I AM HAPPY!

i shouldn't be, because it's the worst results I received in my years in NP.
I was expecting something worse of.
so i should not complain!!
I GOT B GOT CLSP!!
YAY i was expecting C+!
Audit and FMGT was a slight disappointment.
but i'm ok. just fine...
considered that i miss many classes this sem, especially Audit lectures.
but i've always attended RFA lectures leh, results still like tt. HAHA
no la, the paper was crap.
ok it's over!
i'm happy for now!
my accumulated gpa seems like my on off dream for uni is slipping off from my own hands.

the other day(long time ago)
Joscelin Yeo(retired swimmer) wason this talk show
with his brother who was also a swimmer...
anw,she is a nominated MP i think...
argh, i ought to read the news sometimes.
ok, whatever.
she said this thing...(not quoted but same meaning)
"sometimes you spend 4 years training for a race that only lasts for 2minutes, or some 1 minute, you do the same routine everday"
what pushes you is your enjoyment from daily routine.
and it's not the end results that matter...
it's that you enjoy the process!!

so meaningful, at least to me.
I can't seem to see myself enjoying studying.
i can't enjoy the process
but can't go anyway with 3.42

another semester of exams and i'll be off to attachment.
Poly so far have been enjoyable.
In fact i think i was at the peak of my learning curve(not academic wise)
in terms of speech, independence, learning new stuffs like FUTSAL!
I used to have stage fright even with the smallest group.
I have slight autism(self discovered, but it was obvious to see)
If you know me young enough, i am almost non-existent in class. teachers often complain i'm too quiet i don't mix around, i don't like making friends, you don't talk to me, i won't talk to you(still the same now) but ok, things have changed too much for the better that i'm super chatterbox now! HAHA
the worst thing is, autism kids/adults are very sensitive to light/sound.
I am very sensitive to sustained repeated sounds.
Oscillating fans are ok now, got used to it in school. but it was killing me getting used to it! LOL.
don't try them on me, i'll go berserk.

is this an open secret? lol
no, there's nothing to hide.
That's Shi Lin for you! =D
Thanks babe for always giving in to me with regards to this.
I remember national day parade last year, there was this repeated voice recording that tells you the route is leading to cityhall mrt or smth.
and it just keeps repeating...
I ran for my life, plugged my mp3
Babe was angry not because he couldn't catch up with me.
but because i didn't tell him I was gonna run
so he lost me for a moment.
(:
i find myself so irritating at times.

I hate empty promises

I hate making empty promises.

even though half of the time i break them.

This post is dedicated to my Pri sch friends, whom i failed to meet today.

esp Dear Amanda since she was the only girl.

I promise history will not repeat itself.

2nd April I would be present and we will have loads of fun.

Just know that it wasn't intended

and I LOVE YOU GUYS =D

Suit yourself...

It's such a crude last word to leave for your partner

because it leaves your partner speechless.

it simply means you do what you like i do what i like...

i hate using it that word to shut a person up. like WHATEVER~

most of the time, it'll result in cold war for a few days/weeks.

or a really really nasty argument.

How can i then look at an imperfect person, perfectly,

because in every of us, we want people to accept us for who we are.

we seek acceptance from people...

Infidelity

It sucks...

totally.

and i fucking hate cheaters

too too too too many people are cheating.

Forgive and forget? HELL NO!!!

how can you sleep with other women and still have feelings for your wife?

alamak!

and no... I don't have a broad heart leh.

or maybe i should learn =DDDDDDD

but hope i WILL NEVER have the chance to learn

so bf, either be faithful or eff off =D

updates!

Interview went ok...

Goalkeeping super not easy =(

Indra retires from international football

Visited Bukit Panjang recently (:(:

Passed my btt

Ftt in june

got new socks =D

meeting clique on thursday

My bodyaching like free

jitao is instant effect after training

not easy to dive leh =(

but nvm, I will,I can do it

Miss what I had, but I'm happy with what I have NOW!

I miss what I had

But i'm happy with what I have

No la, not Ex-Bf!!!

that's so not important. wahahahaha

I miss netball.

but I'm happy with futsal.

but a long way to go.

It sucks

It sucks when your bf stops holding your hand,

ok, or rather my bf stopped holding mine...

i'm not exactly a very touchy person,

i also cannot hold his hands when i'm freaking tired...

but this holiday though we spent quite some time together

it felt different, why ah...

maybe it's just me getting used to your presence.

it might be a good or bad thing.

but i admit i've neglected you in many ways...

2 more days to our 28th month

but you'll be away

everything is fine =D

A great day

Passed BTT

Training without fear

but was tiring!

but I LIKE =D

I hope for a good day ahead

The long awaited day is here! =D

BTT tomorrow after a month and a half of wait.

won't say i've really STUDIED but i think i did put in sufficient effort for practice.

hopefully i'll get through this time so i don't have to waste money and waste MORE TIME.

so hope both 'Isham and I will pass!

and futsal training tmr after a long wait!!

gotta kick some balls!

oh ya guys, remember i went to watch the boys for the futsal tournament?!?!

guess who i saw?

Baizura!!! my netball idol now becomes futsal idol?

serious shit.... and she's not even a keeper!!

so i envy her man, ok work hard =D

now also alot of netballer turn soccer players

the whole team was in fact netballers

and the keeper was having some problems and had to be subbed.

i think was around 3 goals, i'm scared man!

K JIAYOU TMR!

Ah, I dreamt bout my pri sch mates again! yay!! =D

must be sy, she left for china ytd and i missed a goodbye message, damn,

and Amanda is back! though i haven't got to talk to her.

The dream was great. it was like... we're having a captain's ball competition

after 6 years? and everyone looked the same.

but i was in tanglin uniform, and i had 2 other classmates also in tanglin uniform

when in fact none of my 6F peeps came to tanglin.

weird. but whatever it is the dream was cool man!

SEX!!

ok holidays had been very very busy for me.

i don't know what i'm busy on.

but i have like tons of things i need to do.

sigh

beauty sleep plus endless fun

had 6 hours of sleep when i got back,

then had 11 hours of sleep at night till this morning...

slept another half an hour while waiting for Dearest.

A FOR VIEWPOINT!
SO HAPPY la!

town for shopping

came home empty handed but a few blazer and tops caught my eye =D

another day gone

Rush Hour Ultimate

Ever since exams ended....

bro's chalet had been to tiring...

endless job to do.

but glad i get to spend time with Babe!

other than the smoke smell, endless laughters(noise) from morning till morning...

I'm pretty pissed sometimes! even now! lol

aiyaaaa. whatever, 1st night was awesome!

checked in late, dinner and midnight movie + arcade!

plus free movie tickets! HIGH TTM!

Dear John was so touching that my nose got blocked from middle until the end of the movie.

nice nice!

slept at 2 woke up at 5.30

off to east coast watch the boys play!

didn't qualify =(

but it's ok, still proud of you guys!! =DD

went back chiong bbq,

had a hot night =(

k, i'm tired now.

nice bday cake from isham & i to bro.

hope you casino huat ah~~

hope your bday luck will also bring luck to the lions!

missed bsb concert too!! cus left the most expensive tickets

and it's standing!! stupid =(

i miss you bsb!

lastly, think i wouldn't have gone through all these without dearest!

thanks!! and after this experience i think we are more compatible! =D

and my mum/bro ah ma? showed signs of acceptance.

but it still remains a mystery ??

k sleep now!! byebye

Congrats~

Audit is over!!

Saf drew with Henan Jianye!

Geylang drew with Tai Po

Most importantly, Singapore will win Jordan!!

"You come Jordan, you die"

such crude words were exchanged between the players...

but no!! Singapore won't die!!

and hope Iran win thailand =D

March 3rd 12MN WOHOO~

the worst news is that one of my favourite players, Shaiful Esah is injured.

and dunnoe when he can play, may have to rest for a few months or until end of season.

sigh, my other favourite player John Wilkinson is down as well.

hope he'll recover in time for Jordan and parter with Harris since Mustafic is suspended

GOGOGOGO!!

FMGT =(

Why do men cheat on their wives when they are so pretty alr!!!

Greed, human just can't get enough.

Too much of anything is just not good man!@

Busy week!

Apart from the stupid chu stun rfa paper,

i'm left with 2 papers which i'll be done by friday,

then i have a long weekend at costa sands for my bro's 21st!

then get ready for Job search

then get ready for BTT

then get ready for Singapore Vs Jordan!!

wohooo~

vital 10mins

didn't get the reading time cus i was late.

it killed me.

i'm just hoping for a pass in RFA.

if not really retain and forget about attachment

waste one more sem of money

arghhhhh

If things were

I'm so effing proud that I don't drink and smoke.

I'm under bad influence.

people from broken family are not necessarily bad ok!!

but i admit, my family don't have good influences on me at all.

but thank god I have someone else to look up to.

so thanks babe for not allowing me to drink,

thanks mama&papa for instilling good character in me.

if not, i really cannot see where i would be today.

not that i'm successful, but i enjoy healthy lifestyle!

super wanna get married so i won't smell smoke for the rest of my life.

but who knows, i might die soon!

life is unexpected anw.

super hate it when u start drinking and start puking

arghhhhhhh.

Today I finally understand why.

Fuck all you third parties.

& NEVER, i will give my kids the best! =D

Thank you!!

effing pissed now. disgusted rather

thank god Chobur is back!!

super tempted to get pretty nails

WOHOOO~

大年初一！

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It's 初一 today.

今年收获还不错

Thanks lao pa, mummy, papa, mama, shushu, ah ma & kor kor

for your endless care and support!! =DD

今年羊会遇到小人！

是你吗？？

桃花运还不错哦！hehehe

till then, Chobur, you're dearly missed...

Hope you'll be back soon,

prepare for exams

and have a hell lots of fun!

before work =D

Have fun while you still can!

Loves!! & Happy Vday + Happy 27th!

祝大家，新年快乐，学业进步！

HUAT AH!~

If tomorrow never comes...

Tomorrow Chobur is going for holiday.

Tomorrow is CNY eve!!

reunion dinner at ah ma house as usual

2nd round at nanny's house.

how great!

hong bao hong bao!

Tmr blog again. hehe

Love all of you =D

Literally Over the MOON!

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I'm over the moon!!

Wee~~~~

pleasant surpise.

I knew 2010 is gonna be great!

anyone wanna date me during cny? lol

Tmr is gym day with Mb and study fmgt after that!!

chiong.

Meeting my girls on Friday.

Sat-Mon Lunar NewYear! & Mb is away.

HAPPY!

I dreamt too much about being a princess.

a richman's wife.

but being a richman's wife only has 1 aim, 1 goal, 1 meaning in life,

satisfying your husband!!

make up, mani&pedi, hair, mahjong, sex, status

sigh

can't wait for adulthood.

HONEYmoon!

Gamez

ALL THE GAMES CAME AT THE WRONG TIME.

Hooked to Cooking Dash yay-ness.

but i think i can complete in a few days!

haha Chey!!!

MOVIEZZZZ

Something tells me RFA gonna chu stun this time.

and i think it'll go back to investment property.

just a rough guess though.

thought of it while i was half conscious.

stressssssssss.

Much love!

can't wait to meet my girls&boys on 6th march!!!

or should it be men and ladies

army alr =( how fast!!!

What is life without a goal

Gave a serious thought about my future, like finally.

Thinking whether i should double my effort, try to enter a university.

But it's another 4 years of commitment. Can I commit? or will I falter?

It's always not nice when you're being looked down upon.

But maybe it's self inflicted once again...

I don't come from a family where I am put into that kind of environment and condition that I MUST qualify for University.

and even if i enter a university, i still have to take up PT jobs while studying.

My family can't afford fees so I prolly have to take up loan or smth.

WILL I? CAN I?

Josephine's book taught me...

It's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be!!!

ok, still in progress of deciding...

Suddenly missed my MOS picture my god!

2005 DAMMIT!

in 2005 i had to wait 4 years to step into MOS.

when i'm finally 18, MOS gone.

GREAT

but yay i've been there when i was 14!

5 years of football and counting!!

Ytd was the match of the best.

no best of the match?

opps i don't know.

but both teams were great.

the aunties&uncles were super entertaining.

the whole match was so tensed.

the thailand supporters were so loud!

shaiful esah didn't have a good game.

I was impressed by new jap player, can't rmb the name!

SAF had quite a few changes in their foreign players and i think that made a difference.

anw SAF won on penalities!

happy shitzzz!

now can i buy a SAF flag? hmm.

I kept thinking to myself,

the winner of ytd's match, will determine whether

Singapore or Thailand will qualify for AFC Asian Cup.

3rd March!

All the way to Jordan!

Best of luck boys!!

omg, i watched the boys from Young Lions to Old Lions?

no la, Champion Lions! haha

Backstreet boys to Backstreet man? hmmm

The last

The last performance and the last ride we took

The last picture you took for me!

Thanks for being such a good host.

Thanks for being part of my life even though we met only once

and we live miles apart...

Thanks for trying hard to speak to me in mandarin because i'm not good in cantonese.

Thanks for introducing me all the places in Hongkong.

Thanks for letting me be part of your birthday celebration with your friends.

Thanks for taking all the rides with me!

Thanks for treating me dinner!!!

Thanks for a wonderful stay in Hongkong!

Thanks for letting me use your laptop in Hongkong @ your house

when Facebook was already an everyday thing.

But 2 years back in Singapore, it was still friendster.

2 years on, i'm on facebook, but you're gone!

How could this be????????

HK flats are so tall...

where did you get the courage?

& Thanks for the last gift that you insisted...

the whale that died in ocean park.

you wanted to buy that cus i've not seen the whale before

you wanted me to remember that there's this whale that died in Oceanpark which i didn't get to see.

It's ironic =(

We crossed each other's life just ONCE.

but for sure, i won't forget!

Thanks for the memory!

Hope you'll see this from heaven!

and sorry to only have known that you passed on a year after.

ARGH

I am having my eaa test now.
i'm done, but no one's leaving!!
should i wait?

YAY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
YAY NO MORE CLSP NO MORE EAA!

Pissed.

Is there a need to rush me?

It was so bad that i had difficulty


I am writing this not because i'm angry.
it's because i want to remember this!

misses Shanghai

Misses SHANGHAI

Brain juize at it's very last

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drained for the last time this sem.

stayed till 10pm++ today just to finish Viewpoint!

It was a killer.

IF I SCREW THIS PROJECT, I'LL BECOME THE KILLER MAN!

CLSP is pissing me off.

and the one sucking my brain juices is you know who -_-

Training cancelled ytd!

there! my one and only chance to exercise.

HOLIDAYS!!!

nvm, this week passed exceptionally slow.

which i believe is due to an increase in workload.

but i am glad this week is coming to an end sooon!

AMK TMR! wohoooo~

Toshiba Damn Efficient!

Windows 7 reached my house by registered mail.

but no one was home, so gotta collect it as postoffice tmr or smth!

After Friday can change alr!!!! after EAA!

but thinking of saving it till end of exams.

cus abit troublesome.

ok, 26Feb den! =D

TMR END OF PROJ

WEEEEEEEE~

What a start to the week.

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Almost "finished off" viewpoint today.

But instead, viewpoint "finished" me instead.

All went well till generating the reports.

Had errors that kept us crazy for the rest of the day.

My brain officially stopped working.

My brain juices didn't secrete enough, my brain cells were all killed.

It was this bad. but i dunnoe if we'll be rewarded for such hardwork.

I seriously doubt so. our CLSP proj is always a disappointment. why??

Except for this viewpoint project,

everything is going to be great this week because

there won't be any tutorial

i'm prepared for eaa test

and lastly, i can start my revision for exams!

GET OVER AND DONE WITH MAN.

WE'LL ACE IT!!!

ok, i saw this really nice jumper from M)phosis

sex! but saw nicer dresses online. how?!?

Funny Face

Just got back from Chinatown.

I went there with no intention to look for cny goodies.

but i came home with 3 packs!

as expected it was crazily hot and squeezy in the beginning.

but i was thankful that my wedges didn't cause me much a trouble.

was tempted to buy many things but of cus, dearest was there to stop my impulsive buying!

To be serious, this is my first chinatown trip during cny season for going 19 yrs?

I hate crowd sometimes but once in a blue moon is not so bad an experience either.

I got FOOD and only food!

i got taiwanese jelly/muachee(reminds me of enci! haha)

den got cheated or smth, but i was too smart!

nvm la. i'm not at the losing end anyway! haha

in the end it wasn't like cheating, more like i cheat the person! LOL

I like every sunday

because dearest and I get to spend quality time together.

not that the rest are not, but it's different when you dress differently and go out for a date!

I LIKE!

Chinatown!

Tasted my first Koi cafe after much raved by enci, peiyi and co.

heavenly nice. but didn't know i had to choose this choose that.

hahaha! cool =D will go for it again! or is enci treating? hehe no lah!

thanks for the recommendation. I missed it twice in AMK.

News reporter from Bloomberg at Bee Cheng Hiang!

but Lim Chee Guan ba kwa looks more popular as seen from the queue!

it's like you walk a few steps you'll see a few stalls.

Oligopoly?

anw the 'street' was TOO crowded and too hot and too you-name-it

that i can't and i'm lazy to take pictures, so after walking for a LONG TIME!!!

we lepak at this corner! HAHAHA

nice right!

memememe! motocycle?

babe prison break! LOL

self timer!

Me: "I know I'm pretty lah"

Isham: *gives the face above*

hahaha, joke! =D he likes weird poses.

creates the illusion that he's hugging me right!

NO lor, i was beside him! haha nice angle though =D

many lawrence at the center stage, performance or smth?

or isit firecrackers?

looks like 12am scene but no, just lucky there wasn't any cars!

inflatable cai shen! $$$$

* The last 2 pictures of me and isham is not put up here because it's TOO ugly. LOL

i'm munching on macadamia now!

heavenly and addictive!

I LIKE!!

where next wk?

books?

fulfilled

This week was/still going crazy!

madness week.

arghhhhh, as usual CLSP died on me.

no i died on CLSP instead.

It killed me.

On a lighter note, I FINALLY ENROLLED FOR BTT!

after 2 months? hehe now i'm a happy woman

just that the test date is kinda far in march.

can't wait for CNY and can't wait for exams to be over.

working on my tutorial now

and will have lots of work to do tmr for my final project on viewpoint.

it's serious shit.

Now i'm worried about something else. SHIT HEAD

anw, through my observation/stalking experience

i've learnt that if you're ever caught in a cheating situation

don't blame the girl.

blame yourself and your bf.

blame your bf cus he can't resist temptation.

blame yourself because you can't provide what SHE can.

woooohoooooooo~

Sometimes can't help to say but guys are jerks! some lah. lol

efficiency is key

productivity is sex!

dearest!

Thanks dearest for sending me home ytd

everyday in fact though it was damn late

and buying food for me now!

love you!!! =DDDDD

What the hell?

So much of a joke.

I'm still getting pissed.

or maybe i shouldn't.

I'm a cool lady, remember.

I can have all the fun in the world,

I may seem like I don't care,
I may seem like I'm not paying any attention.

But i'm observing, I'm judging all the time.

But the problem is whether I should let it out inside me.

and when I did, things flared up.

But remember, things always happen for a reason.

I may not be in the best position for all these.

But look, I have my rights and so do you.

Respect it and go on with your life and i'll respect yours

I'll live my own.

It's like intercepting my ball when you're not even in the game.

What's there to interfere?

Anw, i'm comfortable with who I am.

I don't really care how people look at me,

because if i really do care,

I wouldn't be with 'Isham.

& that's not because I don't have choices!!! haha

not that I have alot la! =(

Childish is a very vague word.

vague=too general, if you can't understand.

and to actually reflect someone as that,

he/she must have done something terrible man, really.

tell me if this is childish

Tiong Xim Bros

so cute right!!! but ok, that's kids for you.

My reputation is tarnished for good.

but do you think i give a damn?

=DDDDDDDDD

The most important is how you look at yourself.

I'm not here to please anyone!

(BTW, THIS IS SELF REFLECTION; ISN'T A INTENDED MSG TO ANYONE)

Training was awesome today.

bruises after training.

keeper isn't easy.

i watched 2 goals slip off my hands.

2 goals i shouldn't have conceded and capable pf saving.

IT WAS WITHIN REACH!

but ok, first training only.

hopefully i'll be in the team then!

all the best =D

I'm tired and there's a test at 9 tmr. sian

Life's a bitch, argh!

More food coming my way

While i'm inspired to set up a food blog...

I think it's gonna be unrealistic cus firstly i don't have a car

not only that, no license summore.

and plus! i don't travel much!

ok, anw, suddenly thought of Ampang Style yong tau foo!

SEX!! last had it in sec 3? or sec 2? can't rmb.

before the food court at scotts closed down. sigh =(

i think i know when was the last time...

must be the day we went to watch skeleton key with bc and friend

ok, so i'm gonna look for my Ampang syle yong tau foo somewhere somehow!

this must be it!!! haha constipated face!

anybody remember Rotiboy?

ever since it ceased operation in Singapore

I forgot it's existence.

I recall the times i always queue to buy after school @ clementi!

heavenly coffee bun! but how sinful.

long lost food man!

DEAREST! you're the first bf I officially took pic with

hahaha what a joke.

Reeses are lying there in the fridge

Buttercup chocolate peanut. YUM YUM!

opps, did i say i wanna lose some pounds?

yum yum! walk walk!

our place of the day! spot it =D

If it wasn't obvious enough... the colourful decorations above would have gave it away.
anw, we were pretty lucky! saw this very interesting exhibition
with 100 icons and how they changed over the years
from very random Khong Guan to Government subsidiaries like IRAS.
Change is the only constant! =D
but of cus there were some who've yet to change.
but i know they will,in the future =D

so anw, after the exhibition it was dinner. heh!!
was starving cus didn't eat anything since morning!
how's my new camera =D

set meals comes with soup and drink!

and my favourite grilled dory fish!

obviously 'Isham is trying to test my photography skills. =D
anw, after "dinner"(notice the inverted commas)
we were suppose to head for dim sum!
but we had a hard time finding it! it's our first time, so we walked pass many
and guess what!!
nice right! =D

Single Ladies

Outisde singpapore art museum? can't remember which museum

oh so anw we walked high and low and finally found the place!

took pic while waiting for food!

Steamed on the spot took us about 10-20mins?

Can anyone guess what is this?

Originates from Shanghai

but a pity i didn't even taste it in Shanghai

but so glad i have it here in Singapore

is it obvious enough?

=D ok, give up

XIAO LONG BAO!!!

in chicken!!! so rest assure all ppl, i'm still sticking to my old regime...

change is the only constant but this doesn't change! hahaha

forgot to take a picture before eating

was too eager to try,

so that explains why it's in the spoon.

anw it taste great though i think the ginger taste can be stronger!

the first one i ate got the chickeny smell.

subsequently, it tasted great!! =D

there were 5 in one 'long'
Great stuff.

This is guo tie! Dumpling inside got veggie and what not!

too large a serving for both of us!

Finally signing off!

Next stop:Swedish Cafe.

Heavenly swedish meatballs. yum yum!

I miss

my friends!

all of you =(

playing futsal

going on dates

being slim

shall upload pics soon

what bullshit

This week hasn't been a good week.
But i passed my CLSP!! so happy!!!
was expecting a fail though =DDD
ok, other than that, this is one of the times i felt that
my effort didn't reflect my marks.
Utterly disappointed and disgusted to be serious...
Totally disgust me and i don't understand why!
but it's ok, i got used to it anw... =D
I don't wanna get sued for defamation.
so i won't say anything.
though the intention was there. lol
pek chek ah!!!
i managed to get A for Blaw
i need a B now, but highly impossible unless i Ace my last project
which is due 2 weeks from now
WTF!
ok, get going.
but i'm not in sch
how great life is.

I need a rest from work
but soon it'll come..
done and over with proj
work hard for exams!!
GOGOGO!

3rd year?

Today could have been our 3rd year.

Thank god it's not because i can foresee so many problems that will lead to a breakup.

a 10month period was long enough to let us understand each other

or at least well enough before deciding to commit.

3 years passed. Amazing.

I love you still! I'm still confessing to you everyday leh.

LOL

Inspired

ok, i shall be the best netball-futsal player =DD

motivated ttm!

hopefully i can be like shaiful esah!

you're my role model for now. hehehe

(:

I decided not to pursue this further.

'Isham has done what i wanted him and he too wanted it.

it was clear, all i needed him to do was to show his true intentions

if you don't like it, feel uncomfortable just say it. why say it's me who's uncomfortable?

is it too harsh? am i considering circumstances?

was he stuck? sigh, even i'm confused myself...

even if it was my primary school friend,

i would still say it.

but too bad no guys would come close to me at all.

it's because dearest, they respect both you and me.

but who am i to your friends?

I believe expressed his feelings on his own accord, this time...

the previous time it was as if he was forced and caused some misunderstanding.

leading to the current situation...

sometimes i wish i wasn't like that.

but i was hoping i was given more priority.

and yes. i got it.

but is it a happy ending?

Yes it is...

will 'Isham gain trust(trust as in trust with regards to girls)?

time will tell...

Daily Horoscope: January 8, 2010
You need to speak up and say what's on your mind today -- not that there's much holding you back! It's one of those days when you're just a lot better off mouthing off than clamming up.
Mood: Generous
Lucky Color: Sky Blue
Lucky Number: 0
Lucky Time of Day: 11am

How true...

Am gonna speak soon.

or have i spoken enough?

yeah i feel generous today...

spend $ only!

i just came back from my 2.4km run

abt 13mins++, k gotta start training.

11am was my presentation time

maybe gonna get $500 hor! =DD

Oh... now i know...

ok, Ms Nurul.A Rozali

you have my utmost respect in addressing this matter

but look,

if you even respect me as his gf,

you wouldn't even call him Bee

or better still, if you respect your bf,

you wouldn't dare to even call him Bee.

i don't know, but to me Bee is a term used on someone dear to you.

and is not used on friends? or is it?

it all would have been ok if he was just an ordinary friend.

but no, he was your love, and you guys reminisce all the sweet memories

you guys had and he missed you that day.

moreover, all this didn't happen on ONE occasion.

i'll be more than willing if you guys were the couple for the day

and for that one day.

but this seems forever? at my expense?

it's amazing how i lost ALL my trust we build for the last 2 years

because of this thing you said.( no i'm not blaming you because i believe we all had our faults)

and i swear ever since then, I NEVER TRUSTED HIM AT ALL, to be honest

2nd incident i know wasn't exactly your fault.

in fact you and i are victims.

i'm not blaming you,

but i don't understand,

if you really love your BF, doesn't it Irks/disgust/feels awkward you

when ur friends put you and isham together, knowing that you have a bf that you really love?

or is it ok because it's meant to be a joke?

if everything can be seen as a joke.

den i tell you this 2 year relationship is a true joke.

first love so what?

u guys get all the fame all the recognition among your own friends,

and everything is to be laughed and joke about

AT MY EXPENSE AGAIN?

what's so funny btw?

and ya, why isit immature when i have the right to express my feelings

ON MY OWN BLOG?

and sorry i love him but i can't trust him.

maybe he should find someone of the same race

who can bear with all this crap

and too bad i'm not for this.

and people don't call me bitch

because i don't go around joking/flirting at ppl's expense =D

i know where to draw the line.

do you?

but thanks though, =D

i've truly seen what kind of person my bf really is,

how he handles such stuffs etc.

and seriously, i'm having second thoughts on our future.

and dear girl, you too are old enough to decide what's right and wrong

please reflect if the same thing were to happen to you.

you wouldn't let this go too.

and 'Isham if you're reading this, i know whatever i do now is wrong.

anw, our proposal is not signed and have not taken effect.

this problem is gonna resurface once again.

and before it actually does,

I AM MORE THAN WILLING TO BACK OUT

RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW.

SICK OF THIS CRAP.

you two are the best k?

i'm out of the league.

BYE

so i'm the bad bitch now when i'm the victim?

i'm sorry for destroying all the fun/laughter

you guys suppose to have

and btw, i have no intention on making your relationship with her any worse.

i just wanted you to do something.

but you never knew how.

"we respect what you wanted"

yeah, so much that i wanted it, muhammad 'isham, you fool.

now it's all my fault? it's because I DIDN'T LIKE IT.

not because you felt uncomfortable. i knew it.

KARMA

maybe all these were self inflicted.

i was too sensitive on my part.

but am i wrong?

Iran-Singapore

I love this part of Ridhuan!

I feel guilty not cheering as loud,

didn't bring singapore flag,

didn't paint my face red white.

the only tool i had was the clapper =( sigh

didn't get the scarf also =(

Iran fans, on the other hand were awesome.

enthusiasm 110% but can be irritating sometimes!

and their cheer very easy to follow

1st penalty shouldn't be a penalty.

2nd goal was a unnecessary pass back mistake my farra which was WTF?!?

Singapore pulled a goal back by alam shah.

then things started getting tensed up...

but my hopes were dashed in the second half when iran scored their third goal.

I swear when Alam shah scored, i cheered like no tmr!!!

i was over the moon, 7th heaven on 8th day

woohooooo~

Khairul hit the post. sigh... could have leveled the score.

but good try boys...

eh i cannot call boys, must call brothers!

in fact, Iran didn't look so strong

as to 30+ position difference in ranking.

It was a close match, but in such a close match

it's always the first goal that matters

I'm happy that they did try, i'm happy that they scored because iran conceded only 2 so far.

and i'm happy we didn't get trashed 6-0 like the other time.

My man of the match has got to be Harris Harun

argh, only 1 year older than me and he's doing so well.

Farra hasn't performed up to expectations of many, maybe due to his injury.

but hope john will be back to cover.

lastly poor shaiful got his hand wrapped like some thick bread, looks bad.

all the best on 3rd mar

need to get a red top.

the only common thing you and that bitch have in common

is the equally baggy eyebags. which you're born with.

SOOOOO COMPATIBLE. hor??

Couple what. FUCK ALL OF YOU MAN

NO ADVANCEMENT, BUT SO WHAT? I'M JEALOUS

FUCK THE 2 PEOPLE WHO LIKED THAT PICTURE

that excludes myself because I LIKED the picture =DD

I TOLD YOU I'M NOT ELIN DIDN'T I.

chill~

2010 resolutions that i forgot!

MORE PICS WITH ISHAM!!! =D super need a cam.

First and last clubbing experience

Driving license

lose weight

BE HAPPY!!!

anw, prawning with the girls were awesome!!!

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Today i was home without 'Isham cus i didn't go for training!!!

suddenly became very aware of my surroundings.

I got very paranoid because this uncle who sat beside me,

kept turning his head towards me.

and gave that 'check out whole body' look.

seriously WTF!

i mean not like i have a nice body.

please, guys check out all sorts of bods, whether nice or not! haha

ok, and then i walked home alone...

I know i'll miss this place even though it's meant for the poor

and it's filthy, smelly, unbearable.

but guess what! i've been here for three years and still counting!

it's convenient cus got food opposite =D

but super not convenient when it comes to going town.

other than that, I CAN'T WAIT TO MOVEEEE!

but here's the catch,

every time i move, i either end a rls or start a new rls.

haha. ehhhhhhhhh.... maybe just coincidence i don't know =D

but distance kills.

so near yet so far!

2009 had been a very more than a peaceful year of Isham and I

other than the major incident that happened not long ago,

quarrels have significantly reduced,

i don't walk out on him anymore...

i'm a cool lady now! don't remember alot of incidents he sat by the flight of stairs alone.

YAY! we survived through 2009.

well talking bout it, i really need to get used to meeting him less

and sometimes we share really different stands on certain issue

and such stuffs causes us troubles...

he'd make a perfect husband with a stable job and a caring and understanding heart.

my mum showed the first sign of acceptance after 2 years!!!+++

i don't know if it's temporary or what.

but i know the only way to prove her, or anyone who disapproves our relationship,

is to LET TIME TELL!!!

is there a point to continue a relationship that is going nowhere?

but it's until 'Isham that i realised...

Oh... we're dating cus we're building a future for ourselves.

in fact, i can't see any future with any of my exs.

My heart tells me... just go with it until the day you have to decide.

Dating a muslim is not easy, let alone a strict muslim.

abide by muslim rules and personal rules,

restrictions i'm not used to...

and guess what?! i survived!!!

but i know there are endless challenges for us to discover.

and when we become stronger after each challenge

that's what keeping us going.

one last wish: I want us to meet in the morning more often.

Night owls, so usually we don't get to meet early in the morning.

Otherwise, plans made and delayed.

it's so typical! it's like i'm even struggling with school! let alone 'isham.

well i admit i'm the lazy one...

I don't know what kind of girlfriend am i to him,

but dearest, you're still the best bf ever!! =DD

and i swear even if you're not as good looking as chace crawford

or as muscular as bautisa, I STILL LOVE YOU!!

sometimes it's not about others, it's about you!!

so don't always make comparison la! haha

come 14th is our 26th month.

2 years ago, we had swensens =D

Jan 14... i want ^^

I hate, I love

I love babe bebe

BOO to all who started using babe after me =D

just kidding =DD so no babe for now!

Tmr Do or Die, so please PROVE IT! don't just say it...

I hate bitches.

they puts me off and really carry a shit face

I'm not here to put you down,

and even though you're not making any advancement as for now,

I'll be watching....

I don't mind if I'm Elin

but the prob is I'm not and i don't get $$$ for letting my partner cheat on me!

Once bitten twice shy!!!

learn this in pri sch autograph book(poems)

Sail to the east, rock to the west, death to the bitch that stole my man!

no rhyme la hor? but nvm, point proven.

I love $

I love to sleep

I hate headaches

I hate smokeeeeeeeeee

I want bsb concert

I want lions to win tmr

2006-2007 Golden period

Sigh, my peak period is long gone.
I miss my Value...
can i ever regain that?
I will work hard!!
even harder

Good beginning...

I like how 2010 is going so far =D

amazing, filled with events

but tmr i'm getting back my papers, damn.

so not looking forward to it...

but other than that...

wed- Singapore vs Iran

28feb-Backstreetboys concert!! anyone wanna go with me?

sat-futsal i&e helper =D

tmr and thur- tranings!

how nice!!! =DDD

friday i'm free, yay?

sun i'm free Double YAY!!

I'm so Happy happy happy

can't wait for wed!

all the best lions! <3>

esp you know who ^^

Happy 2010!

Happy New Year to all!!

how great isit to spend the night at home! wohoooo~

2009 hasn't been so good a year but not too bad as well.

can assure you 2010's gonna be a blast! wohooo~

k la, update again

i'm getting tired =(

2010

I've got NO FEEL to countdown to 2010

though i can assure you that 2010 is gonna be way better than 2009.

2009 hasn't been good in general, even from the first day 01/01/09 i fainted in the train -_-

how cool.

so why not i just lock myself at home and do a msn countdown?

like i did years back!

but... because i have no feel doesn't meet i don't look forward.

2010 is awesome year!

because we've got

world cup =DDDD

YOG

attachment for me and isham on different sems how great...

and like i have the last 2 days to decide if i should take up the miotv football plan

shit head. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHETHER SINGTEL OR STARHUB

got the broadcasting rights for world cup!!

Go argentina =D i love you.

I need a major makeover. 1000 new pieces of dress!

high heels that won't hurt.

oh, mentioning that....

I fell in love with ... at first sight.

No la, not BC, it's MC!

Marie Claire! the wedge is effing nice

damage $60! =D

ok cny!

I super wanna go holiday now!

$ come $ come.

had futsal today.

sex! felt like queen cus when i get the ball nobody tackled me. hohoho

Teamed with Jiawei,Nic and Vic and 1 more i forgot the name.

not bad managed to receive and kick some balls =D

anw just realised something,

In netball we always look for open spaces. cus that's probably the best option to pass.

In futsal, we still look for open spaces, but this open space tries to be as close to the goalpost as possible. Because i forgot futsal can dribble.

so it's like even if you're open space, but so far away, might as well i dribble myself.

hmmm. not bad observation after one sem of futsal! no two sems soon.

i want to learn how to shooot!

last night

last night i dreamt of this guy from primary school

confessed to me.

swear the feeling damn shiok!!!

haven't got this kind of feeling for a looooooong time.

but i still prefer the daily comfortable routine confession from dearest.

dreams are just a runaway from reality.

you experience what you can't experience in reality.

how nice!

ok sweet dreams tonight too.

and to everyone

Not so good christmas

Christmas isn't good this year.

It was the day God took someone away from me.

Sat went msia with mum and bro.

sometimes i think i'm very fortunate.

I'm loved by individuals. and im really grateful.

I don't have a proper family to begin with,

but i know my mum, my dad, my bro cares for me.

behind them, i know my godma and godpa cares for me

behind them i know my uncle,grandma and everyone else,

dearest and friends care for me.

tell me, i am blessed. =D

I couldn't wish my life to be more perfect the way it is now.

I am loving every moment of life.

Money really makes the world go round.

My family is taking the first step out of poverty(exaggerate la)

but really, i have many parts to play when i start working.

I've gotta be grateful for all those who've supported me thus far.

It's amazing yet a huge responsibility =D

I love all of you!

anw, i am out of work cus i got sacked. hahaha

didn't turn up too many times.

but anw, i don't need to work now!!

time to enjoy?

I love shopping!! =D

sometimes i can't help but wonder,

if you are just making me feel like your only one.

Look at Tiger.

Merry x'mas to all!

It's the time of the year again,

how I wish I could spend this day at a foreign land, with my friends or my loved one.

how I wish, if the above isn't fulfilled by Santa,

at least let me spend it with those, i spent with last year.

HOW I WISH i didn't have to spend the night at home.

but at the same time, i wish i could spend equal time with my mum

since she'll be sleeping alone!

BUT i sure miss my primary school friends man!!

damn, can we meet up sooon?

I THINK WE ONE YEAR NEVER MEET FULL clique alr!!

sighhh!!

just wanna tell you ppl, I MISS ALL OF YOU =D

min.8 years of friendship, some even longer =D

loves! =D

Merry X'mas to all!!!

Well pampered...

Today i had the best food and largest variety of food ever with Babe.

We had Kenny Rogers, Auntie Anne's, Egg tarts and i can't remember.

and also, ENDLESS shopping! I LIKE! =D

but didn't get much for myself, got a Crocs flip flop only.

Babe got 3 tops!

I like...

Apparently, something he did pissed me off totally.

He pointed middle finger at a stranger.

Really, this isn't that kind of doing from 'Isham,

or at least for the past 4 years i've known him.

It wouldn't surprise me if it's coming from my ex.

BUT 'ISHAM?!?!

What struck me was like... WTF are you doing?

Well, i jumped into conclusions even before i asked reasons why.

ok, so what happened was like long story cut short.

This ah pek ard 40+ with his wife and daughter.

was looking at me all the way, it was a long trip...

or at least he had proved that that act was intentional,

though I can tell you i didn't notice him at all!

and i wasn't wearing very revealing stuffs eh, i dunnoe why also!

(all according to Muhammad 'Isham, for exact details please approach him)

so 'Isham buay tahan, pointed middle finger straight to the face. LOL

anw he faces alot of problems like this. HAHA

I pretty, no choice! HAHAHA

but still better than him, surrounded by girls that have romantic interest in him.

HAHA hard for me siol, how to control, like that?

lose alr lor.

I wanna be pretty leh =( hais......

We look after our own...

Today was indeed an eye-opener for a virgin trip to the Old Folks Home.

While there were part of enthusiasts, there were also a part of not-so-responsive.

or maybe it's not that they are NOT, perhaps they didn't express it.

Although i have to admit that all the activities screwed up somehow,

but it was the smiles on their faces, their claps, their attention that kept me going.

at least i know what i'm doing was worth it.

This event had also help me realise how lousy my hokkien is.

Maybe i haven't been spending much time with my grandma...

The karaoke was good though it was tough to find songs, create atmosphere...

I hope they did enjoy themselves...

I have always wondered if they knew they were actually staying in the old folks home.

Sending parents to the old folks home had always been a reality vs moral struggle.

It's inevitable yet realistic, we're bound to face this situation someday.

So is it really that under certain circumstances, it's acceptable to send parents to Old folks home?

Have you ever wondered all those that you saw today,

were grandparents or someone that saw you as a baby 18 years ago?

Aren't we, as a daughter/son of your parents,

Look After Our Own.

Here, a summary of my Literature text, (short story anthology)

We Look After Our Own by Kath Walker

We look after our own is a descriptive story which is based on an old ,dying man and his daughter’s point of view. The story is well described with lots of vocabulary and emotions.

The story started of with the old man’s point of view at the same time describing the setting of the story. He recalled the times where he was a big man with lots of energy. His thoughts were interrupted when his daughter calls for him. The old man then realized how much weight his daughter had lost and how the burden she had had made her hot- tempered.

Her husband was worried for their health and decided to send the old man to a nursing home

The day came quick where the old man was to be sent away. The daughter was reluctant yet agreed to send him away

“We look after our own!” she cried

She added,” but I can’t bear to watch my father die”.

The story ended sadly.

She bent her head to listen as the town’s church bells called and pealed, summoning the Christians to prayer, to mourn, to remember, a son, a father and a past crucifixion.

Credits

If i'm not wrong there is an element of Racism,

the nursing home did not accept him because he was a black,

and everyone else in the home was white.

The sister thought he wouldn't fit.

So i think in the end he died in her daughter's care.

Correct me if i'm wrong, people!

I'm not a good lit student, please pardon me! hehe

Today is special, so notice the font is bigger. (:

Lastly, I would like to thank ALL people who made this event possible.

My clique, Thanks you all for coming down!! =DD I LOVE Y'ALL!

'Isham, Thanks for your support and criticism that pushed me forward

FUCKHEAD

YTD NIGHT WAS THE WORST OF MY LIFE DAMN SHIT

SLEPT AT 1+

WOKE UP AT 3+ AND HAVEN'T GOT A PROPER SLEEP SINCE.

STOMACH BLOATED LIKE FUCK AND THE URGE OF VOMITING IS LIKE WITHIN REACH.

the pain was unbearable!!! arghhhhhhhh

vomiting sucks!! =(

weak stomach man.

but thank god i'm fine now!

terrible night.

KILL ME MAN!

and i'm effing tired now.

and great, another 70bucks gone because i'm suppose to be working.

Life sucks

Finally common test's over.

Ain't expecting much. A pass for all is good enough.

My tooth needs a visit back to his village.

and i fufilled.

my tooth have been hurting everytime i bite...

it sucks.

now ok alr!! wohooo~

1 thing i don't like about dentist is the smell =( I pretty like the tools.

the cup and the part where u rinse. hehe

A pity i couldnt join my fellow 08ians for movie and dinner as planned.

instead, i had a spontaneous movie with Sexy! =D

can't wait to meet up the rest toooooo!

X'mas X'mas

What's up for now.

MOTIVATION

How to

Where to

Find this one thing that i need the most, right here, right now...

suddenly, i miss being single...

no, i'm not having problems with my relationship...

Just maybe haven't had a date for a long time.

I WANT SHOPPING!!! =(

&&& lots of money.

Loves, honey to the bee to the babe!

ok bullshit =D

A leopard will never change its spots

#1000 Kudos to ME!

Hello guys, this is my 1000th post. how great.
Blogging IS part of my life, though i haven't been blogging often =(

sigh, okay today's my second day of common test.

1st paper was a goner.

2nd paper i had to cab to school because i thought my paper starts at 1.30

when it's at 11 instead. Shi Lin has never in my life be so careless/ben ben.

so no choice had to cab.

Thank god Taxi uncle was damn nice to chat to, and swear he is 1000000 funny.

and can think of the weirdest/random things to talk about.

That made me forgot i was late, until i reach NP!

wohoooo~ =D well, i managed to reach on time lah.

the paper was alright. not as tough as i expected.

hope to do well enough to cover my RFA. cui!

then again, not holding high hopes because this sem i've been oversleeping too often,

missed too many lessons. but it's ok, time to learn then!

ok friday is my last paper and hopefully i can make it for

Isetan's private sale though i dont really have something in mind.

Havent been shopping due to low cash flow!

&&& SUNDOWN MARATHON is gonna cost $50.

but definitely worth a try for 10km, first and the last? hmm maybe.

but a good experience.

Holidays I MUST:

meet up with clique

meet up my other pathetic 4

swimming and tanning is a must

I&E

DRIVING!!!! highest priority

and the most dreadful of all, projects =(

catch 2 M18 movies which is the sex!

oh ya, did i mention my first m18 movie was gamorra.

Some italian movie at picturehouse.

the movie was abit long, but except for the length, everything else was an eye opener

Betrayal, Italy, Man, Fight.

Because picturehouse don't allow eating and drinking,

and both of us didnt have our dinner, so we were starving like crazy -_-

but still, it's a great movie!! =DD

I WANT TO WATCH PIPPA LEE!! at europa! heh

so many things to do, so little time yet again.

gonna study audit now!

ok gonna be a forensic auditor check ppl got embezzled money, FRAUD! haha

opps =D

Congrats, spiritualjoy.bs you're the longest serving under Miss Chua Shi Lin

I will never abandon you =D

Thanks for listening to me all the time.

Always lending me ur 'space' for me to vent my anger and share my joy.

LOVE YOU! =DD

Happy 1000th post once again!

#999 post!

Hello guys,

it's my 999 post for the past 4 years.

ehhhh not alot actually.

I'm not a daily blogger but I think it's cool but sometimes too lazy to. LOL

Today had tutorial at 9am, i always have trouble waking up for 9am class.

so thank god it's not a 9am class tmr.

BUT WHAT?!?! it's been 6 weeks into school(exclude e learning)

and i'm still not adapting

and guess what common test in 2 weeks.

yeah, GREAT!

can't wait for holidays.

=D go out with friends.

and guess what

ytd isham met with a cut on his finger

and he just came back from the futsal court.

kaykiang, go skid, now his cut is bleeding and i think his head hit the floor

sometimes don't understand why -_-

18year old still dunnoe how to take care of urself.

NS HOW!!

dun die =D

k la, gotta chiong fmgt tutorial when i go back.

now still waiting for that monster to come out! hahahaha