恭喜发财，新年快乐！

ok, time to blog about my new year!!

During work had mini celebration with FAD,

YU SHENG!!! SUSHI!!!

after work on nye, Met 'Isham for awhile to accompany him for dinner

and headed to Godma's place for steamboat 1st round.

at evening around 7 my bro picked me up for another round with the rest of my family at

he ping fan dian

we had a private room, but damn slow.

8pm start dinner

930 still at third course.

luckily the subsequent dishes came much faster. everything ended at about 1030.

headed home straight :)

Chu yi woke up damn late. headed to ah yi's house

slack awhile den headed to pick my grandma up to jim po's house at west coast.

jitao everybody there!! too many people. i think got 30?

apparently they haven't seen me for such a long time

that they thought I'm my bro's girlfriend.

and my bro's my dad's friend.

kns! they gambled while i watch. was tasked to become the dealer for a round

until i chu stunt, blunder max until i got no face.

i really can't gamble. period. LOL!

after that headed back to ah yi's house slack awhile

and met dearest after that! met for the last time before both of us go overseas.

Chu er morning went to changi point to take boat to Pengerang

den took a cab ride to SG Rengit.

had seafood dinner at night. SHIOK TO THE MAX.

after that go buy satay.

hmm basic conversational malay did help me a little...

watch tv ong bak 2 watched halfway dozed off. first time :)

next morning breakfast and ostrich farm!!!

恐龙鸟 one of the endangered animals.

went to the beach also :) their keropok lekor so much nicer leh than sg's lol.

that's about it :)

I will marry a guy who won't cheat on me.
I HATE BETRAYAL
I HATE MEN WHO ARE UNFAITHFUL TO THEIR PARTNERS.
I HATE IT WHEN WOMEN ARE HID IN THE DARK
I HATE IT WHEN WOMEN ARE SLOGGING THEIR LIFE JUST TO PROVIDE A GOOD HOME FOR HUBBY
AND I HATE IT WHEN MEN JUST DON'T FUCKING APPRECIATE IT.

I want to be rich overnight
be smart overnight
so i can get married legally, buy a house, give birth to kids.
be good role models to my kids, provide them with the best I can...
bring them up to the best of my abilities
moulding them into a good citizen of the society
teach them to be not hua xing.

enough of smoke/alcohol for 19 years of my life.
I was never directly involved, but I am a passive smoker for 19 years of my life.
wish my house didn't smell smoke.
Can't stand ppl vomiting cus i'll start vomiting too.
gambling kills a family. i swear...
Wish i could earn enough money to support myself now.
Maybe i should just give up uni!! I want to work damn hard for a house&car!
I know i sound so desperate to marry outtttttt
Sometimes I feel I am!!!! totally!!! i know girls want to marry very easy de ma.
get pregnant lor!
SIAO!! i still want my er ren shi jie leh!
baby need extra $$ also.
Change my future since i can't change what i'm born with.

Education is the only way out of povertyyyyy
So, EDUCATION OR WORK?!
Dilemma max!

SO HAPPY I DON'T SMOKE DON'T DRINK DON'T CLUB DON'T GAMBLE
but i still smell like smoke. !@#$%^&*(O

Short getaway was awesome
tiring though, must be too much food! hehehe

Pissed like !@#$%^&*(

showing visible results but also visibly ugly :(
determined to get through this!
having second thoughts of applying uni leh!

I am looking forward to life after attachment. Though i am most prob staying as a temp and my 2 other interns will not be around :( but now i have uss, i have krabi waiting for me, i bought an iphone! i want cny! 1 thing i still miss though :( i miss being a student!

Went for USS interview.

hope i get it...

Chances are low cus i saw so many other applicants :( i suppose they are interviewed on the same day. The interviewer was emotionless. it sucks. tsk

it was a group interview and we had this whole of the rehearsal room to ourselves.

To be honest, my jobs either heng heng ppl intro me no need interview,

or interview liao get it. haven't really got rejected yet. LOL

we'll see then.

after interview went to visit Babe but he was busy...

So i went off to town for the Hokkaido Fair to get the moisturizers for mum

Had Marche for dinner with grandma,dad,mum,bro and me.

was there for an hour. full like !@#$%^&*

den bro drove back and home sweet home.

dread mon

Virgin Trip to Marche w Family (Y)

It sucks pretending to be yawning when i'm tearing.. zzzzzzzz

如果有一天　我回到從前,回到最原始的我,你是否會覺得我不錯

If there comes one day when I return to the past

Return to the most original me

Would you feel that I am okay?

Translation cui but exactly how i feel

10 things I miss the most- 1

1. Motivation

I am not very competitive. Most of the time I am comfortable with where I stand, I am easily satisfied. My aims are usually realistic, sometimes too low but the satisfaction is super shiok de!! I think I have mentioned before, I really can’t find something I am really good at, so turns out I am average in EVERYTHING.
Primary school no need motivation de! PSLE also never really study. Lol. Turns out my results SO AVERAGE I had a hard time choosing where to go. In secondary school, sec 1 and 2 also don’t need much motivation in studies cus no significance also! But Netball training was a crazy thing, I needed motivation like 123456789. I can still remember the kallang 6 rounds around 6 courts. Used to be a breeze for me… sad to say no longer. 10 rounds around field was tiring but have always made it without stopping. And this is just the WARM UP. Again, sad to say, no longer that way.
Especially when it comes to leading the team, motivation must x2!! Cus have to encourage teammates also.
Where did I get those motivation from? To tell the truth, I am self motivated by the existence of my boyfriend- whoever he is. Lol! My point is, I want him to see me at my best, I want him to be proud of me. But then hor… since late sec 3 until now, this kind of motivation don’t work anymore… Must be the damage from Qilaf. Hahahaha
I am still in search of my motivation. There is only one I can think of, RIVAL(did I just say I am not competitive), no la rival as in love rival LOR! The fact now is I can’t play in the same team as Isham, he never fails to demoralise me although he meant good. I have very very weak MENTAL strength to start with. Can’t forget my Netball incident. Really don’t deserve to lead the team with such lousy mental strength. Can’t even handle myself. Tsk. I am easily worn out by fatigue but I am keen to improve. I really want to go back to where I was.

Wrote this last week. wanted to post this last weekend but was quite tied up.

Maybe it's just me.

I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK.

Have not said it for a long long time, Kill me please.

Would it still be the same?

You really think I didn't want to impress my boyfriend?

You really think I didn't try?

I am sorry I'm not the best for you. I am not up to you standard

you can always find a girl good in futsal, always up to your expectations, don't have to scold her for being not pretty. Go ahead if it makes u feel better and make your life so much easier.

But you know what, you're so hard to please....

Think- have i ever scolded you for something u're not doing so well in? at least i know you tried.

nvm, i think it's not your fault.

IT'S MY FUCKING PROBLEM WITH WEAK MENTAL STRENGTH.

can't believe after 3 years i'm still struggling. fuck it. seriously.

Me or u changed?

k i feel so much better venting my anger here. Blogging is great.

come April it will be sj's 5th birthday!! :)

yay!

PSA year end mini celebration(we extra only la) hahaha!

w big bosses!

Christmas with CFO!

Christmas w Stephanie!

Christmas w Christmas tree?

mini taxis!

HELLO! :)

What if the world is infected by algae...

YAY!!!!!!!!

Dinner!

New baby guppies at work!

took leave, back to school for open house

last time in school blazer!

Miss Poh!! :)

typical isham :)

29th month!! so long ago liao!

New movie: here is Ghost

anyone miss me anot. mwahahaha

kinda miss long hair now :(

ugly braces period totally, now opening gap for my new tooth :(

they say itss the process that matters the most.

it's hurting like mad but i think end product more happy only :)

Futsal was aweeesome today though i totally lost touch.

I felt really tired. omg.

think i should really start exercising(aiya everytime also say only)

Can't wait for thursday

and my teeth still damn pain.

ma de

braces hurt so much for the first time.

power chain, coil and stainless steel metal

oh well~

I SUPER WANNA GO BANGKOK NEXT YEAR

OPPS I MEAN THIS YEAR!!!

but don't know if i have the money, time and company. sigh:(

any takers?!!?

Another contract awaits me this year.

Time flies...

'Isham would most prob be in NS by then :(

Another challenging & exciting year awaits me.

:)

2010 Round Up.

2010 had been totally Awesome, the way i expected it to be.

Though my studies failed me, I managed to try so many things this year.

Driving, Braces, Attachment, Universal Studios, Indulge myself with endless good food.

Sporting events have always been my favourite...

YOG, Commonwealth Games, Asian Games, Asian Cup, Suzuki Cup and WORLD CUP!

totally awesome. I would love to travel and witness victory.

someday... just someday...

In 2010, I also completed my first 10km marathon.

something I never thought I'll do(I'm a lazy runner btw).

Start small dream big :)

1 thing I regret not doing enough is spending more time with my friends.

Hope it'll be better this year!

AND one thing for sure.

my punctuality i think pretty impressive now :)

YES!!! new year resolution from don't know which year.

So excited for my Krabi Trip later this year :) *grins*

another NEW thing

somehow i got this feeling 2011 not as smooth as 2010.

but everything will be just fine.

So lazy to countdown every year.

So tiring and it is such a chore. OMG getting old.

Everyday I take 30 from home,

the bus passes by Tanglin Sec,

reaches PSA.

when there is a need to take 61 back to NP from PSA,

the bus passes by ex-River Valley where I used to play my zonals

passes by Henry Park Pri and finally stops at Ngee Ann.

Brings back so much memories :) I like...

Lastly, I would like to thank everybody who have gone through 2010 with me :)

I love you all!!

Sad to say in 2010, I am STILL haunted by 'Isham's actions in 2009...

It sucks and trust level isn't making much improvement to be honest.

I still hate the way he handled it.

Nevertheless, I still love you.

You won't want to have a second try, I show no mercy and not my loss anw :)

Don't think I can ever forget this incident. I hold grudges.

Not good, but just can't!!

On a lighter note, had free B&J ice cream today.

A random girl randomly handed me a coupon.

I was telling 'Isham i look like ang moh cus B&J was filled with ang mohs at tt time.

hahaha, and 'Isham malu monster of the day. HOHO

Ghosts must be crazy entertaining as ever.

I gonna K.O already.

jiayou :)

Don't do what you don't want others to do onto you.

They say dining with the death(tv show in case you don't know. damn nice show)

I say Dining with VP.

scary experience although i have to admit shes quite nice to talk to :)

I must have looked damn awful ytd..

grrrrrrr

WHY YESTERDAY!

I had a great 12 hour rest though..

can Monday not come so soon? :(

How can i...?

I know I am not that kind of person who expresses my love for my friends...

sometimes i just... don't know how to show it.

Deep inside, I appreciate all the friends I have met along the way.

I know sometimes i can't be contacted, i'm a busy woman.

pls understand my phone is FOREVER on silent mode. heh

and my phone is antique htc, so please excuse.

it's giving way, but i am determined to keep it.

i don't need fancy iphone 4 or samsung galaxy.

2010 is coming to an end soon.

a great year.

i am looking forward to 2011 for a new milestone in my life!

work stress X endless.

I wish i can meet everybody next year

friends i meet once a year, or once a blue moon...

wina, peijun, ex tuition mates

i also want to show my gratitude to my teacher.

must try something new!!!

Life hasn't been at it's best.

or at least i wasn't able to live to my best.

it sucks.

i can't wait to get over it...

happy 37th

Tomorrow will be a better day

9 Ways to Have a Better Day than Yesterday

Did you have a bad day yesterday? If you'd like to start anew and have a better day today, then read on for some tips on how to have a great day today.

1. Decide that Today Will Be a Great Day. Make it real by writing it down and saying it out loud to yourself. It may seem kooky but it works. When I set my wakeup alarm on my cell phone, I have this message displayed "Wake up and smile! Today is going to be a Great Day!" Don't be embarrassed. No one needs to know you do this. :)

2. Take it Slow. If yesterday was bad or if you are tired today, take it slow to "warm up" before you kick your day into high gear. If you need to, stay in "slow & steady" pace for the whole day.

3. Cultivate Compassion, Don't Judge. For a whole day make a pact with yourself not to judge yourself or others. Give everyone, including yourself, the benefit of the doubt for one whole day. Even if you don't believe what you're telling yourself at first, stick with it. It will help change the mental pathways that you tread every day. What do you have to lose except maybe a little misery?

4. Observe, Don't React. When you encounter things that would normally make you angry, (traffic, certain people, slow computer, etc), plan to observe these things in a detached way as opposed to reacting with anger. If you are angry a lot, be kind to yourself and figure out what is making you angry. Often reacting in anger is a habit, and the good news is habits can be broken! Start slow. Are you chronically tired? Are you frustrated with something in your life? Write it down or talk it out with a friend and then make a plan to remedy your triggers.

If it's rest you need, take some time, say before bed or first thing in the morning, to mentally review which commitments you could cut back on or delete altogether. By freeing up some time, you could get some more rest, exercise, or time to work on something you want to change

If you're trying to change something in your life to rid yourself of frustration and anger, make a plan, and enlist someone to help you even if it is to just help keep you on track with your plan.

If you are angry about things in your life that you can't control, try to make a small dent in your frustration a little bit each day. A helpful question might be to ask yourself, "How can I be at peace with this situation today?"

5. Smile at People. Smile at everyone you meet. Fake it 'til you feel it. Laugh at the ridiculous things that happen in life! Humor is the ultimate for producing a sense of well-being. If humor is not your forte, seek out or call the funniest person you know and tell them you need some jokes to get the ball rolling today.

6 Pay it Forward. Do something nice for someone else. Try doing this all day. Compliment people, thank people, let people go ahead of you in traffic or in line. Watch how quickly that goodness comes back to you!

7. Treat Yourself! Make it a point to indulge in a favorite treat or activity, or break one of your own rules today. You know that thing you always want to do, but you never allow yourself. Maybe it's a piece of chocolate cake or maybe knock off from work early for once. You could go to the bookstore, see a movie, go to the beach. Or you could include a friend or loved one in on the fun. Maybe you and some friends could go play paintball or go to F1 Go-Carts. Or perhaps you could pick up some food for dinner, grab a blanket, and treat your spouse/friend/kids to an impromptu evening picnic!

8. Count your Blessings. Even when things are bad, there are always things to be thankful for. List them out in your head or write them down.

9. Get some Great Rest Tonight! You deserve it!

Have a great day!

one&only

the only reason I've not been blogging...

LAZY

but of course the period my com spoiled didn't count.

Life has been so far so good!

Work mega busy because i said the wrong thing to the vp. hoho

no regrets though, must take everything positively right?

I can't recall because too many events happened!

long overdue national day pics, cui face!! but enjoyable day even though we quarreled :)

National museum for Birthday celebration!!

crazily interesting but eerie cus it's dark!

we also went to the Singapore history museum!

discovered history i have never heard or learnt!

interesting! then had dinner at vintage!!

nice ambiance, good food

marina bay lighting :)

then a mega surprise :)

thanks dearest and Ta08!!

they even wore green/yellow got me choco banana cake

OMG LOVES MUCH!!!

3rd anniversary at universal studios

please~ don't leave me.

welcome to new york city.

why my leg darker than my flabby arms :(

anw uss was awesome!

i love mummy ride!!!

i love the dinosaur thingy

we took all rides except 1 mini ride at sci fi.

good super nice until metal wires came off. mwahahaha

sleeping potion from shrek so effective! by the end of the day i was drained out.

caught the lagoon show too, fireworks! :)

thanks babe :)

@ Royal Hotel! took Stanley's car again!

still thinking what to do with my leggings. arghhhhh

Miss CFO!(btw our theme is Oscar's night)

3-7 Pop stars :)

tong tong tuo diao!!

went for fixed asset sighting at tanjong pagar terminal on thur!

nice!! :) though it was a really hot day!

good experience and nice lunch at Kim Gary. HAHAHA

what a nice dream.

handsome guy, boyfriend, pri sch friends!

oh wait, did i just mention handsome guy and boyfriend together? hahaha

nice dream after 2 days of fever

and a long deserved rest!

went down 35x2 flight of stairs for PSA fire drill.

fever

lions lost to vietnam

fixed asset sighting at Tanjong Pagar Terminal with my calf aching like mad

constipation

fever

couldn't have been better.

People change. Feelings change. It doesn’t mean that the love once shared wasn’t true and real. It simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart.

Ytd was a good and bad day!
shall blog again when i revive my laptop
and get ytd's pictures... grrrr

Asian Games

Every games is a milestone! (:

Last Asian games 'Isham and I were still texting...

We were still talking about Remy Ong's specs, apparently he has many pairs...

4 years on, we're together and theres still remy ong (:

and this time the lil' boys have grown up and new batch of u23 boys are playing.

shiok!! ALL the best team singapore (:

lost to kuwait 2-0 i watch until pekchek

must win tmr hor young lions!!

my butt still damn pain.lol

Have been wanting to blog...

It has been a long wait, I know...

On 3rd November, I met lovelies after work for JustAcia

cheap food and the best company (:

5 beauty pageant from 5 different poly!(:

Love all of you ok!!!

after JustAcia went to our usual place to camwhore...

just realised every celebration we had was at Marina Sq.

I had mine last year at Cafe Cartel!

Thanks so much for the prezzie!!

Went back to school on 4 November because 'Isham wanted me

to take some stuffs from the locker. he was very secretive...

I was holding on to the locker key, but i didn't know which locker to open..

he sent me a hint everyday at a specific timing,

but unfortunately i couldn't really make something out of it.

so i stunned and needed his hints on the actual day.

managed to unlock and was surprised by the nicely decorated/arranged locker

with a note in front...

I knew there was gonna be a surprised but never really knew what was it.

This note infront leads me to find the biggest present at Atrium!!

So... I have a DKNY watch, a nicely handcrafted birthday card

and a new futsal jersey!! (:

after which we headed for dinner at adam road...

NICE!!

Friday was Deepavali, met up with Pathetic 4.

the 5th had to study for A's... so left with 4!

Met cheechin at her workplace for lunch!!

Had Jack's place! nice prawn and chicken pasta! hoho!

den headed back to cheechin's work place camwhored abit

before leaving for dinner at chikuwa tei!!

the old wasabi tei changed owners and it's not that nice anymore

but still stuck with the 16seater restaraunt.

the new wasabi tei(now known as chikuwa tei), is much nicer

and even the chef started to smile! which is super unlike him!!

but of cus the price have gone up now! but food still of the same quality!! (:

$5 chawanmushi is still at it's best!

ps, taken using my 3.2mp camera. mwahahaha

after dinner went to rocher tau huay!

no seats so we had to settle at Sota.

talked and gossiped abit before going home.

mwahahaha

Sat had breakie with Isham, had to settle for macs again!

den headed to National museum!

Pompeii, the whole setting was abit eerie cus it was dark...

we also went to the singapore history...

had this compactor thing which they kinda explain to you

nice and i realised i know nothing much about singapore history =(

eye opener though!!

and because of time constraint we didn't get to go the other one!

aft museum, left for dinner at vintage... can't rmb.

nice western food, nice ambiance...

after that we rushed off to Marina, some lighting event... different showcase

using florescent light...

after that headed to marina square...

by then i was very tired and lazy to walk cus it was drizzling and raining on off.

surprised by 08!! (:

thanks babe for your arrangement

and thanks 08 for staying till so late =(

don't have a pic of everyone =(

Home sweet home

Sunday was rest day i was dying...

Monday was work, i was half dead, headache so bad i had to pop 2 panadols

and sore throat sucks!!!

Today i couldn't wake up for work, feeling crazy...

went to the docs, throat infection so had to take a jab on my BUTT

omg 10seconds of injecting feels like 20 or 30 seconds.

hurt so badly =( now my whole body so suan!! =(

MC for 2 days... kns!

must be the good food recently =(

WHY :(

so long never really had feelings about soccer but now I AM SO SAD!!! =(

all my favourites are going overseas club!

bai and shahril is in indonesia

john wilkinson is already thinking of offers overseas

since he decided to skip national trainings/considering whether to recontract with saf.

so sad!!

shaiful is still injured and he's good, so probably he'll go overseas as well.

oh ya mich!!

remember norazmi? the always keep speakers @ saf one!

found him on facebook! personal trainer now leh!

ok la, better than never get to play in saf! lol

ok great, i am so gonna watch tonight's game

although it means i'm gonna be very tired tmr!

plus! asian games! plus suzuki cup!

hohoho~

everyday come back at 12+ damn tired!! :(

will blog once i get ALL pics!

believe the unbelievable

braces did not slim me down.

i put on weight instead.

zzzzz

and more weight to come,

good job man!