Most expensive assets

Today I took half a day to visit NUS undergrad clinic with the intention to replace my missing tooth(s)
but was recommended by the prothodontist to get my braces done again
cus they are slighly out of line, the wait for the post grad is 1.5-2 years though...

I was thinking if I want to do it just get it all done right
Previously, i didn't know if there was a diff btwn ortho vs protho,
dentist is dentist what!! apparently mt set of tooth are the most complicated
and requires lots of party to assess and make decisions

so for now, save money and get the whole cycle done and completed!
bogay stilllllll... haha
kinda miss braces :)

YAY!!!!!!! guess what its pay day next week!

New look

Finally after procrastinating for so long,
I finally gave up the classic look and upgraded it to the newer version...
haha, i think after a while u just minimise all the cuteness in blogskins..
i started out with super fanciful, lots of pics, icons, songs..
den after awhile, realising, simple is better...
haha, signs of aging...

anw reason for choosing this background is cus I WANNA FLY LIKE A BIRD AND BE FREEE!!!
next week is gonna be pretty packed,
gonna climb qc, dental and public holiday. not much time to work >.<

Time to start studying!

National Siblings Day

While so many other people wld be saying how great their siblings are to them,
i don't know if I will be the only one 'complaining...
My ELDER sibling, emphasis lol.
hasn't been the best example to me,
he don't have to be.. really. i have a mind on my own and I know what I exactly want.

I have never expected much from him,
he can have a honest living and live life happy, work hard, earn more money.
of course, he had his good days, we had good meals, money,
i thought life was really turning good.
we lived simple.
until... gambling... this caused everything, thus i swear i will never touch it in my life. NEVER EVER
but.... he has never been honest with me...
from the start he used my credit cards without my knowledge...
although he still paid what he used... but this is a principle thing, no?
you just don't touch any one's belonging without the person's knowledge
then.... he borrowed money from me...
this was my hard earned bonus which I was stupid enough
he used the card I supp to my mum to travel overseas, all the money he incurred was on
my mum and I.
then he stole my card, used it and put it back
denied all accusations
ON A FACEBOOK CASINO GAME
seriously when u are becoming a FATHER,
YOU DON'T SIMPLY SPEND $3k+ on facebook games.
LET ALONE, ITS NOT EVEN YOUR MONEY!!
ever since, it was the last straw.
this gave me no reason to ever trust this guy
he isn't worth my trust, my time.
and I never thought the #1 control was to safeguard my assets
at home.... so sad isn't it, even office is a safer place

then just this week, he asked me for my laptop password,
i have locked it since the whole episode happened.
would I be so stupid to give him?
I always blame for my soft-heartedness
there is always a part of me that tells me I shld help him.
but really, why should I care about a person who does thing without even thinking of my feelings?
totally not worth it.

i don't usually have temper

but i have to say i get pissed off by things.
one does not simply wah lao me for flushing the toilet bowl
although u were using the water to bathe...
lol cus when u try to expres your displeasure, I flushed again...

seriously, morning when i bathe u also on the tap to wash the vegetables to cook what..
don't make it as if being preggie is a huge big deal and everyone shld be giving in to you
and everyone owes you a living,
if the unplanned marriage isn't bad enough, unplanned pregnancy is worse...
do it only if you and your husband are capable to provide for the kid.

anw, the flushing of toilet bowl will only take up 15secs more of your time?
stop complaining and do what is needed...
I don't come home from work sighing everyday...

gosh!!! stop being so whiny!! things won't change even when you complain right?
haha actions do, work harder and they will get recognised.
*pissed mode*

I WILL NEVER TRUST THESE PEOPLE.
Went bk china for 10days swiping the card i supp to my mum
almost $3k of expenses including airfares
he was pleading me cus he said it could be her parent's last breath and what not
end up, mum and I had to fork this out

thats excluding the $ I lent him..
omg scam couple totally...

must run away soon
if not my $ will run faster

goals, spiritual joy

I was on course for the past 2 days.
I've always liked courses that allows me to question myself
my goals, my direction in life...
I am very clear what kind of life I want to lead,
but i think I never got it written, concrete
well, research has shown if u write them down, you are more likely to attain them...
so.. write your goals!!! SMART goals
specific,measurable,attainable,realistic and timely.
like... I WANT TO GET MARRIED BY 26.
ok joke I WANT TO COMPLETE ACCA BY 2015!!!

the trainer also went through maslow's theory, 7 habits of highly effective people
and getting off balance on purpose, alot of thing boils down to
your willingness to change, adapt, take up new things...
always try something harder, you'll find what you can't do well previously, easier...
if you are always doing something in your comfort zone, you will never never improve!

taking the first step this year, 21km @ sundown.
workplans, projects
I hope I can open up a shop/online shop in SG, but no ideas yet
I want to volunteer overseas,
learn spanish in spain/north america
watch wrestling live
be debt free by 50

I have a long long list of goals, they are no longer called wishlist cus they are not really wishes
wishes to me is secretly hoping they will happen without doing anything
goals are the ones you have to work towards to.

I am also going to volunteer in seagames 2015! lifetime experience i should go while i am still young ;)

very very good course, makes me think what i really want in life and how to make it better! (y)

for now i am saving up lots lots lots for reno
and putting some in my investment portfolio

where did I last stop

Cant wait to move out SOON!!!

Anw, saturday was JB day, jam packed on a random weekend...

saw like everyone there! Sticky is open,

food was good, company was better

Captain America was long winded imo, i find divergent more interesting.

expected ending of cus~ Superhero movie leh!

i think both of us fell asleep at different parts. LOL for a short while...

Sunday was a crazy damn hot 5km at the part.

Finally met <30mins, been a really longggg time!

Jurong Lake having some dragonboat/kayak even which i met Mag for awhile!! haha

headed to colleague's wedding in the noon.

ok, concluded i really can't take malay food... >.< sea of red

even my nasi padang is selective! haha

chionged to Far East to meet babe and his friends,

had lunch @ Ramen Ten, really sia, Clem one not as nice!

played LAN for an HOUR!!!

omg you know when was the last time i played lan??

P6 with my pri sch friends bp gang, CS at bukit panjang plaza!! damn vivid memory

anyway after so many years of not playing, not bad la, still can kill :) 

Babe is not a gamer but i think guys are generally good at this so...

haha, anw, at the end of that hour i was in motion sickness, damn giddy.

not sure if it was the lack of water or just the turning and dodging and hiding and camping. haha

got better at night :) then when we were otw home my body was on fire like... i feel sick.

But this morning i woke up ok...

weird body.

yay i am on course this thur/fri means i can go home earlier for runs.

can't wait!!!

sometimes i ask myself if i deserve better.
the grass is always greener on the other side.
we can't expect our partners to be perfect, the way we want them to be, right?
we all have flaws and love means accepting each other flaws.
I will work hard for my future...
thank you babe for not looking down on me despite so many things happening at home.
hope we can build a family never like mine, be an example to the kids,
bring our kids up to be useful people in the society.

when the going gets tough the tough gets going

regret

i dont know if 10 years down the road,
I will be reading my blog in regret or content over the decision i have made,
laughing or crying over my feelings and actions...

feeling so tireddddd of my life.
what to do???????

Trip to the zoooooo!

Been a really long time since we last went to the zoo! 

got the tickets for free since i manage to ballot free corporate pass :)

The weather was pleasant! esp when the weather has been crazily hot recently,

it drizzled a little but wasn't much affected.

Tried to take pics at the same places we took 3 years ago...

brought my tripod along.

This camera is amazing.. hide all my flawssss on my face my blemishes and all

wahhhhh!! anw pictures below and exclusive since it will not be uploaded to FB yet :) 

Dinner was at siam kitchen! been craving for thai food a long time and it was SOOO NICE!!

the tom yam was a killer spicy

but bangkok one still best! fragrant and authentic and not so spicy, idk why!!

the weather must be so hot cus... the animals are all hiding, or at least, not so many are out at the enclosure.

The animals can recognise the zoo keepers and wah!! so smart leh!!

the lions too must be tired because the just watch the meat fly pass the upper 'steps' and

walked to eat it, not ferocious enough leh :) 

Isham took a very good shot on below though!!

On a side note, we just signed up for our first 21km @ Sundown!

Sundown is also my first 10km!! hope we can train towards that..

while.... preparing for exams in june!

Hoping to save all my $$ from bonus next mth..

no plans to spend on anything BIG for now

main aim is to fix my missing TEETHS which I have contacted NUS dentistry undergrad

to help me with a subsidised price. super happy!! save me tons of money!!

Anw also on a random note, Isham always has a very kind heart,

which I got kinda influence over the years, he would always donate whenever he sees flag day,

beggars with needs, i emphasize that cus many beggars are capable of finding jobs and not disabled in any way. We learn to take care of those in need ++++ many karma points and many returns. :) thanks for making me a better person 

meeting up with the kindergarten friends!

Met up with the kindergarten friends like after 2 years!
1 was away from Sg for half a year for exchange, 1 was busy with uni final year!
So we didnt get to meet last year.
The year before was just 1 meetup before Guiping went to Thailand.

I was randomly looking for her name on fb and found her,
we lost contact for like 15 years but had 1001 things to talk about.
so lady-like and pretty now :)

Some of the things they talk about makes me wonder if i have missed out too much on Uni life,
did I regret not working harder to get into Uni?
They are like damn smart, and you are talking abt first class honors and second upper honors.
What right!! I feel so dumb.Haha but I am super happy for them!!! :)

I have never regretted entering poly because i have learnt alot from school
and my presentation skills have improved, I gained confidence
and I feel this is smth I might not get if I were to have a change of route.

I have been in a relationship for 6 years +, lost the feeling of getting chased,
so when I hear stories it is damn exciting.
AND YOU 2 super super compatible la!!
both looking for partners that are not too controlling,
wants freedom, not too whiny. HAHA
AND THE TOOTH INCIDENT TOO FUNNY!!!
omg Wensong you have like a part of guiping in you! HAHAHAHA

So fun hanging out with you guys :) but good times like this fly damn fast.

I AM CAFE. I AM HUNGRY

So there was one day I have been bugging 'Isham to go for a cafe date since the longest of time.

But our schedule was clashing like forever, Dec Jan was my busiest and he was free,

by Feb when i was free up a little, he was busy.. it was so difficult to arrange a time to hang out a day together... Until that day, ok shits i can't remember when it was already!! I remember it was a Sunday,

simply because only BRUNCH was served on sunday, nothing from the main menu... 

They have like interesting names on the drinks as well, mine sounds something minty and citrus-y.

Good and refreshing! :) Babe had a safe bet, he chose something berry.

This house of pan is like the best thing ever! meat, potatos and veggies ALL IN!! plus,
u get a choice to have omlette, scrambled or sunny side up!
the best part of this is the baked beans,
the usual Western Food baked beans you get on the stalls are like tomato sauce baked beans but...
THESE ARE LIKE MY FAV SO FAR! they are PASTA SAUCE BAKED BEANS
YUMZ!!! i am never a fan of tomato sauce, although i love eating tomato and yeah, pasta sauce.
but this was good! and babe loves it too because we were never really a fan of the usual kind
It was filling, nice and came hot :) like a hotpot with the sizzling, love the sauteed mushrooms too!

On the other hand, I had egg Benedict, came with muffin and ham and cheese(i think)

Those people who know me , will also know i am never a fan of semi-cooked egg

The only eggs i take are hard boiled, soft boiled, not a fan of half cooked egg yolk.

But this was good too! love the cheese!! went well with the egg. Pardon my pimple, lazy to edit!

After the food we went Haji Lane and explored, take photos, watch people get their photos taken...

Before we know it, we were already in another cafe for desserts!!

We had Red Velvet and Caramel Mousse(last piece) implied meaning good sales!

True to it, the caramel mousse did not disappoint.

Find it quite ex cus.. it is not cheap. like $7.50 per slice?

Not a huge slice though.

Oh, this was at La Marelle, inside the cafe, there were lots of merchandise on sale

and they were of course, pricey. Once in a blue moon i feel it is ok to spend :) 

wise thoughts

Today my company held an annual review...
its usually a review of performance of previous year and the direction and expectations for the coming year.
more than just the statistics and KPI, CEOs usually share personal experiences...
they are just good at delivery. duh~ CEO leh.
I came back with lots of thoughts but everytime i reached here. LOST. BLANK.
hmmm, this blog seems more like a self reflection time rather than a public blog for ppl to read.

Often I ask myself, how can I be better?
We all play diff roles in life and it is almost impossible to play them equally well.
I am someone's daughter, sister, girlfriend, friend, colleague, subordinate etc.
How can I be good at all?
I am not usually competitive, most of the time I feel its Me vs Me

Many years back Ms Solastri would always ask us to write down 3 things
Who am I? What am I doing here? and Where am I going?
Where do I see myself going in 5 years time? Will what I do now matter?
Is this a job I see myself doing?

COO also shared the cutting edge to sustain top spot.
it is true, winning 1st is one thing, maintaining it every year is another...
and CHANGE is the only constant! If you don't make changes, your competitors will outdo you!
I must outdo myself, push my limits so I can be greater!!
time to read who moved my cheese in full. haha i nvr got the chance to read, just heard abt it

then there was this story abt lion as the king of the forest, wants to have a taste/look of everything...
so he asked polar bear to send him ice... of cus when it reaches him, it became water.
he sent the package back to polar bear and of cus it was ice..
to me, one man's trash is another man's treasure!
the same thing can be so different in different people's view.

#lesson I will learn

I will learn to be stronger.. because I am not giving up till I get there!

some people

have this extraordinary feature to make people clear their shit
NO!! this is not happening to me!
Isham and I had an awesome weekend.
Will blog with pictures soon! :)
So tempted to join a new fitness club but I am dying to finish my 5 acca papers
prioritise and I will get them right :) lezzgo!

Hesitation

I've been on this blank page for a good 3 days.
everyday I logged on to my laptop, with this page on, but I don't know what to write
I never liked washing dirty linens in public...
especially when it is so embarrassing. Well, I don't widely publicize my blog...
So only goodie old friends who have been reading from a long long time will continue to read... :)
I KNOW WHO YOU ARE :)

Anw, just when I thought the nightmare is over, I was caught again. It was just the beginning...
While I was out to run on a weekday night after I came back from work,
my card was stolen, apparently to make unauthorised transactions over facebook.
The damage was $155 X AT LEAST 25 transactions
It summed up to bout $3.9k worth of transaction within hours.
This is selfish, disgusting,desperate act...

To be continued...

pantang lor

I think I have repeated for the nth last year wasn't good at ALL!!

anw being Pantang, I decided to use my Bodyshop strawberry body polish for my last bath in year of snake.

strawberry is read as "cao mei" in chinese and bad luck is "dao mei",

I used it so I can wash away all the 霉 for this year!

just a few days ago, Isham and I saw a group of down syndrome adults.

It was life's simple pleasure

sometimes you really need to take a step back from your busy work schedule,

to look at people/things from a new angle and you realise how much you have been missing out.

We heard their laughters saw their smiles

if small little things can make them smile, why do we frown over so many things everyday...

hmm.. anw this year i hope I will save more money,

be smarter, trust the right people,

learn new things at work, pass all my exams :)

earn more money, bonus gao gao

HAPPY HORSE YEAR!! HUAT AHHHH!!!

suay maxxx

new year new wish new hope!!!
all the bad luck please GO GO GO AWAY!!!
may the besssstttttttt stay with me!!
HUAT HUAT HUAT!!!!

Feels like I am working feeding so many ppl at home
feeling damn pissed to be paying for air tickets for ppl.
fuck really FUCK MY LIFE!!!
i seldom use vulgarities so when I use it i must be really pissed :(
I feel burdened, i can't save money
let alone get married, save for reno, buy car, have kids...
EVERYONE thinks i am freaking rich so all become blood suckers .........
seriously... i can't live to please everyone.

I am not looking at getting my money back..
well at least i don't fall into a deep trap.
what I lost can be earned back
I will work hard
I will study hard

2 weeks to results zzz

Thankful

2014 has been an awesome start so far.

Within Jan alone, I have met my Pri sch friends, sec sch friends and next week my poly friends.

Childhood friend!! just missing my Kindergarten friends which shld be soon too :) 

Realised I have missed out so much >.< 

If there was really one thing that kept me going,

It has to be the people around me.

I cannot be anymore thankful for the friends I have growing up...

We don't meet often yet we could talk all day. its a girls thing i guess...

The bf who has been with me throughout my teenage... 

The god parents with their ever ending love and support

The mum for her homecooked food even after a long day at work

All these made up for all the lost family love. :)

You people keep me going...

My dream from young was to study enough to support myself

never hve to worry abt 3 meals a day

find a loving husband, or if u have a bad husband, don't give birth and let the kids suffer

never never follow the footsteps of my parents

God made me work hard for everything I owned,

Money, love, braces, studies

Please please don't take anything away from me.

If God puts you to it, he will put you through it!

Reflection week cus its alone time!!

Goodnight peeps!

2013 sum it up

My resolutions for 2013 and how i performed:
#1 FAST, been procrastinating for 5 years, 4 rather. I need to work on this in 2013.
I think I tried and I failed, will elaborate further later
#2 EARN enough and INVEST
Yes! I earned enough, invested and investing and making a paper loss for now. collected my first ever dividend
#3 GET A HDB FLAT THIS YEAR
Yes! ready in 3 years
#4 at least 5 runs this year
Yes... I think I hit at least 7 runs this year
#5 go gym regularly
unfortunately... i failed this
#6 pass my ACCA level 2 papers
i failed this too. hoping to make up for it this year
#7 massive wardrobe makeover, need a new style for myself, new clothes, new make up ^^
I started going for facial, got lots of clothes, i think not so auntie anymore??? LOL
#8 sentosa more often
Nah... $4 quite ex hor. haha I think this year was a fail
#9 have a good year with babe
Oh well... failed...
#10 holiday with colleagues/friends!
Yes BKK, batam with colleagues and HK with yunz!

Based on statistics, nah. I only completed 50% of my resolutions...

This year I would say hasn't the best... Ups and Downs really...
Firstly I think i faced hiccups in work esp I made a very major stupid mistake.
At the same time I think I have learnt pretty much this year :)

I failed my last 2 foundation papers which I am really hoping to pass when the results are out in Feb
Then because of this I think i really studied for it this time round... haha

Isham and I had lots of disagreements/arguments this year
relating to my makeup/fashion/fats/complexion that I really cannot accept...
and ANOTHER GIRL whom he praised. I x2 cannot accept.
I hope none of this will happen again.
I was fasting for the first time anw, and didn't had time and the energy to workout/run after breaking fast
but was blamed for being fat. totally sucks right, then I decided not to fast.
Don't you think its very mean to do that to someone who is fasting for the first time?
plus, its your gf u are saying is FAT.
ok... cannot be so grumpy on new year :)
Hoping to work on that hope we overcome this in 2014

I also learnt a very hard lesson on money, because of that, I lost a good $5k which I can throw to do my Reno in the future, or investment Stupid enough but I have learnt, and be smarter. That is more important.

Of course... cannot always talk about the bad things,

This year I won 4th Prize lucky draw for D&D which is quite heng.
I am thankful for all the good things that had happened to me...
I went overseas w my colleagues and friends
Friend who sends me postcard while overseas!! HAHAHA u know who u are ad I KNOW u read my blog
All the rest of the things that Isham has done for me.
I think I came home earlier compared to last year's eve. Yay :)

Will need a few days to come out with resolution 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL READERS
have a awesome awesome year ahead

Hate

I hate my life. I hate what I have to go through
WHY ME, GOD WHY??????????//

been a long time

Really has been awhile,
just finished exams 2 days ago.
super glad its finally over for now, few days rest before year end work kicks in
and get busy all the way till cny next year :(
hope the results will be positive this time...
was freezing in expo hall on day2 cus it was raining heavily outside and i think the air con temp
is fixed... i went to the toilet and it got worst >.<
saw my pri sch classmate also!! super qiao and he looks the same.. lol

Last last week i also sneaked to uss :)
tired max, battlestar looks like permanently closed...
sad :( and we took pic with Elmo!!
used to work at uss, so taking pics really wasn't such a big deal...
but i haven't met elmo and gang, so it was smth new.
few days after we went, minons made their debut :( damnnnnnn

so lazy to run now, just feel like lazing around... haha
also my complexion has took a turn since the burning of midnight oil
goddddd why
facial in 3 weeks. hope can salvage abit. haha

so little time so many thing to do!!!!

watched Everybody's business ytd and felt it was so so only compared to his previous productions
thought it could have been better :(
saw 'Daisy'. i don't exactly hate her but hate the bf more.
lol, say other ppl classy, own gf say ugly. haha
sorry hor babe, i not paiseh to tell everyone...
ppl BIG star what, i am nobody. everything i do also lousy.

though things have changed for the better at least for now.
i hope i never never have to face it ever ever ever ever!!!
:)

small pea small pea!
i want to try so many things, but no courage :(
I WANT TO GO ON A DIVING TRIP BEFORE TURNING 30,
and i know i can't do it with babe cus he can't swim la......
so............... WHO's ON???

Before the memory goes vague

Thought I should blog while memory was still fresh...

Last Fri spent half a day at Sentosa with my other half department for some bonding activities
the weather wasn't favourable, I intended to go there for a tan, in fact it looked promising at 12pm,
but after that it was just cloudy and slight rain, nonetheless it was very fun!!!
Played the running man raw vs cooked egg smash
My grp won the previous game, so we only had 2 raw eggs out of 10..
And I so suay kena the raw one >.<
Dead beat after Sentosa, went home early to rest after dinner at Vivo

Original plan was to go back to Sentosa on Sat, but the weather wasn't kind.. it was cloudy...
plus I wanted to look good as in change to nicer cothes, but lazy to bring so many things >.<
so in the end we went for a run thinking we can catch the morning kfc breakfast...
got my fav choco banana pancake and scrambled egg set for only $2.90... why not right!!
I think in the end we chionged, I was so tired I had no energy to sprint my last 200m.
we reached before 11am but it was sold out alr. sad.. so we went macs :)
after lunch, stopoever at my place to change before heading to the bowling alley.
omg I sucked at it totally, my fingernails were too long that I broke them!!! 2 of them! HAHA damn funny... I lost to babe.. duh~~ after bowling we went K at junction 10!! happy!! spamed s.h.e songs like mad.. and duet Stay.. sounds not bad.. haha
after K was dinner at mystery place, had to travel to Kembagan for it...
Yureka, haven't eaten it in a long long time... we skipped lunch, so we were famished by dinner time.
Food was good, but not as nice as the one from Thomson,
played some old songs, so huai jiu... hahaha
after dinner was Baskin Robbins at Bugis, happiest thing ever!! ice cream makes me happy.
initially I requested for a ice cream sliced cake, but was unable to get, so I get to choose ice cream instead, like the almond ice cream a lot :)

Sunday forced myself to finish 5km, den headed to suntec for racepack collection,
isham also tried Smootie King for the first time :) forced him to reveal my birthday present.
hahah in the end we got a better deal like at least $450 off the one we wanted to buy
plus free vouchers, free battery, strap, tripod, case etc
worth every cent.
isham also got his Fifa14.
Thanks babe for all your effort in making my birthday memorable <3
made u spend lots of mooney :(

just received the card from babe!! I dk how he did it... looks so good :)
stress stresss stress for anniversary in 9 days