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Sometimes i wish my family has the money for me to further my studies overseas.

face the fact. no money.

face the fact. no good results.

Full time work seems to be the best choice though i still put a tiny hope on local U.

whatever the case is, work first, take tough ACCA.

uni after that? hmmm...

Futsal

Futsal has never been my forte.

whether was it the goalkeeping or playing outfield

I JUST SUCK.

endless scoldings from coach isham for not running enough, covering angle, diving.

today we finally had our chance.

I wish training could be as structured as this every week.

then maybe at the end of 3 years we can be much much better.

Nonetheless, I am proud of my teammates :) Played well, enjoyed ourselves.

didn't get trashing.

On my part i committed a few mistakes which i really cannot accept.

but when a goalie commits mistake = concede goal.

it sucks. a few saves but wasn't enough to cover my mistake :(

It was a first time experience, i treasure, I learn...

Wish that we had more matches. wish the music wasn't so loud

wish we had a little more time to train, wish we had perfect attendance.

Diving down doesn't hurt so much compared to training...

Finally I can say, I feel attached to this sport.

10 things I miss the most- 3

3. Courting Days with ‘Isham(bottom of my heart)

40th month, this is initially #4 in my list, but decided to put it up first

In case all of you didn’t know, my courting days refers to the period we were romantically linked but was not officially together. That was to me- unofficial officially together. I think that was since Jan. so we had about 10 months of courtship before we were finally together on 14 Nov 07. Reason behind is, I REALLY DID not want to commit in a relationship yet. Cus I really wanted to study for O’s, do well and at that time I had Netball, he had Soccer. So we both had our commitments and had very little time except in class. Most importantly, again…. The damage by Qilaf !@#$%^. Needed some time to get over a 3-4 months relationship I had with a guy I felt I really liked at that time!
Even during class time we were both shy so we didn’t get to really talk. Everyone made fun of us and you know Netballer and Footballer is always a match across all levels. Don’t know why…

The funny thing is, I didn’t even notice him in Sec 3. *reminds myself of the incident between another isham (let’s just call him Isham senior) and myself. He was not bad looking and his looks reminded me of some childhood show la. So Mich and I were in the train together with 3 other not bad looking guys. We noticed them but did not want to make it obvious, so we decided to use the most random names to refer to them. So we just suddenly had our school’s house colour in mind, Aspen, Cypress, Carrova and Jacaranda. After the whole incident, we went back to school on Monday to realise Isham Senior was in our school, which means he totally understood our language! Tsk. Malu monster right.
I think that was our first Shuai Ge day? So when we got to know Isham Jr(my bf, in case you get confused) was in my sec 3 class, we asked him if he know Isham Senior. He gave a very guai lan reply and like don’t want to entertain us like tt. Bad impression. So that was the first time I got to know his existence. In the same year, he was forced to shave botak with his teammates. So actually I know what to expect in NS. He fell for a good friend of mine. I was with my ex then. I encouraged, advised him, though his chances damn low. The girl is every guy’s dream. Then eventually he got rejected(?) went for me instead(?) *‘Isham, what is your version of the story?*. By then I was over with my ex. For the period I was single, I told myself I WANT A CHINESE BOYFRIEND. Qilaf totally smeared the impression I had for malays. You know la… ALL guys very nice during courting period after together treat you like shit. That was what happened to me… Isham ah, noticed some changes but not to the extent of cold war, vulgarities. Lol… Always make me tear. Tsk. Both sense of security at minimal leh. Don’t find a handsome boyfriend right!!! Lol! VAINPOTS. Oh ya. Talking bout that, notice the massive change in ‘isham after we got together, size, muscles, he chose aerospace cus I wanted a pilot husband. HAHA fashion… so after all these changes, sometimes I underdress he say I ugly. Overdress he get angry. So ma fan leh u!! ugly den ugly lor! When can you learn how to appreciate me huh huh huh? Miss those courting times, yes to quarrels but you’ve never scolded me for being not pretty hor!! Tsk. Meanie meanie meanie!

Have always wanted a perfect family

I hate ppl who cheat

If suay suay my husband cheats on me and I still want to maintain a functional family for my kids.... I really don't know what to do, my feelings more important or the kids?

what if i have Aids? so scary

what will i do? haisssssssss

经典语录: 我渴望这样一个人：在他面前，我可以肆无忌惮地笑，也可以嚎啕大哭；可以高兴时一脸烂漫，生气时无理取闹；可以和他蛮横地争吵，然后等着他来哄我...在他心里，知道我的逞强和脆弱，给我需要的安慰和呵护；清楚我所有的缺点，然后用温暖细腻的爱来包容；即使身边佳丽如云也不为所动，心中只有我。

Super nice!

I was typing halfway about my ex when isham called me now everything is gone. Just not fated to blog abt him i guess! Lol i can still remember cold wars we'll have for weeks and i will always be the one giving in -_-" cant help to constantly remind myself i should not have thoughts of this jerk at all. How can i miss you last time!

Have never really said sorry to isham for missing someone else. That was great depression for both of us man. I dont like to hide facts. He knew i miss ex upfront. But it still sucks. How can i ever be so selfish! Total bitch right! But ok la. This incident happened in 2009 i have repent and do good for my remaining years! Pls forgive me!

Struggling with work :(

After i end my temp, gotta chiong driving till i pass it.

once i pass driving, either i will prepare for sch, or take full time job.

in between shall be work @ uss.

All planned out nicely.

Great. Work hasn't been very smooth.

All the best TO ME!