big 2

even the sky is crying for me since afternoon! haha
I have made much progression since 2 months ago, definitely...
and within these 2 months only i have already attended 2 weddings. Lol what Irony..
and i keep asking myself just WTH am i doing with my own life?
its like playing blocks with your best mate then suddenly your mate messes it up
and you just don't know where to start from again.
I asked myself alot of questions... like whether I will be happy if I am married
I will blame myself for being stupid for any subsequent issue we face
like seriously it could have just ended and poof* bye.
But these 6.9 years have been such a huge part of my life
the promises we made.
the hope i always held on to, as my escape to sucky family reality.
Fact was, i couldn't wait to get married and get out of this situation.
But its always like that isn't it? Sometimes the more you try to rush, the results aren't always good.
And ok, i accept that, probably I needed an even longer time to understand the religion
probably i needed a longer time to re-look and retune my relationship
probably he needed a time to get things sorted out before we commit further
Fact was, I see him as a life-long partner so it hurts EVEN MORE!

Again, God will not allow things that are not planned to happen.
ie. Things happen for a reason
ie. He is the ultimate planner
and I accept that.

The hurt is still there, the pain will always be, the memory will be with me till I die, that's for sure.
There will be friendships forgone, relationships strained.
You may look at me/us differently.
You may mock me/say I am stupid,
but really, 我的心真的容不下另一个人
I am already in the process of moving on/forgiving/loving again
although it won't be the same, at least for now
but someday. maybe.

Always in my dream.

Surely, I will get pass this...

busy weekend!

Last weekend was pretty packed
Sat I had Sea games volunteer session in the morning
which is damn far, at Pasir Ris, and i was damn stupid to walk 1 big round >.<
felt so in between.. like neither here nor there... cus either teens or like adults in 30s or older
then we did abit role play which is damn funny! haha I kinda bullied the poor boy
who looked damn intimidated.
anw i was being a difficult guest/athlete
and sometimes really, being difficult is so much easier. ok what irony..

then headed to town for facial!
rained super duper heavy just before i finished
next time i will bring umbrella. next time i will bring umbrella.
been there for more than a year, first time such heavy rain.
I was soon gonna be late for my next appointment
so heck la! just run!!! haha
the nearest shopping mall was Paragon
and I looked drenched and no tissue, no time to find toilet
omg, so pathetic.
then when i reached Wisma the crowd was CRAZY!! i think the walkway to small liao. lol
so ke lian...
i reached dhoby on the dot.

then met the girls for dinner.
the Mentai Hotate is <3 <3, tried Shishamo for the first proper time.
we had buffet but I think if never eat Sashimi not so worth it!
super full at the end though
then after much discussion cus didn't know what to do
we went for escape room!!! which we failed!! grrrr!
Th storyline we cannot catch la
plus! the music so scary, in a church summore!
but we were damn close!!!!!!
we will def try again and succeeed this time!!
Wanted to K but so slots,
then movie also not nice!
SO GO HOME LOR!!!

Sun was zoo with the Nanny and Panny!
haha got the corporate pass so free entry la!
i was so tired i couldn't wake up for a run in the morning, but just do insanity la
cus feeling fat....
Zoo hasn't change much since I last visited...
Glad to bring them back since the last time they went was super long ago!
just spending time with them is <3 and so precious...

This week is massive OT week!!!

Not prepped

Had Laksa for Lunch thinking there would be enough time to digest and 

time to go toilet...

best thing the pain only came THE MOMENT READING TIME STARTED

for the first 15min of the exams I was perspiring and thinking whether I SHLD GO TO THE TOILET!!! wah this is last warning man... haha

anw the paper was clearly too tough for me to handle anyway.

first I wasn't well prepared,

second what I expected and what the lecturers expected didn't really come out.

third, i was super discouraged by the 1st qn already

fourth, I wrote my answers halfway and decided to change question

Well I guess I will only try to pass in Jun.

Hardest paper so far... like I got study and still cannot write out. LOL

lessons learnt

never take 2 theory papers together

never eat laksa before exams

but anw for now its time to shop, hair mask, face mask, catch up on WWE

and I WILL BE BETTER!!!! :) 

Tomorrow

Ok. So tomorrow i am prepared to flunk my exams! Giving my best shot anyhoos.

In Pain, I found Him

He dropped me hints in my dreams which I later linked up to be the truth,
He taught me that to move on, believe in Him and to put this behind my back
(literally in my dream, I was asked to put a badge with a Quran verse on my back),
because of ghosts haunting me which I equate to this whole haunting experience.
I read the Quran briefly, cus the English choice of words are too difficult.
He knows even without me speaking >.<
Who else can understand me better?

Perhaps this is His way to show me and His way to tell Isham and I,
He is always watching,

And to that girl who destroyed my relationship(excuse me, don't say like you have such good intentions, it takes 2 hands to clap). Hope you can change for the better and I don't have to do anything to you now, God will take care of it, and your shall receive what you deserved on Judgement Day.

Meanwhile, I shall concentrate on exams and hope all's good!
:) Then be a better person

Hate that I love you

Totally. sucks.
I hate going thru this thought process everyday
I hate having to curse someone everyday so i feel better
Just what kind of person am I becoming...

I am becoming someone I don't wanna be
someone very idiotic!

pain

been a month!
wish i could run today but the weather wasn't kind at all.
rainy season... gahhh

pain still there. wish i could live without thinking/talking about it.
but its the first thing on my mind every single day
every single night.
i dont even know what I am talking about now. lol
this worse than a bitch asshole deserves the ultimate.
hope her husband leaves her when she get married and have children
hahahaha. ok i am so mean. but no one will be nice to anyone who is mean to you FIRST right?

painful thoughts i still can't get rid of.
why did you ever let it happen?
i will walk out of this stronger!!!
if u are my loyal reader, you shld alr know loyalty/faithfulness is #1.
there are too many people around me that disappointed me with tt.
it hurts but that's really the last thing I thought will happen
despite reminders, warnings. he fell for it.
I fell out of love.

WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 7 years of hard work, sacrifices, learning the religion, fasting
I was alr trying so harddddddd
over that black gums, smoking,drinking bitch?
I still think she is NTH compared to me.
really. I am WAY WAYYYYYYYYY better than her
well... u just lost the title of being a dream guy
i still hold as dream gf. YAY!! haha

Day 4

Too much on the line
Too much love
Too little time
Too soft-hearted

Day 14

Ytd I went for GE Run, my second, after missing last year's due to rain.
Sy was late so we flagged off together with the 5km, then diverted at road split.
Since there were few 10km peeps running, we had plenty of spaces!
one of the best not so tired run so far,
but because we started quite late so.. the sun was not friendly at all...
in my mind other than the my pain was... faster finish very hot!
Finished slightly over an hr, which is yay! not bad.
The route was good man! uturns but no narrow roads and constructions
and kallang river only at the last stretch, no MBS as well.
trademark Nicoll highway still have la!
after the run, we queued for free Towel, garlic bread, fiber drink, choco milk, passionfruit drinks,
loads!! of cereal bars, nandos chicken, just missing out on the ice cream and muffins
haha! Thank you Sy for the belated bday gift. appreciate it!
we queued 3 times for the cereal bar, each time they gave 4, and is full size!!!
so generous, hehehe!
no long queue at baggage area too! everything was great except the tupperware lady
was being damn stuckup over the free small tupperware container they were giving out
she was like 你不要，后面的人都要抢 cus we asked for 2. and there was only 1 last available
wah lao... damn kiamsiap pls.

then headed home without rest!! haha not very tired, don't know why.
At 1.45am, the car alarm rang AGAIN!!!
gosh! carpark is just directly opp and i couldn't sleep at all.
blasted music. haha
'Isham was being sweet, he drove to my house at 2+am so I could rest in the car without the noise.
When he reached, the police came and I think the owner was already there to fix the car alarm.
didn't have much rest last night... hope tonight will be smooth, otherwise I can go bang the wall
seriously!!!
days like these he makes me go softhearted despite what he has done...
sigh!!!

2 days ago had a dream so much to read from it,
God is amazing!

+5

6 years 11 months interracial

We were 2 weeks shy of the BIG 7 milestone.
Anw, just to jot down my 7 years experience...
round off la, +- courting days

We were courting for about at least 6 mths before we were officially together.
at 16 year old, no one at that age wld think about spending your life with the 16yo boyfriend.
So naturally, we just followed our hearts, entered into a relationship
not knowing what is really ahead of us.
This is falling in love.
The tough part was always how to sustain the love.

I came from a buddhist family, I had no Altar at home but would still pray during special occasions
He came from a strict muslim family.
Before this, I had limited knowledge on Islam, I know they fast during the fasting period, they can't eat pork they can't touch dogs and that's probably about it.
It was only much later I knew they needed to eat halal-certified food.
When I was with him, I got to try alot of food I wouldn't try if I were alone...
Indian muslim food, even prata i would only stick to egg and kosong.
I am not very adventurous when it comes to food but he opened the world of food to me.
By nature, I don't really eat pork, all I can remember is charsiew, roasted pork
so it wasn't that tough to take pork away from my diet.

When we first got together, I told my mum about it.
I am someone who rather tell than let the person find out if really there is smth to hide.
She was disappointed with me, firstly for dating at such a young age.
secondly, it had to be a malay.
Objection max!! she would tell me things like break up or leave the family
and how all these bgr will affect my poly years.
For him, he had to lie so we could go out together
I was determined to prove her wrong...
for everyone who doubted us, we were strong to prove everyone else wrong.
Time will tell.... we said.

We were still drawing pocket money, we did alot of cheap/free things
like soccer, roller blade, just chilling by the park but we enjoyed it.
I had work on sundays and he would wait for me to end work to have dinner together.
Friends would ask me, why malay?
Honestly, there isn't a specific reason why, sparks, love just happened!
I can't explain either...
when we were together, even after many years, I don't feel we came from different race and religion
I feel like a normal couple when we go out, he don't look very malay pls no heavy malay slang
so I don't really feel it.
It was not until the 3rd year that he was introduced to my family in proper
and I met his parents for the first time during his POP 3 years ago?
Getting acceptance from the parents wasn't easy, but we were right,
time will tell and I cannot be anymore grateful for accepting us.
His parents always make me feel very welcomed,
his house decorated with lots of family pictures,
his mum knows exactly what and when each son is working/shifting even if they don't stay together.
perks of a housewife*
alot of things to say, even though her eng vocab is limited, humorous, just how I wish my own family will be like :)

So after many years, I decided, this is the man of my life!!!!
even before he popped the question. HAHA
I can't find anyone else who love me this much
who appreciates me this much
who I share similar interest
and most importantly, I love him.
even so, I didn't fast until this year.
He once told me long time ago, he didn't want me to convert because of marriage.
At that time, in my mind was like, of cus it had to be because of you! If not I convert for what?
years later i asked myself, if he is the man of my life, am I willing to convert?
long thought.... my answer is yes.
So I fasted this year. AMAZING discipline, even when I think back now i don't even know
how I could have done it. Can you imagine waking up at 4+ to cook...
and eating rice in the morning.
then on the first day of Ramadhan, i attended the first 'class'
knowing Islam, a few times I teared, but I also don't know why I teared.
Maybe because I've never felt so close to God? I don't know, maybe I was having a really down time,
and the teacher was spot on, I remember vividly he said, forgive him, because on judgement day, he will pay for his sins.
at the end of the session, I was amazed, more interested to know about the religion
everyday before I start my fast, just whisper a little prayer for strength to last me through the day.
during that time, I had the energy to swim and run...
My mum, colleagues and friends were very accommodating.
I fasted on my own accord. some ask if it was really necessary....
Well, no harm trying, really...

I didn't have the chance to continue my lessons though.
I would have loved to and really it takes alot to be a good Muslim,
I like how peaceful it is to be in the mosque
short prayer just you and him,
some things you don't even have to say and He know....

Anw, my breakup proved a point that He exists and He is watching.
I am amazed by how everything falls in place and it really cannot be just pure coincidental.
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

6 yrs 11 mth I think we have learnt alot from each other.
so much that when I started working, our routine became pretty mundane
dinner, gym, run...
that's pretty much about it.
I believe it takes 2 hands to clap, and I am sure from this pain,
there are things I also have not done well enough,
Things I will seek to improve to be a better individual.

Please guide me and show me the best path!

Still heart broken but pretty sure I will walk out of it soon! :)

Day 8 and BIRTHDAY

Been a week since my world crashed!

and I SURVIVED!!! YAY i ought to be happy about it right? :)

last weekend spent it at Abg Isk and Mysha's wedding.

part of me wants to attend the wedding,

part of me was soft-hearted

inside I am still bleeding, though not profusely...

Thankful to his parents, bother and sis-in-law for their understanding.

it wasn't easy controlling the tears whenever someone ask are you ok?

in fact, this time, his cousin had to take me a walk down the memory lane

and remind myself how we fell for each other, what I liked about you etc.

Today is my birthday,

I am so grateful I have so any friends to celebrate with me. :)

He made a card and gave me rose, knowing I hasn't filled my stomach, he bought me food.

Then the pathetic 4 surprised me at doorstep!!! one had school next and the other had work

SUPER TOUCHED PLEASE!!

I came to office with a cake on the table.

Went birthday lunch with colleagues

birthday dinner with Mich!

came home to another package at home!! from the poly clique!

you may not read this, but this is damn awesome! cus i guessed it correctly

haha. This year i got alot of wishes.

LEZZZGO!!

suddenly when you are busy, not thinking much, 

the heart can rest a little! don't miss so much, 

MY 23 WILL BE BETTER! FOR SURE!!!!

I must make it better!

more pics next time. heh <3

Day 5

So after the anger,sadness and disappointment,
now the real shit kicks in and is probably going to be the toughest
memories flashback :(
also the most vulnerable period cus my heart is TOO SOFT!
gosh, I can't believe I am even helping him when my friends are trying to help me.
I really have to see what's infront of me. Gosh,

PLEASE GUIDE ME >.<

Day 1

Today was my breakup day 1, progressing well and i should be proud :)
Ytd was alot of crying after work,
can you imagine I had to tahan my tears from 10am to 6pm go home,
change to running gear, and cry while running :(
I feel so sad for myself but it is true..
It is also the first time i took a good 1.5hours to finish 2 cuts of sandwiches
really no appetite, went back a place we used to date frequently before I started working
and he started army, lots of flashback, I had alot of thinking to do
I asked myself alot of questions, cried my heart out in public,
because i couldn't do it at home else my mum would find out
wipe my own tears and move on.
At that time i was angry and sad, i couldn't see why I deserve this shit...
Went to bed early but woke up 2 hours later, texted him, cried in between then went back to sleep at 4

My eyes were sore from the cries, so I took AM leave. did I just say I took AM leave after a breakup?
I read through those conversations and it crushed me again, it killed me, every single part of it.
my heart was cringing. I cried my hearts out again.
I ask God why it has to be me again??
Earlier this year, it doesn't pay to be kind episode 1
I was always thankful for having this ex for being with me through tough times at home
I believed that God shut my door from my Family and I was happy I had him and would love to start
a family with him, with out home.
I cried so hard I always had to put my palm against my heart

Unfortunately it had to happen, and I was lucky I found out, like I said earlier, All-fated
I asked myself if I will love him the same again, My answer was no,
that was when I knew I needed this relationship to end
This is by far my longest relationship and it hurts to say it
but it had to end by cheating.
we once told each other, whoever cheats will be each other's loss.
too bad he had to commit first.
He very much tried to ask for another chance
but I think I have given enough.
at least from the last episode where u reminisce the past with your other ex crush.
I was pretty sure this had to end, all these bad memories have to end

He told me he will try and win me back
but for now still friends
alot of thinking to do, alot on the line
I don't even know how to answer to my mum if she asks but hey
everything happened for a reason. I am still hurt :( very.....
 I am not ready to fogitve
i still can't recover from the damage... its so intense words cannot descirbe the pain, really
I hope to open my eyes wide again, see, and decide on my future
I am still confused now, still hurt, but at least no tears!
When I was done crying, went to work and got reminded of him walking with me
sigh
went for office run at Labrador Park where we celebrated our first mth.
Not much feels for now.
Aft that I met my pri sch friends for dinner at Boon Lay Raja. nice but too much to finish haha
I explained to them the whole situation without crying, i think this is part of moving on...
then Peiyi called!! delivered 2 pints of ice cream to my hse cus i wasn't home at that time!
I cannot be more thankful than everyone for their effort
made me feel so love even though my world is crushed!!!
I will be strong!!

broken

To start off, last night I had a bad dream, I dreamt that my office building collapse 

and I was dying...

just in office today, I found evidence of the boy with a good friend of his(his claim) having flirty exchanges, calling each other crushes, they just had unfinished business since pri sch

and I guess they just wanted to re-kindle the crush, but went over-board

here me with this bf for 7 years, yet he did such a thing to hurt me...

dating her for movies early Nov, which is my birthday

calling each other crush and sayang, and many more disgusting things that irks me ttm!

Tell me I AM DREAMING!!! gosh he was my life after the episode from my family

earlier this year, my life came crushing down on me again and it can't get worse...

so hurt...........

i cannot explain the pain

but the crying is over.

I will be stronger

cheating is smth I cannot tolerate

不开心

Maybe I am just being over-sensitive, concerned over things that I shldn't be,
100% trust in him
things that you would now keep to yourself...
真是猜不透，为什么感觉好像越来越不了解你.
but that's ok, I shall not be bothered and move on...
tomorrow will be a better day.

Not what it supposed to be

Today was supposed to be a happy day...
Well, it started off as it.
then, a phone call came, then i realised messages have been deleted
not sure if I am too sensitive but I am totally not ok with my bf staying up till 5
to hear girl friend's problems.
Gosh!!!!

KL Trip

Thought i better save a draft while memory is still fresh. :)
Day 1
Set off to airport at around 10,
had brunch before boarding the plane.
the journey was super fast. even faster than the time i took mrt to the airport. haha
and because it was our first time, we took some time to explore...
signs there are not very prominent but the KL xpress train was good.
fast! and efficient. the lrt was abit lok kok but we managed to reach Bukit Bintang,
by the time we checked in it was like 4+ an we had to rush off to the stadium.
Famished from our brunch at around 11.30, we bought a quick meal...

but to realise it was so HOT!!! damnnn

Anw, we managed to follow the crowd and reached the venue early.
along the way got ALOT of shop selling unofficial shirts and banners and what not
but in the end i still bought an authentic Roman Reign tshirt is S.
hehe, comfy shirt that cost $30... ouch, but at least the shirt not mic la!
made in the US. yay!!

The whole show was so awesome! very diff from the ones you watch on tv/online though.
Cus when u watch it on screen, they have commentators and the snip videos of the behind the scenes,
which are pre-recorded, live is just a few mins of waiting time.
and!!! we concluded that they only show the 'successful' moves on TV,
I have to admit not all moves are well-done, some are obvious fails like haven kick already drop.
but of course, most are awesome, and they are 'superstars' for a reason, they have to act.
Started off with John Cena vs Bray Wyatt whic was good, but after watching the next few matches
we felt like the first match was mehhhh~ all the matches turned out totally diff from the match card
here are some best shots from my S5...

John Cena Vs Bray Wyatt

NXT championship one of the best matches i felt

Sin Cara finishing!

OLE!! El Torito!

Big Show Vs The Miz, big shoe was huge!!! not just big >.<

Diva championship Paige Vs AJ, funny part is Paige's hair extension came off! people were chanting CM punk...

Like these 2 pairing - Kofi Kingston and Big E vs the 2 other Wyatts

YOU SOLD OUT! Seth Rollins

Vs US champ, Sheamus

TAP OUT TAP OUT!!

Taking pic before leaving!

Piccolo hotel! clean and comfy.. situated in a convenient location! worth!

This was Brunch on our following day at Sushi Tei with NO QUEUE!!!!
not gonna eat tempura for the next few mths,..

Then we saved some space for this 'roll' looks like a toilet roll with peanut butter and choc
damn awesome, it is actually in swirls so you can pull it off in a long strip.
it is crispy on the outside and soft on the inside! super nice!!! they have savory flavours too

den was shopping at H&M, trade mark 2 balls beanie which i also took while
i was in HK. haha

Then we had chix rice for dinner which was so so only la..

MUST GET RAMLY so we explored even though it was raining, finally found the street food omg!!
BUT IT WAS AFTER DINNER ALR!!!
but still buy for supper la! haha nice corn for 3rm..

Bought Chatime back, honey green tea. yumz!

last day breakfast! the liushabao is good man!!

This is my black pepper chicken noodle, nice!

dessert at Hui Lau Shan, feels like HK... price abt the same also

Then last few hours we spent singing K, 20rm++ for 3 hours and comes with food + 4 drinks
only issue was that when we started the volume was at MAX we almost turned deaf!!
we couldn't communicate with the staff, they thought we wanted to switch to analog,
So we concluded here all the people sing with music damn loud! haha
but after that we manage to find the controller which can adjust the volume,
tried to do it on the touch panel but was not responsive.
K is at sungei wang 6th floor, think it shld be the only one tt level.
bought my top and long dress for wedding lunch at sungei wang!

last thing to mention is the inflexibility!
we bought Famous amos cookies and wanted to split half half so we could take half of diff flavours
that we got, so we requested it to be done, HE DIDN'T ALLOW!
so instead of just simply exchanging our half flavour cookies, he gave us bags to split ourselves
HE JUST WASTED 2 bags la alamak! why!!! LOL

Anw, we had to rush for the damn PLANE!!
screens were not enough and we had to take a train to our boarding gates...
we were literally SPRINTING! damn heng we could catch it. i think we were the last 4 to arrive, 2 more after us!
and i bought the nicest BK burger - french chicken
yums! why they don't have it in SG, wanted to eat in the plane, but too tired i fell asleep
ended up sharing with Babe, lol

Met dearest on Tue again for dinner after work and Gelare since it is now Halal!
Tuesday is waffles day so it's 50%, but is still $11 for waffle with 2 scoops of ice cream!

Much loves!! need to start studying!

Been awhile...

Leaving for KL to watch WWE this weekend. Hope will be safe >.<
must start saving $, super duper broke!

busy

Been busy like a bee,
work has been zzzzzzz cus of new stuff coming up,
school started, netball and thurs,
slotting in a few runs here and there.
was sick for a week! felt like the longest ever,
which also means i stopped running for a week though i managed so sneak to the gym to do weights

one day the boy decided to surprise me on a workday ;)
much appreciated!

Its Sep! can't wait for for 2016! :)

Singapore Selection Vs Juventus

Not the biggest fan of the Italian powerhouse

but know of some individual players :)

that was one hell of good football!!

Opening match of the New national stadium...

huge huge difference from the old one

explain more abt it in awhile...

 Pic not in order, this was a photo after the presentation!

 Team photo before kick-off. Pogba is even younger than me...
we were sitting where the Juventus subs were warming up :)
WHERE IS TEVEZ :( :(

 stadium is only half filled with AIR-CON!!!!
but I must say the pitch condition is quite bad for a NEW stadium.. hmmm
No more Nasi Lemak and $2 diluted drinks
now you talk about Beer and Nachos??
Like watch movie leh...

Singapore made a few good passes in the first half which were pretty impressive...

although the Juv keeper was barely tested the entire game...

second half came alot of change so the pace of the game kinda changed.

Hassan Sunny was wahhhhhh made pretty good saves!!

 new stadium ,of cus make take pic la

 not bad a shot using my new S5 camera, i read in the terms that professional cameras were not allowed
they did a bagcheck before entering but in the end i still see so many ppl carrying PRO cams what!!
tsk!

HT also take pic la :) 

last pic of the OLD stadium!!! time flies woooo

still sad Tevez didn't even warm up! din't get to see him!
on the way up the stairs saw a group of ang mohs in Arg jersey
feels like meeting supporters from WC...hahah!
but they don't look south american enough so i doubt they are Argentinians
they waved at me cus I was in away jersey la! i turned back to make sure they weren't waving at their friends
before I waved back at them! HAHAHA
they must be as disappointed as I am cus TEVEZ didn't play!! arghhhhh

Rojo might be on the move to the Red devils
coincidentally, Rojo means RED in spanish. lol

still down with flu! arghh what a wasted weekend!!!

SG Day!

Self reminder: Shuai Ge day!!!! Lol time flies!

Super Week!!

Awesome week!!!

Firstly... I passed my exam! :)

This came as a real comfort because the night before I dreamt that I failed..

And because of all those that happened just 1 month before exams, 

I was on the verge of giving up this one.

Thankful for Isham, colleagues and friends who continued to encourage me.

I soon turn all my hatred,sadness and frustrations into studying at cc as much as I can

I owe this one to them.

Today

Isham had his 2nd last game against the 2nd in the table.

long story cut short, as long as they don't lose this one, they will be crowned champions!

The excitement was cut short when the opponent scored quickly into the 1st half...

they were 2-0 down by half time :( 

Then just before the second half started, told Isham to cut through the center and time his run!

Haha, we usually watch soccer together and would give discuss between us how they should play better

but this is actually the first time I gave him advice...

His teammate scored a few minutes into the second half.

then it was Isham who stole the limelight when he subsequently equalised and scored the winning goal!

Proud moment, of cus if you know me, I am not exactly the loud kind of person

So I will celebrate in minimal voice but inside is super happy for him :)

SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU BABE!!!

don't really care whether is it my presence or you are just good la!!

so happy you also bagged the TOP SCORER too:) 

:) :) :) 

You worked hard so you totally deserve it!

1 week after worldcup

So... Life is back to norm,
Waking up at 4am for Sahur to no soccer match,
Usually I will start streaming while prepping my food for the morning.
den watch while eating!
Still sad over Argentina's loss :(

Managed to clear some impt issues at work, yay?
Bintan already a week ago!! how time flies! will update more in the next post :)

Super fast... 7 days more to go! :)
saved lots of money as well! HAHAHA

world cup hangover and roundup!

seems like my sour grape started way back in 2006! haha
2010 worldcup post
2006 worldcup post

both times Argentina lost to Germany! i even remember in 2010 I had to do a project on Hitler
in my World Issues module and I was complaining like mad. haha
introducing my favs from 2006-2014. haha #loyal argentina fan from 2006 manz!
+ portugal cus of Cristiano Ronaldo! lol
2006-Hernan Crespo

2010-Gonzalo Higuain

2014-Marcos Rojo

Credits: All images are google sourced

This year's world cup I think I went all out to watch most matches,

partly cus I had to wake up early for Sahur anyway!

I wasn't going to pay $112 for Singtel subscription in SINGAPORE!

If anyone is ever reading this from overseas, its crazily expensive to watch worldcup at the luxury of your home, you either re-contract your bpl subscription, or pay over $100 to watch the worldcup.

and Singaporeans being singaporeans of cu stream online la!

athough laggy at times, the quality was HD, not much complains for the 4am match

12am match usually quite laggy, but its free!!! whats there to complain!

survived all the way from group stages till semi finals were available on TV.

My best bet was Germany, Holland or France for the worldcup,

I supported Argentina and Portugal but I didn't think they would make it so far.

Higuain change so much I could barely recognise now!

lets not talk about the chance he had infront of the goal 1v1 with the keeper, FINALS :( 

Ronaldo has this fatherly look, ever since he became a father!!

totally forgot abt his boyish look already!

read alot online seems like hes doing alot of charity work which is good!

always good to give back to the society!

Still in denial that Argentina didn't win after coming so close

so near yet so far right... i know

on the other hand, I think Ger deserved it, they have been super consistent throughout the tournament

and all of them super young!! like my age! so next worldcup I am probably seeing the same faces again

Although they beat Arg for the 3rd consecutive world cup, I think Arg played well

so I think i shld be less sour grape. HAHA

Finals at Jurong green CC with Mich and 'Isham.

A pity Netherlands didnt get to play Ger, I thought that would be an interesting match!

I also thought Columbia deserve to go further

Brazil was a sad end!

Now its back to normal sleeping time!!! :)

Body Alarm re-adjusted! yay! 

Thanks babe for driving me around, watching the matches with me, even though he can watch at home,

thank you for being so accomodating when I say Rojo is handsome. opps

Till Russia 2018! :) 

7 days

Today is the 7th day of Ramadhan,
On the first day, after 2 rounds of football,
woke up early with Isham to attend classes on Knowing Islam all the way at Paya Lebar area
It was an informative 2.5hours session, both Isham and I picked up really lots of stuff.
I was amazed by the fact that the Holy Book of Quran written about 1400years had facts that were only discovered much later by scientist etc, and no changes/versions made after the original one.

This is a long long journey for me, something I have procrastinated for a good 6 good years while Isham and I are together. we will soon turn 7 in about 4 months,
may my conversion be a smooth and fruitful one.
I may not be perfect but God will slowly guide me :)
Do it cus you believe, not for your partner

we must be forgiving because those who do no good to you,
will receive their judgement on Judgement day :)
don't think about revenge, grudges and continue to be forgiving :)
i think that was one of my best takeaway.

I don't really have to care what people think about me, do I?
This is my choice and my free will

WORLDCUP!! last night, 2 teams I wanted to win, lost
tonight ARGENTINA PLEASE WIN!!! :)

maximising my first weekend after exams

exams results are expected to be out in Aug...
so this week is my first weekend.... guess how i spent it?
Soccer Soccer Soccer Soccer Soccer...
Fri morning I was up at 5 to catch the 2nd half of Brazil vs Croatia...
2nd half is also the more exciting half, the penalty and controversies?
then at night we caught Sleague match, Home Utd vs Hougang...
Home Utd lack the finish...and I didn't know anyone from the Hougang squad...
been too long since we last went.. plus!! got free nestle crunch ice cream :)
not too much crowd though, the match was entertaining... but i was expecting more from home
then we went back to rest...
Headed out at abt 2.30am to Jurong Green CC to catch another match (sat morn)
Netherlands vs Spain, that was a super entertaining match!
Van Persie and Robben outrun Spain! they knew exactly what to do
where to run, when to let Casillas commit, and there u go that was 5-1.
That was some world class football! we ate Macs while watching at 4am...
so... alot of catching up to do on exercising...
so that day we concluded that the Popular team very suay!! haha

home abt 5am, thanks babe for sending me home :)
woke up at abt 8.30am so i could head to the polyclinic,
met babe at abt 11am, headed to ps for movie,
bought the HSBC moviecard which was damn worth...
we almost forgot how much a movie tix cost on a weekend.. $12.50!!!!
ohhhhh man... seriously??
Pastamania for lunch, for an unknown reason, it was cheap, we couldn't figure it out...
we ordered 2 pastas, 1 combo and 1 dessert pizza for $25++
The 2 pastas already cost close to $20.. so i also don't know leh?

X-men was good! Isham was too tired he fell asleep!! haha
the last time we slept at spiderman movie, different part of the movie though... haha
I was following the plot throughout and super kan cheong for wolverine!
some parts i don't understand though!

After movie guess what!!! we went to watch lionsxii... haha
Jalan Besar 2x in a row! goalless match, lionsxii lacked finishing...
but i can't say they didn't try...
Bai is back w lionsxii, and my fav 9 years ago is still fav! haha
a few other players have potential to make it for the national team I feel! :)
shall wait for the Juventus match and AFF Cup to see...

Isham had to book in early the next day and I was suppose to wake up at 6
to catch Italy vs England but I guess I was too tired that I really can't hear the alarm!! haha
In the end I woke up at 9 to catch Japan vs Ivory Coast.
Japan was lucky but after Drogba came in, game changed, 2 goals within minutes...

Hope Asia will make it!! :)

Argentina tmr morning! GOGOGO!

Last day

Today is the last day of preparation before my more hopeful of passing P2 paper.
My day started at abt 8.30am (blessing to wake up on a weekday at the time I am suppose to start work)
Headed to KFC for a lickin good breafast cus I just had Macs few days back and
I was finally early enough to eat KFC breakie before 11am :)
otw back, I met a man prolly in his late 50s or early 60s
he was struggling to get up the bus and was walking very slow,
I was sitting at the 4 seater which is the nearerst seat to the front door,
as he approached me, his legs were shaking, luckily one other passenger and I helped him
to the seat just beside mine...
it was a very short ride like 3 stops? he spoke fluent engligh and told me he was otw to the sgh and has Parkinson
I heard of this but I can't remember what is is... then he said is the veins degenerating or smth,
I wanted to ask why no one is accompanying him or if a walking stick could help but something stopped me,
there must be a reason why he was going alone,
then he asked where I was heading to I said to the CC to study,
 den i went on to tell him i am taking up part time...
just before we parted ways, I asked him to take care and bid goodbye,
He kept apologizing, thanking me and asked me to study hard. He ended his line with
God is always with me :)
May God also bless this man with good health!

speaking of which fasting mth is coming realllllly soon
my electric cooker will come to good use :)
and after exams have to go for beginner's class alr!
looking forward!

house

coming back to this place everyday makes me feel so....
vocab too poor, can't find the right words,
I am no different from renting a room.
I manage to convince myself I will not 'marry out' from this house,
都被说的好像白吃白住. i won't be so thickskinned,
lost my respect toally...
plus if this were to appear in my wedding video, i will be reminded only the sad things.
for what i ruin my own video right? I rather go to my nanny's place or hotel lor.
I will leave here quietly without trace, no one is going to know where I stay,
I will be out of trouble, out of mess eventually.

I am biting the bullet for the next 2 years! hopefully the flat is ready by then....
#safeguarding my assets now since it is at potential risk.
u know i have a Prada wallet is 13 card slots, only with 5 filled...
just because I didn't want to have any risk to harm myself.
I think really, one day retribution will fall on those who deserve.
it is so impt to bring up ur children well, or if you can't provide them with the best,
don't give birth, sigh................ sometimes I wonder why I am born to deserve this shit???/
but I always always look around and realise how lucky I am to have studied, have knowledge,
have a stable job, have time for my hobbies etc. some people have to worry about 3 meals a day.
the situation I am in makes me strive harder for the future I dream to be,
the kind of value I will teach my kids,
the kind of mum I will be...

I am a very 'outgoing' person from young, ie. like to go out la,
not a very stay home kind, actually ever since that incident happened,
every weekend is an OUT for me, I hate staying in this house.
but when I get married, i would love to spend my weekends learning new things to cook or bake,
stay home to watch movie, snack.
I appreciate family time but I never had the chance....
Home is what I imagine to have love, laughter, respect... not my case..
thats why you notice I keep mentioning house, a house is an 'empty shell' to contain people.


'Isham comes from a perfect family, his parents brought their sons all well :)
I also appreciate my nanny and panny alot for the love they have provided me.
sometimes as we get busier we forget they are also getting old.
we spend less time with them...
they don't need much from you, just some quality time tgt.
be generous with your money because how long can they spend your money for?
有舍才有得

anw 21km thinking bout it now seems like a mth ago,
first 10km was pretty fast although there were bottlenecks,
next 5km felt the longesttttt! but also the 'coolest' cus it was drizzling.
my knees were in pain probably because i wasn't used to the distance.
my usually training distance is usually 5km, max i went was 7km...
so 21km was really a big deal...
I was breathing normally but my legs just can't take it...
then came the muscle rub station where I 'bua-ed' on my knees and calf.
in about 15 seconds, my skin was BURNING! for a moment i thought I was gonna have a bad burn. LOL
so because it was SO hot, I started running faster so the cold air will 'cool' my burn a little.
super funny, then i was hoping to finish before the rub wear off otherwise I will be in pain again,
overall I had a good experience! I will attempt again next year, but can't imagine doing it in the morning.
:) 2hr 44mins is not too bad for a first time!! :)

after exams i have a list of things i wanna do...
#plan time!

For you

I am not as good as you when it comes to expressing my feelings in writing...

mine would usually be accompanied by leh lah lor, my style mah... :)

Thank you for standing by me especially during these tough period...

you would wake up at 3am to accompany me until i was tired and sleepy 

even though u had to wake up at 6.30am...

Thank you for always meeting me on weekends cus u know i hated staying home...

Thank you for meeting me even though you only had 2-3hrs of sleep today... :)

You taught me to be generous with people in need...

Thank you for your assurances on our future together, it will def be better than what I have now...

Thank you for always making me laugh because being with you makes me feel home.

Idk if you're read this but just wanna let you know you play a large part in my life and i love you :)

For now, i am just returning to a house that is not a home...

I will build my own home next time! :) 

Anw, kudos to us for finishing 21km!! more details when i blog again :)

A First: Matching Spectacles - Pescara

Had this urge to get myself a new pair of spectacles lately, but just couldn't find one that caught my eye. Well, there were a few that did, but then again it was of the higher-end brands and I wasn't appealed to the idea of splurging excessive amount of money paying for the name. Coincidentally, 'Isham just broke his previous pair and was desperately looking out for one. We did some extensive research on the internet, trying to identify the best frame style that suits our faces. More importantly, we both had this common aim to get a pair that we are happy to wear out with.

Google-imaged 'rayban wayfarer', and chanced upon the blog post 'Feeling Specky?' from a-minutewithadora.blogspot.com. The frames looked pretty much like the idea of what we wanted to get, so upon her blog's recommendation, we decided to head out to Orchard Optics at Orchard Plaza. There aren't alot of optical stores in Singapore that carries Pescara frames, so we gave it a go even though we were quite reserved about getting our specs done from a shop at town (well, we were just afraid the prices are marked-up as compared to the neighbourhood ones). But guess what, we both had personally our best specs-purchasing experience! Andrew, the early-30s owner of Orchard Optics, made us feel completely at home. He's a really laid-back extrovert not shy of striking conversations with his customers as though we're old friends catching up. In addition, at the time of our stay in his store, he was accompanied by similarly-friendly assistant (his girlfriend, I assume) who made us feel totally welcomed. Doing more than just average customer-serving, he kindly explained to us into very great depth on the different types of frame styles, and gave us recommendations on which and which didn't fit our faces. He laid out his Pescara collection, and offered some time on our own to try out all of the stocks available. Best thing, I would say, was that he didn't appear aggressive in promoting his products.. unlike our previous experiences. 

'Isham had his eyes glued to the olive frames instantly (black frames were never an option), at the same time he was really insistent on me getting the tortoise shell one. The super lightweight frames largely helped to affirm our decisions, although we were secretly still hesitant into committing because we were afraid it was too expensive to fit our respective budgets. This came to the part where Andrew began to endear himself to us. The initial quoted price was at $290, but he was very willing to listen to our needs and budgets. And since we were making a pair each, he gave us further reductions; $480 for both pairs. That is a pretty reasonable price, I would dare say that we were really pleased with it, given that the lenses that he recommended (Crizal Airwear Uv 1.60) are retailed at $160 itself. Cheap indeed, acknowledging the fact that 'Isham's degrees are at 475 including astigmatism and would require customised lenses.

At the end of the day, we're both happy customers. New spectacles - a matching one at that. Super lighweight Korean Pescara frames. Great customer service. A purchase that is within our respective budgets. Money well spent. That just summarize our pleasant experience at Orchard Optics. Will definitely be back to check out their SNRD shades range someday.

BEAST AT HOME

I refuse to lend him my credit card for her mum to come over for confinement

He pushed me, howled at me, shouted at me.

If I knew this was going to happen, I will not even lend him my first full year bonus

I will not even pay for the bills he signed under a supp card with my name as a principal holder

I regret trusting him.

I don't even expect my money to be back

He stole my card used it put back

no evidence, he denied...

I tell myself I will never lend this guy money

anw I will share more of my story when I am at a safer place permanently.

He threatened to kill me with a knife.

He called the police

chased me out of HIS/MY MUM's hse

he pushed my mum and I.

u call this a man? a son? a brother? a father?

I will elaborate more when I am safe....

I am in danger anytime. If I ever die.

it is cus of him.

Mayday

Mayday marks the 11th year my grandma has passed away.
How time flies, hope by now she is relieved of all her pain.

Productive day so far, though i haven't started studying,
woke up at 9 and headed to the gym, came back feeling hungry and tired.
ate, surfed net till now~ with all my books already on the table waiting for me to start

Lets Go!!

buffet eat like a boss

2 Fridays ago, after i took half a day off for my dental appt.

we headed for cheaper alternative buffet cus....

the one that we wanted to reserve was fully booked :(

no luck, we paid abt $65 for 2 pax at a weekend rate since it was the eve of ph.

we were there just abt when they started the dinner buffet, the food were quite hot from the kitchen

only 1 other couple

definitely not my plate fille with 3/4 fried food...

mine must be at least half seafood! :)

 seafoo corner, salmon sashimi was available later but gets emptied very fast...
refilled every half an hr... haha I LOVE SEAFOOD <3

Sushi corner which I feel quite norm, sushi is not my first few choices when it comes to buffet....

 Fried corner!!

 pizza which tasted quite home-made.

 more fried food Isham who likes all these!! haha

 check out the nasi lemak sushi and the sambal belachan sushi. dint try but isham say was ok...
10/10 for novelty

 my later plate, see what i mean by I LOVE SEAFOOD! HAHAHA
Tom Yam crayfish was quite good! chilli flowercrab was not bad, sauce was good but no meat~
mixed veggies tasted home-cooked,  glutinous rice nice too!! but abit dry, could be due to the steamer

 ICE CREAM!!! i think there were at least 4-5 flavours! only isham can do it like that!! haha but coffee and yam not a very good combi
the free flow drnks also included can drink like coke which was a rare sight.
I had sjora, yumzzz!

on a random day, my colleagues and I were at the atrium and played this game

similar to coca cola happiness machine thingy...

supposed to wave at the camera, suppose someone is inside...

assigned a random task, do it and you'll be rewarded.

you do things like shouting, hug, dance and emotions when you are under stress, got a million $

Saw a few ppl hit jackpot, won themselves craftholic, polaroid camera

free paper for notes >.< 

this week been really fulfilling,

manage to clear bulk of my backlogs...

happy with bonus ^^

save up time!