i'm sad today.
over 2 things.

81more days to go.

i'm left with 1/4 of the amaths hwk.
detention tmr. speed writing.
i think by the time i come home, my hands will be wobbly.
and i'll have problems writing. so i'll try finishing them today! (:
prize presentation tmr! need to wake up early again!
i had a very bad and unlucky experience today.
while this clement(not the 3e1 clement) guy walks backwards.
he fell, and his whole body went over my head.
darn, cant he just check wheres he walking!
plus its like damn malu! plus he isnt very light! lols.

PESS carnival coming in 2 weeks time for the bdiv.
we're gonna play without germaine.
and hopefully, we'll bring home another trohpy(:
but... somehow.. i still miss the old bdiv team!
sigh..those west zone days (:

6 more days to 3rd sept! haha, he remembers.
83 more days to go.
<3

its hurtful and sad to hear,
when someone says you're good for nothing.
she meant those words, she said it twice into my face.
but is it so wrong?
they often say they understand us,
because they've been through before.
but are they really standing in out shoes?
or are they just trying to pretend as if they really understood how we're feeling.
i dont deny i'm partly at fault becus i did not obey her.
and i kept it for months.

but i'm gonna take this positvely!
becus i know what i'm doing.
and that i know how to manage my own time!
i'll show her i can still do well in my studies.
i'll prove to her that shes wrong for saying i'm good for nothing.

becus i'm here for a reason.

whatever she says will NOT affect me.

=]

Pesta Sukan 2006 (sum up)

Round 1 (19 Aug 2006)

TSS(team B) VS SGSS(team 1)

15-2

TSS(team B) VS JWSS(team A)

15-2

TSS(team B) VS GMSS

4-4

TSS(team B) VS GUANG YANG(team A)
12-2

TSS(team B) VS OUTRAM(team A)

7-5

round 1 of games were quite well done i suppose,

except for the last game with outram.

we wanted to win too much.

we were desperate to go into the second round you see.

who win,who will be in.

of cus we wanted to win!

in the end, we did. but theres nothing much we can be proud of.

they did give us a hard time at some point of time.

we caught up, towards the end of the game.

so we went home, toppinng our group

base on goal difference with GMSS.

cus we were consistant in every match.

we sucessfully proceed to the second round with no worries!

Round 2 (26 Aug 2006)

TSS(team B) VS RIVERSIDE(team A)
12-9

TSS(team B) VS STC(ignyte)
11-0

TSS(team B) VS DAMAI(team A)
14-11

TSS(team B) VS SNG(team 2)

20-3

TSS(team B) VS WWSS(team 1)

11-4

round 2 looks kinda scary to me in the beginning.

meeting schs such as St Nicholas Girls,Damai and St Theresa.

like what my coach says, we've made it to the second round.

although winning a trophy isnt our objective here.

but who don't wanna win!

we're here to gain more explosure,

and also. see our standard among the schools.

our first game was against our own 'extreme school'
i played WA for the first half. but didnt performed well.

so was taken off in the second.

we fought hard and we won our first game.

next was against St Theresa.

i've never played with them before,

neither have i seen them played before.

during the game, a few of their 'supporters'

commented that tanglin netballers don't use their brains

sad to say, i think its senseless to make that comment.

next, Damai!

after my idol has left! haha (baizura!)

probably this is the first time in history,

tanglin has ever beaten damai?

i always remember the times we got trashed by them.

although we won, theres not much of sense of achievements.

afterall they are part of the extreme schools

next SNG, their Cdiv team.

and me and siewhong tried intercepting the same ball.

and we clashed, but didnt fall.

and i tripped over the opponent and i fell!

haha, but the game still continued!

next, Westwood.

quite tough of a game, cus their players are kinda rough.

but cant be blamed, cus they are basketballers.

hmm. but i guess, we did well too (:

so we topped the round 2 table again.

with 10 points!(: and had lunch at KFC.

before we headed back for the knock out stages

Knock-out Stages

TSS(team B) VS GMSS

13-10

TSS(team B) VS SAC(mighty)

8-12

TSS(team B) VS NV(power)

14-9

TSS(team B) VS NV(blast)

11-19

*TSS(team B) VS SAC(mighty)

12-13

**TSS(team B) VS NV(blast)

11-7

we played our first knockout game with GMSS.

the school we drew with, in the first round.

however this time, we manage to win them.

we know we have to win the next one, so that it will be easier for us to go into the finals.

but we didnt in the end, so it pulled us down into the losers pool.

we lost to St Anthony's Canossian.

we had to fight damn hard to push ourselves to the top 4.

so we played again North Vista(power)

and we won. afterwhich, we palyed against the same school.

but a different team, this time it was obvious that they are stronger.

and that they wanted revenge for the other team.

yes, i heard chun di coach saying that.

so we fought EVEN harder.

we met SAC for the semi finals again.

and this time, we came CLOSE. yes it was just a goal away from the 1st & 2nd placing.

but we lost with pride. its not that we didnt try.

we did, and i guess our fighting spirit can be seen! (:

for our 3rd/4th placing, we met NV blast again.

with no worries, we beat them and emerged 3rd.

lastly, i would like to thank...

my teammates!

sharing the joy together. being a TEAM.

(Germaine, Fangyi,Siewhong,Cheechin,Meiyun,Michelle,Carol,Erin,Rafidah,Mas,Nurul,

Charmaine,Yuduan,Gina,Huixian,Melissa,Meijun and the one not with us, but still part of us,

Yvonne)

Mr Teh!

for the efforts and hardworks you've put in to coach us!

our tcher-in charge!

Ms Solastri and Mrs Jacob!

without all your encouragements, i think we wouldnt have made it so far!

and all those... who believed WE can do it.

(:

i was tired, and a little stressed out today.
got back my emaths paper.
i passed. but not very high.
and i have 3 classmates who scored 39/40.
and the best thing was there was no one who failed amaths.
but there are a few who passes emaths.
which means.. amaths is easier than emaths! hehe.
i totally screwed up this commontest.
most of them are like borderline passes.
i better work hard for my final year exam before i retain.
i must workhard (:

problems problems problems.
i hope it will resolve SOON,real soon.
but the worst thing is, its not just one problem.

ytd's training, i almost couldnt make it.
cus sun is scorching hot, and we're running non-stop,
for dont know how long.
and it was supposed to be a short training.

back to today, stayed back after school.
to wait for some of my teammate's consent form.
and then.. chat with the PE teachers for like hours.
and the TEAM TANGLIN shirt design is very nice lah.
and it will only be ready after the 1 week break.
Mr Wan so funny! hehe, he and his Suanings.
but hes pretty cool lah.
and hes trying to run away for the teacher's day celebration this year.
mwahaha. cus he forgot to run away last year!
and while playing rugby...
bra strips SNAP! lols!
and he taught us ABC!
A for assholes
B for bastards
C for cowards

and i've learnt that we should spend 0.001% of the whole pie chart on relationships.
i admit, i cant live without friends and that they are important to me.
after what he said, i went back and think..
and all the negative effects strucked me.

what if.. it was just an excuse more than a reason?
two-timer thingy, a change in attitude after some time.
oh no, but why i attempted to give it up, he didnt want to?
love bite,attitudes,cold shoulder.
does it show anything?
it just crossed my mind..
but he promised... and what if he breaks it?
though he has never broken any promises till now,
but will that be the first, and the last?

all these didnt affect my feelings.
becus i still love him the way i do.

school wasnt good at all.
my common test results wasnt good.
problems start coming up.
and it really sucks being stucked in between.
its so hard to satisfy everyone around me.

the number of problems i have.
and being a good friend means youre besties will be sharing their troubles with you.
is it like so difficult to stay PEACEFUL?
i'm tired of all these.
but theres no way i can avoid them.
problems just kept coming.... and coming..
when will everything be resolved?
i need a good rest someday..

pesta sukan round 2!
we'll be meeting, STC,SNG,Damai,Riverside & Westwood.
and hopefully, if nothing goes wrong, we'll make it FAR!
Bdiv Jiayou!
another PESS carnival during the Sept Hol.
this time without the help of Germaine & Fangyi.
we've got to tresure our chances then!

sad to say, it has come to a point where,
the more i see him, the more i miss him.
feelings like history, do not fade with time.
87more days.
and i'm still waiting.
but at the same time, doing good(:

the time will come, SOON.

i'm happy(:
shuaige! shuaige!
i'm so **HIGHHH** now! lols.
motivation! motivation!
gogogo! 90more days!
i love him! hehe

its hard for me to stop!
off to bed now! tata!
91more days in 5 mins time.

Pesta Sukan 2006- First Round!

i woke up at 5.15am! & took 196 to Kallnag Netball Centre.
on the way.. Germaine and Fangyi boarded the bus!
and good thing they boarded the bus.
if not i'll be in the bus all alone.lols.
cheechin couldnt make it on time. so didnt meet in the end.

Warmup.. blah blah.
and that grey CAT?! omg! lols.
was said to be owned by netball singapore? haha
alright, so me fangyi and germaine were uhemmm.
a little over-reacting. but we acted brave.haha

so i played WA for the first game against serangoon gardens
and we actually lead like 10 goals to nil in the 1st half
but guess what? they restarted the whole game!
due to some mistakes in the fixtures?
so shitty! so we had to restart the game!
and we didnt do as well as the previous one lah.
cus we conceded goals.
so there was one ball me & mas tried to intercept.
none of us communicated lah!
so eventually we CLASHED.
and she was hugging me! lols.
baluku on my head now! (:
but the pain went off after some time!
the eyes of the serangoon garden's bdiv players
tells it all, how much they wanted to revenge for their cdiv team.
we won 15-2 for the first game.
after our game was our juniors and their bdiv.
they worked damn hard. and they won serangoon gardens!
(: woohoo!

Jurong West A, probably their Cdiv team.
we won again. but i forgot whats the score!
next next! Geylang Methodist!
the match that 'woke' us up.
i just felt that the first two games were too slack-ish.
so when we meet a tougher opponent, theres no momentum kinda thing.
lols, so we drew with them in the end.
i was like totally BLUR on court.
and i admit this is the FIRST ever time in my netball life.
that i've been so BLURRED.
i thought i was a Wing Defence instead of a Wing Attack.
so i went to the wrong side of the court!
can u actually believe that?
and i wasnt doing my part as a Wing Attack lah!
i actually had an unecessary untouched centre pass!
which is like so stupid of me!
darn. my performance was totally crap.
so my coach talked to me after that match.
yes, i think its my damn attitude towards netball.
i wanna play for the team.
and i'll work on that!

Next match!! GuangYang!
we were playing well in the game lah!
and ms solastri said it was entertaining.haha
i went in only in the 2nd half.
and i was very very tired!
cus its like i couldnt breathe,
and the more i try to breathe, the mucus keep coming out.
haha, so its like. i have to *sniff**sniff*
but we won!i forgot what score! haha

last and the most important match.
its either we win it, or we're out.
everybody wants to win.
we just wanna see the result of winning.
but this midset made us neglect our normal court play.
and we wanted to get the easiest way to get the ball into melissa's hands.
that almost cost us the game.
ALMOST. but we did pick up towards the end of the match.
and we won 7-5.
perhaps.. its just better to play our normal game.
outram came close.we had alternate goals in the first half.
but we caught up in the end.

however, coach wasnt very happy about it.
he thinks that we're thinking of WINNING too much.
so.. despite drawing with Geylang Methodist,
we still topped the table and proceeded to the second round base on goal differences.
it will be played next sat! but this time, the opponents will be much much tougher.
we'll work hard(:

GO B'DIV!

i remembered the pesta sukan last year.
we lost to weaker teams and won the best team.
Outram, and we got a scolding for winning them.
we didnt make it to the second round last year.
but definitely, last year was much tougher and mroe tiring.
and i still miss the old bdiv team!
this year's team, i think theres still a long way to go!

Melissa was great today!! her shots are damn accurate,
she tried something new on court!
and i'm so proud of her!
(:
not only her,
EVERYONE was great.

fangyi,germaine,siewhong,michelle,meiyun,cheechin,mas,nurul,rafidah,charmaine,gina,yuduan,
carol,erin,huixian,meijun,melissa,ms solastri,mrs jacob,mr teh.
and me? haha!
not forgetting the girl on mc, Yvonne!though she wasn't here today.

a week more to train! JIAYOU!(:

school was bad today!
i went to school looking very sleepy, lethargic & almost dying.
i was really tired!
and i dont have a choice but to go to school,
because there is chem commontest today.
and its not possible to give it a miss.
last training before sat's pesta sukan!
i couldnt stop myself from dozing off a lil during ms leong's period.
but i tried my best not to sleep!
so basically, the whole day i've been restless, looking bored & tired.
i dont know if i've been like that everyday.
but today was one of the worst. because i couldnt really concentrate!
only till we ended maths, i became "more-to-life"!
his smile melted my heart! (:

chem test after school.
quite similar to the pretest!
and i guess i flunked it as well..
hmm. went to collect my copper(2)sulphate crystals! (:
went for training after that.

oh anw, the lions didnt make it yesterday..
a 94th min penalty by Shao Jiayi cost the game.
they might have survived & done well in that 90mins.
but what a wasted chance?
but dont worry, they'll make a comeback in the 2nd leg!
gogogo!(:

for my own,
TANGLIN NETBALL GOGOGO!
sat is the day(:
but only for 2hrs?! ARGH.
2nd round played on the following sat!
probably cus there are too many teams.
both B & C div, JIAYOU!

94 more days to go!

oh no! after a packet of Jack & Jill's Roasted Wings flavour Potato Chips,
i can feel that i'm starting to feel unwell!
sore throat, flu. NO!!
not at this point of time, with Pesta Sukan and common test round the corner?
i better recover fast!
no time to waste!!!

Jingying!
i remember okay!
King Nathan Can Make Aeroplanes ZOOM from S'pore Past Holland Crushing Holland and Aussie people! haha!

i need my motivation for the carnival(:
95 more days to go.

As requested by Jingying & Stacey, i shall do this quiz. (:

Seven random facts about me:

1. i'm short and heavy -.-"
2. this is my 5th year in netball!
3. suddenly, i like orange!
4. i can be quiet yet VERY noisy at times. haha
5. i'm slow in everything! haha
6. my studies CMI(cannot make it)
7. ALL Chlorides are soluble except Silver & Lead()
remember me, CSL! (:


Seven things that scare me:

1. first on the list, CATS!
2. stalkers!
3. anything i find disgusting.
4. all the stress! exams and tests! oh no!
5. DYING!
6. people trying to hurt themselves over small small matters!
7. JINGYING! haha.


Seven bad habits:

1. Lazi-ness
2. My "dunnoe"s & "anything"s
3. a little Attitude Problem sometimes! or isit major? lols
4. once start, cannot stop.
5. don't care!
6. i always over-eat!
7. i dont reply unimportant smses.


Seven victims:

1. WEIQIAN! its you!
2. Amanda...
3. Joelle!
4. Kamrun!
5. JiaHui!
6. Fatin!
7. WenQi!

school started quite bad.
cus i had trouble sleeping last night.
and i'm very very tired!
the first lesson was chinese.
and actuallyit wasnt that bad afterall,
cus i'm all entertained by what Mr Mah said.
the new** Super-Bang. haha.
and that the hotline is on for 24hrs.
and that he may want to hire a hundred or a thousand to help him call the hotline.
haha! and that kept me entertained for the whole day lah!
maths! Y is a Fuction of x!
since the y value is dependent on the x value.
so i can say i'm a fuction of my mother?? lols
opps, i'm crapping !
english was worst, and whatever ms solastri said..
just makes me feel STRESS being in 3e1.
we're just expected to do much much more work than any other class.
just because we're in 3e1!
and commontest is coming! oh no!
pesta sukan this sat! oh no x2! lols
i better spend some time mugging before i screw the papers.
we took height and weight during P.E!
i didnt grow! still 156. still 47kg. i've stopped growing vertically.sad.
bio test was crappy! i think just a border line pass.
although liverpool won, but ms chu still gave us the test.lols.
dr lau not here today! mrs sulaiman took over!
1 period was damn boring lah.
Chem, which i thought would turn out even more boring!
turn out quite okay. cus i did try to understand what mdm heng was trying to explain.
haha. and i didnt sleep! woohooo~ though hamimah and i was like counting down.
but turned out quite fun actually (:
trigo test will be a disaster lah!
die already.no need to worry, cus there will be a RE-test! haha!

after school went to KFC with my 2 complicated love partners & mich.
and we have concluded that in TSS,
not only there is a decline in the academic results over the years.
but..
[1] the chiobus has become lesser and lesser every year.
[2] the girls now are straight forward!
[3] boys are now shorter
haha! and we're still working on it(:

isham and i was talking about relationship, when i asked him about his expectations(requirements) of his ideal girl.

::: just me and my silhouette ::: once a dog,always a dog [ hoo! hoo! hoo! ] says:
u think i buying products huh..
::: just me and my silhouette ::: once a dog,always a dog [ hoo! hoo! hoo! ] says:
should have 5-year warranty...100% satisfaction..
Shilin; ]: Chasing thoughts from a million miles away says:
haha
::: just me and my silhouette ::: once a dog,always a dog [ hoo! hoo! hoo! ] says:
can be repaired and can be USED
Shilin; ]: Chasing thoughts from a million miles away says:
no lah.. maybe u wan someone who ermm.. has a good character?
Shilin; ]: Chasing thoughts from a million miles away says:
diff people diff taste mah
::: just me and my silhouette ::: once a dog,always a dog [ hoo! hoo! hoo! ] says:
yeah..perhaps..character and looks would be a bonus

copycat! haha. cus i feel the same!(:


97 days!=]
ilu very very much! (:

all of the sudden.
when i woke up from my sleep..
i just started to miss him very much.
i dont know why.

(: yup, i'm counting down to the 20nov!
i got do hwk one okay. lols.
the end of Olvls!
yes, i'm waiting.
haha, i hope i can survive through this 3 months .
i mean.. of cus i will. and i must. and i can! haha.


& i'll always love him.

hey! i'm here to post up the pics for the Shining Red Dot!
{click to view full-image size}
and some class thingy.
first, the class tshirt!


next! on the competition day itself..

me & little boy! LOLS

"HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!"

me with that orange lolli! haha

1,2,3!! (: i stuffed the lollipop inside my mouth.

my class! (:

and we go.... ANTI-BULLDOG!
i love 3E1!<3

i'm officially countdown-ing the days my bro is going for NS!
i mean its less than a month!!
haha! by then, no one would control me.
but somehow, i think i'll miss his naggings too.

and 20Nov! the end of o lvls.
weijian! my treat if he scores less than 15points!
haha, i'm waiting! and if i do well for EOY!
another treat. mwahahaha.
he taught me trigo like over msn.
haha. thanks so much man!

i'm good today!!
almost couldnt wake myself up for training today.
but in the end i still did manage to pull myself out of bed.
afterall, today was an important training.
i slept quite late last night.
1/2 asleep, 1/2 waiting ..

10rounds around court(field was closed!)
ball handling, variation passes,BOX!
the Running Box was tiring!
so the MI netballers started streaming in.
we did some court play before starting the game.

i only played in the last 2 quarts. C & WD.
i was underperforming today lah.
although no one said much abt it.
but i know i am not doing well!
but we did win in the end, with the score of 35-15.
and next week is Pesta Sukan!
we'll be meeting.. Outram,Jurong West, Guang Yang, Serangoon Gardens,Geylang Methodist.
yup, this 5 schools. i hope it won't be a problem for us to pass the first round!
and hopefully, we'll make it through to the last four! (:
haha,i'm so looking forward to it!
tensed up? its very competitve in this team.
aww, please. buck up our get out!
(sorry, i was just trying to talk to myself! haha)
and... exams are coming too! awwww.

me & my twinkle twinkle partner(Fang Yi).
had just created my NEW* imaginary boyfriend! haha

TODAY! 12aug. also known as SHUAIGE DAY!
reason is simple, cus on the same date last year..
there was alot of shuai ges during that match day.
i was still single last year.haha..
so this year,there wasn't any match. which is sad luh!
actually there is, just that its at hongkong.haha
so yup, my one & only shuai ge today.
is HIM! (:


oh anyway, i did something quite suprising today.
haha, opps. but i feel so much better after saying it though.
i'll see how it goes. MUG hard for those taking 'O's.

ilu!

How to make a Shilin

Ingredients: 1 part jealousy 5 parts ambition 3 parts joy

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add lustfulness to taste! Do not overindulge!

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

as getting a little bored just now and came across this.

cute eh? (:

aww man. i dont know what is wrong with me now.

i'm feeling very sian.

training tmr, a game with MI,

guess i'll be heading home after that.

i'm tired. but i can't sleep.

what should i go for tomorrow??

wah, i better buck up tmr.

i better not be like this tmr.

if not during the game, i'll suffer.

perhaps, i need a goooodd loonnnngg break from all these shits.

argh, i'll be back soon(:

in the meanwhile, tkare people.

Happy 41st Birthday Singapore!

yup, once again its the 9th aug.
the last year that we celebrate national day in the national stadium.
(:
and it will be transformed into a sports hub in 5 years time.
and from tmr till sat there will be fireworks! woohoo~
i was slacking at home for like the whole of today.
and i'm getting a little sick of home.
but i dun wanna hang out either.
aww. i slept like 1/2 of the day.
slacked the other half.
and i'm still tired!!
darn..

anyhoos, josh will be back on fri!
finally! lols. and yup, the class has been waiting..

i've got the pics from cab.
will upload to my pic album later.
cus the pics are over at the other com.

darn, so many people commented about the little girl role.
damn paiseh can? lols!

oh whatever.

wore BLACK class tshirt to school today(:
marlyn got me that BIG orange lollipop!
and the first part of the National Day celebration was pure boring.
but the 2nd part was fun!
we went to get ready for the shining red dot.
and i've mentioned about my role in the shining red dot before.
and yup, no one could hear what i was saying.
i'm sorry. but overall,excluding my part. i think we did WELL!
so yup, 3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for 3E1!
hip hip HOORAYY!!
so eventually we WON! wee~
the singing part was great too.
our whole class hold hand in hands with the songs.
swaying side by side! aww, thats like so nice!
so after that, we went to take some class pictures.

BOO-dog? lols (bulldog) wasn't very happy about our BLACK class shirt.
aww, i mean we're the only class in the whole school that wore BLACK!
and again, the issue of being the best sec3 class behaving this way comes in again.
so we're like the watermelon seeds in the watermelon! haha.
Boo-Dog started nagging again and again.
she talked about how insensitive we can be,
and even pulled mdm heng into the picture.
and we have to perform to qifa student without the raping part and stuffs.
i mean, thats the main point. thats what is entertaining.
so some of us started singing with the music while she was talking.
her sags and her. BLAH BLAH BLAH.
and we've got a cheer for her! LOLS.

had training! okay, i dont call it training cus its not tiring! haha.
just did some normal stuffs. and then me fangyi and mich went to ps to catch..
"My Super Ex-Girlfriend" it is a very simple, supernatural, funny movie!
haha, i couldnt stop laughing at some parts.
thanks to fangyi!! (:
relationships and stuffs..
i would rate it 4/5 cus its very entertaining.
and the only difference at Grand Cathay is that.
the Sits are more suitable for couples.
cus the armrest is quite low. lols.

after that went for the wake.
was busy folding Hearts.
i mean those paper hearts.
yup, i'm glad to see joshua is alright.
hopefully he isnt acting.
hes still not back to what he used to be.
but somewhere there. which i hope he'll be able to pick himself up soon(:
tkare BRO!

i'm TIRED after bathing..

yups, i have thoughts running through my mind too.
i dont know what i want now...
hais. i dun give a damn anymore k? darn.

okay, sleeping now!

tata!

school was alright today(:
after school we had NDP rehersal again.
Shining Red Dot again.
and are we going to SHINE again?
hopefully we'll grab the champs agan(:
there are like 10 grp and we're the 10th group.
cus our performance is like 10mins.
and ME, asked to be the little girl.
had no choice but to act like a girl?
with that TWO pony tails.
aww, so paiseh today!
cus many people must be talking about it.
plus.... some even game me nicknames.
darn, lols. and worst still, he saw it.
lols, paiseh paiseh.
just hope my capillaries dont move towards the surface of the skin tomorrow.
(you would understand if you did listen to ms chu for BIO CLASS!)
haha alright! anw, i guess we're the best group.
all the props well done. costumes well done. and overall its GREAT!
and i love 3E1! woohoo~!
oh yes! we went to Queensway to get our class tshirt.
its VERY COOL.
and it says.. a class of ______(you name it)!
woohoo, i guess everyone loves the class shirt.
and i like the 3e1 print which is in GOLD colour! but just a little small.
oh, i'm so in love with 3e1!
HARD GAY THOMAS
GU NIANG CLEMENT! all of them are SO CUTE!

and during classes, i feel the absence of josh. i miss him in sch!
we're waitin for you to be back (:

sigh, despite all these shits that happened. i still miss him alot.

is it really so difficult to gain back his trust?
cus its like no matter how i try.
it didnt suceed.
not ONCE. and while i'm still working on it.
something i said had brought the trust level back to ZER0 again.
now that it alr happened.
i must think before i say next time.
i MUST get my reward soon.
I DUN CARE!!! =(
cus its getting colder again.

i've got this feeling you're not gonna stay.
the fear of losing,of sliping away.
keeps getting closer.

i guess.. we're going back to what we used to be like.
(the recent ones). darn..
i dont want the same old things to happen again.
and the same old feelings of being hurt again.
& i'm longing to go back to those sweet days(:

the gift of love is all around us.
sometimes i feel i'm all alone,
no one to really care.
but when we look all around our world,
we know that love is there!

i'm gonna try to gain back whatever i've lost.
(: wish me luck people!

FRIENDS are like gardens.
the more you put into it, the more you get out of it!
(: looks like those problems are still there.
whoever is having problems,find someone trustable to talk to.
not unless you tell them, you'll never know how much they can help!(:

i'm sorry for not being there when you needed someone to talk to.
yes, i felt guilty.
and real bad. i'm left helpless.
he msged me just now,
or rather this morning.
and asked if i'm alright.
all i can do is to encourage him and stuffs like that.
he said he was grateful to have a good friend like me.
and i ask myself if i had treated him the same.
and all he wanted was forgiveness from me,
for calling me names.and he said it meant alot to him.
hes gotta be strong.
the class is waiting for his return.
3e1 will be supporting and encouraging through this tough period!

SUPERBAND finals!
me and siewhong supported all the groups.
for me, its because all my fav teams are eliminated. aww.
we were totally *HIGH*!
and the music was GREAT, the bands were great too.
something that left a deep impression was J3's Xiao wei.
so sweet and nice! i love that if my boyfriend could sing it to me! haha.
Soul was great TOO! (: their RnB xiao wei.
in fact, all the Xiao Weis were nice lah.
but i like J3's best.
the other individual songs i tink lucify were doing better
milobing is good becus they got cute acts in between.
so we just basically went CRAZY.
cus we're like shouting for all the bands.
and we're like standing in betweem Soul and Milobing.
so when either is singing. we just wave the lightsticks!
its quite fun! so eventually.
after all our shoutings&screamings, now i got sore throat alr!
the two teams who proceeded to the second round was MLB and Soul.
i thought Soul will win! but in the end.. MLB WON! aww.
they pattern more than badminton, but they know hoe to capture audience's attention.which i think is goood! haha
nvm, at least.. got nto the Finals.
so the rest of the eliminated teams performed too!
QINOBE and JUZ-B!!!
glamours? NIU NAI!!
woohoo! and this "meng huan yue tuan"
i got very HIGH lah.lols

and its hard for me not to miss you alr!
shits. i'm tired
I MISS YOU!(:

school was good.
cus i have STOPPED sleeping in class anymore (:
hooray! but whether i'm actually paying attention, its another question!
at least i tried to stay awake, despite those boring lessons okay!
i did make an effort to. yup, thanks to my motivation!

well, i got kinda stressed nowadays.
i got quite pissed off over the shining red dot thing.
haha, and my studies..
i've lost interest in talking.
oh dear... what the hell is wrong with me?

i'm gonna train up my stamina tmr,
attend lilian leong's hist class ,
and go back home to change for superband finals at night.

i've been quite low lately.
and i dont know why!(:

SHOUTOUTS:

Jityong: i dont know if you'll be reading this, but thanks for your help today! i've learnt something new. plus plus. please handle cup with care for your foot next time (: tkare my friend.
anyway, can you like.. ermm. change your slogan soon? HAHA.

Jingying: Laogong! i might not be able to understand totally what you've been through, but dont worry, i'll be here to listen to you all the times. but you turn out really scary sometimes. and i'm kinda scared too! haha. oh wells, whatever it is. do what is most impt for you.

Michelle: YES! please be careful with your leg next time.its like the third time u injured ur leg, just that its diff part.lols. aiyo. why at this time? pesta sukan you know!?! lols. dont worry lah, just recover fast and hope you'll be back in Netball soon. tkares.

Amanda: Love dont wait for you. either one make love happens. go for whatever you want. its worth a try. no regrets! (: i'll be behind you whatever you do! i understand how hard it is, NOT to miss him! i've been through that! haha

and its finally my turn to say, i miss him(:

i was kinda sad yesterday.
because everyone treated me the same.
if money could change the fact. if money could heal the wound in my heart.
the toughest days, i pulled it through.
what more do i expect from myself?
i've been strong, i know i am (:
is money EVERYTHING?

i skipped one SS/HY lesson last thur.
and somehow, ms solastri got to know about this.
yes, i went with her on my own accord.
i'm not blaming anyone but myself for this.
if one day, i really get kicked out of netball.
who else can i blame?
i must know the consequences of whatever i do from now on.
i still wanna play for the team, i wanna represent the school.
i wanna play for myself.
captainship to me is no longer a problem.
i rather they choose someone more capable of doing the job well.
than me, who has been causing trouble for myself and the team.
how can my tchers, my coach and my teammates trust me?
i never had the ability of leading the team well.
whatever it is. 've given the oppotunity.
but i've RUINED it.
i've left a bad impression.
how can i ever suceed?

you guys might be joking.
but you know me, when i'm not in the mood, i take everything seriously!
so they eventuallly "ganged" up against me.
trying to ignore me when i talk to them.
make a mockery out of it, because i am sitting alone and had no one to talk to.
so after awhile i got angry, and started to ignore them as well.

i'm sorry! but i really didnt check my phone during that time.
but that doesnt mean that i dont wanna msg right!
aww, cummon.

my world has turned upside down.
and i was almost on the verge of breaking down yesterday during training.
i took the circuit training to vent my anger on.
the usual noisy me during training has become a quiet and emotional me.
yes, it was awkward. but i really wasnt in e mood.

well. i havent been doing well in school either.
its time to catch up some work.
before its too late.
and before Common Tests comes like freaking fast.
shits. i tell you, i'm gonna screw it real bad this time round.
so i better buck up!
and i haven been sleeping in class!
isnt that great? (not trying to be sarcastic).
cus i've got my motivation pushing me (:

i'm the Little Girl in our 3e1 production shining red dot!
and damn shit. i'm that little girl.
who needs to tie 2 pony tails with a lollipop.
that might sound CUTE to you.
but if u see me doing it, i think you'll probably puke.
whens the last time i had 2 pony tails? haha
(: i love school! but its long and boring at times =(