I am looking forward to life after attachment. Though i am most prob staying as a temp and my 2 other interns will not be around :( but now i have uss, i have krabi waiting for me, i bought an iphone! i want cny! 1 thing i still miss though :( i miss being a student!

Went for USS interview.

hope i get it...

Chances are low cus i saw so many other applicants :( i suppose they are interviewed on the same day. The interviewer was emotionless. it sucks. tsk

it was a group interview and we had this whole of the rehearsal room to ourselves.

To be honest, my jobs either heng heng ppl intro me no need interview,

or interview liao get it. haven't really got rejected yet. LOL

we'll see then.

after interview went to visit Babe but he was busy...

So i went off to town for the Hokkaido Fair to get the moisturizers for mum

Had Marche for dinner with grandma,dad,mum,bro and me.

was there for an hour. full like !@#$%^&*

den bro drove back and home sweet home.

dread mon

Virgin Trip to Marche w Family (Y)

It sucks pretending to be yawning when i'm tearing.. zzzzzzzz

如果有一天　我回到從前,回到最原始的我,你是否會覺得我不錯

If there comes one day when I return to the past

Return to the most original me

Would you feel that I am okay?

Translation cui but exactly how i feel

10 things I miss the most- 1

1. Motivation

I am not very competitive. Most of the time I am comfortable with where I stand, I am easily satisfied. My aims are usually realistic, sometimes too low but the satisfaction is super shiok de!! I think I have mentioned before, I really can’t find something I am really good at, so turns out I am average in EVERYTHING.
Primary school no need motivation de! PSLE also never really study. Lol. Turns out my results SO AVERAGE I had a hard time choosing where to go. In secondary school, sec 1 and 2 also don’t need much motivation in studies cus no significance also! But Netball training was a crazy thing, I needed motivation like 123456789. I can still remember the kallang 6 rounds around 6 courts. Used to be a breeze for me… sad to say no longer. 10 rounds around field was tiring but have always made it without stopping. And this is just the WARM UP. Again, sad to say, no longer that way.
Especially when it comes to leading the team, motivation must x2!! Cus have to encourage teammates also.
Where did I get those motivation from? To tell the truth, I am self motivated by the existence of my boyfriend- whoever he is. Lol! My point is, I want him to see me at my best, I want him to be proud of me. But then hor… since late sec 3 until now, this kind of motivation don’t work anymore… Must be the damage from Qilaf. Hahahaha
I am still in search of my motivation. There is only one I can think of, RIVAL(did I just say I am not competitive), no la rival as in love rival LOR! The fact now is I can’t play in the same team as Isham, he never fails to demoralise me although he meant good. I have very very weak MENTAL strength to start with. Can’t forget my Netball incident. Really don’t deserve to lead the team with such lousy mental strength. Can’t even handle myself. Tsk. I am easily worn out by fatigue but I am keen to improve. I really want to go back to where I was.

Wrote this last week. wanted to post this last weekend but was quite tied up.

Maybe it's just me.

I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK.

Have not said it for a long long time, Kill me please.

Would it still be the same?

You really think I didn't want to impress my boyfriend?

You really think I didn't try?

I am sorry I'm not the best for you. I am not up to you standard

you can always find a girl good in futsal, always up to your expectations, don't have to scold her for being not pretty. Go ahead if it makes u feel better and make your life so much easier.

But you know what, you're so hard to please....

Think- have i ever scolded you for something u're not doing so well in? at least i know you tried.

nvm, i think it's not your fault.

IT'S MY FUCKING PROBLEM WITH WEAK MENTAL STRENGTH.

can't believe after 3 years i'm still struggling. fuck it. seriously.

Me or u changed?

k i feel so much better venting my anger here. Blogging is great.

come April it will be sj's 5th birthday!! :)

yay!

PSA year end mini celebration(we extra only la) hahaha!

w big bosses!

Christmas with CFO!

Christmas w Stephanie!

Christmas w Christmas tree?

mini taxis!

HELLO! :)

What if the world is infected by algae...

YAY!!!!!!!!

Dinner!

New baby guppies at work!

took leave, back to school for open house

last time in school blazer!

Miss Poh!! :)

typical isham :)

29th month!! so long ago liao!

New movie: here is Ghost

anyone miss me anot. mwahahaha

kinda miss long hair now :(

ugly braces period totally, now opening gap for my new tooth :(

they say itss the process that matters the most.

it's hurting like mad but i think end product more happy only :)

Futsal was aweeesome today though i totally lost touch.

I felt really tired. omg.

think i should really start exercising(aiya everytime also say only)

Can't wait for thursday

and my teeth still damn pain.

ma de

braces hurt so much for the first time.

power chain, coil and stainless steel metal

oh well~

I SUPER WANNA GO BANGKOK NEXT YEAR

OPPS I MEAN THIS YEAR!!!

but don't know if i have the money, time and company. sigh:(

any takers?!!?

Another contract awaits me this year.

Time flies...

'Isham would most prob be in NS by then :(

Another challenging & exciting year awaits me.

:)

2010 Round Up.

2010 had been totally Awesome, the way i expected it to be.

Though my studies failed me, I managed to try so many things this year.

Driving, Braces, Attachment, Universal Studios, Indulge myself with endless good food.

Sporting events have always been my favourite...

YOG, Commonwealth Games, Asian Games, Asian Cup, Suzuki Cup and WORLD CUP!

totally awesome. I would love to travel and witness victory.

someday... just someday...

In 2010, I also completed my first 10km marathon.

something I never thought I'll do(I'm a lazy runner btw).

Start small dream big :)

1 thing I regret not doing enough is spending more time with my friends.

Hope it'll be better this year!

AND one thing for sure.

my punctuality i think pretty impressive now :)

YES!!! new year resolution from don't know which year.

So excited for my Krabi Trip later this year :) *grins*

another NEW thing

somehow i got this feeling 2011 not as smooth as 2010.

but everything will be just fine.

So lazy to countdown every year.

So tiring and it is such a chore. OMG getting old.

Everyday I take 30 from home,

the bus passes by Tanglin Sec,

reaches PSA.

when there is a need to take 61 back to NP from PSA,

the bus passes by ex-River Valley where I used to play my zonals

passes by Henry Park Pri and finally stops at Ngee Ann.

Brings back so much memories :) I like...

Lastly, I would like to thank everybody who have gone through 2010 with me :)

I love you all!!

Sad to say in 2010, I am STILL haunted by 'Isham's actions in 2009...

It sucks and trust level isn't making much improvement to be honest.

I still hate the way he handled it.

Nevertheless, I still love you.

You won't want to have a second try, I show no mercy and not my loss anw :)

Don't think I can ever forget this incident. I hold grudges.

Not good, but just can't!!

On a lighter note, had free B&J ice cream today.

A random girl randomly handed me a coupon.

I was telling 'Isham i look like ang moh cus B&J was filled with ang mohs at tt time.

hahaha, and 'Isham malu monster of the day. HOHO

Ghosts must be crazy entertaining as ever.

I gonna K.O already.

jiayou :)