Been really busy with work the past week.
Only get to reach home at 11pm most of the days,
and i see it coming for the coming 1 month.
jia you jia you.
in fact, i still brought home some journals to do -_-
like NOW.. while watching soccer.
haha. hope liverpool lose!!!
went for a movie earlier today, Wreck It Ralph, not bad quite touching...
felt stupid tearing over an animation but aiya...
went to make my glasses over the weekend. thought i never had to wear specs my whole life
but oh well, its the computer everyday, bound to wear...
hahaha hope eyesight wont get worst den...
school starts next week -_- why so fast...
new year reso?
talk about it soon.
for now i just want to finish my work!!!
and countdown to new year is not the thing for me now.
omg i am really getting old -_-
Monday, December 31, 2012
Sunday, December 23, 2012
22/12
Went JB with dearest ytd.
den went to fulfill cravings like twist potato, auntie annes etc
favourite picture of the day!! omg i think we aged x 10 years. ok ya. its 10years.
the trip there was pretty smooth, about 30-45mins jam.
caught CZ12 on beanbag!!!
awesome! we paid $20 for both of us. which is equivalent to singapore weekend price
and best thing we were lying on the bean bag damn comfortable!!!
girlfriends, we should go one day also!!
CZ12 movie was not bad, at least i didn't doze off during the 2 hr show, engaging and funny.
lunch at Vivo, not bad, not cheap but good food minus the oil that comes with it...
den went to fulfill cravings like twist potato, auntie annes etc
got a pair of sandal and 2 dresses...
lastly went to AEON and shopped like crazy for my christmas goodie bag!
stuck in a huge jam and hence was late for Kevin's party.
was damn late i think we reached around 9+, made amanda and sp wait for me >.< opps.
but luckily we were late cus cake cutting was much later...
favourite picture of the day!! omg i think we aged x 10 years. ok ya. its 10years.
caught some parts of the AFF suzuki cup, yay SG are champions!!! :)
happy happy!
last min christmas shopping again!!!! >.< and tomorrow sure no mood to work but got so many things to do! HOW LEH!!!
yes, run later
gotta start signing up for runs to get my motivation back -_-
SHOUT OUT TO MICH!! HELLO!!
MERRY XMAS IN ADVANCEAND HAPPY BELATED BDAY!! WHAT!!!!!!!!! hahaha
went to play kinect with the netballers last week...
unglam pics, i think we burnt sme calories before indulging in Itacho sushi, yumzzz
went to 4e1 class outing at Clem's house
The week before went Melinda's house for christmas party! good fun and fun!!
met my poly friends earlier in the day
yay happy now!! my blog got pics already!! not so boring :) heh
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
WHY
AS IF the exams aren't draining enough
AS IF work isn't taxing enough
now i have to worry for another thing...
how can anyone be so irresponsible?
how can anyone play their own family members out?
how can i help?
how can i salvage the situation?
why is this happening to me?
so many questions i can't even myself...
where am i going to get the money from?
I feel like a fool.
I hope BTO will be successful.
need to move out asap
PLEASE LET ME GET A GOOD QUEUE NUMBER.
Today is suppose to be a happy day
cus 12/12/12, unfortunately its not.
but i hope the day will end good with a win from the lions :)
AS IF work isn't taxing enough
now i have to worry for another thing...
how can anyone be so irresponsible?
how can anyone play their own family members out?
how can i help?
how can i salvage the situation?
why is this happening to me?
so many questions i can't even myself...
where am i going to get the money from?
I feel like a fool.
I hope BTO will be successful.
need to move out asap
PLEASE LET ME GET A GOOD QUEUE NUMBER.
Today is suppose to be a happy day
cus 12/12/12, unfortunately its not.
but i hope the day will end good with a win from the lions :)
Sunday, October 21, 2012
WE RUN SG 2012
My first We Run SG! second nike race.
website not much info, everything have to go through FB,
shirt so tight, makes me feel fat, the M is like S lor.
luckily theres a finishers tee which is quite nice, if not there will be more complains. haha
the Bff run the other time was a mirror, lame -_-
not my best timing, not with my familiar music. I had left my hp in 'Isham's parents car and didnt realise until baggage deposit, was damn depressed when i knew i had to run without my running songs, but couldn't do without music, so had to make do with 'isham's.
oh! and thanks sy for helping me collect racepack! :) met her after the race to take the pic.
i took abt 1hr 5mins, which is 5 mins off my best, but considering i haven't been running for 2 weeks,
i think not bad liao, must work towards getting the fitness back :) gogogo
the event too many people... 2nd wave started close to 8am when it was scheduled 7.30am, halfway during the run, the sun was crazy. i crumbled.. manage to convince myself not to stop! that was my aim for today! :)
between 8km to 9km felt the longesttttttttt everrrrrr
i've been through nicoll highway route for the 3rd time this year, and its do boring!! 1 more in november! haha, this time though(and safra), i managed to condition myself to drink during runs, the last time i tried, almost threw up, guess i was breathing too hard while i try to gulp down the water.
Happy that i finished :) took some pics and headed to Popeye for breakfast/lunch.
headed home and KO-ed
will sleep soon before i start complaining tmr!
website not much info, everything have to go through FB,
shirt so tight, makes me feel fat, the M is like S lor.
luckily theres a finishers tee which is quite nice, if not there will be more complains. haha
the Bff run the other time was a mirror, lame -_-
not my best timing, not with my familiar music. I had left my hp in 'Isham's parents car and didnt realise until baggage deposit, was damn depressed when i knew i had to run without my running songs, but couldn't do without music, so had to make do with 'isham's.
oh! and thanks sy for helping me collect racepack! :) met her after the race to take the pic.
i took abt 1hr 5mins, which is 5 mins off my best, but considering i haven't been running for 2 weeks,
i think not bad liao, must work towards getting the fitness back :) gogogo
the event too many people... 2nd wave started close to 8am when it was scheduled 7.30am, halfway during the run, the sun was crazy. i crumbled.. manage to convince myself not to stop! that was my aim for today! :)
between 8km to 9km felt the longesttttttttt everrrrrr
i've been through nicoll highway route for the 3rd time this year, and its do boring!! 1 more in november! haha, this time though(and safra), i managed to condition myself to drink during runs, the last time i tried, almost threw up, guess i was breathing too hard while i try to gulp down the water.
Happy that i finished :) took some pics and headed to Popeye for breakfast/lunch.
headed home and KO-ed
will sleep soon before i start complaining tmr!
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Realisation
I finally realised what was missing from my house.
A family portrait i never had,
and i am determine to have it next time.
A family portrait i never had,
and i am determine to have it next time.
Friday, August 24, 2012
Well spent Thursday
Spent my Thursday the way i wanted :) happy!
The only Thursday without lessons. So must treasure!
Anw after work, chionged home and went ahead for my jog despite the doubtful weather.
I think it was my very full lunch that kept my energy level very high.
Most of the time during regular jogs, i struggle after 5km, but ytd it felt like i had 10km to burn.
In fact, though i have done many 10km races, i have never once completed 10km in training.
Its all abt endurance and momentum. Didnt want to reach home too late, so made ot 6km. Been a long time since i clocked 6km, i think the last time was before sundown in May. Felt like my peak is over though. I had energy, just not fast enough but it was very comfortable run.
Did some mat exercise on abs. Den bathed and did some hair treatment and face mask. Wah, i think it has been such a long time since i went into such detail.
The best thing abt today is yay!!!! Its friday!! Enjoy your weekend, readers! :)
I want to go tanning soon. Too fair to my liking... Anyone?
The only Thursday without lessons. So must treasure!
Anw after work, chionged home and went ahead for my jog despite the doubtful weather.
I think it was my very full lunch that kept my energy level very high.
Most of the time during regular jogs, i struggle after 5km, but ytd it felt like i had 10km to burn.
In fact, though i have done many 10km races, i have never once completed 10km in training.
Its all abt endurance and momentum. Didnt want to reach home too late, so made ot 6km. Been a long time since i clocked 6km, i think the last time was before sundown in May. Felt like my peak is over though. I had energy, just not fast enough but it was very comfortable run.
Did some mat exercise on abs. Den bathed and did some hair treatment and face mask. Wah, i think it has been such a long time since i went into such detail.
The best thing abt today is yay!!!! Its friday!! Enjoy your weekend, readers! :)
I want to go tanning soon. Too fair to my liking... Anyone?
Monday, August 20, 2012
Foolish
I must be foolish then, to think o levels can be a reason/excuse to have a short break with your girlfriend. Haha... Well at least i learnt from it, the hard way. He was a typical guy that changes his attitude aft committing into a relationship. I was taken in by his sweet talking and lies. I laugh at it when i think about it now.
Trust had always been an issue from bc to qilaf and isham? Hahaha
Sometimes i wonder what a person i will be if i werent with isham. 5 years shuo chang bu chang, shuo duan bu duan, to commit 5 years of my youth is really long. Hahahaha i know i have been blogging really negative things recently. When i just started my rls, always hong hong lie lie right, i love my bfbfbfbfbff! Hahaha guess u kinda tone down after awhile. Nonetheless, i am thankful isham always make an effort to make sure i am safe home whenever he can. Though there are nasty days, but he always make an effort to talk things out. Though sometimes i really just hate the way he does things. Hope things will be alll good :)
Anw it has been abt 9 mths since isham's enlistment. They always say/i always heard NS is the time gf will cheat on their bf. either i am too unattractive or me being plain lazy beg to defer, everyday work, gym, home. Where got time to cheat? Lol. I think i hv better things to do than cheating. And why wld i hurt my bf?
Trust had always been an issue from bc to qilaf and isham? Hahaha
Sometimes i wonder what a person i will be if i werent with isham. 5 years shuo chang bu chang, shuo duan bu duan, to commit 5 years of my youth is really long. Hahahaha i know i have been blogging really negative things recently. When i just started my rls, always hong hong lie lie right, i love my bfbfbfbfbff! Hahaha guess u kinda tone down after awhile. Nonetheless, i am thankful isham always make an effort to make sure i am safe home whenever he can. Though there are nasty days, but he always make an effort to talk things out. Though sometimes i really just hate the way he does things. Hope things will be alll good :)
Anw it has been abt 9 mths since isham's enlistment. They always say/i always heard NS is the time gf will cheat on their bf. either i am too unattractive or me being plain lazy beg to defer, everyday work, gym, home. Where got time to cheat? Lol. I think i hv better things to do than cheating. And why wld i hurt my bf?
Treasures
Was clearing my drawers, looked through my old diary,
the way i write is atrocious, the style the spelling. haha can't blame cus its like at least 8 years ago.
i laugh at my immaturity then and disgusted with my actions...
zzzzzzzz
the way i write is atrocious, the style the spelling. haha can't blame cus its like at least 8 years ago.
i laugh at my immaturity then and disgusted with my actions...
zzzzzzzz
Sunday, August 19, 2012
每个人都希望和段臣風吵架时，都会有个太子安慰
可能是看MVP情人看多了，哈哈。
昨晚做了好奇怪的梦，今天又想找以前朋友送的S.H.E公仔，可是印象中很像把它丢掉了。真可惜， 可是家里也没有地方摆。
可能是从小就缺乏安全感，
所以一直在寻找。。。心里上的依靠
段臣風? 太子?
昨晚做了好奇怪的梦，今天又想找以前朋友送的S.H.E公仔，可是印象中很像把它丢掉了。真可惜， 可是家里也没有地方摆。
可能是从小就缺乏安全感，
所以一直在寻找。。。心里上的依靠
段臣風? 太子?
Saturday, August 18, 2012
ME DAY!
I decided I shld blog today.
Today has been very fulfilling!
went for dental appointment in the morning and was told i will be removing my braces next month :)
actually i was expecting this month, but doc put me back on modules(was previously on powerchains)
anw if u dont know the diff, power chain is the 'coloured rubber that connects', modules are the individual coloured rubber, k i dont know what is a better way to describe, google pls.
removing next mth also means I will be taking out after 1 year 11 months.
how time flies aint it, I also made my last payment for my braces today.
Felt like a burden off my shoulders but i still gotta save to replace my teeth,
maybe going to my dad's friends clinic to check out the price.
nonetheless, very happy i managed to pay off my braces on my own. braces has been smth i always wanted but never had because family couldn't afford, so lucky readers who had or are having braces be very thankful :) also, my dental clinic recently became GST registered, they used to not charge GST,
i suspect this is due to the high turnover which they have to automatically become GST registered, when they started they prolly have not met the criterias, oh well, lucky me i passed my tax, in fact both exams!! :) very happy and very lucky and will continue to work even harder! ok, back to topic, as i was saying i made my last payment today, and they became GST registered just past Monday, thankful too, cus it means previous payments were not GST included. ie i saved on them!! yippie!!
lucky i started early!
went home to rest awhile, and finally had the luxury of time to look at myself in the mirror, i realised i was aging, i was so afraid i decided to go for a shopping spree to change or to salvage whatever i can, and i must continue!! ok anw i havent done shopping alone for a long time, shopping with dearest is very stressful. spent huge $$, abit regret now but ok la, long long one time! came back home rested for awhile and went for a 5km jog, it has been quite awhile since i last did 5km! nt bad timing considering the traffic lights.
den home and trained the abs, light dinner and EPL NOW!!!!
ok the only regret is not meeting dear and not studying,
dearest is busy so i guess the best thing i can do is really give him some time while i enjoy some ME time.
i will study tmr!!!! was pretty worried when teacher keep emphasizing the importance of some topics and honestly, my last exams i started revision way early... i must find the motivation!!!
JIAYOU EVERYONE!
can't wait for OCT!! payday next week first :)
Today has been very fulfilling!
went for dental appointment in the morning and was told i will be removing my braces next month :)
actually i was expecting this month, but doc put me back on modules(was previously on powerchains)
anw if u dont know the diff, power chain is the 'coloured rubber that connects', modules are the individual coloured rubber, k i dont know what is a better way to describe, google pls.
removing next mth also means I will be taking out after 1 year 11 months.
how time flies aint it, I also made my last payment for my braces today.
Felt like a burden off my shoulders but i still gotta save to replace my teeth,
maybe going to my dad's friends clinic to check out the price.
nonetheless, very happy i managed to pay off my braces on my own. braces has been smth i always wanted but never had because family couldn't afford, so lucky readers who had or are having braces be very thankful :) also, my dental clinic recently became GST registered, they used to not charge GST,
i suspect this is due to the high turnover which they have to automatically become GST registered, when they started they prolly have not met the criterias, oh well, lucky me i passed my tax, in fact both exams!! :) very happy and very lucky and will continue to work even harder! ok, back to topic, as i was saying i made my last payment today, and they became GST registered just past Monday, thankful too, cus it means previous payments were not GST included. ie i saved on them!! yippie!!
lucky i started early!
went home to rest awhile, and finally had the luxury of time to look at myself in the mirror, i realised i was aging, i was so afraid i decided to go for a shopping spree to change or to salvage whatever i can, and i must continue!! ok anw i havent done shopping alone for a long time, shopping with dearest is very stressful. spent huge $$, abit regret now but ok la, long long one time! came back home rested for awhile and went for a 5km jog, it has been quite awhile since i last did 5km! nt bad timing considering the traffic lights.
den home and trained the abs, light dinner and EPL NOW!!!!
ok the only regret is not meeting dear and not studying,
dearest is busy so i guess the best thing i can do is really give him some time while i enjoy some ME time.
i will study tmr!!!! was pretty worried when teacher keep emphasizing the importance of some topics and honestly, my last exams i started revision way early... i must find the motivation!!!
JIAYOU EVERYONE!
can't wait for OCT!! payday next week first :)
Monday, August 13, 2012
The right one?
Guess when God takes something from you, He either have a way to lead you out of it or give you smth else to compensate. I am not born with the happiest complete family i have ever wanted to be in, but i determined to have a family that i never had when i was younger. I will never allow my kids to go through the mental stress ever that i do, having to worry whether there ia enough money for the next. Kids shld grow up taking part time jobs for leisure, for experience, not as a source of income during studies. Well, thats mine. I dont blame my parents for giving me such a hard life because it was probably tough on them too. The only salvage is really my own family... So my point is very simple, no loney, dont give birth. Dont be stupid, give birth and find trouble raising one. End up, neglect her everythinf and blame him/her for rebellious.
Well despite coming from a divorced family, i think it has made me more mature, i make sure i find the right husband. Too many cheating cases around me i feel so ashamed talking abt it, even for married guys that i do respect my whole life. Why destroy a women's life like that. The last thing i wish is for my husband to cheat on me... Note, boyfriend u cheat on me i can prolly find another one but when u are my husband, i have already vowed to be with u my entire life!!! And no cheating does not mean sex! I wld think when you are emotionally attached to someone else and the only reason for u coming home is a mere responsibility as a husband, thats when you know...
No doubt all these adults whom have cheated are great individuals. They love me. But why destroy marriage? Why why why???
Despite dating for close to 5 yrs, i cant help to occasionally question myself id thats the man i want to spend my entire life with? No doubt, we have many plans for the future, but will it be feasible? Will i be happy next time? I guess all these cant be answered until time comes. To be honest, i cant wait to start my own family... Its probably my way of escaping the many things thats happening around me. But... Everything is not in place yet, i have not gotten acca, i have not converted, i am not ready to convert, how to? Will i be happier if i leave home?
Prince charming, are u hearing me?
Isham grew up in a perfect family. That sometimes i wished he was a little more independent. For instance, he always get stressed over making decisions that i deem can be easily decided or rationalisr abit and decide, but to him its a uber big thing hes just stressed over it. Lol maybe thats why its very stressful to be with me.
Dear future hubby, pls love me the whole of my entire life, my heart cant take a break literally and not literally.
Well despite coming from a divorced family, i think it has made me more mature, i make sure i find the right husband. Too many cheating cases around me i feel so ashamed talking abt it, even for married guys that i do respect my whole life. Why destroy a women's life like that. The last thing i wish is for my husband to cheat on me... Note, boyfriend u cheat on me i can prolly find another one but when u are my husband, i have already vowed to be with u my entire life!!! And no cheating does not mean sex! I wld think when you are emotionally attached to someone else and the only reason for u coming home is a mere responsibility as a husband, thats when you know...
No doubt all these adults whom have cheated are great individuals. They love me. But why destroy marriage? Why why why???
Despite dating for close to 5 yrs, i cant help to occasionally question myself id thats the man i want to spend my entire life with? No doubt, we have many plans for the future, but will it be feasible? Will i be happy next time? I guess all these cant be answered until time comes. To be honest, i cant wait to start my own family... Its probably my way of escaping the many things thats happening around me. But... Everything is not in place yet, i have not gotten acca, i have not converted, i am not ready to convert, how to? Will i be happier if i leave home?
Prince charming, are u hearing me?
Isham grew up in a perfect family. That sometimes i wished he was a little more independent. For instance, he always get stressed over making decisions that i deem can be easily decided or rationalisr abit and decide, but to him its a uber big thing hes just stressed over it. Lol maybe thats why its very stressful to be with me.
Dear future hubby, pls love me the whole of my entire life, my heart cant take a break literally and not literally.
Sunday, August 12, 2012
Don't be envious of others, continue working towards your goals
Can't help to be envious of other people sometimes...
I know I have said countless times, i just needa rant man.
Why can't I have an easier life.
Don't have to work part time while studying
don't have to work now, could have gone to uni first,
then again I guess all these have made me a much stronger person.
I will be shifting soon, finally...
although still within the vicinity of Taman Jurong,
finally...won't be until early next year though.
I am having mixed feelings turning 21,
while I can't wait to apply BTO, can't wait to start investment.
can't wait to start my own family,
can't wait to finish ACCA.
but the question is...
when will i ever be ready?
I know I have said countless times, i just needa rant man.
Why can't I have an easier life.
Don't have to work part time while studying
don't have to work now, could have gone to uni first,
then again I guess all these have made me a much stronger person.
I will be shifting soon, finally...
although still within the vicinity of Taman Jurong,
finally...won't be until early next year though.
I am having mixed feelings turning 21,
while I can't wait to apply BTO, can't wait to start investment.
can't wait to start my own family,
can't wait to finish ACCA.
but the question is...
when will i ever be ready?
Thursday, August 09, 2012
Happy and grateful
Blogging in wee hours happens once in a blue moon, the last time was so long ago i prolly forget to blog. I guess as i age, my memory ages too.
Yesterday i had a great time with mt friends! Steamboat at amanda's place! And thanks for prepping the food and all, had a great time catching up or simply just to see all of us are doing good. Although the whole thinf felt so short but i truly appreciate it. Aft we went k, my first midnight k until 2am. Shiok! Just that my vocals abit cmi ah. Hahaha just very grafeful to have awesome friends with me:)
I cannot be any happier when i received my results at 12pm this morning. Mixed feeling. But i am definitely happy i pass. Dont have to retake! I just met the mark but i guess thats just enough :) this results were an exchange of isham's 3 weeks absence as well ass consistent studying. I hope i can have the same motivation for this sem.
Wish life is abit easier. Just study dont have to worry abt money. Dont have to pay poly fees and current sch fees at the same time, xiong... Education is the only way out of poverty.
Happy 47th birthday,singapore!
Yesterday i had a great time with mt friends! Steamboat at amanda's place! And thanks for prepping the food and all, had a great time catching up or simply just to see all of us are doing good. Although the whole thinf felt so short but i truly appreciate it. Aft we went k, my first midnight k until 2am. Shiok! Just that my vocals abit cmi ah. Hahaha just very grafeful to have awesome friends with me:)
I cannot be any happier when i received my results at 12pm this morning. Mixed feeling. But i am definitely happy i pass. Dont have to retake! I just met the mark but i guess thats just enough :) this results were an exchange of isham's 3 weeks absence as well ass consistent studying. I hope i can have the same motivation for this sem.
Wish life is abit easier. Just study dont have to worry abt money. Dont have to pay poly fees and current sch fees at the same time, xiong... Education is the only way out of poverty.
Happy 47th birthday,singapore!
Sunday, August 05, 2012
My heart is crazily heavily this week despite the public holiday...
The thought of getting my ACCA results is dreadful.
Hope it goes well, Wed is D day,
i don't remember being so worried over my results the last round probably because i already knew i would fail one. this time is really 50-50% and i really don't know how kind the examiner is.
side note, I had Olympic overdose that i have not exercised for a week. Yeap, so much for olympics. HAHAHA
The thought of getting my ACCA results is dreadful.
Hope it goes well, Wed is D day,
i don't remember being so worried over my results the last round probably because i already knew i would fail one. this time is really 50-50% and i really don't know how kind the examiner is.
side note, I had Olympic overdose that i have not exercised for a week. Yeap, so much for olympics. HAHAHA
Monday, July 30, 2012
Monday, July 09, 2012
JLR 2012
Joined Jurong Lake Run for the first time this year.
Woke up to swaying trees and strong wind.
Wash up and had breakfast before heading back to bed and monitoring the rain.
Told myself if it doesn't stop by 630am i am not going.
In the end... it stopped around 630. Hurried off to take a bus down to Jurong East with Leesheng...
Reached there pretty late and by the time we had to put our baggage and warm up,
the 6km runners were already in queue... had to squeeze all the way to the front and start...
whao crazy start.. however, thanks to the morning rain, the run was cooling..
the route was close to perfect, because by the time i reach mid mark, the crowd kinda spreads out,
thus, given the narrow route, i was able to overtake. however, at around my 5km mark,
the 6km fastest runner was whizzing pass me. they even had bicycle ushers to 'open road'
for them, and this guy knocked me so hard i almost lost my momentum,
wah lao cannot run on the left meh...
anw, it was tiring... but feel good... in fact it was my best run this year. hehe
ample water points, although i didn't stop at any.
thanks to the supporters at the side, gave me motivation when i needed it! lol
completed the race in 1 hr 42 secs according to my time.
official timing not out yet.
good time for me i guess, its almost 7 mins pass sundown and 3.5mins pass mount faber.
more to come :)
the only setback was the long waiting time to the 100plus, medal and finisher tee...
Babe came to meet me after the run, had mac breakfast aft tt :)
KO-ed!
as a motivation/reward, i will buy compression tights for myself once I beat the hour mark!
Woke up to swaying trees and strong wind.
Wash up and had breakfast before heading back to bed and monitoring the rain.
Told myself if it doesn't stop by 630am i am not going.
In the end... it stopped around 630. Hurried off to take a bus down to Jurong East with Leesheng...
Reached there pretty late and by the time we had to put our baggage and warm up,
the 6km runners were already in queue... had to squeeze all the way to the front and start...
whao crazy start.. however, thanks to the morning rain, the run was cooling..
the route was close to perfect, because by the time i reach mid mark, the crowd kinda spreads out,
thus, given the narrow route, i was able to overtake. however, at around my 5km mark,
the 6km fastest runner was whizzing pass me. they even had bicycle ushers to 'open road'
for them, and this guy knocked me so hard i almost lost my momentum,
wah lao cannot run on the left meh...
anw, it was tiring... but feel good... in fact it was my best run this year. hehe
ample water points, although i didn't stop at any.
thanks to the supporters at the side, gave me motivation when i needed it! lol
completed the race in 1 hr 42 secs according to my time.
official timing not out yet.
good time for me i guess, its almost 7 mins pass sundown and 3.5mins pass mount faber.
more to come :)
the only setback was the long waiting time to the 100plus, medal and finisher tee...
Babe came to meet me after the run, had mac breakfast aft tt :)
KO-ed!
as a motivation/reward, i will buy compression tights for myself once I beat the hour mark!
Monday, July 02, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Saturday, June 23, 2012
NIGHTMARE
2nd time i am dreaming of this woman with short hair...
She had no emotions, she doesn't talk to me.. or was i not visible?
ok right..... sucks to wake up in a cheating dream right...
my heart was racing so badly i could feel it!!
wake up to tears... zzzzz it felt so real...
ok la its just me having a bad dream and a bad day. oh well...
held hands, lie on shoulder... yet he wanted the best of both worlds...
CANNOT LAH!! choose one only...
den i woke up trying to find some reassurance..
didn't get it. AWESOME ISHAM aint it.
so much of me giving u assurance over assurance when u were in camp.
hao xin mei hao bao!
She had no emotions, she doesn't talk to me.. or was i not visible?
ok right..... sucks to wake up in a cheating dream right...
my heart was racing so badly i could feel it!!
wake up to tears... zzzzz it felt so real...
ok la its just me having a bad dream and a bad day. oh well...
held hands, lie on shoulder... yet he wanted the best of both worlds...
CANNOT LAH!! choose one only...
den i woke up trying to find some reassurance..
didn't get it. AWESOME ISHAM aint it.
so much of me giving u assurance over assurance when u were in camp.
hao xin mei hao bao!
Monday, June 18, 2012
Mt faber 2012
Official timing is out! Much better than Sundown which i am pretty surprised.
Not the best of timing but is my PB for now :)
01:04:28. 80/317 for women open. Sundown was 01:07:37 nett time..Will try to beat the hour mark in the next few runs to come.The uphill was the craziest shit ever, and also i realised downhill is my weakness.
Glad i managed to push myself all the way to the finishing line where I spotted dearest standing along the last 50m stretch.... last push to the finish line..... weee~ he finished much faster than I did.
I lost my timing halfway so had to wait for the official timing...
Was having jitters the night before the race as i haven't been training enough the past few weeks,
due to hectic exam revision. On a side note, exams seems manageable... hope the results turn out well on 8 Aug 2012! ahhhhhhhh!!
After race, had KFC breakfast before heading home to take a short rest.
Headed to USS for PSA Family Day where I had awesome fun with my friends.
too bad my health is failing me, giddy after transformer ride, but everything else was good,
the food, the company, the rides...
hope i have the same courage 10 years down the road! i wanna do bungee jumping!! lol!!
Reached home about 1am and KO-ed soon.
Work today was at gear 1. totally.
Not the best of timing but is my PB for now :)
01:04:28. 80/317 for women open. Sundown was 01:07:37 nett time..Will try to beat the hour mark in the next few runs to come.The uphill was the craziest shit ever, and also i realised downhill is my weakness.
Glad i managed to push myself all the way to the finishing line where I spotted dearest standing along the last 50m stretch.... last push to the finish line..... weee~ he finished much faster than I did.
I lost my timing halfway so had to wait for the official timing...
Was having jitters the night before the race as i haven't been training enough the past few weeks,
due to hectic exam revision. On a side note, exams seems manageable... hope the results turn out well on 8 Aug 2012! ahhhhhhhh!!
After race, had KFC breakfast before heading home to take a short rest.
Headed to USS for PSA Family Day where I had awesome fun with my friends.
too bad my health is failing me, giddy after transformer ride, but everything else was good,
the food, the company, the rides...
hope i have the same courage 10 years down the road! i wanna do bungee jumping!! lol!!
Reached home about 1am and KO-ed soon.
Work today was at gear 1. totally.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Life....
Just completed my exams on Tuesday last week.
Have been a pretty intensive 3 weeks while dearest was away.
Glad its all over now and I can take a really short break from lessons.
Just finished 10km this morning.
Lost my timing halfway so i have to wait for the official timing.
Happy that I didn't stop despite the uphill and downhills at mt faber.
Gonna KO now and USS later
Wish me all the best! lol
Monday, May 28, 2012
Coping well, i guess
Think I
have been coping pretty well for the past 1 week.
Mixed
feeling for dearest to be back, cus it just means I will be taking my exams for
the next 2 days. I realise my ability to blog has deteriorate along with my
frequency. While I still rely very much on words compared to vocals to express
my thoughts and feelings, I hope it will not die off so soon cus I know there
are secret readers who still pop by every now and then to read.
I admit I don’t
have the most interesting blog, neither do I have the best photoshop skills, so
do I not have the prettiest face. But I always believe the purpose of blogging,
or at least for me is to jot down my thoughts and feelings, while I am thinking
and typing. This is also the same reason why I do not have a twitter account. I
strongly believe that I will abuse it by saying things on impulse that may hurt
others or create commotion or feedbacks or attention which I don’t really need.
I still feel comfortable here thinking
of what to write just so I know 10 years down the road when I read this, I’ll
be laughing at myself why I even typed this, and what the hell is going through
my mind.
Speaking of
that, I just read one of my older blogs which I think nobody has read it
before. Think that was during my sec 2 to sec 3 transitions. It has been 6
years, and through these 6 years, it is obvious to tell how one writes, reflects
the maturity of that person. I was
immature, sadistic and pessimistic, I also realised I had many role models,
friends I can relied on when my confidence level hit real low. Unfortunately,
my focus now has to turn since meeting Isham in 07. It has always been tough
trying to keep a balance between friends and bf. But understand I am trying my
best.
Appreciate
that I am able to attend poly, get a job and I am thankful that I am able to
read and write, able to differentiate what’s good and bad
As such, I have
an announcement to make. I will not be holding any 21st birthday
celebration. My rationale is simple, the best birthday present I want to
receive is to spend quality time with everyone that appreciate in my life. Not a
mere 3 to 4 hrs long party and I’ll see you in 3 to 4 years time. It defeats in
purpose and I stand by it. Thus, my real birthday wish is to really spend time
with all treasured ones. It doesn’t have to be this year, it can be as long as I
live until I get married, be a mummy, have grandchildren. Best friends forever!
BFF, you realised how it is a very simple word, but do you really mean it when
you say you will be best friends for life?
I
appreciate that I still have friends who always care about me, would initiate
to meet me, I REALLY REALLY appreciate it, and those who don’t give up on me :)
Since Isham’s
enlistment last year, I have been trying very hard to control my weight, again
my reason is simple, I don’t want to look bigger than my boyfriend, because I surely
know he will lose some weight during tough training. Which I did, and
thankfully I did, I am a happier, more confident person now than 1 year ago
when people still criticise my size, my looks. No I have nothing against them,
and neither do I take it to heart. I know I needed to change and the change has
to start from me. Thus, since Nov last year, I’ve been cutting intake of
unnecessary carbs, snacking and have been exercising regularly since.
For someone
who use to play sports and then to become so slow isn’t very motivating. I
always wonder how the hell I did 10 rounds around football field for warm-up.
To be honest, I never liked running. You can ask me to play sports and run, but
definitely not pure running. Just 2 days ago, SY and I completed out 2nd
race together. Our first being Nike BFF run which Is a total flop. This time
round, I think we really did awesomely well!!! Kudos to the both of us, we’ve
never trained together but I think we just had a common goal. DON’T STOP!!! So we
chionged until we reached the finishing line! Happy max. this is the first time
I ran 10km without stopping, although the timing can be much better but I guess
its not too bad for SY’s first 10km and my 2nd 10km.
It is a
good time for Isham to be away since I need to juggle work, studies and running
all together, I need my 1 week break after exams!! Break as in break from
attending lessons -_- miserable, I know. Lol. Holidays? Nah, I need to pay for
my poly fees. Boohoo~ During the past 1 week dearest was away, everything simply
took place damn zhun until I don’t know what to say… all I can say is fate is
amazing…
Anw good
news is… ISHAM and I finally started saving up!!! After 4 years right I know. Better
late than never what!! Save up for the future! And many other plans I wanna
carry out when I earn enough/ save enough.
To all
taking ACCA exams, GOOD LUCK!! And all the best
To all
random passer-bys and stalkers, HELLO!!!! lol
Friday, April 27, 2012
happy Friday
Been really a long time since i blogged.
I miss blogging, recently too many things happened at home..
I am overwhelmed, I don't know how to manage.
Thankfully i still have the weekends to share my woes with bf, friends.
Hope things get better.
Played Netball last week under the hot sun,
it was straight 8 quarters, really a test of my stamina. by last 2nd quarter i was dead, lazy legs....
But i never want to lose touch with this game, thankfully my company still has a chance for me to play once a year... although the people who play are like the same la! haha ehh siao siao... some ex netballers are really awesome k! i was playing GA and it totally sucks, i can't shoot for nuts, lucky my GS is pro one... haha... and good to know people from other departments too since my co is ermmm.. 20k odd people? want to meet also abit hard uh.
This week will be an awesome awesome week! good food, and making good progresses with jogging as well. 7.5km so far, alhough the timing is not the best due to me being slow and traffic light timing, i hope i can jog 10km without stopping, thats my aim for sundown :) and then maybe my mizuno and jurong lake i can start to improve my timing, one step at a time :) i should set my limit to 10km cus i know if i were to run more, my boobs will be at risk... hmmm...
Work has been quite the same i guess, more things to share this weekend with pictures hopefully :) i must start blogging often, really really!!!
Till then :) happy friday!
I miss blogging, recently too many things happened at home..
I am overwhelmed, I don't know how to manage.
Thankfully i still have the weekends to share my woes with bf, friends.
Hope things get better.
Played Netball last week under the hot sun,
it was straight 8 quarters, really a test of my stamina. by last 2nd quarter i was dead, lazy legs....
But i never want to lose touch with this game, thankfully my company still has a chance for me to play once a year... although the people who play are like the same la! haha ehh siao siao... some ex netballers are really awesome k! i was playing GA and it totally sucks, i can't shoot for nuts, lucky my GS is pro one... haha... and good to know people from other departments too since my co is ermmm.. 20k odd people? want to meet also abit hard uh.
This week will be an awesome awesome week! good food, and making good progresses with jogging as well. 7.5km so far, alhough the timing is not the best due to me being slow and traffic light timing, i hope i can jog 10km without stopping, thats my aim for sundown :) and then maybe my mizuno and jurong lake i can start to improve my timing, one step at a time :) i should set my limit to 10km cus i know if i were to run more, my boobs will be at risk... hmmm...
Work has been quite the same i guess, more things to share this weekend with pictures hopefully :) i must start blogging often, really really!!!
Till then :) happy friday!
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Friday, March 30, 2012
i cannot believe
I cannot believe what is happening before me.
I cannot accept the fact why things have to turn out this way
I cannot comprehend why it has to be me...
We don't ask for trouble free life.
my family background forces me to be independent.
not that i really chose to.
If you have no $ den don't take cab,
if you have no $ don't gamble
if you have no $, don't harm your family members financially.
we are only here trying to earn a living.
i am only here trying to fight a piece of what belongs to me.
I am only here to start building my own dreams.
Why are there so many obstacles??
Why is everything not smooth sailing?
Why do i have to grow up worrying bout having $ all the time.
if marriage is going to bring an end to it, i gladly would.
but no!!!! i must not and will not until i am mentally/ financially ready.
What i can do now is to bear with it for a few years.
and hope prince charming come save me soon.
I need a breather.
I am so tired of this....
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Friendship
As much as i DREAD talking about this topic.
I just felt i really need to put if off my shoulder.
had been troubling me since the incident which i am guilty about.
Spiritualjoy is my best listener, though she doesnt give any advice.
at least she hears me well.
troubled by the fact that i lost a friend, i lost him because of my own idiotic act to agree.
i know my friends will tell me its not my fault because it will still happen.
but i was acting like a catalyse. i speed up the process.
And because I WAS in the same ship 3 years ago.
I had the same thoughts, if you want me, you gotta break your ties with your friends.
Yeah in a relationship, truly it is always about partner vs friends.
unfortunately/fortunately my bf is as stubborn as i am, refused.
of course i was devastated. of course i was swearing
"you mean your friends are more important than our relationship?"
but he told me something more hurtful.. i forced him to do smth that he thought would hurt the bitchanate so he told me "he doesn't want to hurt the friendship"
again to me WTF at this point you're still thinking about YOUR FRIENDSHIP with HER?
GO TO HELL SERIOUSLY.
proof- you can actually back track my old blog post back in year 09. can't remember the date though, shld be July onwards...
then because he refused so badly, i wanted to take the initiative on his behalf.
yes, i am those kind, don't mess with my man or i'll go hell with you.
lol.. he refused too. wah really i think that was my worst period of my relationship...
he reassured me and stuff but hell when you're hurt reassurance like no use liao...
i think eventually he went to tell her like..
"MY GIRLFRIEND ASKED ME TO SAY..................."
ya, so it became like I WAS instructing him to do what he didn't want to say to her...
ok la... den i was thinking my reputation infront of his friends already tarnish.
if i stop him from meeting them ,my reputation as a gf is really can be trash...
so i act noble lor. let them meet. anw by forbidding ties is really avoiding the problem which to me isn't really solving the problem.
of course i believe there would be awkwardness, i have never met them in real,
and never will. my reputation is really at 0 and i really don't care...
3 years ago, the fact is u called him BEE, and to date you're still a bitch because of that.
YES FACE THAT BITCH.
i am not trying to be mean but pls la hor,
use your brain before you commit any actions.
but ok, not trying to be sour grapes but like hello! now isham is in NS, whos more afraid of losing who? TRY ME LOR ISHAM TRY ME!!!! HAHAHAHA
anw one wave after another, i hope the next party would be good!
but thankfully we have already broke the barrier, sorted out things before shit happens!
phew~~~~~~~
Saturday, March 03, 2012
Be thankful
S.H.E songs to bed today. can't ask for more.
Thanks for being the best :)
and my favourite quote last time "the bez man"
:)
Saturday, February 25, 2012
shoutout to mag soh!
Hi mag!!!!!
long time no seeeee :)i just saw your tag, hehe
was lost in a sea of spams.. hehe
thanks much for your motivation <3
it is definitely tough now, but lets pull through this and life will get better right!!
lets jiayou tgt!!! :)
Thursday, February 23, 2012
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO 2 FRIENDS I DIDN'T WISH!
Hi girls, these post is specially meant for you 2, don't know if you'll come across this,
but i know somehow you will, and know that I REMEMBERED YOUR BIRTHDAY :)
Wanting: Miss working with you, work has been really really hectic. no time for private mails, sudoku, bingo! really glad to have known you better from internship! catchup with you again after your prelims and belated birthday!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :)
Peiyi: whaooooo my first poly friend, sorry for missing out your birthday celebration with the rest of the peeps! haven't caught up with you for a long long time and i really mean a long long time. hope everything is going well for you :) CATCH UP WITH YOU on mon after ur papers!! :) sure have many things to say!!!! HAHAHAHAHA
ADD OIL FOR PRELIMS AH <3
Monday, February 06, 2012
I cant be good in everything, i have my limitations.
I can't be the best in everything.
Why cant you accept my flaws.
Sorry i am too lousy for you.
Netball not good
Futsal not good
Badminton not good
Sorry i really can't find something i am good at. If my low self esteem is not enough, thnks so much for reminding me my flaws. You're so hard to please. I'm breathless. I am fine that other ppl are better than me, but cant you see i am trying? But in your eyes, theres only victory and i am the victim.
I hope you understand that marriage is not as easy as it is. Let alone maintaining it. At the state we are now, i can see you blaming me for things i dot do well as a wife/mother/daughter in law. Yeah sure others can do it better... Den move on.... Nobody wants to be second best. Unless you change this, i am saying straight to your face, sorry you are not my kind of marriage parter. I really dont need someone to remind me of what i cant do as well for the rest of my life. Its not like you tell me nicely what i can do better, yes i know you're frustrated you're losing, so am i.
I dont want to start a quarrel, i dont need to unnecessarily affect your training mood, when u chance upon this just know that i am just disappointed. I dont know how to react. I know i am not the best gf any guy can have but cant you see that i am not genius?? Have i ever once scolded you because you can't do your napfa as well as the other guys? U do beter you can book out on friday, we can spend more time, but i know you've tried your best. I have no second doubt, if your best can only bring you this far, so be it.
Said my piece. Its not the first time it occurred and will also not be the last.
Just.... Very very sad:(
I just hv too many flaws that i cant even hide...
Sorry i've let you down again, sorry we lost again...
I can't be the best in everything.
Why cant you accept my flaws.
Sorry i am too lousy for you.
Netball not good
Futsal not good
Badminton not good
Sorry i really can't find something i am good at. If my low self esteem is not enough, thnks so much for reminding me my flaws. You're so hard to please. I'm breathless. I am fine that other ppl are better than me, but cant you see i am trying? But in your eyes, theres only victory and i am the victim.
I hope you understand that marriage is not as easy as it is. Let alone maintaining it. At the state we are now, i can see you blaming me for things i dot do well as a wife/mother/daughter in law. Yeah sure others can do it better... Den move on.... Nobody wants to be second best. Unless you change this, i am saying straight to your face, sorry you are not my kind of marriage parter. I really dont need someone to remind me of what i cant do as well for the rest of my life. Its not like you tell me nicely what i can do better, yes i know you're frustrated you're losing, so am i.
I dont want to start a quarrel, i dont need to unnecessarily affect your training mood, when u chance upon this just know that i am just disappointed. I dont know how to react. I know i am not the best gf any guy can have but cant you see that i am not genius?? Have i ever once scolded you because you can't do your napfa as well as the other guys? U do beter you can book out on friday, we can spend more time, but i know you've tried your best. I have no second doubt, if your best can only bring you this far, so be it.
Said my piece. Its not the first time it occurred and will also not be the last.
Just.... Very very sad:(
I just hv too many flaws that i cant even hide...
Sorry i've let you down again, sorry we lost again...
Sunday, February 05, 2012
Thursday, February 02, 2012
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
Thursday, January 26, 2012
isnt it nice to get married, start your own family?
I've been longing... but i have so many things to complete before i commit,
yet i can't wait to stay out.
i will wait...
save... and make life better for my kids.
and no i am not pregnant -_-
i just want to get married, period.
i just don't want my kids to be like me.
how nice........
Thanks babe for always standing by me whenever shit happens.
I've been longing... but i have so many things to complete before i commit,
yet i can't wait to stay out.
i will wait...
save... and make life better for my kids.
and no i am not pregnant -_-
i just want to get married, period.
i just don't want my kids to be like me.
how nice........
Thanks babe for always standing by me whenever shit happens.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Brazil 2014 seems impossible for now :(
AIr tix alone is already $8k which we will have trouble saving...
looks like 2018 maybe singapore qualify lor.. hahaha
meanwhile cny has been good i guess...
but lots of liability to pay... like acca, credit card bills...
appraisal has been good phew~ :)
hope to be better next time round. phew~~
hope to do better this year!
AIr tix alone is already $8k which we will have trouble saving...
looks like 2018 maybe singapore qualify lor.. hahaha
meanwhile cny has been good i guess...
but lots of liability to pay... like acca, credit card bills...
appraisal has been good phew~ :)
hope to be better next time round. phew~~
hope to do better this year!
Sunday, January 08, 2012
HAPPY POP dear!
Ytd was mumu's POP, he marched 24km!
so proud of him, finally POP,
still remember how both of us dread the start of NS.
Abit sad to have made friends, went through hardship together and part.
At least, he've gone through it and i believe he'll remember it for life.
Hope posting will be good :)
anw, met his family for the first time ytd,
first time because i mean it... FAMILY.
was only expecting his dad,mum,2 brothers...
So instead of 4 people, i was surprised that his elder brother and 2 nephews were there too. so u get what i mean it is like X2 the anxiety and awkwardness...
I think all of them tried to make me feel comfortable though, they tried to talk to me and i think my face clearly shows oh no, i need isham! HAHAHA
hope this is a good start though...
at least we proved 4 years is worth some recognition!
HAPPY POP FRIENDS!!! TIME TO ENJOY YOUR BLOCK LEAVE
(while i start my routine tomorrow)
JIAYOU!!!!!!!!
so proud of him, finally POP,
still remember how both of us dread the start of NS.
Abit sad to have made friends, went through hardship together and part.
At least, he've gone through it and i believe he'll remember it for life.
Hope posting will be good :)
anw, met his family for the first time ytd,
first time because i mean it... FAMILY.
was only expecting his dad,mum,2 brothers...
So instead of 4 people, i was surprised that his elder brother and 2 nephews were there too. so u get what i mean it is like X2 the anxiety and awkwardness...
I think all of them tried to make me feel comfortable though, they tried to talk to me and i think my face clearly shows oh no, i need isham! HAHAHA
hope this is a good start though...
at least we proved 4 years is worth some recognition!
HAPPY POP FRIENDS!!! TIME TO ENJOY YOUR BLOCK LEAVE
(while i start my routine tomorrow)
JIAYOU!!!!!!!!
Sunday, January 01, 2012
2012 now!!!! and 2011 round up
firstly one of my resolution to pass driving, checked!
awesome! can't wait to save enough to get my own car.
unfortunately, many commitments now... so can't save much yet!
but i will, i will! :)
2011 truly hasn't been the best for Isham and I.
i think we quarreled more compared to 2010.
more tears definitely, but i think towards the end, since he entered NS.
Things have took a change and start to get better, i hope...
While 2012 seems to be an uncertain year for me, explain later...
i hope all will be good!
also in 2011, i started running routine and loving it! will train harder!
hope i will lose more weight.
2011 also witness my next phase of life, although not totally...
i am still a part time student...
working full time is tough but then again, i always believe in
"first bitter later sweet", so i rather be tough on me now, than much later when i have more commitments, larger responsibilities.
2011 wasn't a very easy year for my family as well.
witness lots of ups and down which i hope 2012 will clear it all!!!!
i really really hope 2012 will give me great motivation and i will strive to work towards the best i can ever be. I WANT MY KIDS TO BE BORN WITH A SILVER SPOON.
I DON'T WANT TO BE STRUGGLING WITH FINANCE ALL MY LIFE.
ok, this also means i am more or less looking to settle down with isham,
if nothing major happens, start saving up, BTO, car, marriage is all coming really soon... in the next few years so we must always plan early, start saving early and it starts in 2012!!!!!! i know i have always been pressing isham to save money when he already has limited to himself since his pay is barely enough for himself.
I WANT TO GO HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!! ok this part must save, no holidays in 2012 YET! because i am damn looking forward to BRAZIL 2014!
hohohohoho!
Work has been really hectic, so is tmr...
2012 GOGOGO!
HUAT AH!~
awesome! can't wait to save enough to get my own car.
unfortunately, many commitments now... so can't save much yet!
but i will, i will! :)
2011 truly hasn't been the best for Isham and I.
i think we quarreled more compared to 2010.
more tears definitely, but i think towards the end, since he entered NS.
Things have took a change and start to get better, i hope...
While 2012 seems to be an uncertain year for me, explain later...
i hope all will be good!
also in 2011, i started running routine and loving it! will train harder!
hope i will lose more weight.
2011 also witness my next phase of life, although not totally...
i am still a part time student...
working full time is tough but then again, i always believe in
"first bitter later sweet", so i rather be tough on me now, than much later when i have more commitments, larger responsibilities.
2011 wasn't a very easy year for my family as well.
witness lots of ups and down which i hope 2012 will clear it all!!!!
i really really hope 2012 will give me great motivation and i will strive to work towards the best i can ever be. I WANT MY KIDS TO BE BORN WITH A SILVER SPOON.
I DON'T WANT TO BE STRUGGLING WITH FINANCE ALL MY LIFE.
ok, this also means i am more or less looking to settle down with isham,
if nothing major happens, start saving up, BTO, car, marriage is all coming really soon... in the next few years so we must always plan early, start saving early and it starts in 2012!!!!!! i know i have always been pressing isham to save money when he already has limited to himself since his pay is barely enough for himself.
I WANT TO GO HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!! ok this part must save, no holidays in 2012 YET! because i am damn looking forward to BRAZIL 2014!
hohohohoho!
Work has been really hectic, so is tmr...
2012 GOGOGO!
HUAT AH!~
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