so jealous...
i hope i can afford those in the near future.
no need so big lah, but maybe 4 or 5 room will do.
den lao yusheng!!! again! LOLS.
ate food. oiishiii man!!!!
den had fruits. talked to janice and jessie.
got to know many people. even colin was there.
received ang pao, den Ken started their casino.
but i didnt play lah, cus no $$.

went home bout 9+ with jessie,
reached home bout 10+.
i miss dearest!!!!!
and i want timbuk2 tote and laptop messenger!!!!

today didnt meet my boy, misssss him soooooooooooo much! =)

today, boring again.
sold one ONLY! pathetic
yesterday after i left, the others sold another one. so i got 6! yay!
Julia was zzzzzzzzzzzzz. supervisor are nth but a POS!
they do nothing, given their experience and they just keep ordering ppl around.
like they think they are BF because they think they are BIG.

after work, rushed down ( i tried ok ) to dearest's place.
but damn unlucky, cus i waited DAMN long for the bus.
the traffic was slow.
PLUS! i had to alight at somewhere near chijmes and WALK to suntec. wth!
because i think they changed the route due to chingay.
fantastic man, so i was like shit, i better hurry up before he starves.
lols, i walked full speed. aft that, met him and we settled at kfc.
ate cheese fries again..
went back and he got very angry. ( he saw 2 trolleys of his stocks )
so i helped him pack a little =)
den tried to keep him calm lah! because hes like kancheong + frustrated.
talked to his supervisor ( like extra only lah! haha. )
got a drink, MISSED the bus, waited for quite sometime.

in the bus, something bad just had to happen.
we were talking bout our job.
den he asked me to quit mine and join his.
i said smth like " why would i quit to take a lower paid job"
my intention was clear that i wasnt trying to put him down.
the fact is, if you're gettng paid 50cents-$1 more per hour,
of course you would stick to the current job.
maybe he misread or mistaken me.
but he said i LOOKED DOWN on his job.
den i felt very hurt...
sigh, when he needed a job, i was at all sites to search for a suitable one.
encourage him on the first day of work... den smth happened aft that.
he sent me home. now i'm here talking to him online.

My First Valentines'

my key for my cupboard where my shoes are kept CUTE RIGHT!
it's havaianas! LOLS
Work was ok today, quite boring because Julia was around.
but good thing i had the other ppl there to talk and laugh with.
and my dearest for messaging me (:
time was slow...
so anyway, today i sold 5 pairs!!! smth i've never done before, feel so satisfied =)
uncle jay said, today is not Vday, its SANUK day! yay!!
break went to eat sushi.
after break, Julia gone ( apparently, Uncle Jay and Zhenwei overheard her saying,
JULIA is going to celebrate her valentines, so she told the ppl notto disturb. )
they got kinda shocked. OMG! SHE-VALENTINES?!!?
like eeeeeee, so old alr.
uncle jay said she spent like 30 years working in isetan.
and freak! SHE IS STILL A SUPERVISOR?!?
ok, so after work , talked to zarzar, the other small girl and zhenwei.
gonna miss her man, no one to talk to me alr =(
we talked bout education in Singapore and Myanmar.
oh, we talked bout C. Ronaldo. ( not abt hw gd looking he is, dearest )
so she kinda pretended to be CR's girlfriend.
and like picking her up after work. haha. out of lame-ness....
so yeah, i just entertained lah, so join her!
dearest, we didnt talk much bout CR, it's just her acting as CR's gf.

afterwards, left my place..
when i was going out of the glass door.
TADAH! someone in red outside the door,holding bear bear.
my jaws dropped wide open (exaggerate)
it was a suprise, because i thought i was suppose to go to his place...
and wait for him to finish work, so we could go for dinner.
HE ACTED LAH! like msging me "sorry, i'm dealing with the customers"
bluff me! haha, but this one i dun mind. dun lie to me in other areas.
so i was really touched lah! like whao, he self ended work early for me. awwwwww.
wah, so i had BEARBEAR! choco and a special handwritten memo.
afterwards, went to Ramenten! quite alot of people.
i had TC don, he had spicy karagge ramen.
orange juice and deepfried squid.
i think we ate very long, so aft that we saw Larry and Audrey while walking out to the bus stop.
headed home.
showed him my presentation, alamak. he teared! haha. so cute lah him!
actually i kinda forgot what happened in the bus. stm.
i reached home, den he sent me up. kissed goodbye. and here i am!

oh ok, my boy received his first kiss from me? wahahhaha.
i think he's over the moon.

please take a look at his left hand ( our right side )!
it's the watch i've given him =)

my bear bear is too shy to take a picture, so no pics.
HEHE.

" Sometimes in life, good things come in a pair. It simply takes on to have the other. It takes some silence to make sound. It takes a loss before you find something back. Even to get old, it takes you to be young first. It takes some fears before you trust. And it takes each of us to make the couple we are now" -Muhammad 'Isham

THE BELOW IS DEDICATED TO THE #1 FAN OF spiritualjoy.bs.com
the one who checks my blog almost every min.
the fastest person who gets all my updates.

Thanks for being part of my life.
even though it's only 3 months, it felt like we've been together for years.
I wanna thank you ( again ), for everything you've done for me all these while..
thanks for always giving in to me whenever we had quarrels.
thanks for being there when i needed you.
and then... Sorry for whatever i've failed to live up to.
sorry for always finding faults with you.
sorry for being SO HARD TO PLEASE!
but in anyway, thank you for being such a great boyfriend.
someone who would hold on and never let go of me.
i want to say a BIG THANK YOU!
and i love you lots. hehe.
thanks for making my first valentines so wonderful.

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY cum 3rd month... =)

today was EXTREMELY boring!
no customers, but managed to get 1 sales.
yay! angpao from my boss- $20.
i'm 20bucks richer. this sat got dinner at boss's house,
get to know the rest of the sanuk promoters. still thinking whether to go.
while working, was messaging dearest, slacked and slept in the toilet ( see so pro )
talked to Zar Zar, she refused to spend her valentines with me ( since we are both working tmr )
Azirah good lor! OFF tmr! i still gotta work, sad.
tmr's Zarzar last day, which means! i get 1 person less to talk to.
sometimes we do have miscommunication, but most of the time, we get each other.

alamak, even jiahui is gone... i'm like so pathetic man.
ok so anw, i always countdown to my end of work.
met my boy after that ( i've been meeting him almost everyday, if you realise )
took bus, waited very long man.
den in the bus, i said he horny bastard den he tickle my tummy. assss.
my reaction was very big ( as usual ), den my forehead hit his ( somewhere near the knee cap)
all bones! painful.
den when he tried to blow into my ear.
my reaction too big, my shoulders hit his jaw. LOLS
den very loud. wuha! fun right dearest?

went home. and now doing some touch up for tmr. =)

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY ( shall blog again )

it's vday today!

HELLO! i'm blogging again.
today, OFF day! yay! dearest tooooooo!
so anw, in the mrng, go my grandma house,
afterwards, go nanny's house.
stayed till bout 5.
wah, lots of memory. haha!
TOY BOX!!!
tarzan and jane more cute! hehe.

dearest waited for me for 5 HOURS! wuha!
thanks so much, dear!
wuha! showed him the watch alr. hope he likes it.
Muhd 'Isham, stop asking for the price. lols
shall post up the watch when he's wearing it =)
so after that, we went west coast park.
went mac, ate sundae.
saw Marlene!!! alamak. kinda miss the old times.
haha. den we went to the place ( i dont know what isit called ),
alot of rocks there... den got the sound of the waves.
it was good at first, the sky was pretty =)
wah, my guy is always full of ideas.
but when it got dark,
DAMN! there were RATS ( ok lah, chi new year, rat year suppose to be prosperous, BUT ),
i very scared, cus it was squeking like wtf.
and the crickets.
ok, thats the only disadvantage.
the weather, atmosphere, so romantic la!
ok, my guy is romantic afterall. heh (:
like lying down, on his shoulders, gazing the stars....
wah lao. another of my dream.
but it would have been better if we could spend more time there. heh.
den like drama mama ( wake up in the morning and realise it's morning )
lols, we i was like, before it even reaches the next morning,
*isham imitates our hp ringtone*
"WHERE ARE YOU?!#$%%$%!$%^&" - our parents.

so cute, oh so ya, he sang abit of s.h.e's superstar and remember! DAMN CUTE! haha
his new quote- "only good boyfriends do that"
his eyes were freaking big even when he's facing the sun- freak.
whereas mine were like even smaller ( it's alr small)
went off bout 9+.
walked quite a distance to the busstop.
waited for the bus, off we go and here i am.

watched the X(ex) Effect on MTV asia.
what a show, but ok, they eventually chose back their own partner.
Basically, whats the objective of the show is to test the current relationship.
2 couples, and one of the guy and girl are actually ex.
so they have to go for a date, ( as in stay together ),
whereas their current partner will be watching them ( without them knowing- spying lah )
wtf man, if my boy go touch his ex girlfriend, he can go to hell.
talking is fine, but touch !$%^
so alot of jealousy lah.
but in order to appease her current guy, the best thing to do is to break off ties wth your ex.
which is a big sacrifice, esp if he's been part of your life.
the only good thing bout the show is that, her prom dress very nice. LOLS!

see you again on valentines!
ilyllllllllll

anw! i had a tiff with dearest just now.
it was dumb, over playing music. wtf.
but i really hate it lor. like wth.
after that i was ok, ( or at least pretend to be )
because i know i'll make him upset if i continue that way.
see i'm so nice. ( valentines day coming lah. lols )
doesnt mean i'm only nice during this period of time lah!

this lyrics to explain what i wanna say.

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
( leona lewis - bleeding love )

Hais.

today's work was boring.
it's a weekday and not much customers.
but i managed to sell 1 pair =) and the customer thanked me for my patience.
wah, so far, it's the first! so i was ultra happy.
that i told dearest bout it, true lah, i didnt thank him for his love.
so i shall be grateful and make it known. THANK YOU!
Rashidah, Zhen Wei and I were talking bout the chinese and muslim way of handling people who passed away. interesting exchange.
Julia on duty today.
she was ok lah, cus i dont care bout her, she also dont care bout me.
another myanmar guy came to take over uncle jay for today.
i dont know his name but there are alr alot of burmese here.
like 3! lols. + him 4 alr! but they have got really good english.
accurate.

other than that, i slack in the toilet and msg dearest behind the shoe boxes. haha.
had lunch with Randy. wah. i scared!
read my last post.
and now is like everybody is thinking he's taking drugs.
his face looks sloppy, not ready for work.
but he claims he didnt take any pills and is ok.
but definitely, we realise a change in his attitude, character and behaviour.
almost EVERYone noticed it.
alamak. i hope the old ppl are here ( Jasmine, Asyraf, Cheo Hao and ppl )
zhenwei and i were noticing zombie's 2 GOLDEN chains.
like wah, BIG AH, after cny become rich.
i miss Nora lah ( the first girl i met )
i told her Julia is like the evil step mother. asshole face.
azirah ( i think she's called this ) and i were talkng bout lots of stuffs.
ok, you always see me talking. LOLS.

after work, wanted to go fareast to take 132 to hougang, but DON'T HAVE!
so i had to go back to scotts bus stop, and realised that 132 takes a LONG time to reach,
den took the train instead.
while walking to the escalator, cheo hao tab me hard on my shoulders ( ok lah, he's super tall ).
den i was like "who the hell is this", den oh "HI!" den go off. LOLS.
GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR A's RESULTS!
i think it's one day after Vday. haha. good luck good luck.
sial lah, he represent in inter-jc pageant dunnoe what shit lah.
lols. zhongming aspire to be like him.
yadah yadah, decided to meet dearest at cityhall mrt after his work.
slacked awhile before going home.
both of us got screwed badly.

my mum scolded me for having a boyfriend again,
she complains i return home late everyday ( my fault, i admit ).
she STILL thinks i can't handle bf and studies.
one more time she's gonna say this,
i make sure i say these to her.
" DOES IT MEAN WHEN YOU HAVE A FAMILY, YOU DONT HAVE TO WORK?"
"DOES IT MEAN WHEN YOU HAVE KIDS, YOU DONT CARE BOUT YOUR WIFE?"
if all adults can do the above, i dont understand why i cant handle such a simple thing,
as to cope with bf and studies.
and she said my boyfriend wasnt goooood. WTF! nooo! hes better than what you think he is.
even though we went home late, he still sent me home, risking the chance of being scolded by his parents lor. at least better than having boyfriend that throws you alone when it's late.
nvm nvm, it's too early to say anything to convince anyone.
one year later, two years later, three years later, four years later, five years later,
six years later, seven years later, eight years later,
i'll tell you, " hey, lucky i didn't listen to you 8 years back, if not you'll never be able to repay my loss". den i can tell everyone proudly how we went through our parent's restriction.
hahaha, i know it's bad to disobey parents, then again, can't we have some rights of our own?
especially if it's something that involves your own life? why let others decide for you.
you do what you think is right, whatever your decision is, you take the consequences.
it's not like they haven't been in love before, so why can't they just understand!?

i always love you.

work was funny + scary today.
many wished me happy cny as i enter my work level.
then, the shocking thing bout work was that Randy became very weird.
i was yawning during work and he said, dont yawn infront of him.
if not he'll kiss me. LOLS.
not only that, he was just super weird.
Anna and staffs were thinking that he took some pills.
i also dont know lah.

Rashidah got me bread from the bakery dwn at isetan supermarket. yay =)
NO sales today. =(
but who cares, as long as i get my pay. hehehe.
wth right.
had sushi for 'lunch'. unagi taste good. hehe.
den was waiting for time to pass to end work and RUSH to dearest's place.
Anna and i was talking bout Fat guys.
she said that Fat Guys appear to be lazy. and it's not self inflicted.
it's because physically, their fats are heavy, which makes them lazy to move.
but fat guys are cute lah!
haha. my dearest's just right.
got hour glass figure.
small ass, big breast( the ones at the back ).
must enhance his ass. LOLS! wth.
crap.

after that go suntec.
met him, ate, drank.
waited for 97 for REALLY LONG.
den reached je, changed 98.
thanks for sending me back home again.
till we meet again.
tmr, cannot, tue cannot,
maybe wed or Vday? i show you my masterpiece. haha. just wait and see.

LOVE SONG! - When you say nothing at all

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

[CHORUS:]
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
(The crowd)
Try as they may
Could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

[Repeat chorus twice]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

[Repeat chorus]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

ANOTHER ONE! - FROM THE HEART

I know you've heard these words
A hundred other times before
And you've been hurt and so
Your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart
And brought you lies

Look in my eyes
You'll see a love that's deep and true
Tender and strong
And all for you
You can trust this love
Honest that's the honest truth

Chorus:
From my heart
I'm giving you everything(everything)
From my heart
I promise you that I'll be there(I'll be there to love you)
From the soul
I'm showing you all I feel(all I feel is..)
From my heart
From the heart...

I will protect you
And respect you
And be all you need
And when you reach for love
You only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down

They're staying around
I'll help you through every storm
I'll keep you safe
I'll keep you warm
And you'll have no doubt
You're the one I'm living for

Chorus:
From my heart
I'm giving you everything(everything)
From my heart
I promise you that I'll be there(I'll be there to love you)
From the soul
I'm showing you all I feel(all I feel is..)
From my heart
From the heart...

I'll provide the love you need
Just trust my touch
Believe in me
I'll never make you cry
Giving all I got with..all I've got is...

Chorus:
From my heart
I'm giving you everything(everything)
From my heart
I promise you that I'll be there(I'll be there to love you)
From the soul
I'm showing you all I feel(all I feel is..)
From my heart
From the heart...

i PON work for the first time today.
reason, was cus i was sick of the sickening face of julia ( partly ),
and i would rather give up that $42 in exchange of time... ( with myself, initially ).
so my initial plan was just to walk around, think hard, really hard.
seriously, what right does a person have, to bother/control who i'm dating.
NO ONE LOR! wtf. so just get your hands off my stuffs.
you can't judge a person's intelligence by knowing whether they have a partner.
and then again, HAVING A PARTNER DOESN'T MEAN I CAN'T STUDY
( i mentioned this before ). I HATE IT LOR!
!#$%^&@
i swear i will study hard.

SO ANW, i failed to have time with myself, because my dearest eventually joined me.
he also skipped work. alamak.
and then... this is the part i feel bad about.
when he was asked where i was,
i refused to tell ( i kept persuading him to go to work )
the only clue was " near the mosque"
he had to search the whole paragon ( and sadly i wasn't there )
so i guess he was a lil' pissed because his legs were aching and he was irritated by me.
In the end, i told him i'm at heeren.
but no exact location yet,so he had to search again (and you know heeren has quite alot of shops)
so he found me at hmv, 3rd level.
we both had "that" look, when we first saw each other.
he pulled my hand really tight while i try to pull away.
yadah yadah, we saw "doraemon's movie" den i was smiled ( meaning ok alr ).
den when we left heeren, he went on talking bout his hardship.
thats when i felt really guilty.
i mean really, not many guys would do this...
esp when the freaking place is so freaking big.
but it puts him in test of patience,perseverance, determination and LOVE!
and he passed it all =) yay. so nice of you.

afterwhich we went to paragon's M1 to see our future phones.
we've decided to get nokia 6120 classic.
I'M GETTING THE WHITE ONE =) you take the black hor, the blue also nice.
it's cheap, plus user friendly, has 3g, 2mp cam and flash, slot in mini sd card.
went lucky plaza for his lunch.
in the end i ate also! had kaya toast and dont know what egg.
then we had ice kachang, cold like shit.
headed home, took bus.
changed 30 at vivo.
we slept in the bus like some ass.
swaying according to the direction of the bus ( no wait, i'm serious ).
but both of us were really tired.
he sleep damn cute! LOLS!

slacked at the park.
talked bout the past, the present and the future.
we've got it all planned, but hopefully we can carry out those plans ( in 10 years time. LOLS )
talked abit of crap also ( aiya. we only talk serious stuffs when we quarrel )
left, got a drink.
dearest peeled orange like machine gun. LOLS.
i feel so lousy. i'm a girl and i dont know how to peel oranges.
so anw, he taught me the right way to eat oranges ( esp removing the seeds )
slacked, 1m diameter sensor ah, dearest.
first time see dearest VERY EMBARRASSED until he blushed.
ok lah, usually he's too brown to blush ( hehe ).
but this time he did, he humiliated himself. LOLS.
we got off quite late eh, like 11+, close to 12.
he's gonna get into deep shit cus of me i guess. hah

in exchange of those time we spent today, like ( lets start from 2pm )
8-9 hours, those $42 ( for me ) are nothing compared to time with him.
really, sometimes i wish i could appreciate and be grateful with what i already have.

dearest, thanks for all the sacrifices (:
i dont have to say how much i love you,
because some things are better left unsaid. hehehehehe

by the time i finish this post, my man must be asleep alr.
so here it goes, as requested, i'll write longer on ytd's outing.
i was LATER than him. darn.
so headed to cine.
wanted to catch PS I love you, but got cj7 instead.
i've talked bout the details of the show.
so i'll skip that.but i just got to know that dicky was a girl.. hmm

before it started, we had kfc.
that man cannot finish the chicken.
we had a bet, whether it's wipped potato or mashed potato at kfc and i WON!
yay!

after the show, headed home. 30 damn lots of people. zzzzz
in the bus, we had another bet, which is the travelling time from his place to my place.
and he won! shits.
went to the park. went gome bout 1030
eat steamboat. wahahahha.
stupid boy.
i like blowing into his ears. wahaahahahha
bully bully!

first time experience to spend time with my bf on 初一. first day of cny.

today, supposed to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd with my mum.
but in the end, couldnt watch, cus TOO MANY PPL,
and no more tickets. wah lao. ( i reached at 4_ and the next time available was 9+)
vivo, crowded, though not many shops open.
so shopped a little, i got a simple wallet from mango.
which means i have to let go my Guess wallet for the moment.
but that SIMPLE wallet wasnt cheap.
gt a top from there also, den went to eat, at coffee club.
i had muddy mud pie, taste so nice, but you know how much calories it contains.
but who cares, even my mum says i'm fat.
so dearest, HOW CAN YOU NOT SAY I'M FAT! haha.
( maybe just act only )
after that, went to shop MORE.
i forgot what time i reached home, but it was quite late.

sigh, tmr have to work. i hate to see the sickening face of JULIA.
but then again, i love $$.

i've been thinking alot bout not spending time with your partner on Vday.
actually, not a big deal afterall.
but of me, i dont know ( maybe just me ),
it's worst, because our 3rd month happens to fall on the same day.
ah, but anw, when a couple are in love,
everyday is valentines day =)
so no worries!
valentine is just another day lor! ( trying hard to convince myself )
of cus i'm expecting some surprises. LOLS ( WTH , kidding )
i myself will prepare some.

ANW, I FOUND CHOCOLATE ART ( the old shop located at Holland V )
it's at VIVO, near vivo mart.
someone get me those chocos. mmmmmmm.

have a good night ppl.

Cj7 today!
lame and funny show!
but all the children and cj7 was damn cute!
the story abit sad, cus cj7 died! just because he saved dicky's dad.
poor, but with dignity, you gain respect from ppl.

2-0 to Saudi Arabia.
actually not too bad, possible to make a comback during the return leg.
26 march is a wed and i dun care, i'm going to watch them play against lebanon
in SINGAPORE!

now watching portugal and italy.
hehehehe. soccer freak back in action.
no worries, i'm not looking at cristiano ronaldo.

go boys!

A BRAND NEW YEAR.

新年快乐!
first of all, wanna wish all readers a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. =)
团圆饭( reunion dinner ) was ok,
short but good.
thanks dearest for waiting....!
headed home, ate cny goodies.
hais, turning even fatter.

work was ok today,
since that old virgin ( ok lah, it's cny and i shall be nice ), JULIA.
was not here, zombie wasnt here,
we concluded that they went to lao "yu sheng" together =)
when we return to work on sat, they wanted me to
ask zombie whether she's married, have children anot..
haha. den report to uncle Jay.

tmr plan will see how it goes.
ang pao ang pao ang pao!

chua shi lin please stop getting any fatter.

today, hais, long story.
abit sad...
i miss having family gathering...
looks like it's never gonna happen again.

i miss isham gay wahahhahaha.

today's work was boring.
but managed to chat abit with jasmine and ppl.
that idiotic old virgin fucking said i disappeared 2 days ago.
hah. wtf, get your facts right, before you start accusing, old virgin.
wed when i get back to work, i'm gonna draw a human figure,
and take any of my shoes and HIT "HER"! wahahahahaha.
evil, but who cares =)

after work, went to supermarket, no golden mushrooms. zzzzz.
went suntec again ( there must be a reason for going there of cus ).
ok lah, went to see handsome guy ( which is him. wahahaha )
ate mcflurry! waited, train-ed home.
while walking to the mrt station, guess who we saw!
MARK LEE!
he was out of his car, dunnoe with who,
den i see his shadow, body shape, pattern like mark lee.
so confirm it's mark lee.
'Isham said he became gay.
so i said it must be cus of the Ah Long Ptd Ltd ( the movie in which he was a gay )
dearest called him out of no intention, "MARK GAY"
so laughed like some idiot, and dropped on the floor laughing! wahahahaha.
it's still funny now! =)

sigh, tmr off. dearest working.
thursday friday off,
dearest also working...
WHEN am i gonna go out with my boyfriend?!?!
!#$%^&*

dearest listening to wilber pan is the weirdest thing that can happen!
but whatever, i shall spam him with more of his songs,
and he'll get obsessed like me ( ok lah, not so obsessed ),
so he'll agree with me that he is good =)
but i know he'll say that he is better ( kinda expected )
lols.

!$%^&
ytd went suntec..
den went home.
freak. took bout 1 and a half hours.
lucky nv kena scolded.
at clementi, i saw ah hao ( sakae kitchen )
but nv talk lah, cus rushing home.
reached home, showered, online-d, slept.

yay, the boys are playing on new year's eve,
they say if you dun sleep on new year's eve, your parents will live longer.
so i watch tv, online, live updates from the boys, sleep in the morning =)
den get angpao!! oh wait, and movie =)

tired tired tired tired.
zzzzzzz go sleep alr.
byebye!

HEAD SHOT, BANG!

i almost died today. ALMOST.
i got reprimanded like a absolute loser today.
shit got into me somehow.
it sucks when everyone tells you,
" It's all your fault! "
" Why are you so careless?"
" You should have............"
it doesnt feel good at all, and obviously, that old virgin( quoted from zhongming ),
tried to make things really big. i wouldnt give a damn.
instead of people taking pity of me ( this new girl ).
it got worst.
i felt like Dr Stockmann, but unlike him, i've got not Catherine, no pillar of support.
when the sky is falling and i'm the only one holding on to it,
all i needed was someone to say "Hey, everything will be ok. we'll hang on to it."
so there came a guy, who said, " dont worry, i'll handle this"
"it's only a small matter, she's only making it big"
after hearing this, i broke down into tears.
reason being, i've never felt this way before, NEVER.
if i had a chance to meet this guy again, i would thank him with all my heart.
at the point where you're feeling nothing buy hopeless,
someone tells you, Hey! you're never the worst.
it feels so good, it feels good being stood up for.
what he said wasn't any words of consolation, i know. because i was ok before that.
i was so touched by his words, really.
i've never met him, and for a stranger to do that, it makes it more touching.

to think that i'm actually lousy, worse than worst, hopeless...
i feel depressed, sad or whatsoever.
i went up to the 4th floor toilet to cry for an hour.
i've never cried this badly, for a long time.
and when i cry, i really do.
i was on the verge of quitting and i even prepared an sms to my boss.
but before i could send it, she called.
she asked if i was ok, and i was still crying,
she asked if i got scolded. she was concerned bout me.
i thank her for that, beacause she made me feel better, instead of making things worst.
soon, i washed up and got back to my station.
the other promoters saw my crying face.
so i cried again, at the storeroom.
it was short, but loud cry. suddenly, i felt like a child.
i hope mummy was there to protect me.
i thought again, i'm sixteen. old enough to be independent.
alot of promoters consoled me,
" just treat it as she's bullshitting/farting"
"the more you cry, the more she'll be delighted"
" everything will be alright, dont cry anymore"
"i got scolded from her also, it's not worth crying because of her"
after my break, i was ok alr.
i read my book " For One More Day by Mitch Albom"
slacked, served a few customers ( which really perks up my day )
there was this customer, who was getting shoes, and he told me he got 35 pair of shoes,
he just bought Dr Martens ( 4 pairs ) of shoes last week, for $79
but isetan sells them at $99. so expensive!
he was deciding between to colours of the timberland shoes,
and he asked me for my opinion,
he took my pick and off he goes! =)
so i went home at 8.

special thanks to those ppl who lent me a shoulder, who consoled me.
just knew you guys for a week, but still very nice ppl.

it sucks more when my guy's phone is as good as not having.
he's working plus cannot sms, working also cannot call. zzzzzzz
sucks sucks. but i know he's trying his best, so no complains.

Dearest, if only you were there....
there when i needed you so desperately.

hello everybody, did anyone miss me?
wahahaha.
yesterday, sales was bad. 0 when i left, hopefully the other promoters
helped me, since Isetan decided to extend buisness hours til 1030.
yesterday both Ah Cat and Julia was around. so couldnt slack at the store room.
so go toilet ALOT of times =)
there weren't alot of people. so who cares anyway.

afterwork, went to centrepoint to find dearest.
went to shop also lah.
mark & spencer. i found my beloved ham chips.
though it cost and bomb and i'm turning FATTER, i dun give a damn. LOLS
i went times, got 3 books, cost a bomb also, 30+ after discount,
it's a 3 for 2 promotion.
anyway, i've NEVER IN MY LIFE bought books before.
so i thought it'll be good to read up( as promised )
and since, i talk to me boy in english.. ( no other languages to talk alr )
so i hope my eng will improve. my chinese i seriously HECK! lols.
cus poly no chinese =)
i went to robinsons, bought choco from dearest. FONDUE FONDUE!
bought pierre cardin bras also.
OMG FREAKING CHEAP.
2 sets for just $29! additional 20% dist.
so ended up like 23++
for 2 sets.
but designs are limited of cus.
the one i really like cost $32 for a set, plus 20% dist.
but still, more expensive than the 2 sets of bra. so decided not to get.
maybe get it from malaysia. heh.
so i ended up going with big and small bags.

dearest looked goooooooooooooooooooooood.
become man alr, finally. haha
oh anw, because i was in FULL BLACK,
and supposingly, all promoters in robinsons are in FULL BLACK,
one of the promoters actually smiled and waved, like i know her. LOLS
wth. so lesson for everybody, dont wear full black when going to malls.
you can be mistaken as PROMOTER!

anw, my man sent me home, though i tried to persuade him as usual,
he missed the freaking bus. oh my oh my.
when he called at 12.30, i dropped dead on my bed already.

Muhd 'Isham Bin Suprayitno, I PROMISED to blog,
so i will =). THIS DUMMY GUY SAID I GOT TRIPLETS!
freak, he was trying to suan my FATS!
*&^%!$%
hais, so sad.

but anyway, my boy is still HOT!
'Isham Panas!

Newyorkkkkkkkkkkk!