Realisation

I finally realised what was missing from my house.
A family portrait i never had,
and i am determine to have it next time.

Well spent Thursday

Spent my Thursday the way i wanted :) happy!
The only Thursday without lessons. So must treasure!
Anw after work, chionged home and went ahead for my jog despite the doubtful weather.
I think it was my very full lunch that kept my energy level very high.
Most of the time during regular jogs, i struggle after 5km, but ytd it felt like i had 10km to burn.
In fact, though i have done many 10km races, i have never once completed 10km in training.
Its all abt endurance and momentum. Didnt want to reach home too late, so made ot 6km. Been a long time since i clocked 6km, i think the last time was before sundown in May. Felt like my peak is over though. I had energy, just not fast enough but it was very comfortable run.

Did some mat exercise on abs. Den bathed and did some hair treatment and face mask. Wah, i think it has been such a long time since i went into such detail.

The best thing abt today is yay!!!! Its friday!! Enjoy your weekend, readers! :)

I want to go tanning soon. Too fair to my liking... Anyone?

Foolish

I must be foolish then, to think o levels can be a reason/excuse to have a short break with your girlfriend. Haha... Well at least i learnt from it, the hard way. He was a typical guy that changes his attitude aft committing into a relationship. I was taken in by his sweet talking and lies. I laugh at it when i think about it now.

Trust had always been an issue from bc to qilaf and isham? Hahaha
Sometimes i wonder what a person i will be if i werent with isham. 5 years shuo chang bu chang, shuo duan bu duan, to commit 5 years of my youth is really long. Hahahaha i know i have been blogging really negative things recently. When i just started my rls, always hong hong lie lie right, i love my bfbfbfbfbff! Hahaha guess u kinda tone down after awhile. Nonetheless, i am thankful isham always make an effort to make sure i am safe home whenever he can. Though there are nasty days, but he always make an effort to talk things out. Though sometimes i really just hate the way he does things. Hope things will be alll good :)

Anw it has been abt 9 mths since isham's enlistment. They always say/i always heard NS is the time gf will cheat on their bf. either i am too unattractive or me being plain lazy beg to defer, everyday work, gym, home. Where got time to cheat? Lol. I think i hv better things to do than cheating. And why wld i hurt my bf?

Treasures

Was clearing my drawers, looked through my old diary,
the way i write is atrocious, the style the spelling. haha can't blame cus its like at least 8 years ago.
i laugh at my immaturity then and disgusted with my actions...
zzzzzzzz

每个人都希望和段臣風吵架时，都会有个太子安慰

可能是看MVP情人看多了，哈哈。
昨晚做了好奇怪的梦，今天又想找以前朋友送的S.H.E公仔，可是印象中很像把它丢掉了。真可惜，　可是家里也没有地方摆。

可能是从小就缺乏安全感，
所以一直在寻找。。。心里上的依靠

段臣風?　太子?

ME DAY!

I decided I shld blog today.
Today has been very fulfilling!
went for dental appointment in the morning and was told i will be removing my braces next month :)
actually i was expecting this month, but doc put me back on modules(was previously on powerchains)
anw if u dont know the diff, power chain is the 'coloured rubber that connects', modules are the individual coloured rubber, k i dont know what is a better way to describe, google pls.
removing next mth also means I will be taking out after 1 year 11 months.
how time flies aint it, I also made my last payment for my braces today.
Felt like a burden off my shoulders but i still gotta save to replace my teeth,
maybe going to my dad's friends clinic to check out the price.
nonetheless, very happy i managed to pay off my braces on my own. braces has been smth i always wanted but never had because family couldn't afford, so lucky readers who had or are having braces be very thankful :) also, my dental clinic recently became GST registered, they used to not charge GST,
i suspect this is due to the high turnover which they have to automatically become GST registered, when they started they prolly have not met the criterias, oh well, lucky me i passed my tax, in fact both exams!! :) very happy and very lucky and will continue to work even harder! ok, back to topic, as i was saying i made my last payment today, and they became  GST registered just past Monday, thankful too, cus it means previous payments were not GST included. ie i saved on them!! yippie!!
lucky i started early!

went home to rest awhile, and finally had the luxury of time to look at myself in the mirror, i realised i was aging, i was so afraid i decided to go for a shopping spree to change or to salvage whatever i can, and i must continue!! ok anw i havent done shopping alone for a long time, shopping with dearest is very stressful. spent huge $$, abit regret now but ok la, long long one time! came back home rested for awhile and went for a 5km jog, it has been quite awhile since i last did 5km! nt bad timing considering the traffic lights.

den home and trained the abs, light dinner and EPL NOW!!!!
ok the only regret is not meeting dear and not studying,
dearest is busy so i guess the best thing i can do is really give him some time while i enjoy some ME time.
i will study tmr!!!! was pretty worried when teacher keep emphasizing the importance of some topics and honestly, my last exams i started revision way early... i must find the motivation!!!
JIAYOU EVERYONE!
can't wait for OCT!!  payday next week first :)

The right one?

Guess when God takes something from you, He either have a way to lead you out of it or give you smth else to compensate. I am not born with the happiest complete family i have ever wanted to be in, but i determined to have a family that i never had when i was younger. I will never allow my kids to go through the mental stress ever that i do, having to worry whether there ia enough money for the next. Kids shld grow up taking part time jobs for leisure, for experience, not as a source of income during studies. Well, thats mine. I dont blame my parents for giving me such a hard life because it was probably tough on them too. The only salvage is really my own family... So my point is very simple, no loney, dont give birth. Dont be stupid, give birth and find trouble raising one. End up, neglect her everythinf and blame him/her for rebellious.

Well despite coming from a divorced family, i think it has made me more mature, i make sure i find the right husband. Too many cheating cases around me i feel so ashamed talking abt it, even for married guys that i do respect my whole life. Why destroy a women's life like that. The last thing i wish is for my husband to cheat on me... Note, boyfriend u cheat on me i can prolly find another one but when u are my husband, i have already vowed to be with u my entire life!!! And no cheating does not mean sex! I wld think when you are emotionally attached to someone else and the only reason for u coming home is a mere responsibility as a husband, thats when you know...

No doubt all these adults whom have cheated are great individuals. They love me. But why destroy marriage? Why why why???

Despite dating for close to 5 yrs, i cant help to occasionally question myself id thats the man i want to spend my entire life with? No doubt, we have many plans for the future, but will it be feasible? Will i be happy next time? I guess all these cant be answered until time comes. To be honest, i cant wait to start my own family... Its probably my way of escaping the many things thats happening around me. But... Everything is not in place yet, i have not gotten acca, i have not converted, i am not ready to convert, how to? Will i be happier if i leave home?

Prince charming, are u hearing me?
Isham grew up in a perfect family. That sometimes i wished he was a little more independent. For instance, he always get stressed over making decisions that i deem can be easily decided or rationalisr abit and decide, but to him its a uber big thing hes just stressed over it. Lol maybe thats why its very stressful to be with me.

Dear future hubby, pls love me the whole of my entire life, my heart cant take a break literally and not literally.

Don't be envious of others, continue working towards your goals

Can't help to be envious of other people sometimes...
I know I have said countless times, i just needa rant man.
Why can't I have an easier life.
Don't have to work part time while studying
don't have to work now, could have gone to uni first,
then again I guess all these have made me a much stronger person.

I will be shifting soon, finally...
although still within the vicinity of Taman Jurong,
finally...won't be until early next year though.

I am having mixed feelings turning 21,
while I can't wait to apply BTO, can't wait to start investment.
can't wait to start my own family,
can't wait to finish ACCA.

but the question is...
when will i ever be ready?

Happy and grateful

Blogging in wee hours happens once in a blue moon, the last time was so long ago i prolly forget to blog. I guess as i age, my memory ages too.

Yesterday i had a great time with mt friends! Steamboat at amanda's place! And thanks for prepping the food and all, had a great time catching up or simply just to see all of us are doing good. Although the whole thinf felt so short but i truly appreciate it. Aft we went k, my first midnight k until 2am. Shiok! Just that my vocals abit cmi ah. Hahaha just very grafeful to have awesome friends with me:)

I cannot be any happier when i received my results at 12pm this morning. Mixed feeling. But i am definitely happy i pass. Dont have to retake! I just met the mark but i guess thats just enough :) this results were an exchange of isham's 3 weeks absence as well ass consistent studying. I hope i can have the same motivation for this sem.

Wish life is abit easier. Just study dont have to worry abt money. Dont have to pay poly fees and current sch fees at the same time, xiong... Education is the only way out of poverty.

Happy 47th birthday,singapore!

My heart is crazily heavily this week despite the public holiday...
The thought of getting my ACCA results is dreadful.
Hope it goes well, Wed is D day,
i don't remember being so worried over my results the last round probably because i already knew i would fail one. this time is really 50-50% and i really don't know how kind the examiner is.

side note, I had Olympic overdose that i have not exercised for a week. Yeap, so much for olympics. HAHAHA