today i did the most evil thing ever.
being the coldest person on earth.
the victim is none other than my boyfriend. LOLS.
he's always a victim. but this one was probably one of the worst
i cant be bothered to explain what happened.
but it was bad. bad. bad.
anw, i keep refusing him.
afterwhich he tried to make me listen to him when i was near home.
but i just wouldnt. i went back home straight.
he said he needed me, i refused him again.
in the end, being softhearted, i went out.
he was sitting by the stairs, head against the wall.
i sat quietly behind him.
i dont know what instinct he got to make him turn.
i saw him with tears all over his face with his bloodshot eyes.
speechless, stunned, surprised, amazed, mixed feeling.
i was angry, pissed on how he tried to vent his anger on me.
on the other hand, my heart melted. i felt a sense of guilt.
i cried along with him ( HAHA ), and he was crying really badly,
like a small kid, but YES, you know how much it takes to make a guy cry.
ESP MUHD 'ISHAM.
i cant help but to forgive him instantly and hoped things would go back to normal.
and it did.
suddenly, it felt like it wasnt a matter of who's wrong or right anymore.

sorry muhd 'isham, i'm probably the first girl who made you cry.
LOLS.
hopefully things will be alright.