Amanda if you're reading this,

i just want to tell you i'm not trying to pick a fight.
but i feel you're putting old grudges into the current picture.
look, if someone in the clique were to insult you that badly,
i'm sure you wont be this angry.
and because this guy who provoked you had 'bad history' with you,
you became more agitated. that's human nature, i know.
but whatever he said was merely just joking about the fish&chips.
you dont have to take it so seriously.
i'm aware that you werent happy at all..
you didnt join our conversation.
i thought you didnt want to participate because he was there.
i'm sure everyone felt that smoke was coming from your head.
it's not that we didnt care ok,
but you have to put yourself in our shoes,
we're stuck in between you and him.
whichever way we go, the other party will feel no sense of belonging.
and we all thought you would be ok,
afterall, he is 'new' or at least it's his first time joining us,
and everyone would be curious about how he's doing and all.
you have been with us for many years, thus we're NOT trying to neglect anyone in the clique.
after all i have said, i just want to exaggerate on the point that
we're not that ridiculous people.
ask yourself, how many times will he come for our gathering?

really, if you think we arent very reliable pple,
den you can go on and trust your other friends.
there is no obligation that we must be the best although we ought to.
if you think your other friends are better, so be it.
if you think we're lousy, theres nothing i can say.
the sex on the bed was merely a random link that we made.
if you're disappointed, den i'm sorry.
but you'll never realise how much this post of yours affected me.
now i'm beginning, maybe true friends aren't just as i thought.
perhaps, we stil need time to build on our friendship and all.

i've hardly rely on my friends other than you pple which i share my thoughts with.
and i few on my sec sch friends which i share problems with..
either that,or i'll keep everything inside me..
after So much that i've said,
i hope you understand and hope nothing has changed your opinion on us.
i can't bear to lose a goodfriend like you.

ok, it's time to go for my exams!
wish me luck.