Day 1

Today was my breakup day 1, progressing well and i should be proud :)
Ytd was alot of crying after work,
can you imagine I had to tahan my tears from 10am to 6pm go home,
change to running gear, and cry while running :(
I feel so sad for myself but it is true..
It is also the first time i took a good 1.5hours to finish 2 cuts of sandwiches
really no appetite, went back a place we used to date frequently before I started working
and he started army, lots of flashback, I had alot of thinking to do
I asked myself alot of questions, cried my heart out in public,
because i couldn't do it at home else my mum would find out
wipe my own tears and move on.
At that time i was angry and sad, i couldn't see why I deserve this shit...
Went to bed early but woke up 2 hours later, texted him, cried in between then went back to sleep at 4

My eyes were sore from the cries, so I took AM leave. did I just say I took AM leave after a breakup?
I read through those conversations and it crushed me again, it killed me, every single part of it.
my heart was cringing. I cried my hearts out again.
I ask God why it has to be me again??
Earlier this year, it doesn't pay to be kind episode 1
I was always thankful for having this ex for being with me through tough times at home
I believed that God shut my door from my Family and I was happy I had him and would love to start
a family with him, with out home.
I cried so hard I always had to put my palm against my heart

Unfortunately it had to happen, and I was lucky I found out, like I said earlier, All-fated
I asked myself if I will love him the same again, My answer was no,
that was when I knew I needed this relationship to end
This is by far my longest relationship and it hurts to say it
but it had to end by cheating.
we once told each other, whoever cheats will be each other's loss.
too bad he had to commit first.
He very much tried to ask for another chance
but I think I have given enough.
at least from the last episode where u reminisce the past with your other ex crush.
I was pretty sure this had to end, all these bad memories have to end

He told me he will try and win me back
but for now still friends
alot of thinking to do, alot on the line
I don't even know how to answer to my mum if she asks but hey
everything happened for a reason. I am still hurt :( very.....
 I am not ready to fogitve
i still can't recover from the damage... its so intense words cannot descirbe the pain, really
I hope to open my eyes wide again, see, and decide on my future
I am still confused now, still hurt, but at least no tears!
When I was done crying, went to work and got reminded of him walking with me
sigh
went for office run at Labrador Park where we celebrated our first mth.
Not much feels for now.
Aft that I met my pri sch friends for dinner at Boon Lay Raja. nice but too much to finish haha
I explained to them the whole situation without crying, i think this is part of moving on...
then Peiyi called!! delivered 2 pints of ice cream to my hse cus i wasn't home at that time!
I cannot be more thankful than everyone for their effort
made me feel so love even though my world is crushed!!!
I will be strong!!

broken

To start off, last night I had a bad dream, I dreamt that my office building collapse 

and I was dying...

just in office today, I found evidence of the boy with a good friend of his(his claim) having flirty exchanges, calling each other crushes, they just had unfinished business since pri sch

and I guess they just wanted to re-kindle the crush, but went over-board

here me with this bf for 7 years, yet he did such a thing to hurt me...

dating her for movies early Nov, which is my birthday

calling each other crush and sayang, and many more disgusting things that irks me ttm!

Tell me I AM DREAMING!!! gosh he was my life after the episode from my family

earlier this year, my life came crushing down on me again and it can't get worse...

so hurt...........

i cannot explain the pain

but the crying is over.

I will be stronger

cheating is smth I cannot tolerate

不开心

Maybe I am just being over-sensitive, concerned over things that I shldn't be,
100% trust in him
things that you would now keep to yourself...
真是猜不透，为什么感觉好像越来越不了解你.
but that's ok, I shall not be bothered and move on...
tomorrow will be a better day.

Not what it supposed to be

Today was supposed to be a happy day...
Well, it started off as it.
then, a phone call came, then i realised messages have been deleted
not sure if I am too sensitive but I am totally not ok with my bf staying up till 5
to hear girl friend's problems.
Gosh!!!!

KL Trip

Thought i better save a draft while memory is still fresh. :)
Day 1
Set off to airport at around 10,
had brunch before boarding the plane.
the journey was super fast. even faster than the time i took mrt to the airport. haha
and because it was our first time, we took some time to explore...
signs there are not very prominent but the KL xpress train was good.
fast! and efficient. the lrt was abit lok kok but we managed to reach Bukit Bintang,
by the time we checked in it was like 4+ an we had to rush off to the stadium.
Famished from our brunch at around 11.30, we bought a quick meal...

but to realise it was so HOT!!! damnnn

Anw, we managed to follow the crowd and reached the venue early.
along the way got ALOT of shop selling unofficial shirts and banners and what not
but in the end i still bought an authentic Roman Reign tshirt is S.
hehe, comfy shirt that cost $30... ouch, but at least the shirt not mic la!
made in the US. yay!!

The whole show was so awesome! very diff from the ones you watch on tv/online though.
Cus when u watch it on screen, they have commentators and the snip videos of the behind the scenes,
which are pre-recorded, live is just a few mins of waiting time.
and!!! we concluded that they only show the 'successful' moves on TV,
I have to admit not all moves are well-done, some are obvious fails like haven kick already drop.
but of course, most are awesome, and they are 'superstars' for a reason, they have to act.
Started off with John Cena vs Bray Wyatt whic was good, but after watching the next few matches
we felt like the first match was mehhhh~ all the matches turned out totally diff from the match card
here are some best shots from my S5...

John Cena Vs Bray Wyatt

NXT championship one of the best matches i felt

Sin Cara finishing!

OLE!! El Torito!

Big Show Vs The Miz, big shoe was huge!!! not just big >.<

Diva championship Paige Vs AJ, funny part is Paige's hair extension came off! people were chanting CM punk...

Like these 2 pairing - Kofi Kingston and Big E vs the 2 other Wyatts

YOU SOLD OUT! Seth Rollins

Vs US champ, Sheamus

TAP OUT TAP OUT!!

Taking pic before leaving!

Piccolo hotel! clean and comfy.. situated in a convenient location! worth!

This was Brunch on our following day at Sushi Tei with NO QUEUE!!!!
not gonna eat tempura for the next few mths,..

Then we saved some space for this 'roll' looks like a toilet roll with peanut butter and choc
damn awesome, it is actually in swirls so you can pull it off in a long strip.
it is crispy on the outside and soft on the inside! super nice!!! they have savory flavours too

den was shopping at H&M, trade mark 2 balls beanie which i also took while
i was in HK. haha

Then we had chix rice for dinner which was so so only la..

MUST GET RAMLY so we explored even though it was raining, finally found the street food omg!!
BUT IT WAS AFTER DINNER ALR!!!
but still buy for supper la! haha nice corn for 3rm..

Bought Chatime back, honey green tea. yumz!

last day breakfast! the liushabao is good man!!

This is my black pepper chicken noodle, nice!

dessert at Hui Lau Shan, feels like HK... price abt the same also

Then last few hours we spent singing K, 20rm++ for 3 hours and comes with food + 4 drinks
only issue was that when we started the volume was at MAX we almost turned deaf!!
we couldn't communicate with the staff, they thought we wanted to switch to analog,
So we concluded here all the people sing with music damn loud! haha
but after that we manage to find the controller which can adjust the volume,
tried to do it on the touch panel but was not responsive.
K is at sungei wang 6th floor, think it shld be the only one tt level.
bought my top and long dress for wedding lunch at sungei wang!

last thing to mention is the inflexibility!
we bought Famous amos cookies and wanted to split half half so we could take half of diff flavours
that we got, so we requested it to be done, HE DIDN'T ALLOW!
so instead of just simply exchanging our half flavour cookies, he gave us bags to split ourselves
HE JUST WASTED 2 bags la alamak! why!!! LOL

Anw, we had to rush for the damn PLANE!!
screens were not enough and we had to take a train to our boarding gates...
we were literally SPRINTING! damn heng we could catch it. i think we were the last 4 to arrive, 2 more after us!
and i bought the nicest BK burger - french chicken
yums! why they don't have it in SG, wanted to eat in the plane, but too tired i fell asleep
ended up sharing with Babe, lol

Met dearest on Tue again for dinner after work and Gelare since it is now Halal!
Tuesday is waffles day so it's 50%, but is still $11 for waffle with 2 scoops of ice cream!

Much loves!! need to start studying!

Been awhile...

Leaving for KL to watch WWE this weekend. Hope will be safe >.<
must start saving $, super duper broke!