Hate

I hate my life. I hate what I have to go through
WHY ME, GOD WHY??????????//

been a long time

Really has been awhile,
just finished exams 2 days ago.
super glad its finally over for now, few days rest before year end work kicks in
and get busy all the way till cny next year :(
hope the results will be positive this time...
was freezing in expo hall on day2 cus it was raining heavily outside and i think the air con temp
is fixed... i went to the toilet and it got worst >.<
saw my pri sch classmate also!! super qiao and he looks the same.. lol

Last last week i also sneaked to uss :)
tired max, battlestar looks like permanently closed...
sad :( and we took pic with Elmo!!
used to work at uss, so taking pics really wasn't such a big deal...
but i haven't met elmo and gang, so it was smth new.
few days after we went, minons made their debut :( damnnnnnn

so lazy to run now, just feel like lazing around... haha
also my complexion has took a turn since the burning of midnight oil
goddddd why
facial in 3 weeks. hope can salvage abit. haha

so little time so many thing to do!!!!

watched Everybody's business ytd and felt it was so so only compared to his previous productions
thought it could have been better :(
saw 'Daisy'. i don't exactly hate her but hate the bf more.
lol, say other ppl classy, own gf say ugly. haha
sorry hor babe, i not paiseh to tell everyone...
ppl BIG star what, i am nobody. everything i do also lousy.

though things have changed for the better at least for now.
i hope i never never have to face it ever ever ever ever!!!
:)

small pea small pea!
i want to try so many things, but no courage :(
I WANT TO GO ON A DIVING TRIP BEFORE TURNING 30,
and i know i can't do it with babe cus he can't swim la......
so............... WHO's ON???

Before the memory goes vague

Thought I should blog while memory was still fresh...

Last Fri spent half a day at Sentosa with my other half department for some bonding activities
the weather wasn't favourable, I intended to go there for a tan, in fact it looked promising at 12pm,
but after that it was just cloudy and slight rain, nonetheless it was very fun!!!
Played the running man raw vs cooked egg smash
My grp won the previous game, so we only had 2 raw eggs out of 10..
And I so suay kena the raw one >.<
Dead beat after Sentosa, went home early to rest after dinner at Vivo

Original plan was to go back to Sentosa on Sat, but the weather wasn't kind.. it was cloudy...
plus I wanted to look good as in change to nicer cothes, but lazy to bring so many things >.<
so in the end we went for a run thinking we can catch the morning kfc breakfast...
got my fav choco banana pancake and scrambled egg set for only $2.90... why not right!!
I think in the end we chionged, I was so tired I had no energy to sprint my last 200m.
we reached before 11am but it was sold out alr. sad.. so we went macs :)
after lunch, stopoever at my place to change before heading to the bowling alley.
omg I sucked at it totally, my fingernails were too long that I broke them!!! 2 of them! HAHA damn funny... I lost to babe.. duh~~ after bowling we went K at junction 10!! happy!! spamed s.h.e songs like mad.. and duet Stay.. sounds not bad.. haha
after K was dinner at mystery place, had to travel to Kembagan for it...
Yureka, haven't eaten it in a long long time... we skipped lunch, so we were famished by dinner time.
Food was good, but not as nice as the one from Thomson,
played some old songs, so huai jiu... hahaha
after dinner was Baskin Robbins at Bugis, happiest thing ever!! ice cream makes me happy.
initially I requested for a ice cream sliced cake, but was unable to get, so I get to choose ice cream instead, like the almond ice cream a lot :)

Sunday forced myself to finish 5km, den headed to suntec for racepack collection,
isham also tried Smootie King for the first time :) forced him to reveal my birthday present.
hahah in the end we got a better deal like at least $450 off the one we wanted to buy
plus free vouchers, free battery, strap, tripod, case etc
worth every cent.
isham also got his Fifa14.
Thanks babe for all your effort in making my birthday memorable <3
made u spend lots of mooney :(

just received the card from babe!! I dk how he did it... looks so good :)
stress stresss stress for anniversary in 9 days

been a long while

Been busy with holidays!
will upload my HK pics soon heh :)
and my netball too..
actually this post is to remind me what to post for my next post...
gotta start studying soon..
hahaha

你不会

leave your sweet talking to the rest

not pissed over the fact you praise people....
just cannot accept you criticise me on one hand and praise another...
Just because she is a different league?
sure, her mature dressing to you is as usual, classy and fine...
my mature dressing disgust is worth your 2nd or 3rd look..

Just because her fame doesn't do evil to her well-being u praised her.
But when i sacrificed my time my effort to fast all I get was an insult, I am fat
true... I am nothing compared to her.

I am ok with you thinking that she looks fine, she looks good, or even pretty
just like how i think wilber looks awesome :)
but its not right when you say i don't look good and you just praise her like that!!

I am usually ugly but on very random days , thanks for still saying i look pretty :)
I know you are trying to change, i can tell but ok, i admit i am ugly lor! HAHA
I know i shouldnt have done that but oh well, stupid me....

Its ok, HK in 3 days!! super look forward!! I get to dress up everyday! Do the look the bf has never liked.

S.H.E <3 after 9 years

busy

work has been really hectic for the past few days >.< esp so with the annual asset verification and so...
plus, going on leave next month.. can't wait for hk!!!

drove over the weekend like a finally.
I think the last time i drove was ermm... when Isham was still a recruit. LOL
i wanted to surprise him and pick him up at pasir ris
end up i was on tpe jam and went there and back without him...
LOL super nervous to be driving again but i guess i did alright...
haha!! i just need the gps...

going batam with colleagues this weekend
massage shiokness!!!!!!!

Mid autumn~

Mid Autumn in recent years have been all about buying and eating mooncake
+++ calories....
wth right!!
so had to make sure i ran a 5km before indulging in my GWP mao shan wang snowskin mooncake.
yumzzzzz!!!

tomorrow is asset verification and gym after work.
gotta work x2 hard before heading to HK, confirm gain weight there.
HAHA... suspect time will pass super fast from now will next year.
every month is packed with events...  work, weddings, holidays, birthdays, anniversary
christmas, wah really no time!!!
hope next year can come faster... >.<

picture post

Facial last Sat @ town, i remember it was a crazily fatigue weekend
i could snug on the bed for a long sleep but had to wake up at 10am for facial
even then i continued to snooze and woke up pretty late
and because I was so late, i didn't have time to make up before heading to town.
Facial is just behind Paragon, but I always walk from Somerset and turn in at the junction to Heeren
Because its not a short walk not long either...
Always perspiring when I reach there, greeted by friendly staff
Served with a cup of hot tea, some rest time before heading up for Facial.
Iris, the one who did my facial for me, will usually start by removing impurities/makeup using Hy-Oil
step cleansing all the way to the neck, then she will use a normal cleansuer, can't rmbthe name...then she will put some enzyme thingy on the face while the steamer is on to open up your pores. After it is open, exraction time!!! shes such a pro I don't feel as painful as all the other facials I have been to. lol, my face was only slightly red after the treatment...

After extraction she used some kill bacteria machine which hassome tingling stinging effect, which was totally bearable. then she put on the serum that i bought.... half of it, the other half for after treatment. mask was the shiokest cus it was cooling, relaxing, and also at this time she will help to massage shoulders... can totally sleep at this point!!! I think I dozed off?? I can't rmb the last few steps she went through...i was probavly half awake, lol

I will take notice next time!

This was breakfast for the other day... instant Prata plus egg plus sausages and roasted tomatos
parsley and black pepper just cannot go wrong!!

Gymming time!!!!!!! HAPPY ORD TO DEAREST!!!! haha extend one more year
oh well, hope the nextyear will be kind and awesome >.<

routine

Finished work at 7+, came home for a run now back on the comp to finish some work :) hope I can start my studying routine soon for upcoming exams in Dec

yay to more updates

Met the clique after morning run, I barely had an hour rest >.<
Don't dare to sleep cus I know if i fall into deep sleep cfm won't wake up!
All present except ljy!! haha but i met her just yesterday!
I think the last time we met full strength(or at least close) was 2 years ago!
know these people for at least a good 10years, some even longer!!
haha, we had shabu shabu for lunch, jap steamboat at Orchard Central, verdict is so so only.
funniest thing is hz is as blur as usual, sudden realisation that Amanda was from RP too. lol damn funny his reaction. den of course i feel so old because  I am the only one working zzzz
Meetup again soon! Christmas this year? HAHA plan plan plan.
Save me from my year-end woes before 31st dec.
Ajy and hz not in photo as they had to leave early,
never get bored talking to this bunch! I think everytime we meet we talk abt the past same thing,
still feel like ytd, time flies ain't it, 10 years already...
This time i must be thinking how my PSLE would fare, choosing of schools
end up our class only i go TSS.
ECO FIELD TRIP??
SARS.
LAST TIME SO FIT EVERYDAY = CAPTAINS BALL....


After meeting the clique, went over to 'Isham's place for Hari Raya,
his parents invited, so of course stress lah -_-" but the food was good. heh

Mon after work had a short dinner with ljy at Changi Airport T2
Itacho was the sexxxxxx! I know you'll read this,
don't worry, just do what you want to do:)
let me know when you are ready, will hear you out! haha
JIAYOU!!

Took the skytrain to T1 to send Wensong off. Guiping can't make it so I went alone.
Haven't met his mum since the longest time I think 16years? and he didn't tell his mum
Cannot recognise.... she was like "who are you" but aiya got alot of diff meh? Long hair now only ma.. haha 16years of catchup within 1 hour? See ya in 6 months, den meet up with guiping again :) again I feel like I suck, cus I am the only one working and they are all in Uni...And please eat more la. your face more V den mine, cannot la bro... LOL 

Fake smile :) I LOOK THE SAME, NO??

I said I'll be back

Let the pics do the talking, the arrangement of the pics are like all anyhow.. lol

Met Pathetic netballers for ikea, i remember the queue was crazy.. but was a good dinner.

had icecream too. haha and hot dog bun cus i just wanted to eat it >.< 

last meetup before mich goes to Scotland, shiok ah.. no ang mo bf don't come back. LOL

CC say we are good influences cus we don't dye our hair. haha

so under peer pressure she went to dye her hair back to black so won't look so lian. HAHAHA

Met up with my childhood friend, Wina!!!
everyone is still studying i feel instant aging when i meet up with my friends...
WHAT... jiayou for your studies!! uni will be over before you know it :)
actually I don't like studying at all. lol

Delifrance with Dearest last week, was good but the baguette was so hard, we took so long to finish it.

the manager forgot our sandwich order and offered us free tarts, which we wanted to buy! but decided to wait and see if we got space in our stomach after eating the sandwich. YAY!! saved some $$

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Facial at My Cozy Room, its at the back of paragon. nice ambience, friendly staff

facial is not cheap though, but i like how it is not VERY red after extraction, esp when it is located at town!

MILO TRUCK!! ha the best run ever!! imagine 2k people run the sam route as nike run which has 5k. haha the route was damn spacious, so spacious that it is so lao kui to come in last. finished the race in 59mins 49 secs, my first ever time running within an hour. HAPPY HAPPY, but also means higher expectations next time.

Met Wanting for dinner last Monday @ Poulet and had honeymoon dessert

SO HAPPY YOU GRADUATED!!! :) JIAYOU JIAYOU!!

Lastly, CONGRATS TO PEIYI AND SHIMIN for graduating TOO!

and JIAYOU to all those who are still studying and working like me :)

time for a short break next week and can't wait for HK!!

Shuai Ge Day

12th aug supposed to be Shuai Ge day...
but I remember a weird foreigner with lots of chest hair, it was just weirddddd

shall further elaborate on my next post :)

i blog like that got more suspense, i will get more readers? HAHA

rough

Going through the toughest obstacle against myself. I cannot come to terms with. Today i ran 5km tearing. In fact earlier this morning i had wanted to run, but the thunder and rain was coming, so i did Insanity Workout instead... I am fat, so i gotta work hard hard to avoid getting even fatter. Because of the criticism, I acknowledge it. I have done smth about it. I have made changes to my lifestyle, I have made changes to the food I eat. and I will work harder. its a recurring issue I know would resurfaced if we didnt resolve it. I know I can't dress well, don't have the best complexion, don't have the best make up skills... you expect me to 'at my best' just because you were at your best. Sorry I look terrible because I have no makeup on. 'Isham is one kind... he usually take one look at me, judge me, and if i am not up to standard, his body language shows. He won't even take a second look at me, let alone hold my hands. This is not what I am worried, I am more worried about our future. Will he find new things to find fault in me? criticise me? 嫌弃我？ Last Friday, it was double the 打击, I was in jeggings and top, no make up on... he was what i described above, later he touched my stomach and commented my tummy can be seen. Babe, I hope you understand that other than working my ass off in office, I have been running since the day you said I was fat. I have been eating healthy food. Not even a word of motivation/consolation you had to shoot me right in my face? you know I never felt so bad about myself before. and to you you think your words are motivation for us to work harder for the future... to be FIT. Today after I watched the video he posted and tagged me in abt True Love is when you do things tgt. it dawned upon me that we are no where close to it. Again, me being me, hold grudges, bring this topic up again, expecting a word of comfort... he kept MUM abt it, he said he had nth much to comment on. I told him if I knew he was like that when we were in our first year, it would have been a straight break. But because these 6 years he has done more good than hurt, lets not by nitty gritty abt it. I said, you had no complains when I was at my fattest in Poly, he loved me and never complained I was too fat for his liking. Things change, people change over time... Plus, your own complexion is not perfect, so what right do you have to have such high expectations of me? AM i not trying hard enough? Your clothes 穿来穿去 also that few, you want to comment abt my dressing.... i think i have more clothes than you? Or am I just being too nice to you? Honestly, to me, i meet you to spend time with you, not to care abt how you dress, how you look etc, you can wear anything as long as you are comfortable and presentable. You can be so handsome that girls will drop jaws, but if your heart and personality is bullshit, which girl will make you their life partner? have la, blind girls, who hasn't realise your bullshit. I also want to have nice complexion even without makeup. hais. question... Is it worth going through these... I don't know. They say if you cannot accept me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best. you feed me unhealthy food den say I am fat. sad... I have effing disguting body with ultra disgusting lower ab fats I can NEVER get rid of. what shld I do?

scary

After I finished my 5km run today,

I found myself stuck in a area with lots of bats flying around

scary!!!!

the road users have been such a bitch lately,

the cyclist speed like crazy, sometimes i have to break my momentum to brakeeeee. lol

i ran at a wrong time where all the foreign workers finished work at the construction site.

Taman Jurong is so awesome it has construction all year round and my running route is affected max.

k la, tbh not all foreign workers are bad...

some very nice give way to me...

recently, saw a big crime notice board that there has been outrage of modesty around lakeside mrt

which forms part of my running route...

go go go!!!

new goal

hit my 20km per week goal this week.
Been hitting the gym/road more frequent since my last post....
the sun was a killer this morning >.<

hope to achieve 6mins per km for my next run >.<

run

wish i have 10x the motivation to run like last year.
if fasting alone wasn't already a good sacrifice.
I was expected to run after breaking fast
because my boyfriend thinks its the best time to lose weight...

You just had to make me feel so bad about myself, right?
Ya i know, I am fatter than last year.
I don't run as often,
I eat alot....

Yup, all my fault!

Unleashed~

Concert hangover~
Met my at jurong east before heading to Max Pavilion @ expo.
Wont say I am an avid fan of wilber... but after his concert my impression of him totally changed
I first heard his song in P5, those were the days man, Mandopop was at its peak back during the days
Jolin,Jay,F4 and S.H.E and of course Wilber were up up and rising, i mean they are still rising now, but majority of the people now turn to kpop... heh
壁虎漫步,Tell Me, Kiss me 123 were 3 songs I heard back then.

To me... he always had to maintain a very 'COOL' image, in shades, cap etc.
he has a nice smile and shiny white set of teeth. HAHA
These 10 years I never had the chance to see him in real.
No luck, but this year!!!!! Finally got the chance to, concert are expensive things,
so I can only go when I have the means of course. Plus this is the first time solo in singapore.

The concert suppose to start at 730, but as usual, sound check and everything, I think it started slightly before 8pm, he came down via a ermmm.. globe and the lightings are so strong i couln't see him till he was reaching the stage.. hahaha super funny, we had pretty front seats. No cams were allowed in the first place but i think they lost control. 2ndly, because it is an extended stage, alot of fans move forward to where the railing ends. seriously, they shld just have a standing area!~

The first few songs were pretty new and duh me I am not that familiar though i could still catch a few lines.
he wore different jackets throughout and was perspiring like mad. Then he moved on to some slow love songs, awesome... he sounds even better than the actual track recording.

Then a lucky fan(fanclub girl i think), got to sing 专属于你, my fav song from the latest album, lean on his shoulder and take polaroid together. most importantly!! he gave his cap and shades to her!! wah, recoup back concert money liao, his stuffs cfm not cheap.

He did converse abit, admire his professionalism and hardwork. Running a fever and still had so much energy!! Then played the video his road to being 10 yrs in the industry...
could tell his motto is work hard, challenge yourself, push your limits = results
such an inspiration, towards the end, could tell he was drained out. He was panting (literally sticking his tongue out) lol, and at some point, i think he can't catch breath so sing. But he was very determined...
Even when he went down, someone had to hold him before the encore.
Love the end cus got many classic songs which I KNOW HOW TO SING!!! hahaha
不得不爱 was the best!!!

He looks as good as on screen. HAHA Such an inspiration.
oh ya, one thing to add he has lots of male fans too which is quite surprising.
I thought will attract more girls. He speaks abc english... and have problems pronouncing Bugis Junction
HAHAHA

Will work hard and get the results I want!

change is the only constant

Things have changed since the last time I blogged, oh well. CHANGE.
From small little things like i got a new laptop!! the old laptop was barely making it and it was time to change.. of course, with work i now have less time for proper use of laptop, i bought the cheapest $999 laptop, not glam and nice at all but it has really good specs given its price, didn't gave me any problems so far... no complains, previously used Compaq laptop and it served me well, Hp can't be that bad right...
anw if touch wood laptop is down, the service centre is walking distance from my office :)

Gotten my increment for this year, pretty satisfied :) though i have a new colleague to share my workload, seems like new things are piling too... which is zzzz but i must take it positively, as an apportunity to gain more knowledge, and since i am still young i should pia, whole new different story when your kids come in priority to work.

Travelling plans made for bkk and hk, damn heng we manage to get s.h.e's concert ticket in hk, for the same price and probably be taking class 3 of singapore indoor stadium, which only has 1 show. why can't they add more shows in sg, nonetheless, looking forward to the shopping and food!
i can survive without pork in hk! hahaa

till nxt time!

dont know what happened

Dont know what happened to the previous post... but i am gonna leave it as it is... Taking on more demanding jobscope this July... As much as it sucks to be drowned by work I shall take it as a learning experience and make the full best use. I must think that not everyone has the chance to do it and it will probably make my CV looks a tad better :) hehe. JIAYOU ME in 2013!!! i must aim to clear all backlogs before talking abt NEW things hurray!!! increment next month :) till then..